>>34438204
You hate yourself and/or so self-conscious that you treat every compliment as backhanded because you can't find value others can see in you. Stop doing that.

>>34438212
I do hate myself, it was ingrained in me from the most important people in my life pretty much. Also I get treated badly for the most part so it's what I anticipate, I wish I wasn't so fucked up

>>34438223
What do you hate about yourself? You first have to figure that out so you can fix it.

>>34438225
Most things, I know what I don't like about myself. I have very low self esteem and I am very different/don't belong pretty much anywhere. I struggle with suicide ideation and I didn't expect to live this long and I'm floundering

you cant really snap your fingers and change the way you see yourself or whatever. my advice is find something you are legitimately good at or like about yourself and focus on that. Build up positive reference experiences. Buckle up it will be a long ride

>>34438289
I was the same way as you during most of my 20s. Had to deal with abusive family as well who urged me to kill myself. I had to prioritize my own ability to be alone at all costs and just focus on what I wanted to be good at. I recommend what you want to be good at to also be a physical activity because that will help your self esteem a ton as well.

>>34438204
I totally understand it, since I do the same. Whenever someone compliments me, I think that they're being sarcastic or are taking pity on me or something similar.

It's not a healthy mindset to have, so I try not to think about it. Gotta trust that people can be kind. If they are complimenting you, they most likely do mean it, it's just hard to accept because we aren't in peace with ourselves.

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>>34438299
I appreciate your responses, I am struggling to figure out what I'm good at. I feel useless

>>34438351
What did you want to be good at? That matters more.

>>34438356
>What did you want to be good at?
That's a good question, I want to be a jack of all trades and learn as much as possible about many different things. Which is hard because it's not just one thing and several

>>34438369
You probably suffer severely from choice paralysis. I too also wish to be good at a lot of things but I'm only above average at a few because I decided to focus on them one at a time. Maybe start with the most important one and go from there.

>>34438390
>You probably suffer severely from choice paralysis.
Absolutely, I think I want to get into working out, it's simple but not something I ever seriously committed to for long

>>34438407
Good start. That's where I started too. Was great for my self esteem even if I definitely went way over my weight at the beginning.