Maybe you would be better at "skill" if you did less drugs.

>>42044727
>Please put my controller down God, I cant take humanity anymore.
relate to this so heavily although im a little younger. but i have a feeling its all occuring for a reason? (in the least woo woo bs way possible)
be strong playa
as i heard here once, "There is no LOGICAL reason to ever give up Hope. There is ALWAYS opportunity for life to get better. DEATH WILL NOT BRING YOU SOLACE. DOING NOTHING WILL NOT BRING YOU SOLACE. COMMIT to the idea that you can make your life and and the world GREAT"

>>42044759
The humiliation MADE ME got to drugs silly

When the only talent people tell you you have is acting, singing (yet still not perfect enough, i got told kts talented potential but is till havr to work on it) drawing (/ic/ reminded me that there always bigger fish and that they qill ruin you for not being up to their standards on EVERY piece) and fucking super smash bros

Then of course you'd feel how id feel

Plus you didn't even acknowledge the other shit I went through so you know im right about it affecting me

>>42044783
If not suicide I at least want angels or aliens or something to whisk me away from humankty and shed me grom this meatbag so I can exist in a non corporeal form

Even when im happy someone or something has to appear and give me trouble, they dont always succeed in bringing me down but the fact that they exist pisses me off

>>42044727
Well if you want to die, God gave us many possibilities to do so.

>The humiliation MADE ME got to drugs silly
So I'm going to level with you, your pride is the biggest single thing holding you back. Stop comparing yourself to others and accept life is imperfect and then try and make the most of it.
>When the only talent people tell you you have is acting, singing (yet still not perfect enough, i got told kts talented potential but is till havr to work on it) drawing (/ic/ reminded me that there always bigger fish and that they qill ruin you for not being up to their standards on EVERY piece) and fucking super smash bros
See above.
>Then of course you'd feel how id feel
I suck at many things and yet I feel no shame.
>Plus you didn't even acknowledge the other shit I went through so you know im right about it affecting me
Fix yourself -> less drugs -> suck less -> profit!

>>42044857
Im sorry man, I appreciate you're trying but theres more to it than that

Let alone the fact that my confidence is a seed, in order to grow people need to actually appreciate my potential as "good enough" to begin with , the adults (and especially the peers in my life)

>>42044908
>Im sorry man, I appreciate you're trying but theres more to it than that
There really isn't. Once you accept your limits the opinions of others have no power over you. You already have someone who loves you, that's more than some people ever get. Focus on living the best life you personally can, not on what others expect or what society wants.
>Let alone the fact that my confidence is a seed, in order to grow people need to actually appreciate my potential as "good enough" to begin with , the adults (and especially the peers in my life)
You don't need confidence. You just need to take the immediate best action for your overall quality of life and then keep doing that.

>>42044908
Ooops didnt finish

Yeah speaking of my peers i used to get punished for sucking in anything back then
>suck at basketball in school? Punished
>suck at volleyball in school? Punished
>suck at singing in school? Punished
>suck at art on /ic/? This is fucking 4chan, of course you'd get punished
>too fat? Punished
>have an awkward interaction? Punished
>have a sloppy handwriting at 5-6 years old? Get punished by father
>suck at a flute yiu didnt feel motivated to play at 10? Get punished by father
>suck at smash? Get made fun of by girlfriend and her friends
>dont have the newest Jordan's? Get roasted
>dont have polo Ralph Lauren? Get roasted

Sure some of these situations the pain motivated me to get better and dominate but it made me realize im motivated by spite

People with normal live like yiurself will never understand.

Competition is literally life or death for people like us. I had to really explain this to my gf when I was getting tilted while playing a fighting game with her a week ago

And because of humanity's frustrating interactions with me I never feel safe amongst yiu people.

There's always something not to people's likings or not good enough and kt drives me insane.
Give it enough time nyc might make me succeed in abruptly killing myself if I have another bad interaction with people.

The ghetto bitch that insulted my looks almost made me do it honestly, granted I was on acid. (Yeah I do drugs but I work and pay my taxes, even though I dont want to pay taxes to pedophiles anymore)

I hate these people. I hate them for not allowing me to be good enough, my mind wants to he in a permanent peaceful state, the material world by default is an annoying shifting mass.

And thats ignoring the OTHER criteria in my post that makes me not want to live anymore

If I cam have a room in a white void all to myself with a weight room and some vidya and books then id be happy

>Sure some of these situations the pain motivated me to get better and dominate but it made me realize im motivated by spite
Spite is another thing that goes away when you literally don't care.
>People with normal live like yiurself will never understand.
You don't know anything about me.
>Competition is literally life or death for people like us. I had to really explain this to my gf when I was getting tilted while playing a fighting game with her a week ago
So your problem is this: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Social_dominance_orientation
>And because of humanity's frustrating interactions with me I never feel safe amongst yiu people.
Trust me, you'll feel a lot safer if you have nothing to lose.
>The ghetto bitch that insulted my looks almost made me do it honestly, granted I was on acid. (Yeah I do drugs but I work and pay my taxes, even though I dont want to pay taxes to pedophiles anymore)
So you're both a druggie and a paypig? Man, you need to solve both those problems fast.
>I hate these people. I hate them for not allowing me to be good enough, my mind wants to he in a permanent peaceful state, the material world by default is an annoying shifting mass.
You are the only one who decides if you're good enough, idiot.
>If I cam have a room in a white void all to myself with a weight room and some vidya and books then id be happy
You can effectively have that now, more or less. You hand other people power over you and then bitch and moan when they don't use it to flatter you.

cool story fag
live stream it

>>42044979
Negative vibes are the work of demons right?

Eh I had a moment after meditating im over it

It does sound faggy
Im talented enough as is, they did literally say it
Im handsome they literally said it

Im over it

I juat need to find a way to keep the mind free from negative pollution

So I can be less faggy

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>>42044759
>Maybe you would be better at "skill" if you did less drugs.
What about people like jimi Hendrix and Steve Jobs tho

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>>42044727
>schizo non-sense

>>42046941
It's a schizo board fren :)