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>>42830689
I'm still convinced one of my work colleagues uses this gen. If you're here picrel I understand
>QOTT
DMT vape fog in the air so you can get a nice breakthrough just by stepping outside it feels good to step outside

>>42830689
last thread didn't even hit 100 replies, where did all my repbros go?

>>42830689
take your HRT, retards

>>42831316
We're slowly giving in, anon. Or maybe some roped or found a different way to cope. I'm >>42821827 from the previous thread.
>>42831320
I ordered the pills today.

>>42831556
>I ordered the pills today.
based

>>42831561
We'll see how based it is. I'm 23 and I began "mentally transitioning" almost a year ago. It's slower than I thought, but it does make me feel a lot better. Even got to finish my degree and get a job.
Being confused for a woman a month ago accelerated my mental processes. So... I guess I'll see how this goes.

>>42826451
>check in on an artist i used to coom to
>chudjak2passoid attending room parties in furry cons

who's the feminization artist?

>>42823713
I was reading my uncle Fifi on fictionmania

If you don’t have dysphoria and are just a mef agp do you belong here

>>42831936
>oh no, I can't stop imagining being an attractive lady and being turned on by scenarios where I, as an attractive lady, am performing traditionally feminine activities
how is this different from dysphoria?

>MEF is a fetish defined by intense, specific sexual arousal triggered by scenarios involving emasculation, such as wearing a bridal dress, having breasts, performing oral sex, or enjoying these acts
this sure seems like someone getting pleasure from performing feminine acts
>oh no, I'm wearing a wedding dress, looking beutiful, and standing opposite my fiance at our wedding

>>42831936
For a while, yes. Though if you start acting on it IRL (as I am slowly beginning), eventually you won't want to be here after you hit the first successes.
I haven't taken the first pill yet but I already enbycope, doing voice training and scheduled laser. I want to be out of here by the end of 2026.

I will never forgive cowardly GenXers for making up "crossdreaming". I remember stumbling upon the website when I was 15-16 and being pacified about this affliction, thinking "ooh, thank God I'm not a tranny, and I'm just this totally different, non-weird thing and I don't need to troon and it won't get worse".
Crossdreamers that graduated into suicide or boomerhondom deserve all the misery that comes their way

>go on a google hunt about a fictionmania author
>find patreon page where they post their work
>"Those wedding bells promised in the original prelude nearly twenty years ago (!) aren't so far off anymore."
>check and their first story was published in 2006
jesus fucking christ this is so sad

>>42832103
I've heard that term before and I've avoided looking into it further out of fear of the psychic damage it may cause me

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so long as I remain posting here, repgen shall not fall

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cisf here
>have you ever had sex?
>if so, how did your dysphoria play a role?

>>42832459
no
I'm too dysphoric to even want to imagine the idea of having sex in this body

>>42832459
no
i'm too dysphoric to even want to imagine the idea of partaking in anal sex hitting my g spot making me cum like women love anal but me no i cannot have sex ever i cannot feel good because of dysphoria i cut i cut i cut i smoke i drink i snort i boof meth cocaine speed mdma 2cb i'm not allowed to feel good ever because gender dysphoria yeah this is gender dysphoria buddy take a look and see it right here

>>42832459
Yeah, exclusively with men
Evolved over time. 12-16 started with just refusing to let my genitals to be touched (but not knowing why) and exclusively bottoming, agp period 17-20, topped a bit with fingers/toys but still uncomfortable with genitals touched, sexless bpd period 21-ongoing

>>42832031
I can’t voice train Im retarded but I’ve done some laser and need more
I’m so ugly
>>42832007
I’d settle for being effortlessly feminine instead of these crap

>>42832459
>yes
>couldn’t get hard so technically still a virgin
Still can’t get hard cause i started estrogen

>>42832481
Why not take hrt
You don’t need to socially transition the closer is safe

>>42832494
I'm confused. You're not allowed to feel good, but you're allowed to do drugs that make you think you're feeling good? Is it just to self-destruct?

>>42832459
>have you ever had sex?
Yes. With one man and two women.
>if so, how did your dysphoria play a role?
Bottoming for a masc guy felt better but still not quite right.
With women the orgasms were stronger, but getting there was really hard both mentally and physically. And pnc was a total nightmare, almost as bad as jerking off, which I stopped doing a year ago and switched to prone and vibrators (which helped a lot).
I tried bi coping. I tried gay coping. It just doesn't work. Repping as a gay copper for the rest of my life sounds like hell. And since I'm still young, all things considered, I'll just give transition a chance.
Even if I end up untranny or a "vagbro" or w/e, that's still preferable. The worst case scenario is I'd be alone but hating myself a lot less.
One thing is certain: I am getting srs.

t. >>42831556

>>42832556
kissing? man lips
holding hands? man hands
cuddling?? my entire body generates dysphoria the likes of which you have never seen before, mortal scum. dysphoria so potent it could kill an elephant with a single drop (if distilled into a liquid dose). nobody, and i mean nobody, has dysphoria quite like me. the federal government literally pays me it's so fucked up i know it's fucked but that's dysphoria for you. brb going to whip myself until i fall asleep.

>>42832459
I regularly have straight sex. I never mentally committed to top or bottom dynamics so its just easier to use the equipment god gave me for the job its meant for

>>42830689
>What is your paradise?
I don't even know what to tell you. It's all become so complicated.
Being a tranny Hollywood porn star would be great.

>>42832314
I'm sick of people acting like the props for those movies weren't trash.
>butted mail
>plate armour and gothic swords for what is supposed to be an anglo fairy tale in continuity with the tradition of beowulf
>drab slop because colour wasn't invented for fabrics until 1980 in America

>>42832757
>I regularly have straight sex
I don't know how reppers do it.
tried sex when I was in denial and dated a girl in high school, and I had to imagine agp shit in order to cum when we were going a second time
>t. 30 year old tranny

>>42830689
Been on HRT like a month, feeling really happy with my hair getting thicker, breast pain is a thing and now my balls hurt because they're probably being killed

My question is, is it normal to feel this kind of worry that you're doing the wrong thing? I know I'd be happier as a girl, it would mean not having the self hate sessions anymore, but I also worry about never getting close enough to be happy

just be a fem gay guy, you aren't homophobic are you?

>>42834028
>my balls hurt because they're probably being killed
Is it serious pain or the kind of mild pain like when you don't cum in time? The latter is quite common. It will pass.
>is it normal to feel this kind of worry that you're doing the wrong thing?
yes and no. Depends on your mentality.
I've been on it for ~7 months but I've been feminizing my life and my behaviors since 2024 so I'm not particularly worried because I had already conditioned the brain that we're actually doing this. I will girlmode this summer, damn it. Once I do that, I'm also fucking off from this place.
>I know I'd be happier as a girl
Then you should keep on going.
>I also worry about never getting close enough to be happy
Terrible mentality. Let that be an issue in 2027 or so.
Also, ?% of progress is better than 0% progress.
Perfect is the enemy of good and comparison is the killer of joy.
Meanwhile, start working on the minute things in your life and see what can be feminized. From sexual patterns to how you speak, walk, etc. Not only it will keep you busy, but they're usually fun too.
>>42832574
Holy shit, you're me last summer or so. Good luck. We're all gonna make it <3

>>42834114
mild blueball pain like if I sit on them wrong, I'm making sure to cum multiple times a day so my dick doesn't shrink as well, my wife said she'd find it sexy if I get penile preserving surgery down there and I like that she's objectifying my body so that's what we're going with

>Yes and no
I'm not really actively feminizing socially right now, I'd be shot if I did, I've wanted to do this for a long time, it's just that the actually doing it comes with the "what if it goes poorly voice"
>You should keep going
I will, I appreciate you

I agree with the perfection statement as well, my goal is just to be vaguely pretty, even if I don't pass, thanks for the positive energy anon, I'm trying to work on my voice at the moment

>talented and interesting musician on youtube
>transes
>stops making good art
many such cases

It's normal to hate your own appearance. You're not attracted to men so you won't like yourself

>>42834482
What in the cope lmao

>>42834398
This is by absolute greatest fear, and the SPECIFIC reason I started actively repping 5 years ago

>>42832459
i thought sex would fix me. i really hated the act of sex but really liked being close with her and cuddling before or after. i remember the moment i decided to break up with her was mid way struggling through sex and just realising i couldn’t do this anymore. that was the last time i had sex with a girl it was like idk even 8 years ago now
i used to feel guilty because she the couple times she tried to give me bj i didn’t like it or couldn’t stay hard and she was asking me if she was bad at it and being self concious.

>>42834825
just hope you make good enough art to not have the house come crashing down when you realise the art you repped for mid garbage and it was pointless

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>>42832459
>cis horse girl inquiring about repchads

>>42834160
>my wife said she'd find it sexy if I get penile preserving surgery down there
Uh. Good luck, what can I say.
Trooning with a wife rarely goes well. But I hope you will be the exception and you'll pass as a lesbian couple in a few years.
>not really actively feminizing socially right now, I'd be shot if I did
That sounds excessively dramatic.
Nobody will shoot you if you change your walking style/pattern, grow your hair a bit, get laser and things like that. Very quick wins that are also easy to do even in very repressive places.

>>42832304
>>42832103
a lot of mainstream shit has been harmful "just a kink", hairy casual crossdressers etc

>>42832459
no i want to approached (and topped) lol

>>42834080
i naturally incline toward soft classy guy

>>42832498
i wish i was more in touch with myself and got plapped early and often

>>42834398
art is just masturbation

>>42830689
dead
>>42831320
no <3
>>42831316
been doing my best to not come here since thinking about it directly makes it worse. really has helped
>>42832459
have tried but needed to be blackout drunk and ended up having a breakdown both times so
>>42835539
i hope i don't look haunted but fear this is me

>>42832459
yeah but I mostly focused on her body and how I could use mine to make her feel good instead of my own, or I'd ask to do weird things like sit facing each other with our legs interlocked or having her do reciprocal buttstuff with me and imagine being a girl with her

t. former repper

>>42831320
HRT won't unrape me or turn everyone into an anthro woman.

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i gave up on buying estrogen twice this week already. i was inches away from doing it, but i gave up last minute.
it's just so fucking scary. i'm terrified of it not working at all and just giving me gyno as a participation medal. also, images flash in my mind of the disappointment and disgust my family would feel if they found out (i live with them still, and no i can't move out any time soon).
and what if i'm not trans at all, and i was wasted the little savings i have on medication that makes me feel even worse?
this blows man

>>42836127
>wasted the little savings i have on medication
Respectfully, how old are you? You must be 18 to be posting on this board.
DiY HRT is under $200/year. That's money a 15 year old can save up in a month even in most "developing" countries.

>reppers are having sex and have money
bunch of impostors

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>>42836327
19. i'm basically broke because i never really had an allowance to spend on anything, just money for necessities. it's hell to get a job while in college here, no part-time work ANYWHERE, and even the full time minimum wage positions all need me there at the same time i'd be studying. i'm working on maybe doing some freelance work online before the supply runs out, but idk if that'll work. i have enough for like 3-4 months at most, so if i do go with that plan i'll need to be fast.
ts tough frfr

>>42836652
fuck off don't come here before 30

im jealous of trannies who live in places like portland and seattle and theres just tons of fucked up probably drug addicted trannies to befriend. i want more excitement in my life, life is so fucking boring without people in it. where do you find them.

>>42836652
wow you are 19 and in college and doing freelance work online fucking HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW how are you so successful and good. i cant even pass a job interview, the only work i can find online is pennies or doesnt even accept you. how are people so much more normal than me you are literally superior to me and im 10 years older than you.

>>42836847
Hey buddy the mid 20s are pretty hopeless too

>>42836127
it does just give you gyno, i hate hiding my tits but its worth it because i dont completely hate my face when im on it. i dont want to kill myself when the testosterone isnt raping my body for some reason. i fucking give up trying to understand how mentally ill i am because im old and its pointless

>>42831320
it's actually test that gives you endurance to bear hardships and your body comes with it so you're already built for repping

Developing tits makes you look so out of shape
>T. Myself and r/TransBreastTimelines

Not sure how to manage without maintaining runway model (E[14yo]) BMI. I guess that's the solution.

>>42837048
>it's actually test that gives you endurance
at the expense of your overall health, life span, mental health and general well-being. Lovely.

>>42837698
>>r/TransBreastTimelines
mama mia that's some good repfuel, not a single post looks naturally feminine to me. even good ol' r/transtimelines will always have one or two decent ones at any given time. basically everyone here has that characteristically trannylike breast shape and outward nipple tilt, with just about no exception. i wonder why that is? on a female skeleton, maybe they'd be fine, but us and our barrel chests just make things look that much worse

>>42832520
I have my reasons unfortunately, I'm not a repper because I want to be

>>42834398
suffering frequently produces good art at least

>>42831320
>>42831556
>>42832459
>>42834028
>>42834114
stop invading repper spaces

>>42836980
does 23 count as mid 20s if I've aged really badly?

>>42838545
nta butt post your butt fren*?
(* not a fren)

>>42838560
no
picture a generic flat lanky-man ass, and even though I shaved 4 days ago it's already hairy again

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>>42838396
Indeed, outward nips, good catch. But even outward nips can be controlled for if other hard constraints are met. Here's some compensatory hope-fuel?

>>42838698
Bella is both a hsts and a giga luckshit.
Already feminine by default and could afford ffs and srs quite fast.

>>42838698
>hope-fuel
meh, could be worse but they're practically flat, so it's no wonder they're avoiding a little bit of the typical tranny-tit tells
torso still reads as pretty masculine to me, though, just due to how absurdly long their waist looks. you could land a 747 in the space between their bikini top and bottom

>>42838816
>they're practically flat
anon, you should get some glasses.

I dont have friends. There are people who say they dont need fake friends and its better for them to love themselves and be alone, I feel happy for them. But I just want friends. That's all I ever wanted. And it's something I'll never have.

>>42838869
maybe it's just that specific picture, but they definitely look to be on the smaller side compared to what i was seeing on r/transbreasttimelines

>>42839104
Lost the plot

>>42839104
They look like implants.

I'm about to burn myself drunk cooking again probably

>>42839373
Anon get sober before cooking.

or I could just air fry something but eh

>>42839379
I don't want to starve tonight though

>>42839391
You need to be safe while using the stove.

>>42839404
y

>>42839417
Because I care.

>>42839424
gay

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>>42830689
>QOTT: What is your paradise?
Currently in my cottagecore arc so want a house with land.

the repper urge to ghost all of your remaining old friends for their own good

does it mean anything if i get constantly ma'amed but only from behind

https://youtu.be/dY_eG5mOFBQ

I should not eat for a day

There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one

What happened to hon threads? They'd help me repress.

>>42836980
You can still deny your way through 20s

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32 and still repping. nearly 33
Dropped out of highschool at 18, got cancer at 26, started hearing voices at 30. tried transitioning 3 times but threw away the HRT every time

god it's over

>but threw away the HRT every time
That's strong

>started hearing voices
you still hearing them? what they tell you?

>>42841977
I could say so much about the voices and what they say. They were much more active in the past. Right now they just say "I hate you" or "Kill yourself" over and over occasionally. Been in the psych ward over and over but now they're quiet (Unmedicated btw, antipsychotics don't do shit for me)

>>42841987
>antipsychotics don't do shit for me
Huh sounds familiar
I can't sleep properly. I have massive Insomnia and I don't know how to fix it


>I hate you" or "Kill yourself"
But what else this voices tell you? What they telling you before?

>>42839044
I don't want friends
I need allies or partners
Friendship don't exist
I guess friendship and religion have something in common
You need to have "something" anyway to "make friends"

>>42841704
Once you've taken a lot of pics yourself you know a lot of hons are just bad presentation and hon thread and pass thread blend into one

>>42842008
>But what else this voices tell you?

It's hard to describe because they are chameleon in a certain sense. They take on multiple forms and have disguised themselves as spirits, aliens, God, demons etc. So if they are pretending to be earth bound spirits, they will say they need help crossing over. I will talk to them and try to help them, but the conversation always turning hostile in the end. Their interactions with me can become very complicated and elaborate, with multiple characters (some of which stick around for a while, so long to the point I give them names).

Of course, they aren't any of these things. They are hostile entities, probably evil beings (parasites?) who are just interested in fucking with me. At least, that's what I believe.

>>42834028
>>42834825
One of my repping copes is my misery has become part of my identity, and I'm afraid I'd lose it if I trooned out.
>t. Weird repper artist

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congrats to gincel for the byline at the Atlantic!

>>42843334
Well, obviously he could respond enough to write an op ed...

>>42843457
i know, just disappointing he spent so much time practicing his well thought out argument here and we don't get a mention when he makes it big :/

can i be a repper if im socially transitioned and semipass and have been on hrt for years

i honestly think im not trans, i just thought i was, if i believed i was trans that gives me a way to escape from myself because i dont like how i look. i dont really want boobs, i prefer having a dick. i just dont wanna be a man i think

>>42843334
Why to people pretend to tolerate feminine boys?

i wish i wasnt a permamanmoder, i want just for once in my life to feel whats its like to not be the most masculine creature ever with no hope at all
i cant function i cant live life at all i do nothing and i talk to nobody at all every single day i just want it all to end please

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>>42843801

>>42844732
projection

>>42844732
based, she saved him from a horrible fate

>>42844732
every time

>>42844732
>met a transmaxxer on Reddit "my life is exponentially better now that I'm female I pass 95% of the time" see selfie and it's a man with makeup and shoulder length hair
this is why I agp rep, it's easy if you recognize you have a fetish and not dysphoria

I am miserable and unhappy every single day

going out in public as a man is a humiliation ritual
towering over all women with your hulking beast frame is the worst feeling in the world

>>42848481
real

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>>42844732
kek

should I make more shitty margaritas or chug a bottle of vihno verde?

>>42848623
>vihno verde
Don't know what is that but vihno verde

>>42848623
You should share whatever you make with me.

Existing as a man is humiliation ritual by definition being goim cattle slave resource

Rich reppers have it much easier than poor reppers
Westerners have it easier than all other world reppers and im tired pretending that it's not

How to fix insomnia without psychotics or alcohol? Or tobacco/weed?

>>42832459
No. I want to try sex to see if I actually have dysphoria or i'm just so rotted by loneliness, my sexuality inverted on itself. Sadly I will never know because I'm an ugly bastard and old.

effeminate gay men are being ERASED daily by the holocaust of transgenderism

>>42848861
okie
>>42848880
I kinda wish I had a repper drinking buddy honestly
or a tranny
or anyone I could talk about this stuff with

>>42850221
I just sleep during the day instead