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Do you ever feel like you were born with a few wires switched in the brain?
>Others enjoy throwing a ball, you do not.
>Others enjoy the presence of other people, you do not.
>Others like singing and dancing, you do not.
>Others like drinking and smoking, you do not.
>Others post their life on socials, you do not.
>Others know how to naturally make friends, you do not.
I can do all of this, yet none of this triggers in my brain what it triggers in other people. I truly believe some of us were meant to end up here.
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>>84772458
Sounds like it yeah
>>84772562
What's the point of those classifications anyway
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>>84772674
Its ok to be left picrel
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>>84772436
I genuinely don't know if my psychosis was brought about because of my isolation the past few years, or if I was always fucked up and thats why I drifted into isolation.
In my hazy memories I can see attempts to be normal, and I think I was happy, but I think there was always an undercurrent of faking and discomfort.
so to answer your question: lol idk probably
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>>84772436
Yeah. Kind of.
I would read whole dictionaries or encyclopedias when i was like 6 or 7 and adults around me would marvel when asking me about knowing capitals of the world and fun facts, but i also wanted impulsively to engage in conversations and would be put aside because it was "adults matter" and honestly a lot of the time i was just spewing bullshit.
Never related properly to people my age, or younger, mostly adults. Sometimes considered "teachers pet" because i liked talking with them in general.
Showed early symptoms of OCD thinking behaviour and such, but only realized during college 3 years ago.
Got introduced early to internet and exposed to sex/porn when i was 9 years old.
Now i'm just a husk of myself, scrapping by the meager bits of ability i still have left after mental crysis and shit impaired my cognitive abilities. I wonder how i would have grown up before the era of the internet instead
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>>84773999
>I would read whole dictionaries or encyclopedias when i was like 6 or 7 and adults around me would marvel when asking me about knowing capitals of the world and fun facts
Kek that's almost every autist who didn't have language problems in childhood.
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>>84774023
I've read about the autism spectrum. The concept that struck with me the most is "monotropism" which has arose these last years, and i honestly don't feel identified by it. I think i haven't had problems with doing multiple things at the same time (use my bicicle on the opposite direction of the road a lot of times, know how to drive a car, etc) , i haven't had weird sensory overload crisis or something like that (though i once had an anxiety attack after feeling like everyone was staring at me), i can understand facial expressions, slangs, and social cues normally... and i don't really have hyperfixations, though there's time to time where i get pretty obsessed with a topic i get interested into which might be pretty stupid for someone else.