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> be me
> late 30s mtf
> 5 years hrt
> don't pass
> no friends
> ex-wife wants me dead
> have STDs so avoid sexual contact
i have a really good education and money, but i will be forever alone unless a woman is willing to have hpv to be with me
i won't kill myself, because i've been alone 99% of my life anyway. i guess i'm just bored sometimes, and i'm sure i'll be lonely eventually but it hasn't sunk in yet.
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>>43269218
>i have a really good education and money
Well, use that to make friends. And to work on your transition too.
I was in a similar situation (except no stds) at 34. $200k and 4 years later I was a professional woman. Ex-wife still wants me dead though.
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>>43269386
idk how to really "work on my transition"
like, my bones are what they are, y'know?
i can voice train but that's about it.
i feel like an idiot trying to learn how to do makeup in my late 30s so i just wear mascara and maybe a bit of bad eyeliner. clearly doesn't look good so i'm just barefaced most of the time.
i even just go by they/them because it feels humiliating to ask people to refer to me by she/her.
trans women who do that when they clearly don't pass honestly make me cringe at this point in my transition.
> ex-wife still wants me dead though
lul
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>>43269412
>idk how to really "work on my transition"
>like, my bones are what they are, y'know?
The face might still be correctable. And you'd be surprised how much you can hide/improve in appearance by just styling your clothing appropriately.
But I didn't mean physically that much, but mentally. How you walk, how you talk (not just voice training, but what kind of language do you use, how you frame things), how you relate to people, all of that matters.
I got consistently she/her'd long before I physically passed because of my mannerisms.
>i feel like an idiot trying to learn how to do makeup in my late 30s
It needn't be like that. Everyone's an idiot at first. The path to not being an idiot is perseverance and improvement. I learned make up at 35, lol.
Pro-tip: Get a cisf friend. Lots of cisfs love to practice and teach these things with others.
>lul
Yeah. Seeing me enjoying my new life and boyfriend broke her.
The silver lining is that she now clearly sees me as female, given her jealousy and intra-sexual competition patterns lul.
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>>43269451
fair enough.
i don't want ffs but i agree i need a cisf friend who's into makeup.
i have one cisf sort-of-friend (i think she likes me romantically... but very much innocent and i'm not gonna even go there with my past and STDs etc) but she's a lesbian who doesn't wear makeup
i think my mannerisms and clothing, movements etc. are feminine but my voice is still deep and the makeup really holds me back. like, every woman in my office wears makeup every single day, i don't know where they even find the time to do it in the morning.
> Yeah. Seeing me enjoying my new life and boyfriend broke her.
> The silver lining is that she now clearly sees me as female, given her jealousy and intra-sexual competition patterns lul.
lol yeah well... i'm still interested in women mostly, so i think she'd still try to ruin any relationship i get into. even the girl i mentioned above is scared of my ex after i've shown her some of the messages she sent me
>>43270244
pretty much. i started in early 30s and i kinda have a baby face so it's not completely over but i don't think i'll pass. i think i look... presentable... at least.
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>>43272632
i'm not sure if that's how it works desu but yes there's the Gardisil vaccine, but it doesn't necessarily protect against all strains, just the dangerous cancer-causing ones (which are NOT the ones that show up with warts on the hands)
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