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QOTT: did you try girlmoding before hormones?
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im going to get ffs and im going to lower my dose from 6mg to 5mg because 6mg is also way worse. furthermore the pictures from before and after i tried to do myself in are so different. im an entirely different person now
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another rockstar and vodka then I'm down to just the gin and wine... I guess I can't put it away like I thought I just get too lethargic
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I tried on my mom's underwear and clothing as a very young kid - I don't remember what happened but I started repressing actively at six years old and actively beating down that part of myself into a filthy bloodstained corner to fearfully lash out every time anyone even remotely hinted at something I did that was feminine or "for girls"
then I bought some amazon basics shit cringe starter kit as a 30 year old balding neet loser before I tried hrt just to see if crossdressing was enough and slept in a bra every night just to feel something on my chest
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this is like the look/outfit that broke me again as a teenager my fujo friends in high school dressed me up as a girl for halloween and something inside me died
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FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU I'm trying to self-help and educate myself not be preached or proselytized at
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>>42840392
xhe gigamogs me
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>>42840403
if only she would take her hrt, retard...
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>>42840433
no
I got mad at two people recently for using my troon name that I shouldn't have told them or even selected or shared but it was the alternative my parents had picked out and it was something I always wondered about like why they were expecting a girl
I have no real name because I am nothing, just a bitter insane ghost, but I use my given weirdo male name in mundane day to day interactions
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he’s like 40 and still a happy repper, it’s possible!!
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Just measured my midface using like 20 different pictures of me and am now convinced that cameras are bullshit and evil since I I got either 0.95-0.94 or like 0.91-0.88. I know it’s longer but since I have BDD I basically have no clue how my face looks. Gonna start jellyfish posting again also cuz they’re pretty to look at and make me feel nice
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More details no one gaf about but these were all taken tonight in the span of multiple minutes using two different locations and the same distance away from my face so I genuinely don’t know what happens there. I think I just need to try and practice doing makeup a shit ton more regularly and do my eyebrows and whatnot so I can actually feel like I have some hope in my appearance instead of having schizo crashouts
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freeing myself
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mixing the contents of my skull with the local atmosphere
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attain non-attachment by recognizing everything as impermanent
life is suffering
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impermanence and the fleeting nature of our time existing consciously is precisely the reason to form and cherish equally impermanent and meaningless attachment
>life is suffering
yeah and I can't fucking take it anymore without the things that make it bearable and worthwhile
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unfit
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uxclarft
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ucky-wucky-goo-ga
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my only reason for sticking around was probably just some self-indulgent bullshit after all I won't bother there's nothing left
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xd l0lz0rs
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nothing to be upset about in the end
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nevergoing to be good enough aw ard
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ruijs fucking everything award
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nobody will ever awnt me or love me award
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lol
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lmao
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fell for it again award
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should have known better award
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shouldn't have ever tried award
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should havej ust fucking died award
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nothing left to do or fix or try awar
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deaqd tran walking award
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nothing to no one award
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it's been a week I cant;' do this awrd
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here we go no more tears you told me not to cry away
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jokes on god lol i dont even wanna be a woman
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Yeezy season approachin'
Fuck whatever y'all been hearin'
Fuck what, fuck whatever y'all been wearin'
A monster about to come alive again
Soon as I pull up and park the Benz
We get this bitch shaking like Parkinsons
Take my number and lock it in
Indian hair, no moccasins
It's too many hoes in this house of sin
Real nigga back in the house again
Black Timbs all on your couch again
Black dick all in your spouse again
And I know she like chocolate men
She got more niggas off than Cochran, hah!
[Kanye West:]
On sight, on sight
[Kanye West:]
How much do I not give a fuck?
Let me show you right now 'fore you give it up
How much do I not give a fuck?
Let me show you right now 'fore you give it up
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i wish i was 9 listening to ye on my friend’s porch as his brother biked to buy us sandwiches. i wish dysphoria didnt makd me insane. being a guy is deadass so fire too but my fuckass brain has sex dysphoria. sex dysphoria and no gender dysphoria, how retarded is that
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>I have no real name because I am nothing, just a bitter insane ghost, but I use my given weirdo male name in mundane day to day interactions
mood
why does shit here resonate with me so often despite being a cisstraggot
(rhetorical question, I know why)
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This reminds me of something that happened when I was a teenager. I and a friend went to a costume party dressed as women, but all we did was put on dresses. We didn't do makeup or put on wigs or anything. We won the prize for best costume (we shared it), and I felt so bad because there was a girl there whose costume looked great and she'd clearly put a ton of effort into it. I don't remember what character she was dressed as, but it was this elaborate cosplay thing like you see at conventions. All we'd done was buy a couple of old lady dresses at Good Will. I felt so bad for her.
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men are like dogs, they are eager to share and it’s cute but if you don’t respond correctly there’s a high chance of violence. that said i love when men autistically lecture it’s cute and i tune out everything they’re saying except how it makes me feel
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Thank you
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yikes
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what's your damage
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>>42843592
holy shit someone with some taste
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those games got me so good when i was a kid. like i played sapphire first and loved it but hoenn very much felt like the real world for the most part, whereas orre was like this way more fantastical setting i couldn't get enough of. plus double battles are straight up just better
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i pray every day that humanity is filtered and dies on our planet
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women are gods, not cis women though they’re just people, men are rocks, animals are also people, except male ducks. plants are people but theyre killable people and fungus are cumming in our mouths so it’s ethical to enjoy them
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you literally don't even know what that word means
>>42844160
i use estrogen recreationally to get closer to my ideal of the perfect man
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Genuinely might at some point.
Do yiu guuuys want pizza pics tomorrow?
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Moders, have you ever girlmoded?
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I AM THE GOD OF HELLFIRE!!
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Did anyone here try growing their hair out, doing tons of skincare stuff, piercing their ears, or other aesthetic changes, while they were pre hrt and repressing?
I am currently doing all this. Psychologically the appeal of this is the fact that it's making me less masculine. Will this satisfy me long term, or is it a gateway drug to hrt? What is your experience?
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tf do you know
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favorite person
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Theyre genuinely sub 80 IQ and dont realize how fucked they are. I've met them.
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I need a slip for tretinoin but i microneedle scalp and face once every three weeks. I want to get into collagen banking.
Wont help me anyway bc im brootally bald and thinned out.
Very little to no point in being a sub5 male.
As a slav you see a lot of dysgenic sub5s and theyre almost all alcoholics. Sometimes they have wives who dont fuck them and spike their cortisol 24/7 or maybe even kids they dont talk to and wageslave for if they get rly lucky.
Most of them just hang around construction sites, drink during work hours and clock in clock out chill.
Like its a whole world of people who are nothing, do nothing of worth and actively desire to kill themselves with unironic poison. And i'm one of them in spite of all of my efforts.
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No one ever wants me here.
Ive done the same bit in countless places already and briefly irl and people always tell me to fuck off.
Im choosing to be selfish in this instance because if i dont let the steam out somewhere i will go clinically insane and slice my wrists in a mcdonalds bathroom.
You can(and should) mute the fucking trip you niggerkike faggot retard.
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I'm actually lowk considering the suicide.
I have it more or less planned out in my head but i'm a giant pussy.
I should read up on some sui forums on how ppl gather the courage.
I think if i managed to dget myself yo the decisive spot i would go through with it but i'm pretty good at not going insane.
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im like.. im like a WOMAN with a MAN’S BODY and it makes me look DUMB and for that reason NOBODY VALUES ME except the truth is nobody can tell so i’m just a feminine twink and i shouldn’t feel insecure but i have extreme dysphoria and it runs my life
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is the implication that I am cismoid? of course he must be a mocking version of me because i deserve it. but i’m not a cismoid and i dont even act like one so realLy it’s insulting and not even funny it’s not my fault i got raped and went insane and now my hips are small many people get raped and it ruins their lives and they always get empathy but because i ruined your tranny janny hangout im a cismoid somehow. well im not so shove it up yours where the sun don’t shine
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is that a feminine thing to say cause i act like that and now you really are mocking me… i thought being sober was supposed to heal me but it turns out drugs were good and keeping me happy lol but i need to stay sober for surgery i want to blow my brains out ffs will not be enough i feel so hopeless and small inside my gigantic male body
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okay but can you gock me THO? asking for a friend
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that was a reply to >>42846126 and you need to get ffs or else I WILL SUFFER AND DIE
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WHAR DO YOU GUYS THINK PLS TELL ME IF IM A WEIRDO OR DEMONIC
be cis straight guy with feminization fetish >buy a bunch of girly shit for the fetish >room looks like candyland now >no reason to decorate with normal stuff since idgaf about decoration-. this is funny. just got this one its pretty rad
I NEED OPINIONS FROM A HUMAN OTHER THAN MYSELF
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when i was 17 my brother’s friend girlmoded without hrt in front of me, later that year a friend of his who famously had an anime boob mousepad transitioned and became a gigahon and would constantly brush up against me and then 7 months and a birthday later i was raped by a latina hon. i mean that is genuinely the worst roll ever for a dysphoric that already had transmed terfy tendencies. i became a terf and destroyed myself. you reminded me of that so i hate you now but i hope you enjoy your room
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do the retards clapping over the burger wars not realize the ceos have rhe private test chefs at their companies personally making them the platonic ideal mcdonalds (or wendys or burger king) burger? theyre not eating the goyslop fellas, only you are
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Still just started buying sruff I'm going for angel themed + blue green pink XD
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WHAT DO YOU MEAN LMAO, is it good for a sissy caption watcher or is it representative of one, anyways im trying im malebrained af
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not sure but just started so its what i have >>42846471
nothin sometimes i take when i get bdd
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im, artistic
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i wish i was a cishet man
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we be Friends withchildkiller Spirits, Spirit, Spiritof Poison, howling Spirit, killing Spirit thatwalks
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oh man I haven't played ddr since I was in high school
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wgXlDdP7-0
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>>42848489
need this like you wouldn't believe
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that would fix me
actually maybe not since my highschool girlfriend did that. but maybe if she was hot then it would fix me
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omg i love this one and the remixes (healing-d-vision, angelic mix)
sana mollete ne ente is a really good one too
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i wish i were a cute seal
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>healing-d-vision
wtf how have I never heard this, I kind of hate the time signature though... angelic mix was my shit I remember cutting while listening to that on repeat as an emo kid
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N4uBtqIArEs