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Is it natural or normal or even healthy to only feel motivation to do things / have them on your mind at all, if you set some sort of goal attached to them
I do not mean a "tiny building block" of something like "just write one sentence!" or "Just draw for 5 minutes!", not one of those ADHD tricks you see online
What I am talking about it something, usually large, grandiose and related to the ego like
(I dont actually wanna do this one but) Start a youtube channel and try to get 10,000 subs for example
Setting this sort of big thing to work towards, to know that all your effort is going towards this one thing. The size of the goal is not important here. It is more just having one that way I am actually conscious of the thing I want to do.

I ask this because I find myself in periods of motivation where I naturally do things that I enjoy -- hobbies -- on a schedule to work towards "goals" all to further improve and define the idealized self I want to become
But then this stops
And I just enter a limbo state for like 3-6 months
Then I suddenly return
I just enter a state where not only do I not do anything, I don't even really like, consider it an option to? It just is not on my mind. I am aware I am not doing these things, but they aren't "part" of me anymore, not what I wanna work towards
But then, I begin to miss my past self, and sometimes feel reinvigorated to work on these things again
It is hard to explain but this doesn't just feel like burnout or boredom but maybe it is, it just feels like I am in a state out autopilot without a real self or desire during these down times
It's odd, as I get older I cannot sporadically do anything, everything must be able to answer a "but why" beyond the simple "because it's fun / you enjoy it"