>>817868 Thanks, I don't know who Ben Jones is but your compliment means a lot.
I'll post some stuff from the previous thread, looking at it I think I was wrong. I have gotten a lot better. It's so crazy I never thought of myself as an artist until very recently. Was just doing this for fun. But I really like it
I just wasted a week of work because I didn't like how my 15 page comic had turned out. I scrapped the whole thing and I'm sorta depressed over it. Kinda felt like giving up on art and killing myself.
>>819158 >I like your gay drawings Oh no I made a straight drawing today >What do you think of this song? It's alright, I don't think I'll add it to my playlist or listen to it again.
Does art feel like an uphill battle for anyone else? Not necessarily the process itself, but getting over my debilitating insecurity and continuing on with the work even when I fucking hate it and want to give up. I especially hate when I draw something I like, because it makes everything before seem that much worse and raises my expectations for everything that comes after.
Every day I tell myself I should draw something, but I'm just so depressed all I can do is lay around getting high or jacking off. The guilt is crazy, I know my life is passing me by and I'll never achieve all that I want. The devil owns my soul dude.. Whenever I do sit down and try to draw, I become so intimidated. I feel like I have no skill, no ideas, no ability. I think about how many better artists there are, not just now but in all of history. It's exhausting being this Ocd
This isn't my usual thing but here's something, finally.
I've been so fucking depressed, my desire to create art has almost entirely dissipated. I create these characters as a replacement for actual life, for the friends and lovers that I never had. Feel like I never will have.
At work today they were talking about personal shit, trauma dumping on each other basically. I started opening up a little bit, but I could tell nobody was really interested in listening to me. I would engage and ask questions about them, but they didn't ask me any questions. At one point they literally just cut me off and I wanted to cry. I know your coworkers aren't your friends... I think I know that.
Well sorry for using this as an excuse to bitch. And sorry if you wanted more of my other stuff.
Usually the first thing I draw is the eyes, then the head, and then the body. But this time I started with a sketch outline of the body, and drew the head last. So it's not as big as it usually is.
I want to draw more based / interesting shit with my other characters. But I keep drawing these fags because it seems to help my aching heart. (I don't mean to call them fags I genuinely love all my characters, but I wish I wasn't so gay)
My desire to draw was very strong for a few days, but now it's waned almost entirely and I can't even force myself. I'm never gonna expand past this early stage into more serious art projects. Oh well