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I feel useless; everything has become very difficult because I cannot talk with my best friend about something unusual and targeted at a specific group of things in a topic—he won’t understand, and as practice showed me, he doesn’t need it. Recently, I was told that I speak arrogantly as if putting myself above others (when I explain potentially unusual words and their meanings while telling something, naturally not forcing myself between words), it was perceived as if I consider everyone around me stupid. In fact, as sad as it sounds, I talk to the walls about topics that interest me so that later, when the right moment comes, I could easily talk about it with someone. That’s why it was always important for me to avoid misunderstandings. One could say I’m lonely, as I have been living outside my native country for quite a long time. And now, when I don’t even have anyone to play or talk with on the Internet, I started to lose my mind and even partly disturb my friend simply because he heard it. (I really told him about what he is not interested in and what he does not understand, am I an idiot?)