>>34603259
Aw man. Hey so idk what to tell you. I guess life is giving you a lot of pain. Obviously you don't actually want to die you just want to get away from the pain. But idk what's causing it. Maybe you're an alcoholic maybe you're a stressed company executive. But I am curious what is causing you pain

>>34603259
You shouldn't kill yourself. But you should make a valid will, telling with an intestate person's possessions is really irritating

>>34603284
life itself is causing me pain. people always cause me pain. I care for others but no one ever cares for me. I have nothing left inside, I'm broken, I had hopes but I no longer do, I let myself down, I let others down, others let me down. I want to be useful but I don't think I can be. I'm always hated, always targeted, always the one getting the short end of the stick in life, the one with the terrible luck. not in a self pitying way, in an "I'm exhausted" way. things will soon be over. I'm either going to god knows where and isolating myself in nature for the rest of my life or killing myself.

>>34603289
I don't have much... not many things of value. broke af.

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>>34603259
You need to be reborn. Look within Anon, we suffer due to our own ignorance and the cure if self-knowledge. You should read Interior Castle by St. Teresa of Avila

>>34603326
>I'm either going to god knows where and isolating myself in nature
Anon, I'm a big believer in the idea that until death all defeat is psychological. So much of life is really just what we think it is and escaping to nature could change your perspective while keeping you alive

>>34603355
I've been reborn so many times, this time I don't think I can rise from the ashes. I've changed so much, so many time, I just wish this would end. I want this suffering to end. I have no place in this world. it's either isolation or death. I'll give it a try if I can bring myself to focus. I hate being alive, I hate my circumatances, I hate this time period, I hate being myself. I wish people would smash my face with hammers instead of tormenting me and hiding their intentions. I wish I could just be freed from this existance. even talking to people who seemingly do well feels incredibly hollow... they don't have empathy for others... I just wanna die... I really wanna die... there's no light... I'm not allowed to be human but I'm stuck in this human form with human needs that will never be satisfied.

>>34603373
it's psychological, I'm aware. I'm unable to carry on. I wanna die... living is a burden and it's not worth it... people aren't worth it... I don't like the majority of humans. I feel like they're betraying their own humanity each and every day and I can't bear to be around humans. I've been hiding from the world for years, I wish the world would just let me be but it won't... I wanna die I really do I hate having an identity.

>>34603396
>I wanna die I really do I hate having an identity.
Sounds like the scars go deep. If I didn't have the privilege of having loved ones I would probably also feel very alien to this species. I can bear the outside struggles that come with being alive. But the inner emptiness from superficial interactions with humans is a different animal.

>>34603396
Maybe you were reborn as a result of clinging to new false identities, not your true self and that's why you're suffering. I don't want to be preachy but Christ was subject of hatred and the ingratitude of people and yet he chose to love them despite the suffering the world brings but it's because He saw they were under a delusion that's why He said: Father forgive them because they don't know what they are doing

People like to inflict pain because they are unaware we are all connected and harming another is harming oneself. One you reach enlightment you will be able to see the bigger picture

I would recommend doing a pilgramage or seeing some monks and volunteer there, they also feel unsatisfied by the world and maybe you will be able to connect with them and heal a little bit

>>34603462
they are, I've been crying for hours now, I feel utterly defeated. I wish people could love me or at least acknowledge my humanity.

>>34603476
I hate having an identity... only sort of thing I cling onto is the need to act with moral integrity. it is my true self, unfortunately that's just how it is, I didn't adopt superficial labels and tried to fit into them, just discovered different aspects of myself over time.
I see the bigger picture, I'm very much into spirituality, but it's just painful, I hate ugliness. ugly souls are the worst sight of all.
maybe, we don't really have this sort of thing where I live, we'll see.

>>34603490
I truly believe people are evil out of ignorance. They are under the illusion that good is evil and evil is good. It's painful, yes but people rarely do evil out of malice. Don't let the devil win Anon, he wants us to think we as humans are too deformed to even contemplate the idea of being loved by God. Evil is a parasite, it cannot exist without a host, in this case good. Evil cannot exist by itself, as evil is the perversion of good

Go back to the Source Anon, which is Love. Love connects everything, people act out of love or as a result of lacking it. Let it guide your heart, the flame that keeps you going. You won't lose your flame by illuminating another candle

>>34603259
You aren't going to kill yourself. You don't have the courage.

>>34603490
>I've been crying for hours now
I am sorry to hear that. Hang in there.

>>34603504
Not op, why would god love me despite all the sins i committed?