too early again

I’m feeling like I might snap again.

>>25111304
οkay thanos

Fuck long books

I am 30 years old, I just quit my job and I have enough savings to live for 1-2 years without working. What should I do?

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>take one coffee a day
>still end up sleeping late

>>25111346
i turn 30 in 2 months & am dreading it. any advice?

I want to shed my old desires. I want to do what is good because it is good; not because it would make me feel like a nice person, or because I would be recognized for it, or to attempt to balance out some ledger of evil acts I've committed, but for its own sake. I want to become someone who could sacrifice himself; not for a desire for grand drama and meaning to life, or to satisfy a thirst for self-punishment, or as elaborate suicide, but someone who would recognize that a good thing would come at the cost of his life and doing it. And I also want to be someone who would sacrifice in undramatic ways, for the sake of what is good; a person who would quietly bear burdens, or take pains, or be injured or humiliated or fall in the eyes of the world, for the sake of what is good and for no other reason.
I have discovered a strange hunger to create art; a hunger not just for art but the sort of thing you would capitalize, Art, something which reflects the Form of Beauty, if there is such a thing;-- I hunger to go out of myself, lose myself in beauty, bring it to earthly sight, whether to do so costs me in some way or whether it is for free. Sometimes I see this beauty, see it for itself without anything to mediate, in my dreams, and wake moved to an emotion I don't have a word for.

>>25111350
Why? As far as I can tell from talking to old people, your mind feels the same “inside” from 25 until 60-65. So you have a long time before you have to worry about aging.

Unless you’re a woman, then yeah turning 30 is probably more scary because your social worth is more attached to your youth, and the timeline for having kids.

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>>25110756
I don't really understand the problem

Learn stuff to the extent that it's usable to your unique life, the unique events that happens in it, and tailor every bit of knowledge to your unique character.

I agree that a lot of decisions cannot be made with pure knowledge, and most advice given by people is useless because often too general. Still, there are things that are true at the level of the species, and things that are true at the level of the individual, just because everyone is eager to claim what's specific to them, their values and so on, are universal, doesn't mean that they aren't some key pieces of understanding that you can adopt, make your own, shape it to your preference and then use it with full clarity. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and certainly every individual has specific preferences for a certain amount of complexity, proportion etc. but that a human can feel beauty, and that beauty is generated by proportions, I'd say It's ridiculous to debate on these obvious matter.

>Socrates didn’t help people figure out what to live for - he made it harder to pretend they knew. & they executed him.
Again, by education I don't mean dogma, I mean opening someone else's eyes, or making him see through mine, your skepticism of knowledge is weird, have you never shared an experience to someone, wishing not necessarily to teach anything, but at least to see in their eyes that they understood what you meant? that for a brief moment they could see through your eyes? that's how good books are, that's how good education is

>Everything neat and explanatory, nothing messy or contingent.
>Exposure to uncertainty has its own kind of value
yes. Ideas are tools, and that's why you pair knowledge with wisdom: so that you know best when to apply it, and also know when to drop it, even sometimes you'll have to drop instincts and intuitions, because they are products of knowledge. I like knowledge, knowledge is useful, a good means to an end :)

>>25111357
did theo von write this lol

>>25111350
Why? Turning 30 is no big deal

>>25111346
>What should I do?
Beg for your job back unless you want to explain to future employers the 2 year gap on your resume

>>25111369
it’s a huge deal.
you no longer have that 2 in your age.

Literary magazines and journals suck re: submissions
"We are only open for submissions for one week"
"We don't accept simultaneous submissions"
"If you don't hear back after 9 months, assume we passed"
Fuck those ninnies

>>25111360
My point wasn’t obscure, this response is starting to make me suspect you’re ESL and genuinely don’t comprehend something(?)

>>25111357
>I want to do what is good because it is good; not because it would make me feel like a nice person, or because I would be recognized for it, or to attempt to balance out some ledger of evil acts I've committed, but for its own sake.
Okay, so you're starting to be an egoist (good) and live for happiness, great

>I want to become someone who could sacrifice himself
Argh, why?? If you live for yourself, what is there left to sacrifice for?

I'd say i would sacrifice myself for loved ones, not because I'd do something 'good', but because If I had to choose myself over my loved ones, then I would feel so destroyed that I'd end up killing myself anyway

>And I also want to be someone who would sacrifice in undramatic ways, for the sake of what is good
Or you could, y'know, *live* for what is good. And then, what is good?

I don't know how to make people see that 'what is good' is to be independent, full of strength, creativity, vitality, with a great will that desires and get what it wants, and that 'sacrifice', if we take it to mean that you don't live for yourself anymore and follow some other will, that of a collective or else, that sacrifice doesn't serve 'good' anymore, or it serves another's good, but if everyone lives for the next person, helping them, if everyone is helpless and a zombie with no will and no strength to follow a will, where the fuck is the good?

I swear to god, I can't comprehend how people don't understand that the sympathy for those who lack and the desire for charitable actions towards them is *always* coming from a thought that this lifeform in front of them is not independent enough, and the desire to help is an instinct towards freedom project on this other, that you only wish to help until it can help itself.

I can't myself but laugh at all those altruists, charitable souls, suffering-reductionist, who help and help, and then are always systematically depressed in their boredom and their hedonist attitudes, and never have the self-awareness to bring depression to a higher rank of problems and above suffering. Because depression happens to a censored will, to someone who doesn't value himself, doesn't know where to go, doesn't know how to appreciate himself, someone who, despite all his best efforts to give himself, as he's been told to do well, someone who has made his sympathy for others the stronger force, and its best enemy.

They start and stop at 'suffering is bad' that is the extent of their philosophical inquiry. How fucking sad it is to stop thinking there, and then see Beauty and Strength as some kind of strange artifact, "Why should I go to the gym? Why should we make this building beautiful? Imagine if we cut cost on that building on much suffering-reduction we can make!! Me? I'm depressed, but that's no suffering haha, no I don't lack beauty what are you saying haha" how sad, my heart really aches for the state of confused society.

tldr: live for yourself and your happiness

>>25111399
you seemed to be saying that "But actually education bad because dogma bad, and y'know sometimes confusion and uncertainty good"
I don't think your point had more depth than that, so I responded by saying 'ok, true, but I wasn't promoting dogma'

>>25111402
>live for yourself and your happiness
No

>>25111410
remain depressed or confused by living with half-sacrifices half-happiness then

>>25111415
Depressed? Confused? Who is?

>>25111406
I’m lost, am I talking to the same anon who said
>study philosophy and you'll understand what to live for

>>25111420
ye

>>25111421
Then I’m sorry to point out you’ve abandoned your original angle

>>25111402
>Argh, why?? If you live for yourself, what is there left to sacrifice for?
Death is nothing compared to dishonor
If you truly cared about yourself, you would never stain your consciousness

>>25111418
retard
>>25111425
that sounds retarded and unjustified

(>>25110587 , >>25110756)
>The real value of education is it saves you from this pedestrian, reductionist view of life.
>British writer once said every teacher must be familiar with the vague, high-minded platitudes which fill the hardened listener with despair and the novice with a dangerous sense of unwarranted elation. More than your ideal of education (which I do have reservations about), it’s your ‘cant’ I’m pushing back against.
(don't even know what that " 'cant' " refers to anyway)

You keep saying that I have a dogmatic view of education, misinterpret what I say at every corner, I explain twice that this is not the case and you respond me with the vaguest statement
>you’ve abandoned your original angle
If you're a troll, well played, because I've spent enough time responding to your fucking bait nonsense, fuck off

The big vein in my penis hurts after masturbating today, maybe I need to relax my grip.

>>25111432
Do you want me to gently lick it to soothe the pain? UWU

>>25111434
Get on your knees.

>>25111437
>Get on your knees.
My fat geriatric ass can't perform such miraculous feats of athleticism. If you want a licking, you best find a stepladder

>>25111280
Socially my dreams are typically ornate as my surroundings in the engineering or scenic sense. It's one thing to talk with a 90 year-old chick about Haydn symphonies, quite another to be capable of 17khz in both ears at 60 or so.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4e_GuDBSsTw&list=RDji4i_GfQn9g&index=11

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>>25111431
>You keep saying that I have a dogmatic view
don’t think I’ve used the word ‘dogmatic’ once in our exchange.
>you respond me with the vaguest statement
didn’t I just quote you verbatim in the previous reply?

>>25111447
>don’t think I’ve used the word ‘dogmatic’ once in our exchange.
Don't be so obtuse, that's the whole essence of your critique, you're saying the word education I use or the way I use it is too rigid, you keep chanting the good faith of uncertainty, of looseness, and I'm saying you're misunderstanding the way I conceive education. I've never argued for rigidity, you simply decided to see that in my statements.

>>25111470
nah nigga get faded

>>25111470
>Study philosophy and you’ll understand what to live for
isn’t a loose, anti-dogmatic, ideas-as-tools statement. I didn’t decide to see rigidity in it - you wrote it. But that was never my main drive anyway: that philosophy seriously practiced destroys the confidence required to recommend it. Nothing to do with whether you’re being rigid or loose about education. Feels cheap to keep playing the ESL card but it really seems like you’re not following.

I wish I could be gay for one day so I could experience what it feels like to find men attractive, because as it is, looking at men while being straight, I can't imagine or understand why women find us attractive at all, we're disgusting beasts, so it'd be nice to experience it, even if temporarily, to see where they're coming from.

>>25111348
time to invest in some sleeping pills (I just use 2 benadryl, maybe 1 benadryl + a sip of nyquil if I need fast-acting) or melatonin tea

>>25111376
>he doesn't lie on his resume
toplel

I keep thinking about Marathe's choice of "cage." It seems more like a binary to me. He was able to rebind himself by choosing to love someone else, so he says, rather than be in the cage which he found himself in against his will. Thus, he only has two options, akin to "the one I was in" or "not the one I was in." He chose to not be in the previous set of problems that besieged him by the only other possibility. It was not as if he had some great number of other alternative passions and chose love. But I suppose still, it's meaningful he was able to choose something else at all, and it still required his utter devotion. He still picked his addiction with the small amount of freedom he had. Perhaps in most lives there are only a few such choices. I also choose an essentially disabled woman.

>>25111383
Have you tried writing something good?

I drank to much now I cant sleep

Just made a fool of myself at a dinner because I had a brainfart mix-up and said Kabul is the capital of Iraq and Baghdad is the capital of Afghanistan, it's so over.

everything is going to shit in life and I feel like roping might actually be a not so bad of a solution...

Stop feeling sorry for yourself and just git gud.

I think this is actually a perfectly constructed song.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IcvFXGRwx84

>>25111350
I'm 34, for the most part nothing's gonna change. I started to see a lot more friends end up married or with kids over the last few years, and occasionally I'll end up at an event like a music show or an art thing and realize that everybody there is in their early 20s and that feels kinda weird. The last 3 people I dated were all mid 20s and if anything that's the biggest sign that I probably gotta grow up a bit. Partying regularly and blastin 20-30 cigs a day stopped being cute a bit ago, but I'm lucky enough to live in a big city where it's normal to see 40 year olds at shows and shit. I've got a few friends in their early 40s who still hang out and shit.
Idk, it'll be fine. You got a few more years of "youth" left in ya if you want there to be. Most people our age will never be able to afford a house or save any real money so people are acting young way longer.

>>25111555
>I drank to much now I cant sleep
You must be doing it wrong

Snobs cannot believe anything to be good if the unlearned spontaneously enjoy it.

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>>25111675
cba

weak hearts vs long stares

>>25111748
wouldnt a weak heart be the cause of long stares tho?
Like they be on the same side
Can't pit two friends together as foes, ya just can't!

>>25111684
Because the implicit discourse of the arts is lost on them, and thus what they like is suspended in a marketable vacuum with no real regard for its genesis, its influences, or intent.
That isn't to say that things that are popular are necessarily bad, but when the average person says X is the best book/film ever, they aren't weighing it against Tolstoy or Kurosawa, because they've never even heard of them nor understand their influence, even though to users of a site like this, those two are very "basic" and obvious names.

I'm cooked. My brain's retardmaxxed, chopped and clapped, cortisol spiked, etc. etc.
I need to lock in, and would like some good reading material to unlock my 3rd eye and reforge my neurons into a semi-functional state.
Can be anything, fiction, nonfiction; political, philosophical, social commentary, motivational, scientific, w/e.
Just something that can get me away from doomscrolling brainrot all day, and start me delusionmaxxing so hard that I physically manifest my most schizophrenic destiny.

broke up and I’m relieved somehow

I've never had a girlfriend and I'm going insane.

>>25111844
did you have sex

>>25111845
Never.

>>25111849
damn.... age?

>>25111844
same bro.
I've just fully detached from the idea, it's kind of like being a millionaire, or a woman, or black. Some other people do/have/are these things, but it's not something I consider even physically possible for me.
Just like I can't observe myself from another persons perspective.
Sometimes my whole life feels like I'm sitting on a couch, and reality is a TV show that I can watch, but never play a part in.

>>25111844
I've never had a girlfriend and I'm going through menopause.

I feel like the closer I get to success, the more I becoming like an alien and less like a human. Like at this point I'm acting on instinct almost 0% of the time.

>>25111888
success in what regard?

>>25111805
my man I got tons of stuff I could recommend but "jules payot education of the will" was the first to come to mind. A charming old piece of work
https://dn790003.ca.archive.org/0/items/educationofwillt00payouoft/educationofwillt00payouoft.pdf

>>25111898
I mean if I did what I actually felt like doing I'd literally just be sitting in bed scrolling reels, gooning and gaming all day

>>25111873
Sociopath or just autistic? Or both?

One time in High School, we took a state test, and when we got the results, on the math section I scored a 100th percentile. I never heard of anyone else getting that, and when I bring it up, people tell me it only goes up to 99th... wtf, did I imagine it? I can see it clear as day, especially because the teacher specifically praised me on it. Please tell me I'm not crazy.

>>25111928
it only goes to 99

Very warm winter this year with zero snow. can't even see my breath in front of my face most of the time. Very eerie.

>>25111933
Anon, not you too... :(

Going to take a warm shower, have an affogato while reading some of my Houellebecq book and then get some sleep before heading to the Airport tomorrow afternoon

Authors are actually the weirdest people and if you read more from their biographies you will realize this. Like PKD and his whole thing of being physically unable to follow orderse

>>25111960
>just gonna go have an espresso then take a nap.

>>25111381
Just wait a couple years and you’ll have it again, silly!
>t. 32

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>check my amazon order of my book if its coming today
>whole order list is out and nothing is showing
>wat.jpg

know what i’m realising? i love money.

>>25111963
Natural caffeine has never really bothered me sleep wise as long as it isn't too much

>>25111960
Just looked up "affogato" and I've been doing this for years without knowing it was a coffee Nazi (ie Italian) thing lol.

>>25112008
people have it sometimes during summer but i feel like it’s kind of an instagram italy thing. most italians would just default to a straight espresso.

>>25112014
I mean I do coffee w/ a splash of milk or cream like 99.99% of the time but I do get the occasional sweet coffee drink like from Tim Hortons or Starbucks or whatever y'know? On rare occasion I will make myself an affogato if I do have vanilla ice cream in the house but more times than not I'll find myself wishing I could than actually making one.
I can't really do coffee black though, need milk at the very least. I feel like as soon as you add sweetener it stops tasting like coffee though, you know? A bit of dairy is okay but not sugar unless it's a treat.

2026 is the year of being yourself. I hope you got the memo, Anon.

face turns red

Cortisοl spike imminent.

listless and bitchless

Whore fatigue.

Literature fatigue.

cock fatigue

I remember, a while ago,I talked to my mother about how incredibly privileged women are when it comes to dating and how they don't have to do anything and it's expecting of the man to do all the work, and she told me that she never even thought about that. I have the suspicion that all women are like that. Would explain a lot.
We live in a world where Western men have lost any and all privileges (unless you consider working in a coal mine or getting drafted a privilege) yet we're still supposed to woo women like it's the '50s except it's significantly harder these days.

I was to lοse.

>>25111888
I've been having similar thoughts. By every metric of societal success I'm doing better than ever before, but whenever I stop and let myself be with my thoughts I feel like I'm becoming something separate from myself. The 'real me' is the worthless piece of shit that I've been for all my life. The difference here is that I never felt human to begin with, I've always seen myself as less than a person, but now that I am becoming someone I'm losing the unique disgusting thing I was, and turning into a real human being, but an empty one without personality or self. I do what is expected of me, I 'want' things that a person is supposed to want, and I don't think anymore, not very often. I don't know if this is what living is supposed to feel like. The situation I am in now gives me happiness but makes me feel like I'm no longer true to myself. I still feel like I was supposed to kill myself years ago.

I miss you :(

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pseuds will be like
>οh yeah, I can totally mentally envision a 1 on the apple scale, not like these other NPCs
then you ask them to draw an apple and it's worse looking than a 4

>>25112332
Relatable.
At least I fucked around in my late teens and mid twenties. Now I'm doing the 'right thing' and it's fine but also boring. There is a lack of tragedy in my life. I'm not the misunderstood young man I used to be.
The only way out is to self sabotage or get so rich you can buy new experiences. Sabotage is not really an option, I'd be roundly despised and I don't have it in me. Hitting rock bottom is all fun when you have little to lose. I think back fondly of quitting jobs on a whim or skipping school.

Can't imagine people who always did the right thing from a young age. I guess a good portion of them just lose their minds in their 30's

>>25111307
You’re lucky I don’t snap and come over there and snap you in two.

I sound really autistic when I talk. Don't know how to fix this.

>>25112606
Practice by yourself.
What specifically makes it sound autistic?

>>25112611
I stammer like an autistic person. I talk to myself a lot when I'm alone and I think it's making the problem worse.

>>25111844
Having no friends is truly unsustainable, but I think having no gf can be managed. Sex is fine, nothing mind-blowing. You get used to it along with every other aspect of a relationship. The only really valuable part of a gf is friendship, but you can find that elsewhere too

getting into sales as an introvert was a pretty bad idea

>>25112674
been there. no picnic.

>>25112650
Lel, I saw a documentary about a bougie hotel where one of the concierges had a stammer and his mother had told him to lean into it and get used to making other people wait for you. He was like, everyone I talk to is either extremely patient and kind or they're out of luck because nobody's firing me for a stammer.

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>>25112682
>Lel
dude if you write 'lel' one more time, i will track you down and make you rue the day you ever decided to be quirky. I dont care how long it will take, or how many resources it requires. Eventually I will make you suffer, have no doubt about that.
YADADAMEAN??!

>>25111913
Neither I think?
My life has just been a fucking mess for so long that it feels easier to detach than to dream and watch them turn to dust.

>>25112674
>>25112676
It's supposed tο make you into an extrovert, retards

>>25112715
not how it works m8

>>25112687
Jej

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>>25112716
It works however you want it to, anon. It's your mind, your body, your life.

Sometimes I dwell too much in my negative thoughts and think that no one around me has it as bad as me. Other times I think how fortunate I am to have been born reasonably intelligent and in a wealthy country that, for all its faults, has provided for me. I could've just as easily been born as a wage slave in the Philippines or a country in Central America, yet here I am stewing in impotent anger over the inherent unfairness of life. I won a game of probability that I constantly take for granted.

>>25111280
Creepypastas have become so shit. I used to like listening to them on youtube, but now all the thumbnails are shitty 2 sentence horrorstory bullshit, and the stories are just first person horror. No attempt at immersion, no attempt at making it seem like a guy is writing down what he experienced. The genre is dead and I am MAD ABOUT IT.

The nicknames that Byzantine emperors had:
>Thick Neck (Constantine I)
>The Apostate (Julian, who renounced Christianity)
>The Butcher (Leon I, who slaughtered a rival general in the palace)
>Mismatched Eyes (Anastasius I, who had eyes of different color)
>Big Beard (Konstantinos IV)
>Cut-Nose (Justinian II, whose nose had been cut to prevent him from
regaining the throne)
>Shit-Name (Konstantinos V, who allegedly defecated in his
baptismal font)
>The Khazar (Leon IV, after his mother, a Khazar princess)
>The Stammerer (Michael II)
>The Drunkard (Michael III)
>The Wise (Leon VI)
>Pretty Boy (Romanos II)
>The Bulgar-Slayer (Basil II)
>The Caulker (Michael V, after his father’s profession)
>The Geezer (Michael VI)
>Penny-Pincher (Michael VII, who was parsimonious)

>>25112739
Don't worry anon, that's normal. You have to practice. Find things you can be thankful for and remind yourself to be thankful for them. In winter, I cuddle under all my blankets and I'm thankful that I can be so cozy and warm. When I eat something really good, I'm thankful that I get to enjoy something so tasty.

Andy Warhol once said: "You have to be willing to get happy about nothing."

I have it hanging above my bed.

>>25112650
do you try to talk fast or slow?

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I don't know about you guys, but I hate, to the death of me, these threads.
If you are going to say something bold, get your quotes, your citations. Especially if it's something bold.
I get it, I read a book like Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas or Grapes of Wrath a year ago, I probably forgot the exact wording of a quote or something to prove my claim. What I don't do is assert such a big, stupid idea and then leave it on the OTHER person to research it.
You can ctrl-F. You can google it. You can even use LLMs to search the exact quote you want: but I am not going to do that work for you.

On other news, I've been looking into the magazine space and damn, there's so much. I'm impressed there's so much that pays. I wonder how that market will mutate in the upcoming years; I can't really picture a bunch of 30 year old zoomers of keeping up the pace. Maybe flash ficiton.

I honestly think one of the worst ways to die is a theme park accident. I still think about the tragedy of the boy who got beheaded in front of his family on a stupid slide. Or those people who got crushed between giant gears on a river ride. Imagine you are just trying to have a fun day and then you are dead because someone cut corners or didn't listen to design specialists. I don't want to go to one ever again.

>>25112819
I think you’re statistically more likely to die from falling space debris.

tfw I'm reading 4 books at the same time kek

>>25112844
*looks out window, up at the sky*
how likely?

>>25112847
also watch out for falling pianos.

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>>25112819
>boy who got beheaded in front of his family on a stupid slide
Pic related
Not really though, I was in the area looking for something to do with my cousin and was like "why is the water park closed" and it had just happened days ago

explain why corn goes with mashed potatoes so well

i’ve waited for a long time

Why do anglophone speakers constantly mispronounce nuclear as "nucular"? I'm an ESL and I can't even really wrap my head around how that happens.

>>25112945
For what?

>>25112976
lil bussy

>>25112991
You’re gay?

>>25113001
die ice pops

>>25113017
?

always one anon autistically asking questions at every intentionally vague post in these threads

Everyone else who lives with me is going on vacation for 8 days. /lit/ party at my house? be there or be square

>>25113028
chill bro I’m just bored and curious

>>25113032
wasn’t exactly meant to be a dig at you it’s just funny seeing anons go ‘with words unspoken a silent devotion, I know you know what I mean’ and someone grilling them ‘what do you mean ???’

>>25113045
Lmao bro I know that’s an XX lyric

>Realize I make median wage
>Revalue my workplace since I do get paid enough to put up with this bullshit
Secondly, I've lost my voice as a writer. I stop myself from writing what feels natural because that, in turn, feels like AIslop.

Late have I loved thee
Lately have I loved thine opposite
The desolate, God knows it

>To heck with it.
>Where's my chungus Ihop-girl?
>Where is my gawking millennial?
>With the famous face . . .
>Not the 'famous blue raincoat;' as twee-charms are a myth.
>A hoodie probably suffices for this one.
>So alas, the famous face -- In these parts called
>'onion.'

>>25111369
plus if you are a ladywoman youre finally starting to look fucking hot

I'm so fucking bad to talking to woman when I'm romantically interested in them, holy fuck. It's like all my social skills evaporate.

>>25112819
I think it's a dying doing what you love thing like
>Exploded in first manned flight of ...
>Found dead on the fourth serving of beignets
>Crushed while adding more unread books to the top shelves
Some people are living life how they want to go out because you wind up dead anyhow

>>25111928
that is possible

>>25111280

hellll ya mang my isp isn't range banned in time for friday hell ya time to fuck around on /lit let's goooo

>>25113157
i don’t think so

Is Cuties worth watching?

Although his heart had turned to winter, his soul was endless scorching summer.

i'm sure someone has made this observation before but the unpronounced b in numb is an superb bit of the english language
what a great word

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lu9wdQE0jP8

One day you're gonna figure οut that everything they taught you was a lie WATCH THE WORLD BURN

I give up writing. Nobody will ever read my stories. My plots aren't interesting, my prose is garbage, and my characters unlikable. I'll never improve to the point where anything I write would be worth reading.

>>25113280
idc. writing is an act of thinking, to me.

>>25113290
I mentally write all the time but I think I agree with anon, that his plots aren't interesting, his prose garbage, and his characters unlikable.

if
>i am
can be snorted to
>im
then
>you are
can be shoetened to
>ur

FACT

>>25113307
to me it appears clear you would have had no means of reading it, let alone assessing it justly. therefore, your attempt at insult falls obviously flat and grows my contempt for only you.

>>25113321 >>25113307
and moreover,
by knowing that,
to say that
>[you] think [you] agree
call into question your capabilities in thought and agreement both. i would resign as captain before picking you for dodgeball, let alone a debate team compatriot.

and to speed to blind (plus bland) insults to accomplish what? impress anonymous strangers? you have dogshit wit and disgust me.

>>25113280
maybe you should try editing work. later maybe even ghost writing. something absent any avenue for appraising the value of your own personal expression could let you focus on just the joy of the craft for a while.

then maybe writing for fun might come easier and faster amd face fewer frictions the next time you try it. goodluck out there,

ill return to post the appropriate meme on this later

Willpower and Intelligence are uncorrelated.

>>25111280
Is anyone else here scared of aging?
I'm not really sure why I am. My 70 year old grandmother actually lives a life pretty similar to mine. Both of us live rural, we don't go out much, we don't do drugs. She has some health-related struggles of course, but that's the only serious difference between us. I have to wonder, what's so scary about that? If I were some chad surfer or skater living in SoCal, I could understand fearing aging. But her life is only barely worse than mine, and when I'm 70 I could live essentially the same lifestyle I live now.

I guess it's some kind of neurosis, that your real life hasn't started yet. A lot of zoomers (and many millennials and gen X) have lives like this. Like somehow the color and joy of being a normal middle class adult has all but faded, so we're all desperate to be the protagonist of some fictional movie about our life.

>>25113368
tragically, yeah.
hopefully its possible to develop both.
intelligence is certainly possible.

>>25113459
>Is anyone else here scared of aging?
Extremely. Some days I'm almost afraid to go outside and show my face because I don't wanna be the older dude walking around. Fortunately I have a young face.

>>25113459
No. I'm scared of brown sticks in the snow.

>>25113537
It's impossible for an old person to look like a young person (up close), but if you do everything correctly you'll have a face that's just as visually pleasing as a 20 year old. Unfortunately, "everything" is a lot of things. Like, if you don't have all bases covered then it will be obvious. I may wear sunscreen for example, but I have too many carbs and sugars so my skin tone looks dull.

People say millennials are aging well, but that's a lie. Most millennials look middle-aged by this point. Anti-aging is no joke, you gotta actually put work in.

>>25111280
Botox is crueler than time

>>25113555
Fortunately I've always looked younger than my age. I'm 31 now and I probably look... 27? give-or-take. Once I actually look above 30 though, might put a bullet in my brain.

>>25113591
What caliber bullet? I was thinking of the bullets from Super Mario, but those don't exist in real life.

>>25113598
If you're actually curious, then my real plan is score some fent + alcohol, use both, then pass out and never wake up again. Painless, pleasurable, and you don't see it coming. Best of all worlds.

>>25113609
Why? Are your looks all you have?

>>25113611
There's also the precarious financial situation. But no, it goes back to the original premise of fear of aging. That's how much I don't ever wanna be 40.

>>25113613
It's an irrational fear, really. Generally youth is much better than old age, but if you actually put the effort in, your old age can be amazing. Seneca has a piece about this.

>>25112435
your kinetic capacity to depict an apple isn't the same as being able to envision it you braindead materialist.

Dubs and I never go on 4chan again

>>25113615
I will admit if I were rich I wouldn't mind getting old. I'm not, so I have no intent. Plus I'm only attracted to younger, college-aged girls, so once access to that gravy-train ends -- pretty much once I reach the age where approaching and sleeping with them becomes socially unacceptable -- I'm donezo.

>>25113633
If you never give up you'll still be able to poach shit from time to time.
I know a guy who still gets young women and he was seventy last year. They aren't very hot, though, and he is a college professor.

>>25113633
>>25113637
You get famous and you'll have all the women you could ask for, doesn't matter how old you get.

Getting older is fucking miserable

>>25113637
I should have become a college professor. Oh well, in the next life.

I see you, girl-putting-on-sunglasses-so-you-can-stare-at-me-with-clandestine-impunity.

>tfw no villanelle gf

How do I get a girlfriend?

>>25113705
Ask

>>25113708
I just did

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>>25113710
Ask the girl.

>>25113714
I'm shy :(

>>25113715
Lemme ask you something: how do you buy something at the store? Pick it up and bring it to the cashier, right? But if you're too shy to do that, well, you can't buy it... same with a girl. Not sure what you expect to happen if you can't talk to them.

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>>25113719
It's not the same. I have no trouble talking to men, old ladies and married couples. But for some reason, girls frighten me. It's been this way since I was a baby. A girl in kindergarten smiled at me and all my instincts told me to run away. Maybe I'm just a retarded homo.

No one will believe me (and they're right not to), but I'm about one big eureka away from becoming the next mrbeast or bill gates.

>>25113728
I guess I'll give you the usual platitudes: a) they're just people, b) there's so many of them even if you make a fool of yourself with one of them, so what? move on, and my favorite, c) if the girl approached you and started talking, it'd be fine, right? so should you approaching her and talking too. Get at it!

>>25113731
Is this Clavicular?

so... it's happening, as the say

>>25113748
never mind, we bombed some stuff, iran shot some rockets, it's already over. BORING.

>>25113731
why not both?

>>25113762
and that's a GOOD THING

>>25111280
Being poor saved me from seeing the world for what or really is. It's funny, I actually thought the classes above me had it better than me. I thought, being piss poor sucks, but everyone else has better than this. I also used to pay a lot of attention to the great buildings of the past, these wonderful palaces painted in gold and marble wich every day remind us of the glorious era. I believe they sort of shaped me into the extinct species of the Western man through osmosis. Dumb, peasantish and stupid, I actually believed my country was a wonderful place full of liberalomagnamonious greatness made for the most excellent of citizens like me, and that the only reason m'y life sucked was poverty.

after all these years of typing it manually I just accidentally discovered that ctrl+s makes the spoiler tags around the selected text for you

>>25113792
oh is. that what it is? i hit that by accident a bunch of times but could never figure out what i had typed to do it

I gοt enemies fucking with me mentally.

Why do francophiles choose the most boring french to imitate?

>>25111280
I mean, I get the idea that women should be allowed to wear what they want. But, skin tight sportswear, with a low cut, and an open back, in a convenience store???
I get that your parents own the busines, lady, but come on there are still levels to it. I know me looking is wrong, and whenever I see her coming or going I avert my gaze. But holy shit, when I'm walking in I'm still going to look, even if by accident.
Worst part of this is that I once stared at this same girl's cleavage so hard she covered up, a few years ago, when I was a teenager. I hope she doesn't remember.

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>>25111280
i am tired of living lads and everything i tried failed, what to do ? no suicide

>>25114007
they do it on purpose, to attract males with big dicks with money who will fuck them

>>25114029
try harder

>>25114032
Well they obviously do it on purpose. But the motives are probably not that clear cut. I hate women have been stripped of sexual agency, though. They may be the receptor sex in coitus, but that doesn't undermine their agency. In some sense in enchances it.
It's a pet theory of mine that an uncommon but not rare form of female mate selection consists on engineering an encounter with the chosen partner. Arguably it's how my mother met my father.

>>25114056
To an extent I think they just dress like that because it's the norm, or I guess they like to be observed, to some extent.

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I'm insane by the very definition of the word. Everyday I ask myself exact same fucking question and every day the answer exact same. You would think being aware of this would help but all it does is turn on the light bulb in otherwise dark, moldy, grey and filled with cracks ruin of a cell; just so I can see it all in agonizing detail.

>>25114086
What is the question?

>>25114089
"Where do you go when there is no reason to stay and no reason to go?" And answer is "nowhere". Its always fucking "nowhere".

>>25111280
literature does not cure autism

remember that video from x where some us military dude is in a hotel in bahrain or sth and he's like "bruh hohohehehe" *huge explosion* " oh fuck oh fuck oh shiiiit one got through!" well now they hit that hotel lol i hope he got out like he said he was going to lol

>>25114086
>>25114094
heres some advice ive heard—
“you wont think your way into a new way of behaving. but you can behave your way into a new way of thinking.”

>>25111280
I'm angry about covid again. Some stupid video mentioned it and now I'm pissy about it again. Two years of my life for nothing.

I fear that one of these days I will crash out and text you

>>25113714
Stealing this dress, thanks

>>25114116
no but autism has given me some great books and stories so I'm okay with it

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My best friend just got diagnosed with stage 3 cancer.
His odds are >50% I think, but damn I just want to cry my eyes out.
He lives on the other side of the country now so I can't even do anything to help him. Might start going to church just to feel like I am doing something for him.

>>25103624
Now Amazon is investing $50bn after OpenAI made a deal with the Pentagon.

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>>25114116
>>25114250
>autism
Honestly this word has become so diluted it carries no meaning.
Can we just return to calling ourselves retarded when we make a social faux pas? And "having interests" instead of saying "autism makes me do this".
A true autistic like in those freak shows is just a low functioning retard

Current books I'm reading have nothing to do with each other and are going to look incoherent as fuck together on my goodreads fml

>>25114264
I'm a low functioning retard and I was talking about the more functional retards who write reference books and stuff

>>25114272
nigga a low functioning retard can't even wipe his own ass. You telling me you can't wipe your ass? huh?? Are you saying You got dookie between ur cheeks right now?? Bruh dats nasty! wtf

>>25114278
>anon wants to pick this fight
I can wipe my ass but it's 50/50 if I can pick up a coffee pot or stand most days because my nervous system doesn't work right

>>25114288
aint no fight here, just politely asking people to be more considerate of using proper terminology
Shieeet if words have no meaning, talking would be pointless yknow.

>>25114260
>Deal with the pentagon
>OpenAI is bleeding money
Can't wait for the Federal Reserve to bail them out in 2027.

Why is everyone running?

>>25114324
zombies

it's bad 4chan technology isn't advanced enough to play audio on mp4s cuz those iranian drone videos go way harder when hear that whine go grrrreeeeee before the explosion lol

Why do people have to make up words like "crybully" when the better term already exists (crocodile tears)?

the iran war is already over it didn't even go a day lmao

>>25114338
you have penistaste if thats how you legitimately rate that

>>25114264
I'm reading anna karenina to improve my social skills and it's not working

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constantly worried that my writing has become too clinical and will be seen as AI

>>25114345
Yeah they killed the Supreme Leader lol

>cute co worker comes out of the unisex restroom
>I go in and instead of standing I purposely sit where she warmed the seat
>Take a huge whiff to try and catch the scent of her pee
>Our asses indirectly touched
>Happy about it
What is wrong with me

I swear I'm not gay, but when I was a kid and teenager I felt weird when other boys touched me or when I was in the locker room, and these days my sexual fantasies frequently revolve around getting pushed down and fucked rather than doing the fucking, and I got into playing with my butt recently and thought the way most dildos were bigger than me was kind of hot, and I recently developed a bit of a crush on a (male) coworker and then felt down for a bit when he got a girlfriend, and I'm shorter and smaller than average, and I've been working on getting a bigger butt in the gym, but I swear I'm not gay.

I think I have another onset of depression underway

>>25114389
respectfully—— if i dont care, why tf do you?

be gay, dont be gay
whatever

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Sigh... the same topics, same lame platitudes, same jokes. Etc etc.
I think I have grown too old for the company of lesser men.
Adventure into the unknown awaits
See ya next saturday :^)

>>25114391
Early onset depression?

>>25114414
no

I know i shouldn't care about what r*dditors think but I saw some claims that if you dont identify with left or right politic then you are probably right wing. I have always considered myself mostly apolitical. now I am going to branded as a right winger? how does that make sense

Just opened up to a woman and told her how I feel.

Accidents will happen
They only hit and run
You used to be a victim now you're not the only one

>>25114443
because Orange Man BAD and if yοu don't directly parrot my every opinion, then you obviously support Orange Man

No matter how bad things get in my country at least I’m not in a 3rd world shithole led by people who get threatened with war and assassination every single day and decide to hold a group meeting in the same room with no protections

> if yοu don't directly parrot my every opinion
whereas progressivism is a wide umbrella term with lots of infighting between people with a great wide variance in opinion.
conservativism, by virtue of being defined by a return to a condition in the historical past, is the tent where you actually see groupthink the conformity of belief the
most—— even if that happens emergently rather than by premeditated intention.

i rate this poste >>25114452 therefore FALSE

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>>25111805
VALIS

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>>25114473
Scientifically disproven, at least in regards to American politics.

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>>25111854
Not the OP, but my wizard powers are emerging. They are eerily similar to schizo majick.

>>25114484
this is mathematically impossible, im afraid. which is a standard ive never heard of being successfully surmounted by a journalist

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>>25111995
BEGONE, ANTICHRIST.
CRUCIFIXION IS YOUR ONLY OUTCOME.

understanding graph networks, information entropy, fourier transforms, et al. is more useful for understanding anything you see instantaneously than having read
all the bulk of philosophy (which should be walled off on some separate board somewhere)

>retard proof oven baked chicken
approx. 1/4 bottle russian salad dressing
approx. 1/3 cup apricot jam
1 packet onion soup mix
2.5-3lbs chicken breasts
mix all ingredients, pour over chicken, bake until cooked
>roast potatoes for idiots
chop approx. 2.5lbs red potatoes into bite size pieces
tumble with avocado oil, salt, pepper, rosemary, cumin, and paprika
place on baking sheets, skin side up
roast at 400F for 20 minutes, optionally flipping halfway

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>>25112920
They're both starches. Corn is sweet, potatoes are savory. Idk ask >>>/ck/
SWEET AND SAVORY. don't forget the texture: crunchy, juicy, and wholesome. Comfort food.

man sometimes i really wonder about the unciverse hahaha ok ill try the abovd

>>25114500 can you bake on the same pan? or would having 2 individual pans be more necessary?

>>25114509
the chicken and sauce will produce a lot of liquid, best to separate from the potatoes so they don't get soggy

>>25114447
How did it go?

>>25114259
I'm sorry to hear that man. Hope he makes it.

Why did the chicken cross the road? Because fuck you, that's why.

I ordered the chicken bacon ranch dragon fruit street chalupa oregano homemade box from Taco Bell.

need to cop me one of those green cargo jackets

Gonna walk to the convenience store to see if they have any sour cream because I made tacos, anyone want anything?

>>25114595
GET ON THE GROUND!

>>25114596
glazed donuts, jelly donuts, Bavarian cream-filled donuts, cinnamon rolls, apple fritters, bear claws, maple bars, chocolate frosted donuts, powdered donuts, cinnamon sugar donuts, bear claws, apple fritters, cinnamon rolls, glazed donuts, jelly donuts

I'd rather have gone to see the Pelé's movie.

>>25114607
I want to watch the Michael Jackson movie

>>25114601
Just got home -- I grabbed everything you wanted but I was a dollar short on the cost, so I put everything but the sour cream back, sorry!!1!

We are so fucked. Education is failing. Universities are going to disappear. Biodiversity gone. We're looking at hundreds of years of these new dark ages, if we survive the scorched middle latitudes pushing everyone off vertically. I just wonder how long I can take this dread until I kill myself. You ever ask a teacher how things are going? It's beyond bleak. Culturally, there's no more (and it will be so much worse) respect for intellectualism, nor any shame for stupidity.

>>25114662
Universities won't disappear but that's only because they've dropped their standards so much as to allow the newer generations to pass and therefore pay. So it's moreso being educated will mean less and less until it means as much as graduating high school.

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Saw a video of this boomer giving the 'its not what you know but who you know' advice. I met some interesting and 'useful' people but because of my schizo-autist mindset I managed to lose contact with almost all of them.

>>25114663
Think a little longer term. I don't see this model being sustainable. What I alluded to w.r.t. teachers was that there's a widespread notion of a total apathy, loss of curiosity, and learned helplessness regarding all tasks that I'm not sure what's going to even happen to the idea of a public and free education for the sake of becoming a well-rounded citizen. If those systems change sufficiently, how will universities manage? We're looking at several almost wholly illiterate generations. It's only going to get worse. 18-year-olds who cannot and will not tie their shoelaces, cannot function without being told exactly what to do, and eventually they'll be in charge of what we've left behind.

I feel an almost schizophrenic sense of destiny that I'm part of the last intelligent generation before the coming centuries. We are so utterly screwed.

My grandpa is a big fan of Battle Angel Alita. Not sure why he likes it so much.

>>25114662
A part of me sympathizes with your existential fear, but then I remember how damaging the mistreatment I've personally experienced from other, ordinary people was and I'm suddenly suspended between feelings of indifference and delight that the people who wronged me will get their comeuppance.

>>25114674
Because you still need a degree to get a nice career, and universities will still want that $$$. It's not like universities are gonna go "sorry, there aren't enough people worthy of enrollment, we'll just run at a deficit until there is", they simply drop standards until the numbers line up. Haven't you already read this about curriculums? Teachers no longer assigning complete books? etc

>>25114685
I have. I see it. Don't think others don't. What happens once workplaces realize (and they already have a bias against younger workers because of their comparative cognitive deficit) that the degrees mean absolutely nothing?

Those in universities now still had a... relatively functional primary education. Those in primary education now are so intellectually underdeveloped that things will look very different in 10 more years.

there isn't a single good moral argument against the holocaust

I keep having nightmares where I become an infected-style zombie, like 28 Days Later, and I'm half-conscious of killing and eating and terrorizing people but I can't stop.

>>25114768
Their strongest argument is that "it hurt my feelings to hear about it."

>>25114768
P1: Murder is wrong and immoral.
P2: The Holocaust is murder on a mass scale.
C: Therefore the Holocaust is immoral.

>>25114785
>P1: Murder is wrong and immoral.
not always

Fantasy dwarves suck and are bοring.

the iran war was the biggest dud. too bad baudrillard isn't around to critique how boring this shit is.

>>25114870
I was hoping for massive gore and explosions everywhere like WW2 shit.

>bombing the supreme leader in the middle of negotiations
lmao that's like some shit odysseus would pull

>>25114894
Plato thought Homer was a bad influence

>>25114844
I like techno-dwarves like in Elder Scrolls

>>25114915
nietzsche was right about plato

>>25114818
Yes always, murderous scum.

>>25114921
Neitzche is a footnote to Plato

>>25114926
Plato is prologue to Nietzsche

>>25114936
The entierty of western philosophy is a footnote to Plato

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>>25113625
it is important tο be multidisciplinary in your studies

>>25114939
heh
i understand this reference ;)

>>25114768
check this out:
>Axiom: The holocaust is morally bad to do.
>QED.

>brush teeth
>immediately get hungry again
fug

I'm worried about my upstairs neighbor. I only see him as he's leaving for work (around 5am) or getting home (after 6). He always has bags under his eyes and usually looks tired. I never hear anything from his place and I've never heard or seen anyone visiting him. One time he left his door open as he went out to check his mail when I was carrying groceries in and the part of his place I could see was completely empty, no furniture or anything. On Friday I was hanging out with some friends in front of my place and I saw him pull in to his parking spot and just sit there for a minute, hands on the wheel, staring at nothing, before he got out.

>>25114998
check this out:
>looks outside today
>QED

Big news day today eh. We're getting more and more of these. It's so exhausting.

>>25115074
Stopped reading the news, at this point it seems pretty clear diarrrhea is about to hit the fan anyways so why bother anyway.

>>25115078
I can't stop paying attention though, is the thing. I do believe however that if nukes were ever launched that would be the point when Jesus Christ returns. The Bible says there will be a great peace before Christ returns however so I don't think that is what will happen.

>>25115079
I spent the outbreak of the Ukraine war leaned against a radio. War in Europe! If that didn't freeze your spirits, nothing will. But what happened next? The West reacted by doing absolutely nothing other than cutting ties to Russia and sending money to Ukraine. Now Trump is on the administration, and the Russians having made invasion war fashionable, he humiliated Venezuela. Why would I read the news anymore? Those are two huge historical events.

>>25115078
>read the news
>jews are making everything more terrible for everyone who isn't them
aren't you so glad we saved them from the holocaust?

>>25115074
What happened today besides the Supreme Leader of Iran dying?

>>25115100
Ahh yes, the world is totally ruled by an old desert nation who had their days of victory and glory during the days of the Egyptian pharaos. DON'T believe it.

>shoves words in your mouth without addressing the statement while also trying to downplay it
yep, this anon is jewish

>>25115112
> blames the person raising a reasonable concern for trickery
Yep, this anon is Jewish. Why can't you stop seething about no longer having the brains of Abram and the muscles of David?

We were never premodern.

>calling somebody jewish is equivalent to blaming them
these people simultaneously have self-awareness and a lack of it

big dicks will rule the wprld

>scandinavian
>calling other people racially inferior
>ever
lol, jews are so easy to spot

I was playing a game and a girl was talking, so I checked her profile. She was apparently a dog girl. Dog profile pic, description says she'll sit on your lap, and she was in a group called dog girls. I looked through her friends, and they were all girls, with very girly profiles, who were also playing with me. So I checked all their profiles and did a deep dive into this strange little group. They all seem to strongly identify with appearing girly.

>>25115146
I'm trying to understand the belief in Jewish supremacy and you're going to show me, not mere evidence, but arguments that trump my skepticism.

>>25115146
>scandinavian
>jews
pick one

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>>25115151
>I was playing a game and a girl was talking, so I checked her profile. She was apparently a dog girl. Dog profile pic, description says she'll sit on your lap, and she was in a group called dog girls. I looked through her friends, and they were all girls, with very girly profiles, who were also playing with me. So I checked all their profiles and did a deep dive into this strange little group. They all seem to strongly identify with appearing girly.

>writes short story and gets critique
>they complained my female characters were bad as they were written indistinguishable from males
>rewrite story
>this time zero female characters at all
>zero complaint besides some minor qibles about grammar

So this is what they mean by write what you know.
I wonder how long I can get away will having zero female characters.

Strange thing I noticed. When I'm very driven and motivated my skin complexion goes on to resemble my father's who is Italian (olive-skinned, dull, rough), whereas when I laze around all day and enjoy life it much more resembles my mother's who is anglo (fair-skinned, soft, smooth). This sort of makes sense because women tend to choose professions that are lighter and more social than men's professions on average. And of the women who opt for more intense (read:male) professions, then even for something as mundane as a grocery store, they actually tend to look more male over time by way of rougher skin and dull complexions, vis-a-vis their white collar counterparts who become teachers or whatever.

But actually there's a lot of older asian men who look quite young (and female; it's basically the same thing), when they probably shouldn't. Now on paper this makes sense because Confucian culture dictates everything that you ought to be doing, and so strips you of the autonomy that creates a stressful environment in male professions. However, many Japanese men often look quite young despite having a huge share of autonomy in their professions (such as mangaka). There's something very fascinating going on here. It's very revealing of the asian psyche. I think the real genuine masculine frame of mind is rare in east asia, and guys over there are attuned to something naturally feminine via confucianism. I'm not saying they're femboys or faggots or whatever, it's a yin-yang thing. If you ever get acquainted with korea, you'll really understand this. In korea it's like everyone is servile to someone else.

>>25115427
Wait until you find out about the salary man paradox

>>25115151
They're all men.

new
>>25115815
>>25115815

>>25115427
hmm interesting. explains why I have such soft, feminine skin (and I'm asian)

>>25115766
They sounded like women.

I live in Anguish, I have no purpose, deep down. I know what I have to do but I have no thrive, I have no real will, maybe I've choosen the wrong path for my life but I either choose engineering, which I never felt remotely related to, or I took arts and ended even worse. I can only find confort in family or nature, I've quit drinking and smoking because of my family and I feel like I can only do things for others and never for me. Even with my selfish nature which I so much want to change, I can only change for something external. I've been wondering though, I've, you've, never experienced anything more than us. It's so scary. I live in anguish, or I'm very very dramatic. I'm young, I want to find my direction and not waste my life.

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>>25111280
Just started my second week of art school. I'm very socially awkward and anxious so I only made one acquaintance. But none of the cute artsy girls want to talk to me; they just roll their eyes when I try to approach them. Anyone else been to art school and can tell me if it gets better.