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Serious post here. I feel really bad but I can't stop seeing my gf as a man. Im solely into woman so every time she does something man-ish I get the ick.

Makes me feel like a shit bf but when Im being real in my head I can't really see her as a normal woman. I don't see her as either a man or a woman. But what I see her as feels closer to a slightly effeminete man than a woman. But not really male either. just something else idk.

I'm scared Ill accidentally misgender her one day. Sometimes it happens in my head.

I love her, but sometimes she fully acts like a male. She wears male clothing. Never wears makeup. Behaves like a male. A lot of the times she isnt even feminine. I like tomboys but only if they act like a tomboy, not a man. I can't really explain the difference, but it feels different.

I seem to not only have this problem with her, but with a lot of transwoman tbf. To see them as some kind of inbetween. I only know about 3 transwoman (and those are celebirty, don't know them personal) that I actually see as a full on woman in my head.

How do I change this? I feel like a bad bf.
Also is it smart to continue the relationship? Sex is difficult as Im not that turned on by her. I haven't been able to come even once. Also never got close tbf. But I dont know if that is because of a lack of physical attraction or a different personal problem. Im also trans so it can be my own dysphoria barrier. I dont care about sex that much tho as I can please myself.

I like being with her but I feel like the way I feel about her sometimes feels a bit unfair. Like she deserves someone whos fully attracted to her, also her masculine side and can see her as fully female.

I want to try to get her into more fem stuff but at the same time Ion wanna force her to be something shes not. Would it make her dysphoric if id encourage her to wear a dress? Idk I havent dared to ask but I dont know if shes masc bc she likes it or bc she doesnt have the confidence to be more fem.