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Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support
I hope someone else doesn't post at the same time edition
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
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>>84346768
links for those who need them
>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7
> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/
>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9 fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic
>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read
>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c
> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.p df
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heyo heyo how's it going??
I just got back form a bikeride and took a shower and I'm a bit tired ^~^
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>>84346783
I wish I had bpd instead of avpd because of shit like this. Its like almost every mental illness community is centered around bpd, and every mental health resource seems to only focus on bpd. I feel so invisible and invalid being a non-bpd cutter
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I was suddenly pulled into a late night adventure and left last thread early yesterday.
>>84340191
>hope it doesn't go the same way as ips like pokemon do.
pokemon got too big and popular. Fate isn't even as popular as it used to be. It makes good money and I think it's fairly popular in Japan still
> once you have a few runs under your belt
suppose it also makes it easier to know where things are. Like playing oldschool RE is scary first time, then you know where the jumpscares are so it's not worries at that point
>see something glowing in a fromsoft game it's going to get picked up.
i do miss collectathon games honestly after you said this...
>overcome being afraid of swimming against the stream there is akin to a superpower
as much as some of their stuff gets weird to me, I can respect them for this like you say
>was it published by ea?
nah, it was back when Lucas Arts still published games. Pandemic made it. Really good studio. I liked Mercenaries as well back in the day. Played a crap ton of that game
>>84340217
>it sold out before i made up my mind.
wouldn't stop me, would just wait for the re-sales. Got some cheaper that way too. Figure going for 200 got down at 125
>i don't think i'd be able to grind for that amount of time.
i get really really determined about these things
>can't put a pricetag on that.
another case of my favorite character killing one of his favorites. Many many cases which says more about me than him
>>84340842
>spend money on useless stuff while the buildings were literally falling apart.
good to know schools are about the same everywhere
>first time a few years ago when they rereleased it in cinemas.
nice. Can see that being the ideal way to experience. I for years didn't care much for going to the cinema but experience has grown on me more and more
> ever growing backlog.
worth it i'd say. It's not quite as good, but still pretty strong and has some pretty iconic moments later half
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>>84340842
>lot of the dinos were animatronics or some other practical effect.
Goes along way. The switch to heavy use of CGI was disastrous with how badly most of that's aged. I see the Star Wars prequals and am genuinely amazed how bad the first one looked.
>>84346902
heya cat! I'm good. Hope you're having a good weekend
>got back form a bikeride
have a nice time?
>'m a bit tired
take it easy
>>84346960
most people here are going to say no and it's more discouraged. don't think it's a contest who started earliest and more importantly if you do end up losing control I think it's easy enough to avoid veins if you know where they are. Would recommend figuring out that first if you're concerned about falling into it
>>84346992
honestly, I don't think most people here even have BPD, most are probably closer to your experience. links were just passed around since some people found them helpful regardless.
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I slacked off again today. It will be the death of me...
>>84340995
>i would just need good grades in the final exam and the daily quizzes to make sure i dont fail
That's not too bad. Does thinking about it like that help at all?
>but overall i think i'll listen to something familiar and calming
Do you think it helped at all?
Let us know how you're getting on now if you feel comfortable sharing.
>>84341277
>i think i should clean my pc sooner rather than later
It's a chore we all need to do day.
>i wonder if there's something similar here.
You might be able to find it if you go to an Asian store. The packaging will have a stick dressed like a cowboy on it.
>any favorites?
I usually just get pocky. Almond pocky is the best but boring, normal pocky is good too.
>overall it's getting worse here as well
I wonder if there's anywhere it's getting better for... It would be easier if all the bad stuff didn't taste nice.
I lost a lot of weight very quickly after I started posting here(like 10kg), but I've put it back on and then some by my awful dietary choices once things stabilised.
>>84346902
Did you see anything nice on the bike ride?
>>84346960
I wouldn't recommend it. Why do you want to start?
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>>84346992
Trust me, anon. You don't want to have BPD. It's horrible for the person with it and everyone they get close to. You're not any less valid because other groups get more attention.
>>84347224
Did you take any pictures of your adventure?
>I for years didn't care much for going to the cinema but experience has grown on me more and more
A few years ago I started going to my local cinema and I got hooked after that. It helped that the under 25 tickets were quite cheap.
Watching Kill Bill one a huge screen with a good sound setup last month was awesome.
>>84347280
>I see the Star Wars prequals and am genuinely amazed how bad the first one looked
It really was a dark time. Bad CGI aside, the prequels can't be go any higher than 1080p because that's what they were filmed in. Bravo Lucas.
On a related note, I'm very glad that the 3D fad is long over. Every film was 3D for what felt like an eternity, until it just stopped.
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i'm the anon who went to urgent care yesterday. they said it is infected, and i was prescribed antibiotics and given a tetanus shot. they sent me on my way without bandaging it back up after i removed my own for examination, which was strange. but whatever. i took a bus really far out of town hoping to clear my head and stay away from my knives, but i still feel dead inside. i'm considering the ER, i don't know if i'm safe with myself right now. i just need someone to talk to that can help me figure out what i need. i don't know where else to get help on a sunday except the ER. but it feels extreme. or like they won't be able to help me much. i just feel like i'm on the verge of a break.
>>84346960
you shouldn't, but i know the urge is hard to fight. i didn't start cutting until my 20s either, i'm almost 30 and i still cut. you can't 'larp' being a cutter if you actually are cutting, you are just a cutter.
>>84346992
i can understand this. but you can cut because of a myriad of issues, not just bpd. no one 'owns' self harm.
>>84347224
i hope the adventure was fun.
>>84347325
there's always tomorrow. don't beat yourself up.
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>>84346960
hey anon
>Should I start?
nope don't start
whay are you considering it?
>>84347280
what adventure? :0
yep it was nice ^^
>>84347325
>slacked off
D;
>anything nice on the bike ride?
saw a deer from up close and a little fawn too, it was very fat
>>84347473
hello o/
>they said it is infected
that's not good
hope it heals soon
>me on my way without bandaging it back up
whaaat?
strange
>don't know where else to get help on a sunday
i don't know:/
maybe there is some hotline you could call for instructions?
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>>84346768
hi officeanon! almost missed the thread since i always filter for /cut D:
>>84346902
hi catbro! how was your ride?
>>84347224
>pulled into a late night adventure
exciting. what happened?
>Fate isn't even as popular as it used to be.
probably for the best
>makes it easier to know where things are
hopefully, but i have to admit that i forgot more things about these games than most people know. it's been a while.
>scary first time, then you know where the jumpscares are so it's not worries at that point
same with souls. loads of jump scares and traps in those games, too.
>i do miss collectathon games honestly after you said this...
they're fun if they are finite and at least paced somewhat reasonably..
>Lucas Arts
always loved their adventure games.
>Pandemic made it. Really good studio. I liked Mercenaries as well back in the day. Played a crap ton of that game
looking it up, i remember the characters from ads and reviews, but i never played it.
>would just wait for the re-sales.
just checked and the prices for that figure, as you said, fluctuate between 130 and 200. can't say i'm very fond of the character anymore though. just makes me sad these days.
>i get really really determined about these things
that's why you get rewarded and i get jack shit, so it checks out.
>another case of my favorite character killing one of his favorites.
i think i'd be mad, too. ^^
>>84347280
>The switch to heavy use of CGI was disastrous with how badly most of that's aged
best example for me are the ron pearlman hellboy movies. the practical effects still look great, especially in contrast to the bad cgi.
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>>84347325
>Did you take any pictures of your adventure?
Wasn't much to take pictures of or didn't have chance when I was since driving a lot. I went to some bars, drove around a kind sketchy part of a city I've never been in my life prior, and drove through a scenic area with this huge river and bridges when I was heading back around midnight. Completely unplanned
>A few years ago I started going
i literally hadn't been to one in almost a decade till I went to see the chainsaw man movie, now I've been a couple times and for weeb and non weeb films
>It really was a dark time
now we move to the times it will be bad AI
>Bravo Lucas
Craziest realization for me was growing up and realizing I think I like the Phantom Menace way more than I liked Attack of the Clones
>I'm very glad that the 3D fad is long over.
yesssss, i remember the stupid 3d glasses and horrible forced scene design where you know they'd set stuff up to use the 3d lol
>>84347473
hi anon, glad you at least got some help and sounded like it wasn't the worst experience.
>i just feel like i'm on the verge of a break.
do you feel like it's imminent? very least can vent here if you need to. Someone will try to help
>>84347701
described above in some detail. It's a long story lol but wasn't not fun
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>>84347325
>It's a chore we all need to do day.
i'll have to read about how not to fuck up my pc while cleaning it...
>You might be able to find it if you go to an Asian store
don't have one close to me, but maybe if i'm in one if the bigger cities again.
>I usually just get pocky
classic for a reason. do you know these little chocolate filled koalas? wonder if they still exist...
>I lost a lot of weight very quickly after I started posting here
you were very distressed at the time, so that might have factored into that.
>I've put it back on and then some by my awful dietary choices once things stabilised.
maybe we should make a deal to have a bit more restraint when it comes to food. right after i checked if those koalas are still around.
>>84347346
>Bad CGI aside, the prequels can't be go any higher than 1080p because that's what they were filmed in. Bravo Lucas.
also an issue for digital animation in general. lot's of anime from 00s onward have that problem.
>I'm very glad that the 3D fad is long over
it'll always rear it's ugly 3d-glasses wearing head every few decades. there's some people who really want to make it a thing. same with vr.
>>84347473
hey anon. hope it heals well. probably not a bad idea to head there if you're not feeling great. not the right place for that kind of thing, but maybe they can tell you were to go while patching you up.
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>>84348058
>almost missed the thread since i always filter for /cut
Damn it!!! I messed up! I do it on cut which made me not realize (but is also sometimes a mistake as well... aha...
> what happened?
I think I mentioned a little on Discord, but I drove to another state to see someone and then turned into a most of the night thing
>probably for the best
fine line between being popular enough they make more, not so much it attracts people who ruin it by getting changed to accommodate them.
>it's been a while.
I hear you. Though suppose it makes it more fun to back and replay that way
>. loads of jump scares and traps in those games, too.
they do have a creepy aesthetic to them at times, though i never got too far into a mainline souls game
>are finite and at least paced somewhat reasonably..
I was fine Banjo Tooie's over the top levels that just sprawled on forever. Same with DK64 even if it was a confusing mee
>but i never played it.
it was a neat series. People said 2 sucked, but I had a great time with both. Original was very hard at least for me as a kid. It was one of "do the mission anyway you want" type games and had a lot of fun with it
>can't say i'm very fond of the character anymore though.
what character was it anyway? probably for the best not to have bought it
>i think i'd be mad,
shoulda chose a better character to like
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>>84346768
>How are you doing today?
Bad
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Today
>Why did you hurt yourself?
I have nowhere to park a car. I want to start my life finally and get a better job and go to college but my stupid town doesn't allow overnight streetside parking. My parents driveway doesn't have enough space and I don't know what the fuck to do. The nearest lot is a 15 min walk. My parents won't even let me ask my neighbor either. I understand my dad is going through cancer treatment and I'm worried about him and I love him. But I can't not worry about this and my mom called me an idiot and how I should've started this sooner and said a bunch of hurtful stuff to me. I want to start my life and it seems im unfairly stuck. I don't want to walk to my current job in the heat. This situation fucking sucks so much. I need to drive to start my life and I don't know what the fuck to do. This would be so much easier if they just let me ask my neighbor who's friendly with us. I'm fucking scared for my future so much. I cut myself today out of anger and briefly considered suicide but I won't do it. I'm so fucking scared though.
>>84346902
Hi cat!
>>84346992
I can understand anon. I don't know really what to say but nobody deserves a mental illness and you don't really want BPD it's not good for anyone involved
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>>84347346
I know having BPD is horrible, but having AvPD is horrible too. Atleast if i had BPD i would get the small comfort of being represented.
>>84347473
>i can understand this. but you can cut because of a myriad of issues, not just bpd. no one 'owns' self harm.
True, I was just ranting more in general since i see BPD get far more representation, sympathy, and attention than any other disorder. It feels like bpd owns mental-illness as a whole online, not just cutting. Idk, this is probably just a me problem desu
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should i make it deeper before they see it
i dont want it stitched they ruin the scar but they wont let me
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good morning everyone
how's it going?
>>84350094
don't make it deeper anon
it looks very deep as is
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Larped as a sysadmin for many hours but everything seems to be on the path to working now. Proxmox is pretty cool.
>>84347473
Hope you're doing alright anon. I don't know if I'm reading this wrong but it sounds like you want permission to go to the ER. If you think you need to go you probably should.
In the meantime you're more than welcome to post here for support.
>>84347701
>saw a deer from up close and a little fawn too, it was very fat
That's cool. I can't think of the last time I saw a deer. Did you take any pictures?
>>84348077
>Completely unplanned
Sounds like you had a good time. Would you do something like that again?
>now I've been a couple times and for weeb and non weeb films
I'm glad you've gotten a taste for it. It's good to support your local cinema since they're all dying now.
>now we move to the times it will be bad AI
I've not seen anything too egregious yet, but I'll brace myself anyway.
>I think I like the Phantom Menace way more than I liked Attack of the Clones
It's been so long since I've watched the prequels that I can't remember anything about them. Just that I didn't really enjoy them.Never watched the sequels either.
>i remember the stupid 3d glasses
Remember when they tried to force 3D televisions? Good times...
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Wrote the other half of the post and then forgot to post it for an hour...
>>84348138
>i'll have to read about how not to fuck up my pc while cleaning it...
The most important one is holding your fans down if using a vacuum. I think if they spin too much that can damage stuff somehow.
>do you know these little chocolate filled koalas?
Yes, I've seen those around here.
>that might have factored into that
That and going several days without eating... Looking back I was in a terrible state then.
>we should make a deal to have a bit more restraint when it comes to food
That's a good idea. From now on I'll try to avoid ordering slop and just make pasta. It tastes nicer and is cheaper anyway.
>also an issue for digital animation in general
I know some CG movies get re-rendered at a higher resolution but a lot of anime is stuck at 720p I think.
>>84349163
You could try asking your neighbour anyway, and maybe offer some payment for the trouble. What's the worst that could happen?
>>84349905
>Atleast if i had BPD i would get the small comfort of being represented.
What kind of representation would you like to see?
If it makes you feel any better lots of mental illnesses get shafted in that regard.
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heya guys, sorry i've been very busy with stuff lately. been trying to game a bit more and try to watch anime again but a lot of life stuff has been happening also so i haven't really found much time. hope you're all doing well tho.
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>>84348058
heya
I enjoyed the ride but it tired me out
saw some nice stuff and had fun ^^
>>84348077
heya how are you today?
>>84349163
heyo
>Bad
sorry to hear about that :<
hope you feel a bit better later
>they just let me ask my neighbor who's friendly
maybe you could just go to your neighbor and ask?
>>84352152
>Did you take any pictures?
no good ones D:
>>84352642
hello
what sorta stuff is keeping you busy?
>>84353421
nap time?
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>>84353490
They live right across from me and I don't know how my parents would react if I did it. Both of them seem to hate the idea for some reason. Even though I told them I'd move it at 7am every day.
>hope you feel a bit better later
Thanks anon.....I've calmed down a bit. I'm gonna try to focus on what I can control at the moment. I'll wait a little longer before I make a big deal out of this
>>84353421
Hope you feel better anon
>>84350094
It's scary anon, that's extremely deep. I don't know how you do it. Please don't torture yourself like this
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i couldn't deal with the exam. until i had like less than 6 hours to study. i slowly lost it when i finished other homeworks, then i decided to rest, it was a good idea, because it helped weakening my anxiety. my mood swings calmed down and i became almost mentally ready to fail the exam. until i really did almost no effort i didn't even try to study at home, i just looked at some pages for some minutes before the exam. i went to the exam hall and i really didn't know the answer of any question.
it's okay though. i'm not that depressed now lol and i can still pass later.
honestly i don't clearly understand what's making me sad but i think one of the reasons is that i don't want the teacher to see how horrible i did. maybe the teacher doesn't care but idk i'm easy to get triggered when it comes to this.
man i'm tired. i didn't have the best night and i didn't sleep after the exam, it was a tiring day. good things happened though.
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>>84354007
>don't know how my parents would react
well honestly you shouldn't care
I think it's completely acceptable to nicely ask a neighborhood about something like that
>anon.....I've calmed down a bit
glad ro hear that
>wait a little longer before I make a big deal out of this
okay o7
So watcha gonna do with your day now? any fun plans?
>>84354443
heya ^^
sorry about it fren
it wasn't your fault
>can still pass later
phew
do you know when?
>want the teacher to see how horrible i did
blehh
they'll have to handle it somehow
it's not their grades after all, if it makes them so sad then they should just give you a good grade instead
>good things happened though.
wanna say what?
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>how are you doing today?
alright, I've been sick for like a week, I got tested for strep throat, tested negative for that. They said I was fine but I think it might be a sinus infection.
>any plans for today?
a doctors appointment for a different reason lol
>when was the last time you hurt yourself? I am proud to announce it a year ago, almost to the day.
>why did you hurt yourself?
if I remember correctly I found an Xacto knife that I forgot to throw away and the urge took over.
>anything else bothering you?
no, not really, I still sometimes imagine myself bleeding. For some reason I find it soothing
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I think I focused too hard and got a stress headache. I had a nap and I'm alright now except for having a slightly unsettling dream...
>>84352642
Good to see you again. I'm doing well. I hope you are too!
>>84353490
>no good ones D:
You remember things better if you don't apparently. So maybe that's a good thing.
>nap time?
yep. I thought I slept for a really long time (saw it was the 14th now and thought I woke up at 2pm) but it was only a few hours.
>>84354007
>I don't know how my parents would react if I did it. Both of them seem to hate the idea for some reason.
That's very odd...
Honestly I'd just ask the neighbour while they're out one day. They might be fine with it, in which case you can tell your parents to pound sand, I guess.
>>84354443
Sorry to hear it was kind of a mess, but at least it's over now and you can make up for it later.
I hope your mood swings will ease up.
>>84355611
Get well soon, Mr. Stocky. Being sick is no fun.
Good job on being a year clean!
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>>84356277
I woke up alone in my dad's car in an unfamiliar place. Thinking that my family left to do something I went back to sleep. I woke up again and they still weren't back so I left the car to explore and texted everyone to ask where they were. My sister sent a picture of her surroundings but didn't know where she was either.
After some exploring I found my grandma's house and asked to use the toilet there.
I got a sense that my parents left me in the car to hide that they were doing something they probably shouldn't.
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hello guys
waddsup?
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>>84358938
for now I'm just chilling
not sure what to do
4chan is superr slow :0
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>>84346768
>>How are you doing today?
A little better. I got a call back for marine biologist job. I'm just not sure about the pay in a more expensive state.
>>Any plans for today?
Just watching star trek and dexter. I think I'm gonna buy hades two while it's on sale.
Got another job information season tonight.
>>84359135
hi cat
>4chan is superr slow :0
yeah not much except new Harry Dresden memes.
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>>84349163
A bit late replying, but you gotta get the car and go against your parents somehow here. if you ask your neighbor and they agree, can lie later if things work out. You can't let them cause you to get dragged down over this
>>84352152
> Would you do something like that again?
under similar circumstances, yeah. but i got pulled out, i'm not running around like this alone
>seen anything too egregious yet
it's mostly been tv commercials so far but really obvious. Only reason I know it is I have boomer parents who run the TV all day.
> I can't remember anything about them.
I think they did wonders for expanding the lore of the galaxy and very interesting world design, but execution from a film perspective was a bit lacking. often heard people say the best thing they liked about them was getting the Clone Wars series.
>the sequels
first of those was mediocre, but not horrible. Everything after was a crime against the franchise. I remember seeing episode 8 in theaters and it was horrific. They also had 2 different writers who couldn't agree on the narrative being told lol
>>84353490
been away a few days, but long days are over for now
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Hey guys !
how are you?
I had a dream last night
I don't remember much of it but I remember I was playing cs 1.6 with some people, or more like we were inside of the game and after a while some strange guy appeared I think we get into an argument and he tried to attack some girl and so I got a knife out and started stabbed him and he stabbed me a bunch
I particularly remember getting stabbed on my left forearm close to the wrist and the balde going below palmaris longus but I didn't feel any pain, I remember that unfortunately I didn't manage to kill that guy before I woke up
lately I haven't had many dreams, or more my brain didn't remember them
so I'm glad I remembered this one >
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My friend visited and made curry today. It was very nice! I'm glad I met her a couple of months back since I don't think I'd be a very good state right now if not for her kindness.
>>84361821
>i got pulled out, i'm not running around like this alone
I see. I used to go on small adventures here but it's once again become too hot for me to consider that now.
>expanding the lore of the galaxy and very interesting world design
Star Wars lore never really interested me but I can appreciate that a lot of effort has gone into it. Sometimes I would go on Wookiepedia and look for mundane articles like "shoelace" and "chairs".
>Everything after was a crime against the franchise
I don't understand how they managed to kill something as beloved as Star Wars. It doesn't even seem possible.
Oh well, I'm happy watching my transfers of the original film reels and pretending it ended with RotJ. Living in blissful ignorance.
>>84362397
Hello /cat/. I'm doing well.
Do you think you could beat someone in a knife fight if it came to it?I'll avoid the low hanging fruit of a joke about this thread's proficiency with edged weapons.
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>>84348553
>Damn it!!! I messed up!
yeah. took me 30s longer to find it. >:[ i just don't like to filter just for cut because it doesn't filter out the results for cute.
>drove to another state
i think that's new information, but i maybe i just didn't catch that. must have been quite the night. ^^
>it attracts people who ruin it by getting changed to accommodate them.
the only people complaining about gatekeeping are the people the gate is supposed to keep out.
>they do have a creepy aesthetic to them at times
tower of latria from demon's souls still weirds me out.
>Same with DK64
i was never into the n64. tried it a few times, but couldn't get into it. feels like i completely skipped the early 3d graphics-era sometimes. i have zero nostalgia for anything ps1, either.
>People said 2 sucked
as long as you liked it, who cares what other people thought.
>probably for the best not to have bought it
true. that thing would spend it's days locked up somewhere.
>shoulda chose a better character to like
taste is something even money can't buy.
>>84352375
>I think if they spin too much that can damage stuff somehow.
good tip. will keep that in mind
>I've seen those around here.
those are great. ^^
>That and going several days without eating... Looking back I was in a terrible state then.
fasting can be a good thing when done intentionally, but not so great when you do it because you're distressed.
>I'll try to avoid ordering slop and just make pasta. It tastes nicer and is cheaper anyway.
alright. i'll try to restrain myself when it comes to sweet stuff. o7
>a lot of anime is stuck at 720p I think.
pretty much. one if the big advantages of cell-animation is that you can just scan the cells at higher resolution when the technology gets better. if you actually kept and preserved the cells, that is. not many studios who seem to do that anyway.
>>84353490
>I enjoyed the ride but it tired me out
saw some nice stuff and had fun ^^
what more can you ask for. :D
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>>84346768
kay, so exams in a few days.
I bought a pack of blades and around 10 bandages.
blocked off all social media(ig 4chan is the only one left)
trying to focus, but I am in this dissociative state and can't focus on studies at all, I haven't studied all year, and I am worried it would be quite troublesome if I dont pass.
The problem is I am scared to use them now. I think I've been 2 months clean.
I just stopped using the method just cause of the summer, have to wear half sleeves and dont want others to see the cuts.
Instead, I started sleep depriving myself to get rid of the anxiety. but that won't work here, no matter what I do I can't seem to focus and I dont have enough will/courage rn to make the cuts and get out of this dissociative state. ig it's over for me. any tips to focus?
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>>84363182
hello :D
sounds like a good day ^^
very glad you have a friend like that
how did you meet btw? I don't really remember
>could beat someone in a knife fight if it came to it?
I think so though with knife fights usually the winner bleeds out in the hospital
>>84363314
heya
how are you? I might go on another bike ride tomorrow
>what more can you ask for. :D
yep ^^
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feeling so bad, my chest feels so tight. wasn't the best day.
>>84354752
>heya
how are you cat?
>do you know when?
at finals
>if it makes them so sad then they should just give you a good grade instead
idk man, the whole thing was because i was mentally and physically drained, i couldn't get myself to study, so i don't wanna hear anyone unaware of my situation and conditions to mock me in front of the students who are also unaware.
>wanna say what?
i had nice conversations with a family member
and i wasn't feeling so bad after the exam. i felt wrong but yeah whatever
>>84355697
>I hope your mood swings will ease up
thanks disanon
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>>84363343
>I haven't studied all year, and I am worried it would be quite troublesome if I dont pass.
you can do it, anon! i believe in you! (*^*)9
>any tips to focus?
cold shower maybe?
>>84363351
>how are you?
got a bit of a headache and i'm really sore from my workout yesterday. i don't think i'll do much of anything this evening.
>I might go on another bike ride tomorrow
any ideay we're you'll go?
>>84363382
>feeling so bad, my chest feels so tight. wasn't the best day
sorry to hear, buddy. :< what's got you down?
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>>84363412
>what's got you down?
i'm not feeling the best ever since the week began. the first two days were terribly stressful, on the second day things got so hard that i didn't study for a mid-term and i wasn't feeling perfect ever since.
and today things happened aswell
idk man i feel the weight of everything choking me and pressing on my chest
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What do you guys listen to while cutting? Varied DSBM here...
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>>84363382
hey hey :D
>feeling so bad, my chest feels so tight
damn
sorry about it fren
>how are you cat?
quite alright, didn't ro much today
I had a dream >>84362397
later I worked a little bit on a map and now I'm chilling :3
>at finals
oh, when are they?
>don't wanna hear anyone unaware
yep they don't know what you're going through
>. i felt wrong but yeah whatever
eh try not to worry about it
>>84363412
>headache and i'm really sore from
D:
are you relaxing now? maybe you could take something for the headache
>ideay we're you'll go?
hm last time we went tona little town about 30km away and tomorrow we'll probably do something similar but someplace else
>>84363343
hey anon
>exams in a few days
best of luck!!!!
>would be quite troublesome if I dont pass.
do you know someone who could get you last year's exam pictures?
that could help
>problem is I am scared to use them now.
maybe that's for the better
is there some other way you could use to get out of your disassociation?
>started sleep depriving myself
that's only makes things worse I feel
>any tips to focus?
well 10 days is still a lot of time
How many exams do you have? would you be able to retake some of them?
What's the last thing you remember that might be on the exam? maybe you should start by taking a look at that again?
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>>84363444
hey! trips! (^-^)
>on the second day things got so hard that i didn't study for a mid-term and i wasn't feeling perfect ever since.
understandable. that never feels good. you can retake it though, right?
>today things happened aswell
can't ever catch a break, it seems. :[
>i feel the weight of everything choking me and pressing on my chest
wish i could help you out somehow and make things easier for you. you think there'll be some time for you to slow down in the near future?
>>84363474
>im not sure why im feeling so bad.
it's not like you want things to be this way. it just became to much to handle. it's ok to feel down when things don't go the way you want them to.
>>84363509
>are you relaxing now? maybe you could take something for the headache
as much as i can. watching the new stuff made here vid. thag should do the trick. headache is a bit better now. will take something for the coughs, though. how's your evening going?
>we'll probably do something similar but someplace else
you guys and your "small" tours. ^^ will you take some snacks or eat somewhere during the trip?
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>>84363508
dsbm while cutting is kino. personally, i'm quite fond of the most heartwrenching strain of slowcore known to man.
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>>84363509
I would be quite lucky if it were 10 days.
the problem is I think the first exam is tommorow.(17th) and like I think I may be able to prepare for it today. then the main problem starts.
after the exam on 17th, we are having 3 exams in a row. from 20th.
20th, 21st, 22nd.
and I dont think I would have enough time to prep for all 3(especially maths, despite a friend helping me) if I go with my current pace.
Currently, I am not even looking at the chapters, Just looking at examples and previous year papers and memorising keywords So I can construct an answer mid-exam. The problem is I despite that my inability to focus is insane.
Like my goal was to do 1 subject a day but I've wasted 3 days and still have not completed economics.
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hello
gonna go on a bikeride today today :3
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>>84365509
good morning! hope you have a great day!
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>>84362397
> he tried to attack some girl and so I got a knife out and started stabbed him
chivalrous cat
>>84363182
> visited and made curry today.
nice and curry is quite good so lucky there too
>small adventures here
i try not to do it too much like this, since wondering around unknown areas at night is an easy way to get mugged. I found myself in an area with the blue police stations and did the chuckle "i'm in danger" bit
>too hot for me to consider that now.
starting to get that way here
>would go on Wookiepedia
My favorite articles there were about the evil Luke Skywalk clone named Luuke Skywalker (who I call 2 u Luke) and that there wase a Luuuke (who I call 3 u Luke) who came after. This what Disney took from us
https://starwars.fandom.com/wiki/Luuke_Skywalker
https://starwars.fandom.com/wiki/Luuuke_Skywalker
>It doesn't even seem possible.
Incoherent writing from people who tried to ride the coattails of past success. The best sequel film was the one that regurgitated a New Hope. People go back forth with the "cultural war" shit that got injected into it by Disney, but even independent of that, the movies were just bad.
> transfers of the original film reels and pretending it ended with RotJ.
have to watch the og version to avoid ghost hayden christensen from showing up at the Endor party.
>>84363314
>it doesn't filter out the results for cute.
i forgot people use more than just r9k and there's nothing cute here lol
>must have been quite the night.
I'm like less than an hour drive to like 4 different states, so it's not as crazy as it sounds. Parts of my own state take longer to get to
>the gate is supposed to keep out.
honestly anyone who can't follow fate probably has more pressing difficulties in life,
>tower of latria
looked this up and that design is sick
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>>84363314
>early 3d graphics-era sometimes.
there for sure some bumps along the way. If you're used to 2d and go to how expansive and confusing some of the games were back then i can see not enjoying it. Having flashbacks to Glover on the N64
> zero nostalgia for anything ps1
as i don't either since i never played it!
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I had a possibly important meeting dropped on me the other. I've done a bit of preparing for it. Hopefully all goes well.
Also I wasted countless hours trying to troubleshoot something that wasn't even broken (I was just looking in the wrong place).
>>84363314
>fasting can be a good thing when done intentionally, but not so great when you do it because you're distressed.
I think even when fasting you're supposed to eat after being up a while.
Hopefully life never gets to that point again.
>i'll try to restrain myself when it comes to sweet stuff. o7
You can have something nice - I forgot to do the dishes and got a borgor...
> if you actually kept and preserved the cells, that is. not many studios who seem to do that anyway.
A lot sold them off or gave them to animators.
t. owns a Medabots cel
>>84363343
Best of luck with your exams!
>any tips to focus?
Pomodoro timers seem to work quite well for me.
>>84363351
>how did you meet btw? I don't really remember
We met at the conference I went to a couple of months back. Even though I didn't present anything I'm glad I went.
>>84363474
Sometimes you just have off-weeks. As long as you don't make a habit of it, try not to worry too much.
>>84365509
Do you usually cycle to the same place or do you explore?
>>84366429
>wondering around unknown areas at night is an easy way to get mugged
You always have to stay vigilant there, I suppose.
>the evil Luke Skywalk clone named Luuke Skywalker (who I call 2 u Luke) and that there wase a Luuuke
sovl... nu-Star Wars could never.
Speaking of Star Wars lore, I always come back to this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVzc20Bm8Xo
>Incoherent writing from people who tried to ride the coattails of past success
I remember people saying it redeemed the series when episode 7 came out. Don't they look foolish now...
>have to watch the og version to avoid ghost hayden christensen from showing up at the Endor party
But then you lose the bizarre musical number in Jabba's palace...
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hey guys I'm back !
a little tired
gonna take a shower
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>>84366429
>there's nothing cute here lol
wouldn't go that far, but there's lot more arguing about what's cute here than i care for.
>less than an hour drive to like 4 different states
i kinda imagine states in the u.s. like the different areas in world of warcraft. like as soon as you cross the border the weather changes, you got a different biome and more aggressive mobs.
>anyone who can't follow fate probably has more pressing difficulties in life
probably. if you want to call that a life...
>looked this up and that design is sick
it is, but the sounddesign and music really does a number on me...
>>84366476
>If you're used to 2d and go to how expansive and confusing some of the games were back then i can see not enjoying it.
i used to play a lot of early rts and point&click games on pc, then some earlier 3d games like gothic and then got into ps2. basically skipped the whole early console generations and while i have a good time with the 2d console games, the 3d ones just don't click.
>Having flashbacks to Glover on the N64
looked it up. that thing is nightmare fuel...
>as i don't either since i never played it!
interesting. how do you feel about the surge of low-poly indie-games?
>>84367856
>I had a possibly important meeting dropped on me the other. I've done a bit of preparing for it. Hopefully all goes well.
good luck, dinon!
>wasted countless hours trying to troubleshoot something that wasn't even broken
hard to figure out sometimes. at least you know what wasn't the issue now.
>I think even when fasting you're supposed to eat after being up a while.
i did 7 day pure water once. it was pretty intense.
>Hopefully life never gets to that point again.
fingers crossed.
>I forgot to do the dishes and got a borgor...
there's worse food than a burger, i feel. watched some vids of a guy recreating instagram recipes and those were worse than a lot of fast food items out there.
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>>84367856
>A lot sold them off or gave them to animators.
quite the stupid decision, but understandable. i guess the studios aren't interested in keeping (and paying) for archive of their work.
>t. owns a Medabots cel
nice. ^^ how did you get it?
>>84368604
welcome back! (^-^) how was it?