You never had real motivation in the first place, it was all just bottled up emotions from the breakup. You were doing it for all the wrong reasons and now that the bottled up emotions have worn off you are lost, and that makes perfect sense. You need to find something to motivate you for real and for life. You are very young, why not read some philosophy books, some literature, expand your life experiences and learn who you really are as a person? If gym/MMA doesn't make you happy, quit. If programming doesn't make you happy, quit. You can always go back. Try something new and chill. Take up lap swimming, biking, or hiking. Start bird watching or fishing. Why not try to write a book or a short story? Base it off yourself and your personal struggles even if you think they are boring. Change some details and situations and let them play out in fiction as a fun experiment. Start playing guitar or the drums or something stupid like that. Don't just follow generic retard advice on the internet like:
>Feel sad? go gym, get happy
There is no easy fix, there is only the hard job of discovering who you are and what truly makes you happy and why. You have to do the ground work to make this happen. You have to fail, sometimes in huge ways. You have to love and lose, you have to learn things the hard way, and you have to be uncomfortable. This is called "life" and it's not found in a gym or rolling around on the ground with some smelly man trying to see who submits to who in a strange homoerotic BDSM ritual. Travel to a strange country and hope you survive, come home a changed person with new perspective on your own country and it's peoples. Visit with your elders and have them tell you every story and life lesson they can remember.

You will never find true happiness in the arms of a woman nor inside the walls of a gym. Find God.

They make me happy. I enjoy them. I like the way my body looks. But I lack the drive or motivation, a sense of purpose for them.

>Read philosophy books.
I have read a lot of Ryan Holiday, 48 laws of power, subtle art of not giving a fuck, letting go and other stoic books. As a person who is better fueled by rage, I found them that they are dulling me, extinguishing the spite even more.

>Find God.
I am already a religious Muslim who does his prayers 5 times a day.

To be honest, I still crave the desire. Desire to slay whores with my body and abs. But I never make it out my diet for getting the abs. I saw my 2 abs starting to form on mirror, but even that didn't motivate me to stay consistent to my diet.

>>34602198
>You will never find true happiness in the arms of a woman nor inside the walls of a gym. Find God.
>These two valid things that you thought make you happy are actually heresy, here's a third thing that IS true.
OK consoomer

>>34602247
>I am already a religious Muslim who does his prayers 5 times a day.
die in a fire

OP here.

Noting that I cannot enjoy playing games nor music. I hate them, even. I sometimes install them out of binge (generally pirating) and it only takes 1-2 hours before I give up on them. Some AAA titles like Last Of Us for example, I didn't like it. All games bore me.

I'm not a sexist but everytime I'm on outside (for example coming home from gym), I see girls and couples. Miniskirts, blondes, open midriffs and white sneakers, or high heels with stockings. "Whores" or "sluts" is all I can think off. I have a sense of envy, a craving for that. How do women even look at lanklets like those while I exist here? Why I don't get bitches?

I'm pretty sure I would stop eating like this and focus on my abs if I had a woman that I'm scared to disappoint and lose. I'm not looking for "real love". That's dead for me and almost everytime in this 2026. All there it is bodily attraction, which I want. Most girls don't give me a look, probably because I don't have abs.

So what anons, what do you think I can do?

>>34602247
are you serious? self help is not philosophy, they're the antithesis of actual philosophy and a complete waste of time, trash written by sophist grifters and marketed at naive illeterate rabble ; you need to read philosophy such as:Lucretius Plato, Aristotle, Epicureans, Descartes, Leibniz. Kant, Nietzsche, Heidegger, Hegel, maybe some Georges Bataille and Lacan if you're interested in understanding subjectivity and desire/eroticism. The great conversation is a good book to pirate if you're not comfortable reading primary sources yet