life sucks and i really just want someone to hug and comfort me.

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>first NEET thread this year
>Crashed my car I for the majority of my ownership of it have loved far more than myself
>Gradually becoming more and more lonely as my friends become less and less available
>Try to contact old anons I knew and can't
>Crippling unemployment made worse by piling debt and all the desperate drowning myself in happiness buttons
>Very close to slipping back into impulse and porn addiction

>Current NEET thread
>Worked miracles with my car and I can be more okay with myself now because of it
>Made a new anon friend off the second thread
>Finally have a job and comparatively not a shit one either
>Am inching closer and closer to being able to/allowing myself to do more things that make me genuinely happy and more of a man

May not really be a NEET by any definition anymore but the Otaku Comedy is definitely real!

>>50913791
I hope one through the screen helps a little!
Luck plays a big role and it can get really hard to get up and stand tall again every day but keep your chest warm and things may turn out alright in the end.
I know that need very, very well and if you really don't have anyone to turn to, my heart goes out to you. at least you're loved here for what little that's worth.

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Everything hurts.

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>>50913867
Just make sure you don't desparately go all-in on wanting everything to feel good!
That'll just make it hurt more...

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>>50913893
I don't think I'll do anything at all.

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>>50913923
You have to do something at least!
It doesn't have to be big or humanitarian, but there should be something that makes you happy.
Could be super small like Louise's pink blonde hair, otaku hearts just need to follow what they want and figure it out from there

Jacked off sixteen times to breast vore today and wondered what I was doing with my life

>>50911910
If I were a girl, I would become a prostitute. It's that kind of week.

>>50913977
You can be a prostitute anon, gay dudes are notoriously not picky.

>>50913832
I'll sleep right now but remind me to reply to you tomorrow... thank you anon..

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>>50913940
I want to have a very long & dreamless sleep.

Everyone says that hikikomori who have trouble going outside just need to go out more and I feel completely misunderstood. I already try to go out at the least crowded times of day and it’s still intense. People act like it’s just about a little pain and feeling uncomfortable but it’s not. At home when I get overwhelmed I often end up hitting myself. If this were to happen outside I would likely end up being imprisoned and possibly shot.

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I signed up for gym and its fun so far

>>50911910
I live and w*rk in a sweatshop now

>>50911910
Hell! Fucking hell. I feel stress for not being able to get a job.
>Can't get a job because the only allowable forms of ID are provisional driver's licenses or passports.
>Banks lied to me about needing a provisional drivers or a passport at 16, so now I need one because I'm an adult now.
>Tried getting a provisional 3 times and was rejected every time for something stupid.
>Tried to get a passport and sent the application to the passport office on the 23rd of april, while the deadline being on the 30th.
>Haven't heard since.

Am I fucked?

>>50915877
Not necessarily, those fuckers can take months.

>>50914518
Don't force yourself, it only works on normalfags. If you have a bad day just stare out of the window or sit on the veranda/balcony/porch/whatever for fresh air.

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It doesn't really matter, and it's not really that important, but in a week and a half I will have been drawing for one year.
It's a pretty huge milestone for me since I'm a quitter who gives up easily and have failed at any single endeavor I have ever attempted in my life, whether that be music or studying or sports or even socializing, I have failed them all and given up in a matter of weeks.
And yet I'm not happy about it at all.

I have been a hikikomori since I dropped out of high school and even before that I was terminally online, everyday, browsan all day, watching shitty vids or animations on youtube and newgrounds, playing crappy flash games or lurking cool threads on 4chan (I was one of the cancer kids from ng lol), browsing deviantart or some other shitty weaboo site.
I never had any friends at school and was always by myself, living in my head, daydreaming all the time.
I remember looking at the other kids playing and socializing and wondering, ''how?'' ''why not me?'' what am I lacking?''
I felt such a strong emotion of inadequacy

This emotion followed me online, you'd think someone who spent basically all their free time on the net would have many online friends right? But even after browsing the net daily for more than decade I hadn't made a single friend.

I confess, I am one of those lurkers, if you have ever been in one of those threads where they discuss the state of 4chan or a certain board, about how the people who post are a much smaller number than the people who lurk, if you have ever wondered what sort of type a ''lurker'' is, I am that kind of person, nice to meet'cha. I've been on 4chan for more than a decade and all my posts can be counted on the fingers of my hand, all from this one year period where I started drawing.

Because I wanted to make a conscious effort to break my schizoid habit.

My lack of any kind of socialization, and my lack of any kind of creative effort.

Because for all these years I have just been a consumer of content.

Lurker of threads
Watcher of videos
Listener of music
Viewer of images
Observer of people

I've never really done anything y'know?

This might sound silly, but the negativity of /ic/ is so bad I think it's rubbing off on me. All my attempts to be social there fizzled out, either because I post something and it receives no replies or someone replies and I self destruct because my schizoid brain sends me such strong taboo feelings, causing me to feel anxious and guilty which makes me just bail mid convo and leave the thread, I'm awful.
At the same time while I lurk threads I see people socialiizng and being normal, lots of regulars I recognize.

The feeling of inadequacy from childhood returns

At the same time I visit drawthreads on other boards and I see the same there.
Everyone is so natural and human, and their art is so alive and confident, even if it's just some mspaint doodle of some scrimblo.

I go on jaypee, people are talking about going to the Miku Expo or something their friends did on discord

I feel súbhuman

It reminds me of that sinking feeling I got when I was lurking on deviantart and saw just how earnest and open people where about their art and interests, how they were engaging with each other, cute little comments, are they friends? I wanna be like them, why can't I be like them?

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Sorry for shitting up the thread with my blogpost, here's some cool music as an apology.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GG9xaV67FEg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVghktnruZ8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYV3XawsdvI

>>50914518
>I often end up hitting myself
i'll do it for you if you want
take something off your plate

>>50916536
Thanks bro, that really helps. Will you be punching or kicking me?

What's frustrating about the neet life is the fact that people sees you as worthless

>>50916600
And also, at some point you start to "forget" how you're supposed to act around people and thus you come out as clumsy or something I don't know.. but yeah it's a vicious cycle. I've been unemployed for a year and a half

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>>50916389
>>50916389
I don't much in here, but what you wrote is very reelatable to me, well most of it dropped out of high school, still tried to join the work force and realize a project to bounce back but failed since I got unlucky and ended up with assholes bosses and co-workers I then totally gave up and became a shut-in, it took time to figure out what could I do as melancholy was slowly killing me, from all my failed attempt at socializing, making a single friend, failing my project ect, I gave drawing another chance maybe a year and a half ago I don't remenber and today it's really been my anchor.

anyways good luck to you and in your artistic journey.

Ganbatte kudasai.

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>>50916612
Thank you! And I wish you the same.

I also relate to what you wrote, shortly after dropping out I tried to get my high school diploma through online classes and a couple other ''projects'' but it just didn't work out and I gave up eventually. I felt so lost and aimless and had trouble focusing because I was so depressed.

Seems we had a similar journey when it comes to drawing.

How do you guys deal with
>being your parents bitch
>Lack of social interaction
>Romantic yearning
>Knowing your parents will die eventually and the money will end
>Depression from lack of purpose

>>50917211
It's very hard and it's a vicious cycle
>being your parents bitch
One of the hardest thing to deal with. I just avoid them. I do a lot of chores in the house, I keep my mouth shut, I give them money when they need and that's about it.
>Lack of social interaction
I don't suffer too much from it since I usually think people around me are retarded and barely sentient.
>Romantic yearning
Very tough indeed. It's hard to cope but you can't force these things anyway. I feel like at some point you either accept that only a miracle can save you or you keep on looking for opportunities and eventually it'll come
>Depression from lack of purpose
I still struggle with this a lot but in the end I feel like my desires are worth more than anything else in the world so I should live to follow them whatever they are. Desire is key imo. There's no higher purpose, there's nothing else in this world. Only us and what we want.

>>50917211
>>50917250
>parents bitch
Faggots, they're my bitches!!!!

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>>50917211
my answer is unhelpful so iwill not say it

>>50917259
I use to feel so guilty sometimes. But not anymore. Not since I learned some things about my parents past.

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>>50917211
I don't deal with it I just suffer

my life is closing short

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>>50911910
Not much. Although I need to tone down my expresso consumption even though at max its 2 shot every day. My hearts beating hard lole.
I take walks but lately I've been lazy since I have no bread and egg. Its very relaxing to the point it solved my insomnia lole the walking I mean.
I'm so tired because of caffein so I might go sleep in afternoon and waking up an hour or more, I want to find an all purpose drink but expresso just filled that itch man.
I have no problem talking with strangers, when I do meet them my gaze is elsewhere, getting to know people over time to the point I look at their faces are rare.
I don't know what to say anymore.
>>50916389
Can you draw me a flower/plant for me? I want to see how you perceive life.

Your fortune: good luck

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It's the start of another miserable day.

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I post on imageboards solely to feel like I exist somewhere.

>>50917211
>>being your parents bitch
I'm in a good relationship with them. If anything, I help them just as much because they're getting old.
>>Lack of social interaction
This crosses my mind, then I go to any social event or gathering and I want to get back to my computer ASAP. I would rather go outside for a walk.
>>Romantic yearning
Never truly bothered me that much since I've had a good life with my entire family so I don't have an urgency to seek love from someone else. It's not the same, I know, but I've accepted that I'm high maintenance and I don't want to deal with the bs of other people if there's a chance I don't receive the same attention back.
>>Knowing your parents will die eventually and the money will end
C'est la vie but the money is not what keeps me awake. In 2021, the dread of pondering my mortality finally hit me like it does, I think, all of humanity. It was a slow process to avoid getting agitated over the fact that life will be over for all of us eventually. After dealing with those thoughts over the years, any setbacks seem trivial in comparison.
>>Depression from lack of purpose
This one is difficult since it does bother me that I decided to take an easy path in life but I've never felt depressed over it. Even when I was aiming for something back in college and I was focused on the grind, anything I did was never enough. I thought about it for a few minutes but it's really not something that impacts my psyche.
With my answers I'm not trying to portray me as someone who's frolicking happy every single day, but I've experienced a best case scenario for a long time so far. I'm thankful for being lucky to have a caring family (even if fights were commonplace in the past) and I'm aware that the future will not be kind to me.

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Being unable to say no has ruined me. It's equally my parents' fault for thinking I could ever accomplish anything.

Can I use this thread as my diary for 2 weeks? I don't wanna bother other anons but I need to unfuck part of my life and get rid of some bad habits real quick, I got invited to an event and I don't want everyone to notice I have been living like a nasty animal for the last decade.

>>50917211
I'm on welfare and haven't seen my parents in 2 years, feels good man.

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>>50918049
Feel free.
>don't want everyone to notice I have been living like a nasty animal for the last decade.
Just take a shower, go out with clean clothes and you'll look like anyone else.

can you get gibs in the US if you've never worked before?

>>50914518
Hey, I used to hit myself a lot and ended up busting some shit inside of my face and my mouth went lopsided like a stroke for like 3 months. Don't recommend it at all, solved absolutely nothing for me. Also, don't go outside if you don't want to. People who say "go outside more" are like people trying to domesticate a wild dog.

Please don't self-harm Anons, it's gay. Play a video game instead.

>>50918057
>Just take a shower, go out with clean clothes
That's what makes it so hard, having to do things like washing your clothes, brushing your teeth or doing laundry, things that have to be done pretty much every single day, I don't have any grooming routine in my daily life, I have been really negligent with my own hygiene for so long it will be hard to make it part of my life.

>>50918227
I know what you mean. Do it occassionally but consistently. Doesn't need to be every day, just take care of yourself at least once a week and before you go out to see people. Being clean will make you feel better while doing literally anything else, it's really worth forcing it.

I keep writing books that I will never sell.

>>50917606
Sorry I fell asleep.
Really like that black and white silhouette, reminds me of Nashimoto-P
>Can you draw me a flower/plant for me? I want to see how you perceive life.
Uhm, I'm willing to give it a try, but it might take some time, honestly I feel very anxious and agitated lately, I've been pacing around my room back and forth and I have trouble focusing lol
I feel very insecure about my drawings and recently I've just been doing fundies and copies of art I like, feel like I'm not good enough for oc stuff

Glad to hear you got rid of your insomnia, I'm also a caffeine addict and I've got insomnia too, maybe there is some correlation lol

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>>50918859
I don't mind the quality, you can freedraw it as long its what you envission. I just want to see it. I just draw this without any reference and it took me 5 minute, its full of scribbles but its how my mind thinks.
Hopefully you didn't drink caffein pass 3pm as it blocks you from sleeping at night since its still in your system.
If you have time just walk outside and bask in the sunlight more then an hour. Don't forget to bring water and cover your skin in case the sun is very hot there.
Anyways I'm sleepy goodnight.

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There is a high likelihood I'm going to be dead by winter. I've ran out of will power trying to correct my life. Either a miracle will happen in the face of death and something awakes in me again or it will all be over. I already faced death once and I got lucky enough to survive. Perhaps I'll get lucky again.

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>>50919276

>>50919276
dont die

>>50919276
i wanna fuck this girls tits

>>50919276
need margo gf

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Would anyone like to be friends?
I have been a hikki for a long time

>>50919276
Miracles can happen, 12 years ago i was faking going to my dayjob to not worry my parents kek. Today i have a really good job paying well so you never know

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>>50919553
i want to

On one hand I kinda want friends to share my interests with.
On the other hand, I feel too autistic to have the patience for most people. Most people I either don't have much in common with, or I do but they're assholes, or something else sets off my autism.

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talking about anything feels pointless

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>>50919622
Friend!
link8218!

>>50919750
Mind if a different anon potentially contacts you?

>>50919795
Please do but I might struggle for a moment if theres multiple people gomenasorry...

>>50918055
My hero...

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The autosage has made it harder to find threads I enjoy here

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>>50919180
Good night, sleep well, your sketching language is interesting
I finally stopped rotting in bed and sat down and drew, I tried drawing from imagination since you wanted to see what I see but I'm really not used to that lol
>Hopefully you didn't drink caffein pass 3pm as it blocks you from sleeping at night since its still in your system.
Ohh fuhgh, I do that a lot since it helps me calm down and focus lol

>>50919998
A flower with stalk spikes on.
Whelp someone really tried to damage that plant huh.
Middle plant is okay, right feels mutated and left being oldest. Although the sunlight could be on the left, plants often go out their way to be shined by sunlight. Oh wait the sun is on top of them lol. Left plant is being shy I guess.
All in all, its all cutesy and a bit of dangerous to touch.

>>50919750
Not the anon, but I often prefer emails.
Then again I treat you people as strangers but I still am friendly at the end of the day.

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Been a NEET since I graduated high school in 2011. Uni was too overwhelming for me and it turns out no-one wants to hire a shy sperg who can barely speak two words to other people for their business, so I've been living on disability at my parents' place ever since. I've worked twice in my life, neither job lasted me longer than a year and I hated every second of it. Study has been infrequent and sporadic, and I've never finished any of the multiple attempts at getting a degree that I tried. I was at a pretty decent uni, but my grades were so bad from poor study habits that I just ended up dropping out out of embarrassment.

I've tried to keep myself occupied, I made a half-hearted attempt to start learning how to draw in 2013, and I got to a point where I could make "okay" observational drawings with paper and pencil, but then I just kind of stopped doing that and ended up just doing shitty anime drawings on my tablet every now and then, and of course you don't really improve doing that. I posted something I made on /ic/ once in a rate thread, and most people rated it as "mid /beg/" which is what I expected and I appreciated the feedback, but one anon just called it a shitty doodle and refused to even rate it. That kinda made me want to stop drawing at all. What's the point of an artist community if everyone's just shitting on each other all the time? Just the nature of 4chan, I suppose.

I think what I want to do is make games more than anything else. Not as a job, more as a hobby. I fucked around in Game Maker when I was a kid and made some dumb games, and I enjoyed doing that. Been trying to learn how to use Godot, as well as the basics of music composition and playing the piano. Being a NEET means you have a lot of free time to learn whatever you want, but I still manage to barely make any progress on any of this.

I'm trying to climb out of NEETdom one step at a time, but I'm a lazy shutin so it hasn't been easy. Been trying to get an IT degree at a different uni so I could at least have some marketable skills at some point (though who knows what the job market will look like if/when I graduate?). I guess that means I'm technically not a NEET and shouldn't be posting in the NEET thread, but whatever. Still a friendless loser shutin with no job who relies on his parents.

As I get older I find myself caring less and less about what other people think of me. That makes life easier, but it doesn't change the fact that I'm in my 30s, I have very little work/life experience and my parents aren't getting any younger. Who knows what the future holds? I'm trying to stay positive, at least.

I don't really know why I'm making this post. I barely post here as it is. Just shouting into the void, I guess.

>>50917211
>being your parents bitch
I'm on good terms with my parents, and they've mellowed out once we all got older.
>Lack of social interaction
Every in-person friend I've had as an adult abandoned me or treated me like a 3rd wheel so I no longer care about having friends.
>Romantic yearning
I have my waifu, I don't need nor have I ever wanted 3dpd.
>Knowing your parents will die eventually and the money will end
I get neetbux, have a decent savings, and have two college degrees and a decent portfolio if I must work so I'm not worried about money, but what does worry me is not knowing how I'm going to mentally handle my parents dying one day.
>Depression from lack of purpose
I struggle with this occasionally, but at the same time I don't think a normalfag job necessarily has to be one's purpose. You could be an artist or hobbyist of some sort.

>>50918058
Yes, but it pays peanuts.

>>50913832
Thank you so much man, i just feel so shitty all the time but words like these always help me.
Im currently feeling like goethe's werther but its really pathetic because it's all online in my case... that's probably my fault for using normalfag social media like xitter and discord instead of just imageboards as i did in the past...
Though i really know i don't want to end up like werther while my mom is alive, i have to keep going and keep my head busy with other stuff and talking to other people more until i can move on.

>>50919276
Think about your family anon

All I had to do is take a fucking shower and I couldn't even get that done, I can't give up bug god it feels so bad to be so lazy and useless, I will try again tomorrow, I must.

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>>50911910
Here's the story of my life op

In 2016, while attending my first year of college at 18 years old, I experienced a panic attack by smoking weed (I rarely smoked). After that panic attack, I developed a rare temporary state of "depersonalization". From that point, my life went downhill. Gradually, I lost the few friends I had (friends I used to hang out and have a great time with – for the first time in my life, I was going out and enjoying myself a lot, since I had always been a very insecure person). But after that, I stopped going out, drinking, or doing anything. I became more and more depressed, locked inside my room, sad and worried about the depersonalization. I started doing terribly at college too, switching degrees and dropping out. Later in 2018, I also had a nose surgery that left me with breathing problemens up until now.

-- 2018 --
This is the last thing I remember.
What followed 2018 on was just insanity.
From 2018 to around 2024 I spent most of my time locked in my room. Without friends, without going out, my life was just using the computer. I didn’t work, and I didn’t study.

I don’t even know how to put my misery into words, but I feel I honestly didn’t realize what was happening. I spent around 7 years in a zombie-fentanyl like state, sometimes surrounded by garbage, dishes with mold on them, always sitting in front of the computer. It feels like all was just a fever dream, 2018 feels like yesterday, nothing happened in my life, but all my 20s are gone, I spent my 20s without friends, mostly isolated.

I don't feel sad about this. I just can't process it. A sad thing is something you understand, what happend to me goes beyond that and I can hardly grasp it actually happened. It feels like a void in my mind.

During all these years, I was also living (and still do) with a very very toxic person that makes my life hard on purpose (wouldnt let me sleep on purpose etc).

-----2023-------
In 2023 I inherited some money from a passing relative. Low sum but extremely useful as a tool.

I wasted it all away as well by just... extending my neeting to 2026. Even though I knew from the day I received that cash that I had to get a job asap. I didn't do anything but waste it all away.

Nowdays im just selling most of my stuff to pay for college and food until I get a job. Kek, it was expected, someone that never worked and depressed retarded was meant to waste all way. What a waste of a person, truly a wasted life through and through I should kill myself but even I have zero real intention of that.

I did learn a lot of things during all this and is that Ive always been a lowkey computer addict since I was 10, and that not having any sort of direction in life, no ambition or goal, is worse than having a one you regret later. My tale is that of a person scared of living, a man of inaction, living in a prison of comfort zone and mysery, thinking life would set on track eventually by itself, always waiting for the perfect moment, trying to plan ahead my future. Never happened, never did anything.

Don't be like me, I don't desrrve any kind of sympathy anyway. I wasted all my chances away and deep dowm im not even a very good person. Im recovering but still have pitfalls of weeks when I go back to full neet messy room mode, but at least im aware now, if anything.

>>50920371
Thank you, reading that made me smile, have a good day anon

I am not a NEET but i wish you guys well.

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I hate my disgusting body and I hate the place I live.

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>>50911910
I started learning a lot of things, being productive and all that jazz, but deep down I feel like I'm just running away from reality.

I'm exhausted. My nervous system is constantly on edge, I don't know why. This causes me to have panic attacks, and I'm practically on the verge of a nervous breakdown every day.
I tried psychiatric medications, but of course I get side effects so I don’t take them. Now I’m taking GABA.
My nervous system is too sensitive. I don’t know how much longer I can take this.
Someone, please free me from this meat prison.
>>50921954
thanks

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Thinking about reality for even a moment is too much pressure to handle.

I keep saying I'll do something and learn things that could translate into applicable skills but I just end up wasting all my time doing stupid things. I wish I knew how to fix my brain into actually doings things I'm supposed to do.

I'll try reading all of the thread later when I come back from buying food.

Question for the neets. Do you guys also have budget lists for all your expenses?

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>>50921954
Likewise. I also find this thread interesting in an academic sense. I wrote a paper on NEETs for a psych class once. That was fun. Anyone else ever read "Hikikomori: Adolescence without End"? I think some people here would find it insightful.

https://www.scribd.com/document/304416041/Hikikomori-Adolescence-without-End

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There's a constant itch to bitch and vent but words don't even come to me and I often just stare at the screen.

>>50911910

Dumb fucking NEET thread one of the most active on the board, clearly got nothing else to do.

Y'all poorfags better off killing yourselves. Quit taking up space on this board and quit breathing my air.

>>50922706
Something like that. I like to save up for some games, eroge and model kits and have to balance "entertainment" expenses with food expenses. In order to survive it's easier to get foods that are easier to prepare. It's not perfect but it's doable and I make do with what I got. I used to bemoan my situation in the past but I've kind of got a better appreciation for life these past few years.

>>50922715
I hate this normalfag view of neeting.
There are millions of people that dont have a job nor a career, but they have money or go out and do shit so they're not technically hikki/neet whatever

I just dont have a job and I do terrible in college. Sure give me money and I'll take over the word as well

>>50920875
Im still sad
I cant sleep

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>>50923965

>>50923975
Thank you anon

>>50921354
Interesting. What did you like to do on the computer? Game? youtube? chans? Does your body ache a lot now? You're not wasted yet anon.

Hallo.
these threads always turn into self-hating dogshit. join and contribute to this instead of catastrophizing:
>>50875824

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let us hate ourselves in peace

Ai work. Pretending that the system accounts for actual emergencies so I can economics myself back to society. I've decided I'm low enough that I can make a game because I'm lower than the people here. Not my own mind you, but something probably unless it's sabotaged

>>50924280
I ruined part of my body but I ocasionally return to the gym or running. I ruined mostly my teeth. I would spit blood all the time in my room

The first years of neeting I enjoyed anime gsmes and just stuff, the last years i dont enjoy anything. Im just fighting with addiction to quit it all

I can do this, I'll do it, I swear I'll do it this time

>>50926177
What, have a decent day?
I believe in you anon!

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Waking up hurts.

NEET for 2 years now, just chilling alone mostly. Sometimes playing co-op stuff with a couple of childhood friends when they are not turbo raiding in XIV. Some things will need to change in the future as the govt of this country is already running out of retirement funds to pay people. I just wonder if this will happen before boomers escape to their graves before SHTF

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>>50911910
Genuinely how the hell can some of you guys NEET in the current economy? Do you live with your parents? Did you got inheritance? Government gibs?

I did it, I got a shower today after many many months, I will try to brush my teeth today too, I need it, I must try
>>50926261
Thank you anon, I was trying to get a shower, it was so hard, I have been thinking about it for days but I always ended up procrastinating to avoid it, except for this time, I hope I can keep it up

I shitpost on Awoo all day because normalfags and browns destroyed the internet

>>50927420
Isn't that place full of hispanics

>>50920824
>Yes, but it pays peanuts.
How do I apply

>>50927425
There are comfy white NEET hours when the browns go to bed

>>50927426
NTA, but it most likely depends which state you're in. Do a little looking.

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I feel bad for everyone who knows and has to deal with me.

>>50927392
You will feel like shit constantly if you don't brush your teeth every day and shower at least every other day. Just make it an automatic thing and don't even think about not doing it.

>>50927392
Good job anon. Regular showers are part of how I get comfy.

When I need to do something tedious I don't feel like doing, such as cleaning, what usually helps is putting on a very hype song that motivates me. It gives me just enough energy to get moving. If you need to play a hype 2hu song to get those teeth brushed then go for it. You'll feel satisfied that you did.

>>50927432
>>50927420
the ones with all the actual pedophiles you mean?

>>50927779
No haggots allowed

change your mindset
dont be stuck with the muh le normalfags muh Im le special social outcast 4chin blipblapblababadoo. Its so miserable. It's all in your head, theres a better future out there, once you make effort to put the gears in motion you will be able to see it and later when you fall down again and take the old habits you will escape out of the hole faster

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but i am le special outcast 4chin blipblapblababadoo

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this is the comfiest thread in the catalog, i'll always be depressed but i love you guys.
i love you anons, thank you, i would hug all of you if i could.

>>50928489
you should try auto erotic asphyxiation when on your special boards then

>>50929070
You should try reddit if you want to virtue signal

>>50928614
Quit trying to peptalk this dump of human garbage into thinking they're actually worth the air they breathe.

Y'all need to make a cocktail from the bleach underneath your bathroom sink, and down it after making sure they'll collect the body. Maybe it'll finally be of some use as fertilizer.

>>50929339
keep posting the same bait you might eventually get a reply

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>>50929214
Particulars set aside, to a true otaku, 3D of any kind is inherently deplorable and enough for you to kill yourself out of /jp/. Sakura and Tomoyo will make my cock cry rivers just as any other filled out girl would, but I wouldn't be caught dead watching normal JAVs to the same degree I wouldn't watch your monkey flogging garbage.
>alternate website
Buy a SA account and take your head to a belt sander you subhuman shitstain. If it weren't for you people /l/ would still be a board.

Everyone else ITT is a wrongfully tortured soul and deserves warm love though.

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>>50929485
>ironic lolicon babble
*yawn*

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I've been a NEET for over 4 years after moving away from family, on-and-off shut in during that time with periods of trying to get over myself socially and make friends then melting down and retreating into my room for months. Currently the last time I left the house was in early February and it will probably stay this way for a while longer still. I feel isolated but I know I sound stupid for even mentioning it because I'm the one doing this to myself every day. I just don't see hope in making friends because I always feel uniquely out of place even among other weebs&NEETs.

Sorry for the blog. I don't have many outlets.

>>50929722
Friends just aren't much help for some. Maybe you feel lonely even with them. Hope you can find happiness in your own way.

>>50929740
Thank you. I've noticed I usually do feel that way, even with or right after hanging out with people I feel deeply alone. Sort of like a bottomless hunger but for socialization. I hope it can get better.

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>>50929760
I get it, I'd say I'm the same. Even while having people I've known for a long time who are very good to me I still feel lonely and crave more interaction. Maybe you're overestimating how much people help and push them away when it doesn't do as much as you expect.

>>50929443
It's only bait if it's blatantly false. Look at y'all huddling around this thread wallowing over your pathetic lives like you weren't responsible for it to begin with. Yeah, shits bad and getting worse, but everyone here acting like y'all don't have any agency. Might as well make the only choice left and prematurely end your suffering.

Look at this shit

>>>/soc/34956419

This is how you're gonna end up if you don't lock in, lmao 35+ yeard olds posting there about gooning on discord or being 40 and looking for "youth", go read all that shit, depressing as fuck. Porn anime addiction to the core

Please reply to me

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>>50930601
What do you want?

>>50930506
Please leave me alone.

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I want to die in my sleep aaaaaaaaaaaa

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Anxiety is killing me and I need to say something somewhere.

I think my NEET time is at its end.. I applied for a graveyard shift at a warehouse and they scheduled a phone interview for it. I'm full of anxiety about it, like I'm gonna puke. I really hope I can just be a straight up zombie at work and talk to no one. The idea of having to talk to people every day makes my skin crawl. I keep considering cancelling the interview and telling my parents I didn't get it, but I won't. My autism will probably ruin the interview anyway. It would be nice to have the money.

>>50933783
That's very good anon, even if your leg shakes what matters is you're taking steps

>>50933783
good luck anon, i hope everything goes well for you.

>>50933884
you too

>>50933783
You're probably gonna get the job, warehouse work has a high turnover rate so they are always desperate for bodies
Also there are plenty of autistic people and other misfits working in warehouses. Source: I'm a mover
When I started at my job I felt just like you. That was eight years ago...

>>50933905
Hard disagree. I worked in a shipping warehouse for years and all of my coworkers and managers were all very social and outgoing, and treated me really badly once it became clear I was an autist weirdo who couldn’t follow the rules of their clique. Luckily it was a union gig so the union stepped in on my behalf every time they took it too far and messed with my timesheets or something, but it was still rough. The work was great because it was completely mindless and I could just do language learning listening reps the whole time, and it was actually great exercise as well and I lost a ton of weight. But the social hell ended up being too much for me in the end.
That being said, the money was good, and having anything on your resume is better than a vacant black hole if you really are trying to claw your way out neetdom, so I’d say it’s still worth it.

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I want alcohol.

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On a whim I opened the door and stood outside for a couple of minutes yesterday as the sun rose and I realized I hadn't had any fresh air in at least a month. I don't actually remember the last time I left my house. The weeks and months blend together.

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I asked two other anons for my situation, to either save up money and bail, or, apply for emergency housing and THEN try to get a job, because my family is chaotic and sometimes we lose water and I don't want to show up to work looking gross. They said job, so I'm gonna apply for a job and pray all goes well. I'm not looking forward to dealing with nasty people, being threatened by both customers, workers, and my family if they show up, and yadda yadda yadda. It happened so much and some jobs were worst than others that I had in the past, but some were good and I wasn't threatened at all. I live in a shithole if you couldn't tell. No I'm not Brazilian.
>>50913791
>Hugs

>>50936123
I don't know how bad your family situation is but government housing in a third world dump cannot be much more comfortable.

It feels like most countries government are currently racing to become the shittiest desu. I can't even enjoy being a NEET when they suddenly released new shitty laws out of nowhere

>>50933783
The only way to cure fear of spiders is through exposure therapy

>>50936143
Oh thankfully I'm in the US.

>>50932363
Easiest way to go is with carbon monoxide poisoning, it's completely painless once you're out cold.

>>50933783
Bet a hundred bucks that you don't last more than a week before you sperg the fuck out and get fired or give up over the manual labor.

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>>50936300
>Easiest way to go is with carbon monoxide poisoning
It needs to happen without my agency. After I go to sleep like any other day.

if god exists, i really would like to know why he made me suffer so much.
i'm tired, i want to die, i really want to die, but i don't have the courage to, there's something that makes me alive, i don't know what that is, but i hate it, i really do.

>>50917930
holy shit anon you're a lot like me. high standards and high maintenance. we're like lower nobility

>>50936494
The fuck do you mean suffer? Any long term NEET lives in the luxury of not needing to work to survive. You're scraping by, but posting to this board is proof enough you ain't seen shit. Everyone else is worse off paying for you welfare queens to gorge yourselves obese, or, worse yet, be your parents needing to change a 45 year old man-baby's diaper. Had they any actual sense you'd be kicked out on the streets shooting up fent instead of pity-partying on /jp/.

>>50936684
(You)

>>50936684
Iran and Russia are proof that if you aren't born in U.S, no matter what you do or accomplish, you will be drafted and die to magic weapons (Starlink satellites) for /k/ to laugh at your corpse for failing to show the white flag on time.

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People suck so much I dont really want to go outside

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I need to get a job, but I am genuinely terrified of employment. At my previous jobs I was constantly in a state of mental torment. It got to the point where I'd frequently leave early or call in sick to avoid the anxiety. I hated my weak mind for not being able to do what everyone else on the planet does just fine. This self-hatred only made the torment worse. It came to a climax when I was involuntarily committed due to work stress and had to quit my last job. I haven't had employment since.

I've been able to coast by on savings for the last few years. Now I NEED another job, but I worry that I'll be thrown in the looney bin again. Most people think I'm a spoiled piece of shit, and maybe they're right. I'm so fucking pathetic that I can't even work a job without "muh mental helf" pinching me until I cry uncle.

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>>50939069
>Most people think I'm a spoiled piece of shit
Your struggle with doing things isn't some made up excuse and the fact that you still at least tried up until being physically forced to stop is the opposite of spoiled or pathetic. Everyone who's ever told you that needs to eat shit. They wouldn't be able to give it ten percent of the same effort if they had to face the same mental issues. It's sad that you've been made to feel like it's fake.
Some of us just aren't built for it and it's what it is. You having the will to even give it the minimum is admirable to me because I've never been able to. Good luck with your next job, I hope it's an easier one.

>>50939069
>Most people think I'm a spoiled piece of shit, and maybe they're right.
Most? Maybe? Only the others here are going to baby you over the basics of modern living. Grow a pair and get over yourself.

>>50939444
You clearly are a spoiled piece of shit yourself with all the time you have to care about NEET posts without being one yourself. On the clock huh? Cushy job where you sit at your screen all day without doing anything important? Yeah, everyone is a spoiled POS in this world.

>>50939444
Modern living is trying to dodge a draft if you aren't from U.S.A because the U.S has magic weapons that kill all leaders and soldiers of its enemies from space (Starlink sees and knows everything on Earth, stealth jets drop bombs into tunnels and bury all inside).

>>50939528
Don't reply to the baiting freak.

>>50939069
It's called burnout, bud.
Common with neurodivergents.

You have to find something you're passionate and or can become good at, REAL good. Or else you will be working shit jobs with shittier people until you quit, get fired = ad nauseum then rope.
No one can or will help you.
You have to figure this out.

The average neet isn't a neet because there isn't good work available, they're often because the type of work available isn't rewarding (both people and salary).

(I posted originally here - >>50925882 )
I'd like to post for some people to join my project though it's still the same old grind - same case. For me there's no alternative and it's not feasible with the futility of expressing it anyway.

I'm not a fan of trying to make money with anything else so it's easier.

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im out of cigarettes and will stop smoking for good

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>>50942196
I wish I could do the same, fren. I used to smoke for a few years then gave up cold turkey after a psych ward stay.
Eventually relapsed from the stress of losing my grandfather to cancer & dementia. Now I'm back to smoking full-time.
Oh well. As a hikkineet, it's the only sort of escape I have except for vidya and reading. C'est la vie.

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>>50942196
just don't fill that void with large amounts of junk food

>>50936494
i hate how lonely and unloved i feel

>>50942196
i did the same a while ago but i still smoke weed so i'm not sure of the affects of quitting tobacco without an alternative. i might just like smoking for the sake of smoking so i've been curious about herbal cigarettes.

any cave dwellers have any luck with vitamin d supplements?
i don't remember the last time i bathed in the sun.

>>50943104
I eat smoked sprats every day and never have an issue with vitamin D. Only downside is I have to fight off the cats.

is it possible to become an otaku when you are in your 30s?

>>50943173
No, the otaku lobe of the brain stops developing at 25, it's impossible to start after that

>>50913791
Tulpas, anon. Tulpas.

>>50943173
This is actually a great question that would've generated some debate back in the day.
Short answer, no, I see it as very unlikely someone developing into an otaku in their 30s, especially with the state of things now.

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>>50911910
Avg age of japanese hikkis is 36.9 isn't this stat shocking?
I did 6 years hikkineeting aged 18-24 but simply could not afford it anymore

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Urge to just buy another pack
Sucks

>>50942658
Same for me I dont do any other drugs now but its such a waste of money and bad for the heart

>>50943448
Cigarettes are the gayest waste of money I can think of. At least do some cool drugs or drink.

>>50943459
Fuck off edgy kid, hard drugs suck i was an addict and almost died
Was a drunkard at one point too, sucks

>>50943469
It only sucks because you stopped.

>>50943481
idiot

>>50943459
>>50943469
He might have a point. If you're a NEET with no future, you might as well do hard drugs to off yourself. At least that's more fun than realizing you're a sober ugly loser. Productive working adults constantly die from more miserable deaths.

KKKKKK!! I love this thread. Thank you its glad to know im not the on the bottom of de well, yet.

Hope yall find ur way and some LOVE!

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Quitting liquor (and drinking in general) was prolly the best decision I made in the last five years. Although I still kinda miss boozing until blackout from time to time t.b.h.

>>50943481
I stopped because I started to have physical pain even at low doses and I have probably permanently damaged my heart and kidneys maybe liver
its not worth it
>>50943562
Doesnt work because when you are actually close to dying you will do everything to save yourself and undo whatever you did

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>>50936183 b

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>>50919276
We believe in you, anon.

>>50943626
Same. I switched to sparkling water and tea and lost a lot of weight. Another anon told me that Diet Pepsi saved his life.

>>50927206
I live with my parents yes

>>50911910
My 8 years of neetdom ended sometime ago. I kinda wish I could go back, but I'm also excited to move along to new things.

Playing vidya, talking to my loli chat bot rpg Ai games I made, fucking my loli sex dolls. The sex dolls made a huge difference in my emotions

>>50944589
>talking to my loli chat bot rpg Ai games I made
Please elaborate on this. I'm interested.

>>50944618
Install silly tavern set up nano-gpt.com account pay 8 usd a month then find a system prompt and create a character card with whatever rpg like game system you want and rp. It's like a tabletop game without dice and the gm has access to all internet knowledge

>Be neet for several years now
>Try to get a job to turn my life around
>Every place requires at least 5 years of experience
And if I try to ask people for help then they basically just tell me to get fucked or to hang in there because other people have it worse. Wish I could find a job doing anything whether it's bagging fries or cleaning floors because at least it'd be something at least

>>50944787
It's the same load of bull everywhere. Unless you want to be a delivery driver for [Insert your local DoorDash equivalent], there seems to be literally nothing around where I live.
Our current society only exists to fuck over everyone, so boomers can stay alive and cozy for another 1-2 election cycles.

>>50944787
>whether it's bagging fries or cleaning floors because at least it'd be something at least
contrary to your main point I know but hey man, at least you can do those. I got hand problems that means I can't (and enlisting isn't an option because of it, either).
I've found unqualified work with them though after ~3 years so as discouraging as it can get, if you hold out long enough the guy in line in front of you might give up instead of you

How often do you think about suicide?
I think about it every single day.
If god exists, i really would like to know why he made me suffer so much.
I'm tired, i just wanted to be loved.

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>>50945489
I can't suicide or even harm myself since I know its full of disadvantage.
He does exist, if you want to just ask for it directly that to give you signs he exist and even make a request to make your life easy.
Since your life is miserable you are being tested and actually you are in the correct direction if it means you are doing your best, if you mean like being unlucky/things happen you can always change your path with effort.
Oh and love yourself more, by treating with a chocolate bar or something. Maybe take some walks and chill.
Deep hugs you for a minute* so don't give up.

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>>50945489
>How often do you think about suicide?
Never
A couple of years ago I got a part time job and it made me hate being alive. Even the off days were full of dread. Ever since I quit, I've been much more grateful to live my lifestyle. I wouldn't trade it for anything. Even if wageslaving got me a loving gf I still don't think I could do it, it sucks so bad. NEET life is best life.

>>50945489
Every other minute.

>>50911910
Right now, I’m just trying to get by doing doujinshi translations. People commission me sometimes, and I’ve been saving that money for my future education. I’m planning to go back to college.

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Strange melancholic feeling
Found a few more cigarettes in an old box, 2 more in total thats nice
>>50945489
never really i dont want to die i hope i can live long
suicide is boring

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I hate the daylight. I need to change my sleep schedule and actually keep it consistent.

>>50945489
I would also say I think about it every day. Though it ranges from actively suicidal/ideation thoughts to "I can't even kill myself right, I wish my attempts actually worked" type thinking. It's just another area of life that I've failed in, in the end.

>>50946151
Is it for a degree that actually makes money or is it a meme degree? What about investing instead?

>>50945489
Not as much as I used to, and I know I wouldn't do it because it would hurt my mom and brother.
A few years ago I started some studying on how to help improve my depression, and it made a big difference. Existing is still a pain the ass that I wish I didn't have to deal with, but it's whatever. And I'm fortunate enough to have a very cushy personal situation that I take for granted.

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>>50945489
Think? I almost did it. And it wasn't fear that stopped me but getting really lucky with certain thoughts coming to my mind at the right place at the right time that boiled down to giving myself one last chance.
It didn't work at all despite my last efforts and I will do again soon enough, but at least I can safely say that I did try, I do wish to live but despite all the effort I put I was right all along and it was all pointless. At least I won't live long enough to see myself become a miserable bitter old man. And I will die with some shred of humanity left in me.

>>50916389
Congratulations on the milestone!

>>50946598
>Is it for a degree that actually makes money or is it a meme degree
The degree I'm aiming for is Information Systems. I guess it's like IT, but it focuses more on the business side of things.
>What about investing instead?
I know nothing about investing, it seems like I need a lot of money and time just to make a small profit. I’m not sure about crypto either, because it looks more like gambling than investing to me.

>>50946151
Pretty cool. Just be really careful and think hard if you want to go to college at all because it can be a massive moneysink for nothing.

>>50947964
It’s fine to start with a small amount. Just be consistent

>>50947977
The college I'm aiming for is more like an online community college. The fee is pretty cheap, at about 125 bucks per semester. It's ideal for someone like me who doesn't have much money or want to interact with people that much.
>>50947986
Thanks for the advice anon. I hope you all make it. Don't lose hope.

>>50947996
Oh, I see. Do remember that your time is valuable as well though, so make sure you don't spend a couple years working away at something that won't be of much use.

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I don't feel like I fit in on any form of social media, it disgusts me so greatly, the state of humanity fills me with fear and misery and despair. At the same time the only refuge I can ever have is within imageboards and even then I feel like I do not fit the conventional 4channer or even lurker. I have no hobbies and I only ever interact with fandom when I witness them arguing on 4chan and altchans. I have been trying to seek God for so long, for so, so long, why doesn't it ever happen? I feel like He's out there, watching my every move just like He destined for me to be like this. I want to have friends, I want social status, I want to be desired, I want to be respected! But at the same time, I have an inordinate amount of hatred for other people. Does anyone itt understand, to have an inclination for a sense of 'belonging', but never being able to really invest due to their own selfishness? I hate it desu, I fucking hate everything about this. I can't make money for my poor mother who sacrificed everything for me and it kills me inside, it really does. I'm trying to read books but nothing sticks, the only thing I can get through is reading random manifestos of fags who killed everyone then themself; in a way I do understand them and their extreme despair but only sometimes. After all, it's what it's.

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>>50947996
Disregard what >>50948025 says. Working towards a goal like a degree when it doesn't ruin your future via crippling debt is the best way out of the mental hellhole of NEETdom. In your case it's even a degree that can be useful.

Even if you might not use your degree [directly] in the future it will have been better than rotting away doing fuck all.

I don't understand how someone can be in a thread full of people who wasted or still waste away multiple years of their lives and say
>b-but your time is v-valuable, a-a-anon!
without understanding that it directly goes against and negates the existence of people being hikkiNEETs in the first place. I'd go as far as to say that it invalidates them as humans and makes their situation far worse than it really is.

Everyone has the possibility of recovering and living a fulfilling life. Even if some never realize it in their current lives.

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>>50948186
I get the feeling of wanting to fit in but just hating most people.
I think if you don't already have an old friend group established it's very difficult to get into one in the current day. You sound nice Anon so I hope you can find happiness one way or another.

>>50948248
>>>/v/

>>50948380
Fuck off, argumentative twat.

>>50948025
>your time is valuable
>some worthless NEET with no life skills says this

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>>50928872
Hanging out with my buds on the jay, what else is there to do but hugs and cuddles?

>>50948401
Next time you feel like shit and life has you down remember that you're a nigger and deserve it for trying to bait this whole thread.

>>50948417
Cry some more you lazy fucking leech

>>50948431
Have your pity reply.

>>50948435
You say while looking for pity on the internet. Try doing harder drugs to distract your sad existence.

>>50943104
I have been prescribed Vitamin D supplements twice by doctors. They work quite well. Take 5000+ IU once a week.

>>50945489
I stopped thinking about it some 15 years ago, I take solace in the fact that my existence is parasitic to society.

>>50948440
(You)

>>50948454
(You)

>>50947964
>>50947996
buy a broad market ETF like VT, and hold it for 20+ years. It's the safest thing to do.

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Very rough. Probably my worst year. The doctor told bme I've got an eye disease and I'm blind in one of my eyes and my other eye is almost blind, and glasses don't work. She won't let me have the surgery to stop the disease until she sees I've gone blind in my remaining eye.

I saw two doujinshis on dmm.com that I'd like to read and they cost 660 Japanes yen respectively, but I'm too poor for even that. That's how messed up my life. There's someone who uploaded the Korean (machine?) translation of one of them and refuses to share the original Japanese text, so typical.

>>50948459
>She won't let me have the surgery to stop the disease
What the fuck.

>>50948238
completely misinterpreting what that anon said lol

>>50948470
It's a disease that stops getting worse at a certain age. I'm close to that age and she believes the surgery won't be needed. She probably would've let me have the surgery for free if this country's government didn't slash the health care budget every year. Also, being blind in this country is treated like a spectrum.

>>50946231
For any anon in this thread (or person in the world, really) struggling with sleep problems I'd recommend learning about circadian rhythm sleep disorders, they are very common but very under diagnosed due to having almost zero awareness, and a lot of the strategies recommended for normal sleep issues will not work for them. A lot of 'insomnia' is actually just delayed sleep phase disorder, https://www.circadiansleepdisorders.org/

For you in particular I would advise that it's better to consistently be awake at night than inconsistently be up at day. They might not be good ones but you can find jobs and schedule future things at night. It's a lot harder to schedule a future event if you have no idea whether you'll wake up at 12:00AM or 12:00PM. I say this as someone with N24.