I did drugs yesterday
Today I don't feel good

Fair

Brain go BRRRRR

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On Hitler's birthday (4/20) I'm making some sweetened tea like he loved, is there a recipe anyone would recommend?

I don't know if I should add sugar, milk, honey, condensed milk...
For the tea it's black tea of course but I might not have taken a good enough type.

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Today I was feeling really autistically mentally ill. I tried to go for a walk but it was too bring. Started staggering gabapentin doses but jt doesn't really feel good. End up buying 7 zopiclone pop them all, hardly even effects me so I go buy 10 trays of 50mg tramamdol and 50mg of diazepam. I pop 20mg of the diaze and take 400mg of the trams. Now I'm home laying in bed. Its all a but pathetic really. Chasing feelings that want solve the fundamental structure of human embodiment- which is of a temporarily existing corpse, aging through time, constant change, and so any goods in this world are necessarily fleeting, cannot be grasped and help, and will turn to dust in the sands of time. And even worse is the means by which pleasures are felt is through a body 'a mortal, aging, dying body that has constant pressing material needs or you will suffer and die. Ultimately these drugs don't feel good, they aren't good in the true sense. Essentially you temporarily poison yourself then deal with the aftermath. You chase drugs BECAUSE of this horrific situation we are in -> embodied as a locus of needs and vulnerabilities hurtling towards an inevitable yet instinctually horrifying death.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-QB0CwvYFq8

>>84365032
Life has value because it's temporary and we all die.
Imagine living forever, that's hell.

Havent done drugs in 2 years or something (unless you count caffeine)

>>84365886
We do count caffeine. And nicotine. And alcohol. And a lot of medication.

If not for pregabalin I'd be too anxious to go outside.
bravo to modern medicine for inventing medication that temporarily cures autism.

Just ordered a kratom tincture, from what I think is the most reputable buyer I could find. Never tried before. Wondering what advice you /druggies/ might have on its use. I have heard a massive amount of both good and bad about it, so I'm pretty wary of trying it, but finally gave in to curiosity.

>>84364881
Black tea with honey is great, usually doesn't need lemon or cream in my opinion. If you wanted to get fancy you could add a spice like cinnamon or honey.

>>84367094
Just remember a quote from OP's picrel
"Let it dieeee Let it dieeee!"

How do i know that an injection went bad? Like how do i know that i fucked it up? Sorta scared of infections.

>>84367454
Don't do it. IVDA is a horrifying thing. You know that scene in LOTR when Gollum is getting tortured in Minas Morgul? That is literally the kind of screams I've heard treating people who go down that path.

>>84367736
i am not really talking about any drugs of the usual kind.
just hormone injections with an insulin needle into some fat.
would ask this on /lgbt/ but that board is so slow and i assumed that people here do a lot of needle stuff too and could advise

>>84367901
its sort of normal to do this yourself. The procedure is exactly the same as with insulin as i understand and people also do that on their own.

I have been pounding back agmatine sulfate and its not doing shit for my withdrawals

>>84368124
you also inject hormones subq, just like insulin. most people even use the same syringes and inject in the same places like it.

what i wanted to know is what to look out for to prevent any bad stuff happening after injection

>>84368164
>prevent any bad stuff happening after injection
Yeah, the rest of your life if you go down this path.
Do it if you want, though, just know that you're hopping on a train very late and there are a lot of people who will want to make sure you hurt.

I'm brewing home made cider I bought with EBT.. I'm gonna do a 3-4 day cook on it with the regular bread yeast added. It's already 12 hours in and bubbling, I made a gas trap to let the co2 out and prevent oxygen from getting in with a straw, two plastic cups, and a box cutter with some gum to act as a gasket.

Right now it's cooking in the sink at like bathwater temperature.

It would be nice to share some with my brother when it's done cause we hardly do things together.

I never see anyone use carts anymore why is that? every time I give a dispo a try it just sucks and stops working halfway through my pen never gives me issues.

>>84368273
I was just about to post that eating edibles and smoking a baby joint of good stuff doesn't make me feel much. But taking a little hit or two off of a live resin cart gets me super fried for hours.
The new expensive carts these days are a different breed. They work fine

i blacked out on xanax beer and rum last night and chimped out at my gf (justified)

im drinking vodka tonight and prob drop 1 or 2 bars

>>84369268
i wish i had bars. all i have are these footballs and its one a day. at least the weed kicks it up.

i turn into Spock when i take xanax, my emotions completely leave my body and I make decisions extremely fast, good ones too.
I wonder how many athletes micro dose this shit.

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>>84369307
at least here in mexico is easier to get since any doctor can prescribe them even with no proof of diagnosis or something, i got my pharmas that way but i do have a script

Xanax is truly a miracle drug, its the only way I can feel normal and get out of bed/my room

its also really fun to mix it with alcohol and weed

>>84369787
>>84369307
Xanax is not a wonder drug by far. Compulsive redosing will leave you amnesia, confused, possibly in jail, and at the very lamest the talk of the town for a month. Want something functional? Try klonopin. Longer half life= smaller addiction potential

We are killing mother nature.

Just fi wished my last tab of 7oh. Sunoxone treatment and kick it for good or jusg hold onto the subs for next time it gets bad
The high isn't even sustainable. What a hole I've dug

>>84370283
*finished my last tab

>>84364397
drinking tonight debating if I want coke after last time when I was seeing shit

>>84370038
>Longer half life= smaller addiction potential
this is completely wrong. most people don't realize they're still under the influence with multi-day half-lives. the amount of clonazepam builds up in your system and you think you're less addicted than you even are. and klonopin is also particularly bad about causing seizures in withdrawal. cold turkeying just 0.5mg daily caused my to have a seizure on day 5. with a 36+ hour half life, taking 0.5mg daily is actually having upwards of 2mg in you at all times. but if someone with no tolerance took 2mg at once, the effect would be massive compared to just 0.5mg

>>84369307
why would atheletes want xanax? normal people don't want their emotions to disappear and normal people feel like they make faster decisions when they're not on sedatives. you're just an anxious faggot who can't function normally without a sedative. if you got over your bullshit, you'd have a much better life. but the way you talk about the way it makes you feel tells me you'll never do what's necessary to get there.

>>84369268
if i took even a single 2mg bar i would be asleep in an hour no matter the time of day. nothing leads people to a downward spiral as quickly as benzos and opioids from my observation. stimulants affect people very differently. but i rarely ever see anyone using benzos wisely. they should only be used sparingly when absolutely necessary.

and idk how the fuck you people enjoy them. all the fun gets sucked out of everything instantly when i take them. music doesn't even sound good anymore.

>>84370038
Ahhh yes, the autist chimes in, the autist who cant read. None of that redosing shit happens when you take footballs retard. One football is like 1/4th of a bar.

All drugs are a fucking wonder drug if you have an unlimited supply and dont over do it.
This mother fucker said klonipin.
Nigger try OXY, that shit blows gaylonopin out, the fuck outta here autist.

>>84370612
>why would atheletes want xanax? normal people don't want their emotions to disappear and normal people feel like they make faster decisions when they're not on sedatives. you're just an anxious faggot who can't function normally without a sedative. if you got over your bullshit, you'd have a much better life. but the way you talk about the way it makes you feel tells me you'll never do what's necessary to get there.

I think you missed the part where i said MICRO DOSE. MICRO DOSE MICRO DOSE DO YOU KNOW WHAT DAT MEAN DUMB NIGGER?
Also youve never played an actual sport in front of people, thats why youre making this ignorant ass fag post.

Try playing a spot in front of shit tons of people and crowds and tell me calming your nerves wouldn't be an advantage. MICRO DOSE, FAGOOT, LEARN HOW TO FUCKING READ.

>>84370592
Well shit, now I'm scared to come off my prescribed 4+ a day habit...

>>84370821
Oxy and kpin isn't even the same class of drug. No sense comparing them. I don't care how short lasting the drug is, if you have a hard srug and it doesn't last long you will want to redose

>>84369268
>(justified)
based, i believe this 100%, they always deserve it, but why this time

Can I take some xanax, pregabalin and drink a little tequila? nothing else to worry about than respiratory depression? or will it laser my liver

>>84370833
In this case, taking 80mg or 160mg of propranolol would be much better than taking a microdose of alprazolam. I have used both, and propranolol is just as good as alprazolam for combating anxiety, and if we consider that propranolol also prevents physical symptoms of anxiety such as tremors, it is even better.
80mg would be enough to keep the athlete from feeling anxious. 160mg would also not make the athlete anxious and would also help keep their blood pressure under control.

>>84371154
Whenever I've mixed benzodiazepines with alcohol, I've vomited, even with small doses of both substances. So I wouldn't do that. I don't know how it would affect your liver, but if you already put your liver to work hard metabolizing alcohol and other medications daily, it might not be a good idea.

>>84371138
fucking bitch accepted gift from another nigger because i was short on money for some time and she fucking slapped my last 1L rum and coke cup out of my hand

>>84371178
I always mix benzos with alcohol and never had a problem aside from blacking out and doing stupid shit, but ive never tried it with pregabaline added to the mix so im curious if itll potentiate the numb feeling even more

>>84366997
Pregabalin does nothing on autism. Sounds like you're just anxious because you are insufficiently socialized

>>84367114
Tea has caffeine. That's why pregnant women and children shouldn't drink it.

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>>84367820
You're just pornsick. Stop watching porn.

>>84368175
>EBT
Are you brown?

>>84370187
>We are killing mother nature.
Yeah we should really nuke India and china. They're like 80% of ocean pollution.

>>84370833
microdosing is a meme. it makes even less sense for something like benzos, opioids, or stimulants. it only makes sense in the case of hallucinogens.

anything that requires maximum performance and coordination will be diminished with a sedative. there's no way to get around this. your whole premise is stupid. it's the kind of idea only someone with an unhealthy attachment to benzos would come up with.

>>84371188
>first one
a beating
>slapping your last cup out your hand
murder. she got off easy

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cool item I found on tarkov named "Trimadol", it's a injectable combat stimulant that also "promotes the opening of K+ and Ca2+ channels, causes hyperpolarization of membranes and inhibits the conduction of pain impulses".

so it's basically tramadol but it's russian and is used for doping instead.
This is neat because in real life I have 2000mg of tramadol SR hopefully arriving tomorrow, I have not taken tramadol for months and has zero opioid tolerance.
hopefully it will be not speedy as instant release tramadol, I find them causes more anxiety at zero tolerance despite being opioid.

>>84371467
>it's a injectable combat stimulant that also "promotes the opening of K+ and Ca2+ channels, causes hyperpolarization of membranes and inhibits the conduction of pain impulses".
that's funny because this pharmacology makes no sense at all. a drug that did that would be anesthetic/depressive/and would severely interfere with cardiac conductance. it certainly wouldn't be a stimulant. also, Ca2+ channels carry more pain signals, because when you block the Ca2+ channel in the NMDA receptor with dissociatives, you get a more powerful painkilling effect than any opioid is capable of. but then you're dissed and your coordination and memory are whomped.

>>84371483
At least that's what game text said, I think it's describing the opioid effect basically.
Tramadol in real life is serotonin-noradrenaline agent and it can be pretty jittery. guaranteed if you combine caffeine with it.
I remember having fun playing video games on it, it does not make me too sedated to play video game but rather too wide awake to even manually sleep.

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Whenever I get the munchies I usually order mcdicks which usually runs me 25-35 leafbux but this time I'm trying it with just icecream and its fucken awesome. I wish I had some chips tho, but I can also just make instant noodles.

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My day wasn't going great so I took 150mg of pregabalin (while fasted and without tolerance).

Now I'm slightly retarded and a bit more relaxed.

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>>84371614
>McDonalds
Stop buying goyslop. Make yourself some popcorn or eat some grilled cheese.

>>84371634
nigga i do not give a fuck about goyslop im eating a tub of the cheapest icecream i could find at safeways

>>84371639
Basic ice cream is often fine. Do check the ingredients.

Don't do McDonald's anymore though.

>>84365032
>You
>we
Again with the projection. Next time you go on a ramble, see if you're actually capable of writing these parts in first person singular. It might be a first step towards accepting some kind of personal responsibility, instead of continuing to act like *we* are all somehow collectively inside *your* horrific situation.

>>84365032
idk what you're blathering about man, but if you're taking a bunch of sedatives all the time hoping to feel good then that's why you feel bad.

ON 6MG XANAX 600MG PREGABALIN AND A WHOLE BOTTLE OF VODKA AND I DONT FEEL DRUNK FUCK THIS SHIT

>>84371864
the bars are "cancelling out" the alcohol, just give up on the vodka, plus that shit tastes like shit anyway.

>>84371868
??????

>>84371864
nigga you need to start tapering down before you wind up in a catastrophe. 6mg of xanax would forcibly render me unconscious, and with that vodka it would kill me.

>>84371874
the feeling i mean. being drunk aint the same when you take that much xan, feels different.

>>84371868
> the bars are "cancelling out" the alcohol
how? this is my go to combo everytime and i always end up drunk as a bitch i think its the lyrica

>>84371874
6mg of xanax would forcibly render me unconscious, and with that vodka it would kill me.
i got a fucking big tolerance i prob need like 20mg xanax to get me like that

>>84371884
>>84371887
kek i didnt quote it correctly at least i know now my brain is slowing down

2mg xanax puts me to fucking sleep for 20 hours how the fuck do you drink vodka with that id be drifting in and out of consciousness standing up

>>84371898
yeah cause probably you aint got tolerance yet

>>84371898
he's obviously got a crazy tolerance, but i can't understand how he even gets that much xanax all the time, and i would feel awful all the time if i was taking benzos and drinking like this. i was so miserable after just 1 year at 0.5mg/day klonopin. the longer i took it the worse i felt. i felt better again finally after several months completely off it.

>>84371904
im in mexico so i can just go to any doctor with my script no need for psychiatrics

opioid withdrawal with melatonin and benzo gave me very fun dream, people talks about nightmare in withdrawal but I didn't really have that. all dreams was fun and I would pop melatonin then go back to sleep in order to have more dreams.

I remember having a stash of drugs I was withdrawing from in real life stacked under me bed, for some reason they were all in syrup form inside what looked like a robotussin bottle.
I ate alien's streetfood that was cooked by immigrant from planet mars, it tasted like octopus and reminded me of osaka street food. maybe it was one of their mate.

the only bad thing is that I do so much drugs in my dream so when I wake up I'll miss chugging cough syrup in my dream because I can't do anything.

>>84371864
I pity your brain and your liver.
You're just harming your body and lowering your IQ

>>84371940
i know i already got huge memory issues but xanax just makes me feel like anormal person and get me to actually do shit

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>Be depressed virgin robot
>take heroic dose of shrooms with vitamin C and most of a preroll for the first time in my life
>spend hours in my room sweating and feeling the ceiling spin around
>hear voices and see the tree outside my window bend and repeatedly smack against it like a hand trying to get inside
>music I chose to set mood now sounds demonic, am too fucked up to turn it off or change it
>wake up the next day feeling anxious and exhausted
>use newfound feelings of impending doom and fragile mortality to break down inhibition
>download every single dating app I could find on my phone
>use PUA tactics I found online and brute forcing to have sex with twelve women and two men in less than three months
>tfw shrooms turned me into a bisexual manwhore

>>84371917
i had this too. it was like the day after. i was laughing and lucid dreaming, i had to force myself to get up otherwise i wanted to lay there dreaming half asleep all day.

Couldn't post yesterday, see if it works.

>>84365886
Why's that, anon? Willingly or otherwise?

On antipsychotics. Trying to figure out why I feel like they have no effects on me. Not Even Diazepam seems to work. I just smoke cigarrettes everyday.

>>84368092
Try one night with *a little* Alcohol, one night without.

>>84372032
In my experience it depends on what you're taking it for. If schizo them not working is actually them working if you aren't actively in a delusional state or suffering from hallucinations. How many meds have you tried so far?

>>84368164
Can't help you with that , but goodluck, anon.

>>84371955
Now that you tried and realized by yourself that meaningless sex is not a solution, what will you do?

>>84371955
you screwed it up by using the weed. you should have tried it without weed first.

>>84371999
site was undergoing issues. it's fine now.

>>84372032
they don't feel like anything. that's probably why. i just felt a bit stupider and very bored when i took them.

>>84372032
every single time i took those they literally did nothing but make me tired or vomit the next day.
But I had an old friend, his dad had this drug called Amitriptyline, i dunno if anyone in here has even heard of it.
It literally did nothing if you took it in small doses, but if you took enough it basically put you into a salvia trance, it was fucking gnarly.
You felt so much euphoria you would start hallucinating, it was like euphoria based, felt like when you laugh in your dreams, you know you're laughing but you don't wake up.

>>84367820
>>84368164
as long as your needles are clean and you're careful to sterilize, then you'll have no issues. subcutaneous isn't particularly dangerous.

but female estrogen levels with an XY-chromosome body will interfere with your blood and liver chemistry in particular. it also seems to cause joint issues. you will need to be very careful about blood clots. i would consider taking a daily baby aspirin if you're going to take HRT. they really should be more honest about this with trannies, but the authorities won't admit to all of the known physical risks for political reasons.

>>84372032
Yes I have the schizo diagnostic. Its been a rough 15 years streak of sobriety. Not a single pill I take for sanitys sake ever Made me feel diferente. Well maybe My first Prozac pill. But You know, I have been overdoing Diazepam for the week and pop pills like candy hahaha. This is weird. This one time I tried Turbina corymbosa seeds and nothing but vasoconstriction happened. But this other time I did dxm and got half high.

Excuse My incoherent mumbling. I just don't want to waste money on HBWR seeds which I love.>>84372049

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>>84371904
im not the one popping bars and drinking but i know a lot of vendors sell bars really cheap theyre just bromazolam so its probably not that expensive to develop that high a tolerance
i dont get any euphoria from benzos weirdly enough but theyre useful for panic attacks

should i go get some caguamas

>>84372066
amitryptaline is an extremely dirty drug with lots of additional activity beyond just being an SNRI like venlafaxine.

it's also an antimuscarinic (like benedryl), a 5HT-2A blocker (like antipsychotics), and it even has modest NMDA receptor antagonism (think dissociatives like ketamine, DXM, and PCP).

>>84372071
>XY-chromosome body
Lmao, just say a man.

>>84372073
Sorry to hear that anon. Getting meds that actually work are really a world of difference, I hope whatever psychiatrist you have is supportive and intelligent enough to get you something that will actually help you

>>84372092
dissociative, thats the word i was looking for to post. It was like the most euphoria and dissociation I've ever felt, it was like you just injected DXM into your veins or something.

>>84372122
really? most people don't describe it anything like you did. did you take way more than the normal dose for some reason?

>>84372130
Yeah my friend would steal it from his dad and we would just take a pill every 30 minutes until something happened. It was fucking insane. I can't tell you how many we took.

my gf at the time used to annoy me by sharing her sympathies over her retarded fuckboy guy-friends with me
>he used to be a model but he hated it :(((
>he does all these drugs and fucks everyone he meets, he's so troubled and self-destructive :(((
lmao fuck outta here with that shit

i think my autism gets worse when smoking weed

>>84372148
generally speaking, nothing really gets better over long term from smoking weed

>>84372148
I've gotten to the point where I only really enjoy weed the first smoke of the day, then after that it's pointless until the next day.

>>84372166
>having more than one "smoke" a day

>>84372154
i dont even smoke that much is the weirdest thing, i usually smoke 1-2 times a month

>>84372172
i see, you meant short term effects. yeah, it turns different people into even more different people.

>>84372148
Weed turns weirdos into bigger weirdos. The real anti robot drug is alcohol as long as you keep track mentally to not embarras yourself or overshare

>>84372207
for some reason i just cant stomach alcohol, been like this since i was 18 and had my first time getting proper drunk
pregabalin makes me normal though it also makes me social

>>84372138
>Yeah my friend would steal it from his dad and we would just take a pill every 30 minutes until something happened. It was fucking insane. I can't tell you how many we took.
i'm sure you're still unaware of this, but it takes about 4 hours to reach the peak plasma concentration when taken orally due to various pharmacokinetic details.

so, you probably took at least 3-4 pills minimum before you even started to feel anything. and then if you took any more it would just keep increasing in intensity over the next 4 hours since your final dose. i'd love to hear exactly how much you took, because it's very uncommon for people to abuse SSRIs/SNRIs, and i've never met anyone who used them recreationally like that.

and amitryptaline's NMDA receptor antagonism is pretty unique among even both the tricyclics and modern SSRIs. i actually had no idea there was a drug like this on the market. i thought all the tricyclics were just antimuscarinics and antipsychotics. but this is very reminiscent of DXM which starts out as an SNRI and converts into a pure and long-lasting dissociative.

>>84372148
you're just stoned nigga

>>84372166
when you get to this point you have to quit for a few days or you're just wasting weed and making yourself flattened out mentally.

i fucked my brain two years ago on a 6 months long molly coke weed ket tussi alcohol bender and now i feel so fucking retarted will my head ever recover i cant do shit the mental fog never disappears

>>84372170
>not hitting your bong all day, everyday while doing nothing productive

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>>84372362
That's my worst fear.
Fucking up my brain with drugs and being forever aware that I'm diminished and can't function as I should.

I'm glad that I didn't damage my brain yet or that I don't realize it.

Sorry you're in that situation.

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>>84372077
nah i get pharma no one here sells pressed or at least i havent found someone who does and i dont think dealers fuck with them, meth weed and sometime lsd and x pressies are all they sell

ive been wanting to get broma powder but dh and torzon shipping fees are expensive as fuck

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i want to "jedi flip"
but i've never had hdma and mushrooms don't work on me and i don't have a lsd person anymore.
finding drugs is hard.
i've always wanted to try mdma

>>84372284
you're retarded and need to stop acting like the thread chemist. it's cringe.

>>84372570
Just order on a darknet market, everyone does it.
Cheaper and safer than doing it irl

How come you drug people don't care about natural stuff anymore?

Had a night of heavy lyrica and weed use and I blacked out watching madoka magica, 10/10 sesh

>>84372582
are you supposed to use your real address?
i was once going to order from the darknet but i stopped because i didn't know if i was supposed to use the address to a vacant house and then take the package from there or if i should send it to my house, and i also got paranoid it would be a sting op or something and the cops would show up to my house, i have that kind of bad luck.

>>84372538
oh it might just be a canada thing since drugs are decriminalized so its probably a lot easier to get away with RC distribution. We don't have an analog act

>>84372600
Of course you use your real address. The cops will not spend the ressources on a raid or whatever because someone ordered personal quantities of drugs. They don't care _at all_ about consumers.

Also just having drugs sent to your address isn't a crime. There's no way to show you ordered them after all.

We all do it. It's fine.
Start with a drug that cannot be detected, like LSD. You'll just get a letter with bloaters in it.

Visit r/darknet if you want to see the retardest reddit zoomers doing it, it's just fine.

>>84372585
What do you mean natural stuff? Nothing is outside nature.

>>84372626
cool, that's encouraging.

>>84372581
why are you bothered by anything i said? you sound insecure.

>>84372362
it's the tussi (isn't this usually just MDMA?) and molly. idk why MDMA busts people so hard but it does. you probably could have done the rest of that and been fine.

>>84372601
the analog act doesn't seem to make much of a difference in the US. people just put that "not for human consumption" thing on it and that's basically it.

>>84372600
it's very easy and safe. i've been ordering to the same address for a decade now. done at least a dozen packages and i've never even been ripped off somehow. though one guy did get my order wrong once. you'll be totally fine. nobody cares about small purchasers. you won't get noticed at all.

google something called the "dark net market bible". that should give you plenty of information about how to do it. but really you just need to pick a vendor that has lots of reviews that are all positive, and you're pretty much all set.

>>84372709
>dark net market bible
sure i'll look into it, i've also been interested on dmt, hopefully there's a good vendor selling that.

>>84372601
yeah here in mexico is way easier to just got to any doctor since any can prescribe controlled substances than find someone selling rcs, i algo got my diagnosis to back it up but most of the times is not necessary

>>84372709
>(isn't this usually just MDMA?)
yea molly and ket (and sometimes coke and lsd) dyed pink, but you never now, i was friends with a dealer and he would just cook up leftovers and dye it with colors
but yeah i abused the hell out rhe mdma be it pills or crystals, got to a point where i would just swallow a whole gram or drop it in soda

>>84372740
>got to a point where i would just swallow a whole gram or drop it in soda
i have never used MDMA anything like this. i don't know anyone who's taken a whole gram of MDMA at once. isn't that a dangerous dose? couldn't that kill someone who doesn't have a tolerance? and shouldn't you never have a serotonergic tolerance unless you take a daily SSRI?

i hate to say it, but based on what i've read, you may have done permanent damage. there are a lot of stories on bluelight where people talk about that permanent brain fog you describe after really abusing MDMA.

if you like the way it feels so much, why didn't you do psychedelics more often? i usually like them better than MDMA for the same general conditions.

>>84372589
I also seemed to have fed my virtual pets blacked out, glad I have my priorities in order

>>84372589
>>84372851
what pet game?

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>>84368175
That's so cool! I know a guy who's making mead for a bar he owns and I tried to copy him once with some honey, yeast, and a plasic 2Litre bottle. Mine was horrible. Hope your batch is better!
What cider are you making, anon?
How much experience have you got? Looking as you use hobby specific words like EBT.
I do hope you give your bro some!

The way I know handmade Alcohol is the best:
I was friends with a family from a tiny gated community far from my city and I'd mainly hang out with their oldest girl (my age). I'd get up early to take a bus, noon was spent smoking weed with the girl and her mom, we never did the same at nights: concert and MDMA or LSD finger painting (I'd bring my guy friends over at times), and sleep at their house.

One night she led me to a guy's backyard-turned-makeshift-neighborhood-bar with a wooden sign, a small stage for music, a long dark-wood bar top running infront a fridge and a glass rack, and some stools on the other side. Everything on the menu was handmade by the owner. I was handed an ice-cold bottle of *fresh* citrus-spiced hoppy wheat beer, all flavors were popping out and balanced just right. No kidding, his is the best beer I've ever had in my life up to that moment and in 12 years since then and I visited many local breweries and wineries and went pub to pub in London. Most craft beer go for ~9$, he sold 330ml for ~6$.

We had a craft beer renaissance >8 years ago and you'd see a new brewery everyday. Fresh and interesting beers in attractive cover art flooded markets. Few breweries survived, but it was one time to be alive in! My favorite brewery: "The Dancing Camel" closed in 2023 after outliving the worst of it and was both innovative (Doc's Green Leaf Party: Hemp-infused IPA) and refreshing (Eve: Summery Blonde Ale). R.I.P. Dancing Camel!
At least we got imported Gamma Ray.

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i finally managed to quit weed for a whole week. i have been addicted to it for years. this will be the first time i vape without a tolerance in years. i'm almost afraid to break my clean streak here, but i've reached the point where the withdrawals are almost gone, which means i must have more cannabinoid receptors available than i have since i was in college.

i've waited until it's a few hours out from bedtime, and now i'm going to set up a music playlist in preparation. i haven't taken it seriously like this since i first got my hands on weed as a teenager. it's an interesting feel. will report back on how different it feels later. i am going to vape approximately 1/3 of a gram of pretty good stuff to get an idea of how strong it should be compared to how strong it's been with a tolerance.

>>84368273
Big scale production will always lead to bad or damaged products. I think this is where the cart market is along having a bunch of fake brand name carts sold. Best you can do is buy a vape pen like a Puffco Pivot and vape all of the concentrates you want or dry herb vapes like a Tinymight or a Venty. I don't even use mass produced disposable coils for my nic vape and install either from known coilmakers' or my own.
Though sounds hella comfy to just screw in my box mod a 510 real quick and it'll turn into a weed vape.

>>84368614
That's one way to spend the weekend or get more druuuuugs.

Once again asking disso bros to redpill me on DMXE and PCP and whether DMXE can be taken orally at 6mg. It supposed to have a warmer euphoria, but I've not found much data about it online apart for an AI rundown.

>>84369268
>im drinking vodka tonight and prob drop 1 or 2 bars
So what you're saying is you're gonna do it again.
Hope you have fun, bro.

>>84370612
>why would atheletes want xanax?[...]
Whoa, a bit harsh, no?

>>84373133
Once you get over all the withdrawal symptoms you can go back to smoking like once a day. Your tolerance is so low you stay high all day basically.

>>84370612
>and idk how the fuck you people enjoy them
A lot of people, like me, like sedatives. It gives you a floaty feeling and lesss fucks to give.

>>84373183
dispensary weed isnt that bad bro

>>84370187
We need more, More, MORE all of the time and aren't petient enough for the cleaner methods, we need it and we need it NOW. Money goes to companies that do all of that and the companies flow cash to lawmakers in return so they're kept unckecked to do whatever they want. Forests stripped, oceans polluted, and animal life flee to the brinks of human civilization. I saw a documentary about elephants who gather around deforesting machines so they can eat what falls to the ground since their homes no longer exist.

>>84373208
how the fuck are you getting DMXE and actual PCP? i have been trying to source those for years now.

and yes you can take it orally but i'd recommend nasal or rectal.

>>84373235
i do NOT get a floaty feeling from sedatives. i feel like i weigh more. i get a "floaty" feeling from opioids. i cannot enjoy things as much on benzos. and they totally dull out the effects of other drugs.

First experiment with Xanax: took 4mg the night I got it and fell asleep, then woke up and took 2mg and my body was heavy and I puked. My grandma found me and thought to call an ambulance all freaked out, but I assured her everything if fine in slured words and fell asleep on the livingroom couch. Lesson learned, I'll continue experimentation in my own home. Just am waiting for the war to officially end and not just start over when the temporary treaty ends in a week. Can't wait to go back to my apartment already.

>>84370283
>Sunoxone treatment and kick it for good or jusg hold onto the subs for next time it gets bad
>The high isn't even sustainable
You say yourself a 7OH habit isn't sustainable, so I say Suboxone and rid yourself of this vile drug once and for all. Take the last 7OH tablet as a goodbye high and nuke your opioid receptors with subs. Goodluck!

>>84370566
>debating if I want coke after last time when I was seeing shit
The answer is no, Coke is a vile, shitty drug that'll cost you an arm and a leg. Do speed or Meth instead. Amphetamine is still short, but will get you there for longer and by using less. Just be careful of compulsive redosing (you can redose 2-3 times, but not until you run out). Meth is just king of stims and you can stay on a very stable and good level of high for a long while without wanting to redose at all. Some people say the comedown is hell, but I pop 3mg K-pins and feel nothing but float.

>>84370592
I took 2mg Lorazepam (20 hour half-life) and 0.25mg of Brotizolam (6 hours half-life) everyday for 3 years and stopped for 2 months and did not have any withdrawals at all. I also take 3mg K-pins a week. New to Xanax, so we'll see how that fits into all of this

>>84373299
why are you using it like this? what are you hoping to achieve? why not just smoke some weed, take stimulants or psychedelics?

>>84373376
why are you trying to talk sense into a retard?

>>84371154
A very little of each should be fine. The tricky part is dosing it right. Like 0.25-0.5g Xanax, 300-600mg (max) Pregabalin, and a shot or two of spirit should be fine, but research it.

>>84373391
curiosity. why else? i like to try to make sense of the psychosis of this world as a hobby.

>>84373413
>>84371154
see^

these are perfect doses. but imo the xanax will make it less fun than combining the pregabalin and tequila on their own, possibly with more preg/alcohol than you'd take if you were also taking the xanax.

i don't think benzos are the right drug for trying to chill. i think they're good for dealing with sudden unexpected traumas, like how opioids should "responsibly" be used only when you have severe physical pain.

>>84371188
>accepted gift from another nigger because i was short on money
What kind of relationship do you two have? If money speaks only, get away ASAP.
>slapped my last 1L rum and coke cup out of my hand
What a waste. She has some issues or both of you do. Does not sound like a healthy relationship to me.

>>84373374
You must have some genes for metabolizing benzos fast. If I take a kpin I'm euphoric for hours. If I take it just a few days in a row I'm feeling moreish after that. Immediate addiction potential for me. My favorite drugs.

Opiates and MDMA are the opposite. They seem weaker than everyone says they are and I'm not impressed and don't want more

>>84371249
It's a short for bottlecount used by cider brewers to space batched in. It's a professional term.

>>84371614
Sounds yummy, have fun, anon! Also, don't order at McDicks, order from a real burger place. I've made the change and it's night and day. Maybe a bit more money, but well worth it. Can't go back.

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>>84373445
>euphoric from benzos
>doesn't want more opioids or MDMA
again. i don't understand you people.

>>84371621
Have fun, anon. I'm waiting for Sunday to take my pregabs, but am very high now so no worries! Will last til tomorrow night and then K-pins til Sunday morning then Pregabalin.

>>84371864
Loool. You're hella high rn, don't let that fool you.

>>84372061
>site was undergoing issues. it's fine now
Yeah, nice. I thought it was the app I was using so I opened 4Chan in Chrome and tried to post from there to cross-check the issue, but it asked me to verify Email and the page didn't load up.

honestly cant tell if my edible batch is bad or my stomach cant handle it anymore, but damn do i miss the body calm the day after taking them. no shaky anxiety because my body feels too sedated to even care.

this + a gaba/benzo would be the ultimate inhibition destroyer

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>>84373265
Maybe, but carts made on a large scale will have damages, which is why it only works for you half-way the oil. We see this now in Nicotine vaping, one coil is good, the other from the same box is shit and burnt.

I use rebuildable atomizers (RDAs, picrel) and prebuilt coils from a company I know and can sort one by one for defects or buy the more expensive hand-made coils that last longer and do 3x as much work as the prebuilt ones do.

My current coil is lasting me over 8 months (though you'd optimally switch it out every month or two) and I clean it well, I'm holding off on switching it cause I'm afraid to break my RDA and don't have a substitute, so I'll get one and then do it. For cotton I use standard Cotton Bacon for Nicotine vapes and a bag last me a year. All in all with juices, the whole thing costs me less than ~45$ a month instead of tobbaco, which would cost over ~70$ a month.

They just can't keep up with the demand for more disposable hardware and really don't want to put money into QA of products. People cought on that nowdays carts are shit hardware and are using other methods.

About fake carts, there's a SubReddit dedicated to finding fake carts and it's full of examples of fake carts sold in gas-stations and corner kiosks (don't recall the name and last used Reddit 6 or more months ago). Even if it's legit, there are manufacturing damages unless you pay top dollar for a brand that you know is quality-checked.

Again, a 510 cart with a gram worth of oil to just screw on top my vape and just adjust the Watts and use sounds like a very attractive way to consume weed, the demand just gets in the way of most companies imo.

>>84373278
>how the fuck are you getting DMXE and actual PCP?
Found the only guy in my cunt who sells them.
I don't know how legit it is, but he sold me Lyrica and it was fine, so maybe he's good. He also sells Alpha-PVP. He knows those are hella rare to find on sale so he sells them for more than is reasonable, I'm gonna buy half a gram of whatever I choose. Which of the two would you buy as a noob? DMXE or PCP? I am going to dose 6mg orally either way. I'm told DMXE is more euphoric and warm, but PCP is such a classic dissociative experience.
>yes you can take it orally but i'd recommend nasal or rectal
Thank you for answering! Oral is what I'll do unless the bioavailability is super low like in ket then I'll snort it. Is it? Too scared of boofing so far and don't have the tools.

>>84373288
>i do NOT get a floaty feeling from sedatives
And I do, nigga.
>i feel like i weigh more
Yeah, sometimes.
>i get a "floaty" feeling from opioids
Can't compare despite taking loads of Opioids since I use APs, which lower and modulate Dopamine levels and dull the feeling. Most I got was a kinda nice feeling and some warmth before itching all over.
>i cannot enjoy things as much on benzos
Sometimes a downer pill at just the right time can give life back to any party.
>they totally dull out the effects of other drugs
A useful tool for bad effects and comedowns.

>>84373961
get them both. they're both awesome. PCP just lasts longer and DMXE is probably better for a K-hole type experience. it would be unwise to hole on long lasting PCP and black out for hours on end. when it comes to dissociatives i dissolve the powder or crystals in water with a known concentration of mg/ml and then use an oral syringe to measure out doses and use them rectally. PCP types are extremely painful nasally. the DMXE would probably be fine to snort though.

are you getting them online or in person? i don't understand how you found them. i've looked through so many vendors in every place i could find online. and DMXE isn't usually sold on the streets to begin with.

>>84373376
>why are you using it like this?
I've got a polydrug use schedule and this was on an off day. I though that if I could manage last night's 4mg, it might act as functionally as K-pins at 2mg today and I'll just be a bit high and no one would know at all.
>what are you hoping to achieve?
Just a mild chill-out vibe, nothing much. But I'm at the experimenting stage, so dosages need a bit of work, hehe.
>why not just smoke some weed, take stimulants or psychedelics?
Weed makes me psychotic, I do stims on Friday, and I've 3 tabs of acid I'm sitting on for the right time, also Ketamine. I do Pregabalin at the start of the week, have most week sober just fine, then Meth on Friday and K-pins on Saturday night to fight the Meth comedowns, which I never have felt even without, but it helps me fall asleep.

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>Hiding how much I drink from my gf
I'm a fucking menace. I plan on marrying this woman and I still lie to her.

>>84373391
Hey, I'm not a retard, I just am on the very beginning stages of trying Xanax out and how it works with my body. When I do a new drug I do low doses, mid doses, and large doses and in all kinds of situations to test my limits and the drug's effects on me. By the means of personal experience I can know my body as well as the drug in ways impossible to achieve by reading about it. Maybe I could help some anon later down the line, too. Tell them what I've learned the hard way. Also, apart for vomiting once and my body being very heavy/lethargic there were no other side-effects, my gran was just over-reacting. I napped and it was all fine again.

>>84374092
How much do you drink?

>>84374092
if you acknowledge that about yourself then it means you truly love her. that's something that can motivate you to think differently about yourself.

>>84373445
>You must have some genes for metabolizing benzos fast
Yeah, I might be built different. On zero tolerance 1mg K-pins would make me very sleepy. Now? 3mg once a week is functional.
>If I take a kpin I'm euphoric for hours
Never had euphoria from it.
>My favorite drugs
One of mine as well.
>Opiates and MDMA are the opposite. They seem weaker than everyone says they are and I'm not impressed and don't want more
My meds dull the effects of both directly, so I didn't have a good roll in over a decade (MDMA worked fine for me and was a lot of fun) and never felt a full Opiate trip. It's for the best, though.

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taken so much Gabapentin over the past 6 hours
feels so good man

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>>84374110
At least 4 shots per day. Usually more, around 6-7 shots. I can quit cold turkey and have regularly but I always come back to drinking. Life is just inherently boring as fuck and smoking weed n' drinking makes it easier. I tell myself to stop and then pour a shot as soon as I get home from work anyway.

really wanna do benzos again but the withdrawals when tapering off them 2 years ago sucked lol

>>84374020
>get them both
I can only afford one next month. Which is best for a noob? I'm leaning DMXE.
>long lasting PCP
So it's longer-lasting. Good to know.
>PCP types are extremely painful nasally
Good info.
>DMXE would probably be fine to snort though
Yeah, I could guess from pics of it the dealer shared. What's the bioavailability of oral DMXE?
>are you getting them online or in person?
In person. I found the guy on Telegram when I was shopping for Lyrica in a pharma meds group I'm in where he posts ads. He is the only guy who sells them I've found in over a year on the app. All of my drugs are from Telegram.

I've 2 main dudes and like 7 side dudes so I'm never stuck. Used to be that you'll have to send a pic of your ID so the dealer could run it against an updated list of narcs and undercovers, but these days the list is rare and out of date and they're fine with a video of you saying the date and time and social media (I've none), though I don't shy away from an ID pic (bad idea, I know. Old habits die hard- been doing it since I was 16yo).

Also gonna try a new source of Meth next month, so I hope it'll be as good as some say his stuff are. One of my plugs (the one with DMXE) keeps massaging me to buy his stuff and it gets annoying. He isn't even very cheap. I keep telling him I blew this month's budget and will buy from him next month. He hooked me up to a Meth dealer that sells a gram for 100 local coin cheaper than my current guy, so if it'll be as good or better, I'll switch.

Look in Telegram first broader drug communities in your area and hunt for group links to vendor ads groups, then fillter from there. You'll find what you're looking for sooner or later. Maybe groups with keywords like "RC", or "designer drugs" in the title. The pharma group I'm in posted an ad in a general crime group (whores, fake documents, drugs). Not all vendors send to me, but plenty do.

>>84372142
I knew a girl who'd talk that way to me and we weren't even fucking. Yeeted her outta my life quick. I don't need all of THIS right now, thanks.

>>84372170
>having more than one "smoke" a day
Wut? Many people smoke more than once a day. I was (not recommended) smoking bowl after bowl in a bong from waking to bedtime and so did all of my mates. Weed is just the kind of drug you do more than once a day, you know?

>>84372228
>pregabalin makes me normal though it also makes me social
Under 2.5g? Me too and it's great.
Over 2.5g? It gets me drunk feeling without all the bad side-effects. Lyrica is very versatile and super awesome.

>>84372362
Maybe in a few years? We're talking about quite the amount of damage here. Do retarded things win retarded prizes, I guess. Report back in 3 years and then again in another 5. You might be a valued research candidate.

>>84371505
I wish I could enjoy tramadol. It makes me feel feverish and exhausted rather than mellow.
Though overall I generally don't have the best relationship with opiates.

>>84372570
Telegram provides for all of my druggie needs and more and can do the same to you, my friend!
>search clearnet for general crime/drug communities in your area. An "entry point."
>this step may take a while. Be on the lookout for an ad posted with a link to a dealer's profile or (better) a link to a group with keywords you want in the title (e.g., "Drugs and plugs New-Jersey", "Pharma Camden County", etc.)
>follow the link and hunt for ads that are relevant to you (e.g., "[dealer name] is here to bring love! [List of drugs] cash only. X area shipping free.")
>avoid paying ahead or in crypto, only in cash to a delivery person. If not, move to the next dealer.
>look for ads with a list of drugs, pics of the drugs, and optimally a price for each (though they might not show prices so they can charge some people more).
>never shy away from asking for a better price
>actualize final details with your dealer like price, amount, and delivery/dropoff location (my plugs offer dropoffs for less, but I always pay for delivery).
>tell them to send the drugs over.
>get your drugs, hopfully.
>do drugs, feel another way for a bit, see if good.
>if you got good stuff, congratz! You just found a new dealer. They too will see no one got arrested and tell you to be in touch if you ever want anything.
One dealer I regular I was connected to via a 2nd dealer, but that happend a few hours from starting to look for dealers. A pharma meds selling group I'm in where dealers post ads for what they sell and you pick one I've only found after one or two months of active hunting in many groups. Take your time and Telegram shall provide!

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Is it worth spending 20% of my salary on benzodiazepines? I intend to make sure they last at least 6 months.

>>84372600
>>84372626
That's sort of correct.
Sort of.
The real sticking point is that if they DO find out there's drugs going to your location you have plausible deniability that some fuckwit sent you something.
If you order it to a location only you know (like an empty house or a PO box) and they find out you're absolutely fucked.
It needs to be a real address.
It needs to be a real name.
If you have a middle name you can use that if it's more common and you can use a common misspelling of your last name but nothing outright fictional should ever enter the equation.

>>84374364
are you picking up in person from these people or what? what country is this in? i never used telegram. i've never understood how people just get anything off there somehow.

>>84364881
God truly has a sense of humor for making the most hated person in history born on weed day

>>84372600
>i also got paranoid it would be a sting op or something and the cops would show up to my house
>>84372626
>The cops will not spend the ressources on a raid or whatever because someone ordered personal quantities of drugs. They don't care _at all_ about consumers
>>84372709
>it's very easy and safe. i've been ordering to the same address for a decade now
All said, my friend ordered weed on a DNM and got his house raided by a joint force of military and regular police. Here ordering drugs from abroad carries 3 main severe charges: Trafficking, Smuggling, and importing a dangerous drug internationally; irregardless of quantity. Each alone can be a max of 20 years in prison and carry fines of up to hundreds of thousands of dollars.
//Story of friend

My friend had all these dropped for the lighter military law charge as he was lucky to be in active service back then. Military law is very light, simple, and straight-forward when it comes to drugs (basically, did the soldier posses the drug or no? No mafia in the military. No amounts for personal use and dealing. No what kind of drug. Just whether a disallowed drug was found in a soldier's person or personal items. They don't even care if you've done them yet, you could be clean. It's 4-8 months in military prison with nonviolent offenders who yelled at their commander once or something, usually shorter, and a dishonorable discharge. They don't want to keep you in too long or keep you in the system at all so they'll just release you quickly to civilian life and be done with you. A whole country to defend and so on)

//My point
If you can order from a domestic vebdor and bypass customs altogether then what the other anons say is true. For some people (me) ordering off the darknet is highly dangerous! (LSD, DMT, and Kratom might be fine as drug sniffing dogs can't or aren't trained to smell these) Telegram works fine otherwise.

>>84372585
This was hippie culture. A culture that came crossed with the general drug culture, but isn't it. You may hear of druggie treehuggers, but most drug users are the modern people just trying to get by. I like a good non-preachy documentory about the environment sometimes, but us "drug people" have arguably never cared about it in the first place. So while a lot of hippies were also drug people, not all drug people are hippies. /drugfeel/ has a varied userbase from all over the globe and walks of life.

>>84372581
>need to stop acting like the thread chemist
Idk, I like the pharmacokinetic info and such. I don't think it's cringe.

>>84372589
Sounds nice. How much pregab do you think you took?

>>84372601
>We don't have an analog act
I was surprised, so I checked.
"Prohibitions are built directly into the Controlled Drugs and Substances Act (CDSA).

Under Section 2(1) of the CDSA, an analogue is defined as any substance with a 'substantially similar chemical structure' to a controlled substance.

Many drugs are controlled not just by name, but as part of a class. For example, if a specific stimulant is listed, its 'salts, derivatives, isomers, and ***analogues***' are often automatically covered."
-Google AI
So technically, Canada does have an analogue act or laws that amount up to one in place.

>>84372788
>isn't that a dangerous dose? couldn't that kill someone who doesn't have a tolerance?
Nta, but yes.

>>84373133
>first time i vape without a tolerance in years
Without a *large* tolerance.

>>84373476
There are a many veriety and multitudes of people out there, lad. It is a thing of nature.

>>84374725
>are you picking up in person from these people or what?
Shipping to my doorstep via a deliveryman and that's all I'm gonna say about that.
>>84374762
>now that's good service, lucky you
But I am not looking for any more drugs! I've told him again and again that I'm good, no need, no money. He won't listen! Imagine my phone is in the hands of my gran or mom and a msg poppes up "Need Methamphetamine, bro?", "Good price, good price", "Pls my i hab monyz frm you lovely saaaaar?". It's uncomfortable.

>>84374227
Have a good time, anon!

>>84374426
>Weed is just the kind of drug you do more than once a day, you know?
No, I don't know. I used to do a small bit every night to send me to sleep. People tell me the same shit with cigarettes: "If u smoke u smoke a pack a day" whereas I just have one every 2-3 days or something. Is this a bit like what >>84365032 does? Projecting about it being "this kind of drug" and that "everyone does it like that" as a way of avoiding the subject of self-control and moderation?

>>84374304
>the withdrawals when tapering off them 2 years ago sucked
Keep them in mind and don't do enough to withdraw again. Simple. Once addicted does not mean always addicted. Just do less.

>>84375073
>I used to do a small bit every night to send me to sleep
That's also a way to use it. My point is, it's often used like that and its nature as a drug makes it more likely to be used in such a way. Not a lot of people I know of use as much moderation as you do with weed expecially. I've already quit, but was a daily user who smoked all day long for a very long time. The damage weed may cause you would be many times smaller than other drugs at the same frequancy.

>>84374652
>20% of my salary
>last at least 6 months
Yes. It makes sense to have a once yearly purchase of benzos if you use so little of them, but still needs them.

>>84374725
See guide in >>84374644

>>84375119
Even with my moderation, I think my memory got noticeably worse for several years even after I quit.

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>>84374778
It's always the leader. I mean, sure, he's evil and a driving force and an ideological monolith and by the end he was absolutely mad, but the rest are just as bad and no one remembers their birthdays.

Mind you, the only offence to have the death penalty in Israel is being a Nazi war criminal.
For example, in 1960, Mossad agents kidnapped Adolf Eichmann from Argentina and brought him to Israel to stand trial for his role in the Holocaust.

Eichmann was convicted of war crimes and crimes against humanity, leading to his execution in 1962. They hate Nazis so much they sent people after them post-war and gave them fair trial in the land of the Jews.

This case is a famous one and an interesting one too. They had him locked up in a safehouse until a plane could carry him to Israel. The look he has in his eyes when victims tell of horrors is so... Understandable. Idk how to describe it. Human, even. Like "Yeah, it's horrors, we all know it's horrors. What's your point??"

t. Not a Nazi

>>84375180
Interesting. It's still daily use, I mean once a day, but daily. So you might've gotten used to it.

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>>84374092
Man, I'm not hiding but I don't show my wife how much drugs I take and I feel bad about it.
I can't come out now and say that I've been taking them several times per week for months, it would just make me look like i hid it.

I don't feel good about it. She has no idea I'm not sober half of the time.

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>>84375252
Imagine being deported by force by jews just to hear weeks of lies and made up stories about things that never happened during the war just so they can pretend to have a fair trial and kill you.

They're really hateful people. The amount of spite they have against anyone that tries to go against them is insane.
Two thousand years after I still hear them bitch and moan about the Roman empire and how Adrian was a bad guy and all that.

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PSA: do not listen to the Israeli trying to shill telegram drug buying in every thread.
He's easily recognizable; he always makes long posts.
I don't know why he's trying to dissuade people from using Tor and crypto but it's obviously unsafe.

Using telegram isn't safe to begin with, there's a reason the platform requires you to dox yourself with your phone number, it's to identify you to the state.
Also using anything but Monero crypto to buy drugs isn't safe. If the money can be witnessed then the transaction is confirmed and you're easily caught.

There's a reason all veterans say to use a darker market on Tor and Monero. Those that don't get caught.

>>84375355
>just to hear weeks of lies and made up stories about things that never happened
Idk, anon. I think they really did happen. My grand grandpa was a survivor and spoke the same as those witnesses.
>pretend to have a fair trial
Well, things didn't look up for him.
>They're really hateful people
True. Sometimes. And they'll stop at nothing til they got you. "A nation will fall without deceit" the Mossad's motto. He deserved it. He was a killer. It brought a lot of people closure. Israel has got a very extensive program to memorise the victims and what they've been through. My grand-grandpa had documents for him and all of his family members he lost then. I saw my family name in the book of names in Auschwitz. The names my grandpa and his brothers were named after in honor. But yeah, very spiteful and with a history book worth of ploys to use.

>>84374444
ive always wanted to try a 2g+ dose im going to wait until may just so i can have my tolerance reset, then after that i might take a month break just because i have noticed my tolerance building up over time even though i do it 2-3 times a month
>>84374956
well we technically do yes but again since drugs are decriminalized it still leaves a pretty decently sized market for cheap benzos and other analogs

>>84372788
> isn't that a dangerous dose? couldn't that kill someone who doesn't have a tolerance?
yes lots of vomits came with it plus the tolerance i think that saved me, i just had this stupid mentality of always aim for the heroic dose and i just love mdma, probably my favorite drug after xanax, as a shy person being able to be more sociable and talk more is a godsend

yeah i probably fucked my brain more since i already had memory issues cause xanax abuse for years at that time

>if you like the way it feels so much, why didn't you do psychedelics more often? i usually like them better than MDMA for the same general conditions.
I did use them, candy flipping is one of my favorite things, but i hate that you gotta wait a couple weeks for it to work again thats why i didnt use them that often, but i genuinely love psychedelics too, i have a lot of funny experiences with acid, i would buy pay for 2 and get 3 and usually pop the three tabs at the same time or save one if a friend wanted to come, im yet to try dmt, im really curious about all the entities stuff and the machine elf

>>84375614
>i might take a month break
All you need is two weeks off.
>even though i do it 2-3 times a month
Huh, strange to have such a tolerance buildup.

>>84375614
>drugs are decriminalized
"As of February 1, 2026, illicit drugs are not decriminalized in Canada. British Columbia's three-year pilot program, which allowed for the possession of small amounts of certain substances, expired on January 31, 2026, and was not renewed.

Possession of illicit substances remains illegal nationwide under the Controlled Drugs and Substances Act, though federal and provincial policies often emphasize a public health approach over criminal prosecution for personal use. Exceptions exist only in specific settings like supervised consumption or drug-checking sites."
-Google AI
I don't disbelieve you, but maybe not decriminalized to the degree you suggest?

>>84375521
Oh I mistyped! Oops.

>>84373218
i didnt chimp out this time, i added like a gram and something of lyrica by the end of the night and never felt drunk drunk just a little more happy i dont know how to describe it lol

>>84373413
>>84373436
yeah thing is i got a fuckton tolerance for benzos bc years of abuse, i ended up taking like a gram of lyrica ny the end of the night and never felt drunk but i could feel i was high on something since everything seemed so nice

>>84373438
> She has some issues or both of you do. Does not sound like a healthy relationship to me.
yeah you got that right its not a healthy relationship at all, but there are nice and cute moments
codependency is a bitch and the sex is the best ive had
i took her virginity and desu im just too lazy now to go pursue another woman
i do want to get away but i just don want to be alone again and only seeking women for one night stands or casual sex whenever they feel like it
and id really like to marry her lol its all just messed up
and yeah i spoiled her so much so she got accustomed to expensive shit so when something happened that i stopped getting money for some time for shit she caused in the first place she started being like that, shes kinda changed now but idk
i do wanna get away but at the same time i just dont want to and dont think i can leave

its all fucked up

>>84375310
Sometimes you don't need to share everything you do with your female friend. Maybe if it becomes a topic of conversation and then downplay how long you've been taking them.

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>>84373496
kek i was i just didnt get the drunk feeling i wanted
>>84374471
youll be seeing me here, if an anon just randomly starts posting nonsense shit like a tard youll know its me

>>84375406
>I don't know why he's trying to dissuade people from using Tor and crypto
I'm not, I'm just saying it worked for me, and darknet is unsafe for me. Customs are relentless in their search for drugs and dogs will sniff my drugs out, or they'll show up in a see through screening, or another way. My friend go caught already and was raided, I don't want the same fate.
>he always makes long posts
I've done better. Are you sure it's not the military talk?
>There's a reason all veterans say to use a darker market on Tor and Monero. Those that don't get caught
When you have a domestic vendor*. I wasn't trying to make it seem like the less secure option, it's the safe one, but Telegram works just as well and is the source of all of my drugs for years now. It's safe unless someone doxxes you straight to police. You can delete chats and the whole app automatcally. Telegram doesn't tells on you to the state, you're insane.

Thanks for calling me as I am: Israeli and not a Jew.

>>84375836
>im just too lazy now to go pursue another woman
>i just don want to be alone again
I've been to this jind of relationship. My advice? Get away. Sooner the better. She's no good for you. You deserve a wholesome GF who loves you and doesn't find a fuckboy the moment the well runs dry.
Goodluck.

>>84375865
>kek i was i just didnt get the drunk feeling i wanted
Some say benzos dull other drugs.

>>84375865
>if an anon just randomly starts posting nonsense shit like a tard youll know its me
Idk, I can be a bit of a tard sometimes too.

>>84375733
oh shit that's actually pretty interesting. i live in alberta tho and in practice drugs are decriminalized if youre a user, the cops will just take them. i was caught once with adderall xanax lsd and grey market edibles and the cops didnt care lole
>>84375707
probably a big part of why my tolerance is so high is because ive been using pregab for a while and i also used to do it every 4 days
since i had a 300mg/day script i would do 1200mg every 4 days or so and it was awesome but im guessing thats where most of my tolerance comes from

I hear a woman in my head singing
>"YEAYEAYEAAAAAAAAHHHHHYEAYEA-
over and over :D

thinking about her again and missing her

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>>84375506
>I think they really did happen
I don't. I was never proven it did. Only told I would go to prison if I said it didn't.

>>84376934
why would you deny the holocaust, thats like a tankie saying stalin wasnt a true communist

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All the dealers that had faroxy (Iranian pharma oxycodone that has been very common in Canada lately, the best kind of oxy, they're very small with minimal filler and easily split and crush) have just ran out of it, I was about to order 10 more 30s but I am not even mad because I saved 200 bucks and I don't really think buying it would have been a good decision desu since I could spend these money on obscure RC psychedelics/dissos instead to diversify my stash. And Canadian/American pharma oxy is inferior in comparison despite being more expensive, so I was not going to substitute faroxy anyway

>>84376957
I was never convinced or proven it happened.
It's like the tooth fairy, people say it's a thing, but I never saw any evidence. In fact everything seems to prove the contrary.

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>>84376920
i remember whenever i made her smile with a joke or helping her out with something i would think of the smile she would give me for hours

>>84371955
>virgin robot
>mushrooms turn you into manwhore
Are you not entertained? Is this not why you are here?

would it be a good idea to take molly 2 days in a row
my first day id imagine i would dose 150mg and then 100mg and then the next day 250mg with no redose how bad of an idea would this be

>>84377430
No it's not.
Not only will it be very weak, you might harm your brain.
Also you should do more than 180 per session.

>>84377490
SHOULDN'T
not should

>>84377430
Why not try smoking a joint on day 2?

>>84376934
>I was never proven it did
I was. There's a mountain of evidence. Yad Vashem achieve alone contains tons of it. I went to Poland to see where it happened. My grand-grandpa's stories are strong enough proof for me. My grandpa and his brothers are named after his brothers who all died in a Polish camp. I think you'd need a historian to work on disproving that list you posted and not all answers will satisfy you. Some you'll call lies. But it is possible to do. We have proof.
>Only told I would go to prison if I said it didn't
Woha, wait, really? I don't think this is how things work at all. As far as I know you may lead a peaceful demonstration as straightup Nazis in the USA. "I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it." And so on? Who is going to put you in prison for this? What law says so? I think there'll be some social disapproval, but no imprisonment.

Also, I was a part of a planned military abandonment of a military base. I know the extent of the operation. First paperwork, then small proporty, then environment at large must be destroyed to fully call the job done and that's without needing to destroy much evidence we were there or do what we did. You take everything apart to its very core. Lines and lines of soliders shredding paperwork, days of dismantling furniture by hand and disposing of it one board of wood at a time, and many building to flatten down and soil to spread around. When it looks like an empty space, you've done it.

It's now a civilian neighborhood without trace of a base ever standing instead. I worked hard for days. Not to mention computing stuff. An HDD needs minimum of 3 to 7 overwriting passes (using random patterns), which is typically the baseline for software-based sanitization. All computing hardware is sorted into massive bins by type and sent to counting, matched to records, and moved to storage (monitors, keyboards, etc.) Or destroyed (HDDs, data storing devices, etc.).