>>34435216
I've been like that since I was born. Tell you what I never experienced though:
>Cant do any work without artificially explaning stuff to black figures in my head on how i work and how things work.

Never communicated with my own daydreams like that. What do you mean you have to "artificially explain stuff to black figures in your head?" Are these daydream figures starting to take in a life of their own? Do these thoughts speak to you and feel as though they are now autonomous and independent of your identity?

>>34435216
Do any drugs?
Drink alcohol?
Family history of schizo?
Childhood diagnosis of add/adhd?

>>34435216
ben stiller made a day dreaming movie. maybe it has your answer. i havnt seen it. its probably shit and he gets the girl in the end or something

>Cant do any work without artificially explaning stuff to black figures in my head on how i work and how things work.
i have this sometimes, but its not black figures, i´m basically imagining someone from IT is there for a trial day or something retarded like that. and its subconciously, if i catch myself doing that i always feel really dumb.

>>34435245
i´m not diagosed but add is very probable

>>34435255
Nta but add/ADHD does funny shit when you are isolated for long periods of time or are under extreme amounts of stress. Way I see it you either go schizo route or psychosis route. My ass went psychosis route. I vividly remember the derealization and depersonalization, no drugs needed, I snapped and thought nothing was real, everything was illusion or something. Weird shit.

>>34435216
OP go outside more interact with people more don't spend longer than a week on your own. The human mind does fucking cartwheels if you are deprived of socialisation. There's a reason castaways and survivalists will draw faces on objects to talk to them to stay sane during stints of isolation. It's because if you don't, you go a bit mad

>>34435244
nope not taking in their own life yet. Just been explaining them how i model my CAD stuff and how my motor systems work. Then I start explaining how i made the entire variable system and then the 'structs' and various other stuff to them.
I made this thread right after doing this exact same thing. wasted 30 mins and i am tired of this weird stuff in myhead taking over. The day dreams or delusions dont talk back to me, just me talking to them and coming up with various scenarios. In fact, i made this thread after for the first time I asked one of them "do you understand in my head" and it really creeped me out so hard i have to now make sure its not something serious.
>>34435245
None of that. I used to drink occassionally a few years ago. I was a heavy drinked in clubs and bars from 2022-2024. From then just a shot of baileys or maybe scotch after dinner like once or twice a month.
druge absolutely none. I dont even take medicated stuff like paracetamol and wait until I get down with a huge headache during the fever to even consider it.
Though you should know that lately I have lost appetite. Eating food is a drag for some reason and making it is even such a huge task.

>>34435263
>OP go outside more interact with people more don't spend longer than a week on your own. The human mind does fucking cartwheels if you are deprived of socialisation. There's a reason castaways and survivalists will draw faces on objects to talk to them to stay sane during stints of isolation. It's because if you don't, you go a bit mad
Yeah good catch there.. I used to travel like 12 different countries in 2024 and for the last 1 year I have been couped up in a room because I basically gave up on a lot of things out of hufe dissapointments. Though I do go out for walks occasionally and I have enough social interaction with people around me but no deep talks just talking about headlines and how things are in the world now. This actually reminded me I didnt even open my bag since may 2025 after arriving back from New zealand wow.

>>34435248
Thanks for the recommendation. I will check that out.

>>34435216
Just to add to this a bit more. I have also been getting a very short like instantaneous "ZAP" very rarely and its very painful which lasts 2 -3 seconds(The pain) in my brain. It happens when a phone call is coming or about to hit my phone.
I am really sorry if this sounds incredibly strange but does this happen to people? no amount of searching and inputing my symptoms in AI searches even yield any results.
I proved this to my dad a week ago. I got a zap and told my dad to look at the phone and there was it a phone call.
This also happens when the eletric grid fluctuates due to the restarting of our generators in the evening as the solar panels stop supplying to big machines like the Air conditioner and the water heaters. I know this since it happens the same time when the light flickers from these transitions.

>>34435268
>Just been explaining them how i model my CAD stuff and how my motor systems work. Then I start explaining how i made the entire variable system and then the 'structs' and various other stuff to them.

Ah okay, so what you seem to be doing is you're externally processing but internally.
External processing = you speak or write your thoughts to yourself in order to process information

Internal processing = you think inwardly about the information you are processing

And what you seem to be doing is you're externally processing but internally. Not to be confused for internal processing, but you are emulating external processing inside yourself. So you are talking at your own thoughts more or less. Maybe just stick to external processing and verbally talk to yourself instead. Just don't reply to yourself, just think out loud y'know what I mean? Last thing you want is for your thoughts to randomly reply to you autonomously that would be some spooky shit. Not really, but still. If you do start hearing voices once in a while don't panic, may not be schizo shit. If you're doing this at late nights while sleep deprived it's sorta normal.

Example: I had zero sleep, stayed up a whole day, lay down and all of a sudden I heard a deep sounding regal-like male robotic voice saying "THE GUILLOTINE SOUNDS ARE NOWHERE TO BE FOUND."

For no reason too. This was years ago and I didn't go schizo lol.

>>34435273
Yea, get a good sleep cycle and interact with reality more and you're good to go. If you stay in the land of rumination and fantasy and daydreams and projecting images on the back of your eyelids for too long you can get funny brain lol. The only people I know who can master this realm without going crazy are autists. So leave it to the autists

>>34435285
Also for the Zap brain shit, I believe it. Look up the "Taos Hum" phenomena. You're not alone. Some people are hyper-perceptive of unseen or unheard shit. At first people thought the Taos Hum shit was myth or collective hysteria but after further investigation they revealed it's true, a portion of humans really are hyper-perceptive to shit most people do not notice with their sensory systems. I don't think you're crazy, you're probably just a sleep deprived and isolated dude whose sensory system is more perceptive than your average person.

>>34435293
>So you are talking at your own thoughts more or less.
>External processing = you speak or write your thoughts to yourself in order to process information
I understand it now. Yes I have always found people (like my profs and some co workers) mumbling to themselves thereby External processing. I think I am doing exactly that but with my own voice to myself in my head.
> The only people I know who can master this realm without going crazy are autists. So leave it to the autists
ahhhahahah yeah sure

>>34435311
>Taos Hum
wow that's really scary. just looked it up. fortunately its not continuous at least.
You know, there's something really strange i will add to this since no one is trolling me here for now at least. Its very very often that I can keep a timer in my head too. Let me explain it this way,
Its an involuntary timer and I have absolutely no control over it and neither it bothers me. I have on many different occasions picked up my phone with the time in my head "6:03 pm"- for example from tonight and its exactly that when I pick the phone up. This has creeped me out as well. I hope some guy here knows about these things here and has a reference for me to look at because if ever i get a psychologist they will tell me i am crazy for even mentioning this.
I am not gonna lie it sounds unreal and I cant prove it to anyone here that I can tell you to the minute what time it is sometimes. And thats not the end of it! it works best when i wake up in the morning and I have done this a million times now when I wake up. I know what time it is. The success ratio has been so far 7/10 accurate to the minute and 9/10 for accurate up to the 10th minute.
I dont have any problem with these things except the zapping and the zoning out though. No one will believe it and i prefer to keep it my little secret.

>>34435359
Lucky, my internal clock is shit. I have ADHD so that means I have time blindness. I can never tell what time it is unless I look at a clock. And I can't feel the passing of time. I wake up at 8am, and in what felt like just a 5 minute rumination was actually 1 hour. Or sometimes I do something that's taking me 7 minutes and it felt like 30. Etc etc. I do know that normal people have a somewhat accurate internal clock and can tell the hour without looking. Down to the minute accuracy would probably take some type of autism wizardry I think. Definitely possible and not unbelievable my friend.

It would suggest to me that your mind is on the outside and not the inside. Your brain is, of course, in your skull. But the transcendental phenomena of the mind is y'know the untouchable lived human experience. And some people experience reality different from others. People take it for granted and assume everyone is experiencing the same first person view of reality but truthfully everyone is a bit different and there's no way we can prove it to one another. That's why humans created language, to attempt to express the same reality together. And from that it's very clear some people experience reality differently. And what's fascinating is based on that, we can tell that reality surpasses human perception. It's a lot bigger than we think and there's a lot we do not know that is invisible or unseen by us.

Take the Mantis Shrimp for example, it can see more colors than we can. They have 12 color receptors in their eyes, humans only have 3. Reality is a dark cave and we only just see the threshold as humans. Unsettling to some, fascinating to others.

>>34435407
>>34435359
What I meant by your mind being on the outside is that your mind might be relying on bodily senses more than the average person. Which means you are thinking with your body, which would explain how you have a very accurate internal clock. Your mind would be using external stimulation or information to constantly keep track of tine unconsciously. Queues like how often you hear a ticking clock, how often the wind is brushing past skin, how often you hear yourself breathe. All those things could easily make for sensory queues for your mind to build an internal clock out of.

>>34435414
There's no way human brain can do this on such a synchronized scale, WOW. I am so wonderstruck by this. The way you put it is incredibly understandable now. Thanks I will research on this. If my my bodily senses are this accurately captured and it has really trained my brain into maintaining a sort of internal clock then its incredibly fascinating to me.
Since you kind of an expert on this. What do you suggest for my "ZAP" in my brain. To accurately describe it, imagine you are preparing for a dinner and you gotta take the chicken out of the oven and then you accidently touched the oven wall ever so lightly with the back of your finger/palm and it kind of shocks you into puling out. That is what happens to my brain on the right side. There's a distinct ZAP and its very quick like a few miliseconds or even less. It physically hurts a fuckton for 2-3 seconds afterwards like someone squeezing the brain just after in that area. Like a pinch in that area, something like that.
Again, its a distinct ZAP, for instance i am terrifies of tasers now because the sound that tasers produce is the exact sound i get in my head at the very moment of ZAP.

>>34435442
Remember that the brain and the body are interlinked by a network of nerves all throughout your body. Whatever you hear, see, smell and touch is a signal, an electrical signal that's shot up into those nerves and it fires all the way into your brain. The brain processes the signal and then the brain creates a picture or felt experience of reality. It works the exact same way as a wire of electricity sending a current to a television and the television then produces an image. Only more complex, obviously. The human body has many wires to it, and over 100 billion nerve endings or 'power outlets' to receive signals to generate reality for itself.

So yes it's electrical and thats why you're describing it as a ZAP. Because that is exactly what it is, a ZAP. And this means when you touched something like a wall or whatever it was, the signal was intense and shot into your nervous system and delivered a big payload of data to your brain. And it was intense because as I presume, your body perception is more intense than the average person

>>34435506
yeah its starting to make more sense. Maybe i will try buying some textured carpets or feet scratchers/cleaner to do exactly this and try recreating an intense stimulation for a ZAP to occur.
For now I am definitely convinced its the electric functuations in my house and phone signals stirring something up with my sensitive body sensing. Your knowledge has been very useful. Thanks for that.