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a little over a year ago i was friends with a girl, we hung out quite a bit and talked a lot over text. i really enjoyed my time with her but never wanted to try and pursue anything further for a few honestly stupid and hypocritical reasons. so i slowly stopped talking to her and we completely ceased communication a few months later. a month or so after we ceased communication i really came to terms with what i lost and it broke me. i was so mentally ill around this time from other stuff happening in my life i thought it was appropriate to dm her on one of her accounts, and send her an "apology" that was 40% me making excuses for neglecting her and complaining about her to other people, 40% some sappy at best, creepy at worst paragraph about what she meant to me and 20% an actual apology. now she never responded, so a few months later i deleted my account out of embarrassment and once my account was gone she came back. i want to think this was just a coincidence but regardless i think shes really (and justifiably!) mad at me. i dont think about her every day like i used to, i still get kinda mad i threw her away a couple times a week but its not all consuming. but shes been in my dreams every 1-2 months. with one of those dreams she told me why she hated me and she told me goodbye and i thought that was the end of it but i had another dream last night where we were hanging out and having fun. how do you get over someone youre never gonna be with ever?