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>Be me
>just out of college
>23 y/o
>Job: Paralegal at local gov.

College was rough for me. Knew a lot of people for short periods but nothing stuck. Never had much luck with men. I eventually joined a group where I met my "friends", but they weren't really around for me much. Tried to keep up with one post-grad but she has not reciprocated much. My only other friend from HS now lives far away.

Back in September I met my bf and we love each other so much and spend nearly every day together. I've spent a lot of time with his family and we have a good relationship.

I don't know how to make friends now that I'm out of college. I struggle to be social at work especially with older males or people with stronger personalities. I often feel anxious being in a social setting all day and isolate myself or get nervous talking to people as a result. I still feel like I come off as autistic or like I have some sort of arrested development and I don't know how to fix it.

>Question: What do I do to solve my social issues as an adult and forgive myself for having them?

Further, I feel very stagnant/behind in life. My apartment sucks. I don't fully enjoy my paralegal job and hate working a 9 to 5. I've had some success with posting tiktok videos, I play guitar, do 3D animation, and draw, but it's so hard for me to get motivation to do these things and I never feel good enough. I worry I don't have enough passion for a career like this.

Also, I have little time for hobbies since I'm always with my bf (We struggle with being separated) or at work.

Me and my bf have had thoughts of quitting our jobs and traveling across the country but I'm not sure how realistic these things may be since my father is abusive and I can't return home.

>Questions: Is it possible to be happy with a 9 to 5? How do I make time to develop my hobbies? Should I just learn to appreciate what I have? (A job and a bf?) Is this all just normal adult stuff I need to cope with?