I don't think it's something I can just get rid of. I'm so drawn to it and I can't stop once I start

I think you need to parent yourself. That's what I've been doing, though I can't attest that it's had any sort of positive impact. I just couldn't take it anymore, I started creating another persona inside my head. I've separated all of my thoughts into two categories: Me, the child, and Me, the adult. "Now do you really think you should be doing this right now?" Is the sort of thing I'll think to myself, but with the other voice I created. Or "You can do this. You're a good boy. Be a good boy for me." Pathetic? Maybe. But in a way I feel like my own master for the first time. You're never gonna get the validation you want from others, and if you try then you'll just be led astray by someone who doesn't have your best interests in mind.

Do you want to hear what I feel trying to? What I feel like it's going to happen?

*feel drawn to

>>34294695
>because I never got it from my mother
That's bullshit. Using your mother as an excuse for your behaviour stops being valid a year after you've moved out. After that, if you are the master of your behaviour and if you don't like your behaviour, you are the one who should be changing it. Stop using "but my mother" as a crutch.

That said, nothing wrong with a little mommy play between the sheets. Just don't let it bleed into the streets.

>>34296064
Are you schizo or what

>>34296100
Do I have a choice

>>34296124
yes

>>34294695
don't beat yourself up
if a girl likes you she'd be understanding about it, and you shouldn't bother with relationships where a girl doesn't like you more than superficially

there's nothing wrong with it as long as you do your best to hold up a relationship also

>>34296265
She said I can only be who I truly am so no, I don't have a choice.

>>34296271
as a man, is it better to lose or sustain your pairbonding ability?

>>34296072
Haven't even moved out yet, always within her vicinity.