My gf just fingered the fuck out of me and asked me how I felt and I said I want to be her wife >>43821977 I choose heros journey. Even though I think self loathing thoughts all the time, on a base level I dont actually hate myself. I think theres a perfect version waiting to be found
>usually have dreams where i get caught presenting as a woman and mob hunted >sleep in fem night clothes last night >have a dream where i have sex with two girls first time in my life wtf does it mean i'm back
A foolish young man Of the tranny persuasion Devoted his life To look like a cis Asian He stopped playing sports He stopped eating meat He traded his wife beater For some girly jeans He put on a wig And with lesbians he scored Now he says to himself "I ain't no FAGGOT no more!"
>>43822318 can anyone honestly say that ted was wrong? industrial society lead directly to the internet, which lead to mass production of sissy hypnosis pornography. what a fucking genius, he saw his own sissification coming decades ahead and pulled out all the stops to prevent it
>>43822309 that interview with those two terf bullies where they interview some troons ex wife and she says how they always want a mom not a partner and they all laugh was that true why do we need a mom is it just some bad experience mundane thing or some anima mommy thing
>>43822325 it's just buddhism with labels changed but at least buddhists have actual compassion for your condition and will not try to dramatically snap you out of it ted wasn't happy he was running from his problems
>>43822254 >>43822052 >>43822017 Second chance still implies you reincarnating, but as a dysphoric male/female again. You would just get another chance to transition with more starting potential.
>>43822326 well my mom is a very cold person who showed me no affection my entire life. and yes when i "came out" as gay she rejected me completely, she also tends to blame me for everything and alienate me from the family. so basically exactly what >>43822351 said.
>>43822345 >>43822318 >>43822325 Regardless of the morality of what Ted did it's really depressing to think about how he died, as a man in a concrete box
is transitioning even worth it at this point? when i was younger i would look at gender transformation stuff you'd find on deviantart constantly (still occasionally do) and imagine it happening to me. as i got older i would project it onto myself by imagining myself as having the body, clothes name (usually all of them) of a women i found to appeal to me. i don't know if hrt would even help these thoughts or just make me stop liking this stuff but i just want to get on it so i can just indulge my fantasies and just give into my desires and just do whatever comes with being trans. these thoughts have just been plaguing my mind and i start to overthink and obsess too much to my own detriment, i've talked to a therapist about this and she just told me i should just try hormones at this point (it's fairly easy to get on it where i am). i've just been at a crossroads about this and largely just on the fence about it all, not so sure what to do here.
>>43823120 Fun to watch. Written by a 5 year old. The ending was written by a said childs 3 year old brother. The show was mostly good for character concepts. Honestly severely dropped my opinion of Gooseworx after following them for years.
The only thing that keeps me from going all the way is the fact I can constantly relieve myself via masturbation, but that one reprieve has lost quite a lot of its effectiveness as of late
I am pro the "merging of technology and humanity" if it means I get to put my brain in artificial body sort of like Signalis. If it means I get to look in the mirror and see a girl staring back at me I will be pro anything. I would willingly kill millions of people if it meant waking up tomorrow as a girl
i have drukd 2.5 boxes of wine over the past three days. also:
>late 30s >shut-in besides work >know for sure i am a tranny >literally nobody knows i like men and am trans, repress and guard literally every part of myself >hollow shell of a person, no real friends, literally no one i feel i can trust >alcoholic >ugly as fuck and tall >at least own my house, but it makes me feel more trapped since still have debt and selling would be too expensive >literally no support network other than superficial family and friends, so nobody to really talk to about issues >won't use medical services despite living in a place with universal healthcare, work in healthcare and know how homophobic, transphobic and awful people in this system are >want to change jobs, but scared of retraining because of denbts, costs and having literally zero motivation due to hating every aspect of my own existence >haven't had sex in over two decades, crave intimacy but can't enjoy any of it anyway because i am repulsed by own body and furthermore can't be honest with partners happy pride to me
>QOTT Why would I not choose an easy life the next go around? This go has sucked enough. And obviously being the opposite sex would be a perk, at least from this perspective. >>43830482 What are you drinking, fellow old timer? I have been drinking too much this weekend as well, and I was just thinking about going out and grabbing some more...
I love being a woman online. Why can't I be a real woman. Why can't it be real. Why do I have to be a man. Why do I have to be this way. I'd reincarnate in a second, I'd do anything to be a real girl.
>>43821977 I think I'd take my fair-er chance, but what does that entail? Do I live the same life with the same events up till this moment but more fair or is it back to square one and living a completely different life but it is more fair? There are some points in my life that I wouldn't change at all despite my current journey potentially preemptively ending.
>>43822345 I feel like a lot of philosophy shit is just this, especially in regards to reacting to american culture and how it's sort of designed to prevent people from being properly exposed to other cultures. IMO if you want something to schizo about schizo about how the USA can be approximated to a social experiment.
>>43822325 The only thing I can think of that Ted got wrong is that it wasn't the industrial revolution where we fucked up, it was the agricultural revolution. Seriously, archaeological records show human skeletons going from robust to tiny and malnourished almost instantly as ppl lived in overcrowded settlements on grain products.
Limited small-scale cultivation like you often see with indigenous people is where we should have stopped. Fuck modernity etc.
I have weeks where I badly want to be a woman, but whats stopping me is how masculine my face is, which hrt or makeup wont do anything. I dont even know if I can even afford ffs from mexico or thailand considering Im broke and I work temp jobs
>>43836334 I'm not able to afford laser much less FFS, all those "just surgerymax hon" people are privileged richshits or delusional if they think the average tranny can afford to do that.
i love how it went from none femrepgen to two femrepgen. soon the whole board anyway i'm shopping for a bag rn and hate all of the tacticool mens ones, do you guys have any that are fun and will also not immediately get people asking questions? i like some of the baggu ones but hate the straps
>>43841564 I like seeing people with our condition get to live good lives. I'm jealous obviously, but I am genuinely happy for them. It's bittersweet knowing that I could have been like them.
>>43843681 Haven't watched but I've never really been into CGDCT / moe type stuff (with notable exceptions like GLT and Bocchi) Not judging btw, my agp is just personally more sated by other genres.
>>43822594 >i've talked to a therapist about this and she just told me i should just try hormones this is about how i imagine opening up about troon shit would go for me when they won't even give me room to open up about how i spend my time online just some dismissive "take your girl pills put a skirt on and fuck off"
>>43822051 I've seen so many individual trannies swing between "it's never too late to start" and "you're better off sucking on the end of a shotgun if you're going to start so late" without showing a hint of cognitive whiplash you've become the people I trust the least with my future or my grievances