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I feel sick to my stomach, I am close to failing "hs" as a male pushing 40 again, I pushed things out too far
Need to hand in assignments still
And I'm not even done yet I need more things still left before I can apply to uni
What good will this bullshit so when I apply for jobs even I don't even know what "degree" to put on my CV if I fail, not to mention its bullshit yo being with applying for shit tier jobs and they filter your because you didn't finish a hs degree at a shit job, but sure I complied because I felt bad lying I went somewhere and finished it
Now I won't even be able to apply with a clean conscience, not that it matters, it doesn't mean shit anyway
I need to apply for higher education still so it means something
Maybe I'm not cut out for this after all
Man, I should really have gotten my ADHD prescription 2 years ago before I start to fail all this shit again, and I should def have gotten stims before I apply for uni if this is any sign, but I also procrastinated sending on a request to get an assessment (takes years btw)

Life falling apart and spiraling down into negative emotions again because I fuck up, I was feeling positive and great

Now I feel like shit

Life hanging on by a thread