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Feel like life is hitting back after being such a degenerate and disgusting human bean for so long. I'm all alone and basically living on autopilot, waiting for death to take me. Been thinking that maybe it's what I deserve and that I should give up on love whether platonic or romantic. If you were god or karma would you forgive me? Here's a list of all the bad things I've done

Preteens
>killed desert chameleon with a broomstick
>abused a kitty until it bled from its nose
>stole a few toys during sleepovers with friends
>got into incestuous relationships with two older cousins (separately, one male one female. I kinda forced one of them. just kisses at this point)

Teens
>negligent and irresponsible towards my first dog and my parents had to, i assume, put it down (they told me they gave it away)
>touched the teenage daughter of my uncle's second wife (step-cousing?) while she was sleeping in my room
>incestuous relationship with both cousins escalated to full blown make out sessions and bare dry humping
>was a lazy C student even though my parents made the effort to always enroll me into decent private schools
>physically bullied a couple of classmates, I once hit one of them so hard in the stomach he stumbled on the stairs and fell down/passed out, he never told on me for some reason
>had uh... very illegal content saved on my PC, fapped to it as well
>some girl who had a crush on me sent me very cute and thoughtful love letters but I wanted nothing to do with her for some reason I can't remember so I threw them away in front of her to make her cry
>dropped out of college without telling my parents so they kept throwing money down the drain by paying tuition for a whole other year

Twenties
>angrily told my mom to stop crying, that it won't solve anything (she had just gotten the results of her cancer back, she was terminal)
>neglectful and honestly a dick towards my grandmother with dementia who lived with me for a while. never hit her but I was very close to