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>2 years on E + laser
>Decent results for starting at 24 IMO
>Boymoder
>Think I look like a freak when I'm boymoding
>Think I look like a freak when I'm girlmoding
>Hate existing in public either way but boymoding still feels safer
>Only girlmode at home or around other trannies (less out of safety and more because it's embarrassing not to)
>Everyone can obviously tell something's up no matter what I'm wearing
>When I do girlmode, still frequently spend up to an hour convincing myself to leave the house or the car
>Clothes shopping requires overcoming 5 anxiety attacks per trip, usually I chicken out
What's it gonna take for me to stop giving a fuck??? I can spend all day telling myself everyone already knows I'm queer no matter what I'm wearing, and all the anxiety still comes rushing back the second I'm about to actually step outside. Most girls I know got over it way faster. How am I supposed to calm down enough to actually live my life?
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>>42828477
I think it's mostly brainworms desu. I'm clocky but I'm not any more clocky than most of the girls I talk with and they're almost all better about it than me.
If I woke up tomorrow with FFS done I'd like myself in the mirror better but it's take a while before it hit my anxiety, if at all. Might make it worse in the short term honestly
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>>42828463
>clothes shopping at actual stores in public
Why would you ever do that? Just buy clothes online.
>B-But what if it's the wrong size?
Then buy it again in a different size. Still beats going to a store in person.
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