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I'm not sure if i have to marry my current gf. She's from the USA, I'm from West europe (we're both under 30yo), she'll move here. She'll learn my language to an extent but she'll never be fluent. In principle she behaves okay, fairly social, motivated to do things. The thing that makes me doubt, is that she has abusive tendencies. During our year together irl, she broke up with me about 10 times, choked me twice, threatened suicide once, hit me in my stomach when i accidentally pulled her hair, that kind of stuff. I'm fairly sure she's borderline or something related. She's like a dog, I'm like a cat. Literally as if you take the human forms of these animals, that's how we are.
I have some trust issues due to her behavior, my body "feeling" isn't very excited for her and kinda says no to being with her. She noticed i don't express my love for her so much or call her pretty. I'm not sure if i love her all in all.
I don't think I'll be able to marry another girl due to current pussyflation, definitely not a girl from my own country. I'm kinda autistic socially anxious so girls weren't ever really interested. It's a huge hassle to get a person to learn my country's language, most aren't willing. Then there's a job search problems etc. On the other side, I'm tall and white and not extremely ugly, so i guess i can take my chances in Asia.
So should i just settle and have her for sex and housekeeping, and see if love blooms again?