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I'm not sure if that's the best way to describe it but whatever. Whenever I think about doing things or having jobs, getting a gf, meeting interesting people, I just don't seem to care much. I would much rather play video games and watch anime or work on music than do that stuff, but I will never "get anywhere" in life unless I do the aforementioned things. Am I just depressed or is it some suppressed fear that I'm not recognizing? I'm kind of a neet if that helps
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>>34603029
That's a tough spot to be in sadly I've been there personally and something that helps is moving environment without all the things holding you back that can be scary but it helps for improvement in life.
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That's a pretty normal state IMO. Careers and families are pushed onto people to enrich wealthy psychopaths. Saying someone has depression is just a way to gaslight people for refusing to participate in scams. I would be depressed too if I found myself in the middle of a cold, uncaring universe that has little redeeming qualities inherently, and I am.
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>>34603029
You rewired your brain to only want joy from this unnatural things like video games which are made to be as addictive as possible. Just quit it, and change your environment like >>34603029 said.
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>>34603029
Nah, you do care, that's why you're depressed. I am convinced that depression is fundamentally boredom. But finding out how to get the energy to do things is really the big mystery of life and it probably has to do with momentum and a positive attitude towards stress and discomfort. There's a lot of talk on social media about how you can be relaxed and happy but if you look at real life, no matter if it's losers or overachievers, you realize it's a load of horseshit and everyone is unhappy
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>>34603281
I should clarify I don't play gacha or gambling simulators. I play stuff like factorio or games where thinking is requires. But I got really good at a few instruments for like 10 years now so I've done other things. But even through all that effort I just don't care. I work out consistently and read a decent amount so I don't think it's a dopamine thing. I've also had women express interest in me but I've never liked being around the ones that have done that. I've always had this sense from the world though that the way I choose to think about life and which things I find interesting are always wrong for some reason, regardless of circumstances.
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>>34603338
It's not happiness or unhappiness though. I've just had this sense for most of my life now that everything I do is "wrong" somehow. I didn't really have consistent friends when I was a kid and never had a gf since I was never included in any of the social activities in high school. I got this defeatist impression in that everything I do never works I think. It's kind of hard to explain this because it's just an intuition that I've had for a long time that sometimes shows up in bursts of emotions.
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>>34603446
Yeah it's natural to have regrets but it's rarely useful. It's also natural to feel like an outcast in school but at some point in life you realize that it's okay to be the way you are because no one is really thinking about you