I choose HOPE

HOPE

I CHOOSE HOPE!

>>34296935
Why did you choose it?

>>34296923
>I'm taking what's mine. I'm taking what's your's too.
Very interesting way to feign change, you're just acting like you normally do while pretending it's something new. Yawn!

I have a massive penis

>>34296935
Choices mean so little here.
You can either hope or take.

It feels wrong. But happiness demands you to take. Once you accept that selfishness, atonement is simple.
Take the sin unto your soul. Then give until you hurt. Be their sacrificial lamb. Give the joy. And never tell them the cost.
You ARE the righteous arbiter. This ignorant world will NEVER understand sacrifice.
But witness their joy. Through that vicariousness, you will understand the joys of the material.
Such sacrifice guarantees saint-hood. Yet only in the mortal world. Divinity remains as this unreasonable standard.

As unreasonable as it stands, so to shall it's meaninglessness. And all meaningless energy stands with limitless potential.

I am obsessed with Hapas.

>>34296956
That's also a very interesting way of putting "I'll take what's yours and I don't feel guilty about it". Would you like me to psychoanalyze you a bit?

Have not been able to eat, I'm pretty sure I have a sickness

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>>34296976
I wish I were over there to help you out. Try and eat the regular sick foods like soup and crackers. Nothing that will stress the body.
What do you think you have?

>>34296973
By all means.
Do as thou wilt. Not like I'm in any state to disagree.

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>had a string of really hard days at work
>Yesterday was horrendously bad (basically given the task of doing the job of four people on my own in the morning and with only one other in the evening)
>feel suicidal but just remind myself the rest will fix me up
>next morning I still feel suicidal which has never happened ever, even on some of my worst days
>write up a suicide note and start making plans to just go and do it
>I'm actually serious about this. Don't tell anyone anything, no vague posting, just print out the note and set it on my dresser
>have a little voice in my head that I got when I was around 14-15 (I think it was due to a psychological break due to trauma but i'll never be fully certain. Meds don't make her stop talking)
>she says to just give her the day to talk me out of it and go to the zoo
>we do and it doesn't work. Still gonna do it
>go to the history museum afterwards because she said I should and that I owe her that much
>eventually after around 8 hours of walking, she talks me off the metaphorical ledge

hell of a day. I'm not sure whether to thank or curse her. It's one of those rare moments where I would've done it if I had just gone to place where I was going to do it. Yet... I'm back. Not sure how to really feel about it.

I keep overeating

>>34296994
That voice in your head seems nice anon

>>34297000
She's really nice. She's been my little partner since that psychological break happened and she mainly just talks to me but also is constantly trying to steer me down a better path. I'm not entirely sure what she is or why she came to me but I'm glad she's there.

I honestly don't think anyone else could've talked me back from the ledge. I'd probably be in a casket or the ER if she hadn't been talking in my ear all day. I sound so insane but at least i'm alive.

WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT

>>34297002
I wish I could have a little friend like that in my ear. She sounds nicer than the one song I get stuck in there for the day. Are you feeling any better today? Sometimes I wish I were a better conversationalist so I could help you and other anons. Alas the autism weakens my grasp on feelings.

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>>34297011
It has its downsides. Thankfully she's polite enough not to talk when I'm having a conversation but imagine having someone who's very keen to talk to you when you're about to go to sleep lol.

I'm not sure... I'm still sorta reeling from it. I know it's a common refrain for people to say "I was really gonna do it that time" but for me this was absolutely the case. I always wanted to commit suicide but never got that one big push to finally do it, yesterday's work was that big push. I know that had she not steered me in to doing those other activities I would've gone through with it and part of me feels some resentment because i know that I'm not going to get that kind of courage again. But who knows. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow. She says she's proud of me though. It's a very bittersweet feeling.

>>34297019
Were you hit by the latest blizzard?

>>34296965
ayo bby u want sum fuk

I cannot fully accept or process that a friendship that lasted a quarter of my life could end so abruptly and finally. I am still only getting through each day by holding onto the hope that she comes back but I am starting to have to accept that that is not a certainty and each day has been so much harder since I stopped talking to her in my head. I guess I am afraid of admitting that the process I thought I had made was built on a delusion and I have to restart. I miss her so much, I love her so much. If she called me right now and apologized I'd be on a plane to see her tonight. I can see the maturity gap between us and I recognize that our relationship was unhealthy but I am never going to stop missing her. I hope I see her again. Its hard because we started dating a couple years ago and I told her we weren't ready and that I wouldn't be able to handle her leaving and she kinda pressured me into it. I can't blame her and I don't regret it but I don't understand how a person can make all those promises and fight me so hard to be with me then in the end just throw me away. I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts but I am in therapy and I know better than to act on them, but I just can't stand how this feels and I wish I could time travel backwards or forwards away from my life right now. I can't help but pray we reconcile because I really can't accept that I lost my chance with my soul mate. It will be a very long time before I am able to open myself up to another person, if it happens at all. I really don't think I could live through another abandonment. I don't need to be snapped out of it I just want to get these words out because there's nobody who I can say them to now. I miss her. I love her.

>>34296982
ASPD, NPD, sociopath or psychopath, sadist, god complex, possibly with a hint of BPD and a huge fragile ego.

>>34297056
The origin of it: inferiority complex, probably stemming from childhood trauma. I would guess it's either sexual violence or seeing someone dear to you dying at a young age. Possibly from suicide but I am not sure. I would guess it's compounded by repeated exposure to graphic content, be it gore or whatever.
Also, some form of very high functioning autism. The last one was very easy to guess, it takes one to know one.
You know your psychology well. You probably specifically studied on how to be as manipulative and abusive as possible.

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Sometimes I hear his voice in my dreams, even though it has been so long since I heard it. I should have stayed with him after the incident. Past me didn’t know handle the trauma of almost losing a parent and navigating a relationship. But I too wish I could go back in time to change. I wish I could have stayed with you. Even if I needed to leave to help my family in that alternate timeline, somehow we could make it work and you could continue to pursue your dreams in Japan.

Oyasuminasai. Take care of yourself.

>>34297068
What you crave: validation above everything else, authority.

>>34296965
I am only obsessed with one particular hapa.

She took away a piece of my soul. And I probably took away a piece of hers.
Where I am from we would call that a fair deal. My fire that burns for her will never stop burning no matter what happens and I am fine with that, no matter what happens.

https://youtu.be/J_O8-qBq0w4?si=-sSSZSG45qYlokq5

>>34296923
You're also not as good as passing off as other people as you think you are.

>>34297122
>>34296923
2 million in Bitcoin will be sent to you via whichever site you choose, if it doesn't, it's because someone is rebelling against me.

>>34297139
God I hate schizophrenics

I’m getting married in a few months and after that terrible phone call I’m really not convinced that my fiancée actually wants to marry me. I’m not convinced that she loves me. I feel like she’s just going through the motions. She’s openly questioning our faith and asking whether life has any purpose. I can tell that she detests me for not being rich like her family is. I think she hates me and I think she regrets that we’re together. And I don’t think she’s going to break up with me. And once she starts ovulating again, I think this will all flip on its head and she’ll love me more than ever before.

So, my woman coworker might be into me, or I'm reading to deep into it.
I always assume I'm reading too deep into things, but also, there's tiny shit that's weirding me out that's making me think "wait, something's not right".

Her doing my collar in front of my boss was weird. Her following me while I lugged a ladder was weird. Her heart reacting me instead of a thumbs up or a regular ur wc is weird. Her wanting me to sit everywhere with her whenever possible is weird. Her focus on my things instead of her talking about her things is weird.

I could go on all day. I just don't understand.

I found a new porn-fu who only has done solo stuff on onlyfans and a few professional solo scenes. I scroll through her Instragram falling more and more for her, wanting nothing more than to protect her. I only watch solo and lesbian porn, and so far that's all she's done, but the thought of her doing a scene with a man makes me incredibly jealous. I haven't been this jealous since I was in my last real relationship almost a decade ago. Exposure-wise, she's small enough for me to still think I can reach out to her, but that's insane. I don't even want to masturbate to her, and I almost plopped down the $40 she charges for her OF, but goddamnit I've never felt this way for anyone "digital" before.

A horrifying thought occurred to me and it may sound silly and sophomoric to the rest of you, but I’m really fixated on it.
Could God commit suicide? And did he? And I don’t mean the crucifixion, I mean total and irreversible self-annihilation. Is it possible that God literally is dead from suicide

>>34297162
I don't fucking care, bud.

Sometimes i wonder if she is avoiding me. The actual truth is that it doesn't matter though.

Well this sucks. I was thinking of going to a restaurant in a city I'm taking a trip to next month but I realized that they're closed 3 days a week and those happen to be the days I'll be in town for. Fuck.

Just slept for 14 hours after a few weeks of sleep deprivation and feel like shit

Why do you message me with images and videos when you clearly dont want to talk to me.

Sure wish people would die more often

my life is absolutely over now
ive never felt this much despair before except for every single day before she came into my life

>>34297335
based sleeper

>>34297601
Happy to report I'm feeling a lot better after being vertical for a couple of hours, though I do worry about how I'm gonna get to sleep tonight. Technically I should be going to sleep in about 5 hours, after being awake for a total of 8, and I don't think that's gonna pan out for me.

People fucking suck. I wished Iived on an island by myself.

I'm the anon who posted about the car being wrecked by a hit and run driver. Can't call the police now since I found out that my family tampered with the evidence at the scene (both intentionally and unintentionally). Can't file a claim without a police report. I'm just SOL everywhere.

She wants me dead

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I love him. I’ve liked him for months now but we only started really seeing each other at the start of February so it’s far too early to say it aloud, but my god do I love him. He makes me feel brilliant and beautiful and he’s the kindest, strongest, bravest, smartest, most lovely man in the whole stinking world. I feel stupid for thinking he could ever ever ever like me back but I’m trying to be good and listen to his words and actions and not what my stupid mean brain is telling me they mean. He’d be such a good father and partner, and he makes me want to be the best version of myself without being mad if I’m not her immediately. He’s never asked me to cook for him, but I’m practicing because I want to and he deserves good food. I want to spoil him ROTTEN and I need to be the best me possible to do that.
I love him. He wants to go slow, and I’ll wait as long as he wants, but I’m ready. Whatever I thought love was before is fucking nothing compared to this. God, please let him feel the same.

I don't really feel like drinking tonight, but I also feel like I have to, because it's my only chance to drink for the next week and if I don't drink now I'm going to have to deal with wanting to drink later

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Getting drunk and fantasizing about shooting myself again.

I'm tired, i've never seriously considered suicide previously but it keeps jumping in my head now
>Dad died when I was 12
>life pretty shit after that point, my mother looked after herself, sister was a mess. I had to be the stable one
>Life started to pickup at 25, met a great girl who genuinley cared and I had a stable job
>buy a house, get engaged, things seem good
>Grampa dies when I turn 29 - he was a stand in father figure, so it was like losing my dad all over again
>Nan gets dementia, I look after her and she dies. Her partner (Step-Grandad) dies within a few days of her
>Looking at wedding venues, we are showing our families the one we are going to use, my mum quietly tells me and my fiance that shes considering a divorce with her partner
>1 year later wedding comes, 1 week before wedding my mum files for divorce so she can spend the day complaining about her situation
>sister also decides to split up with her 2 year long boyfriend the day before the wedding so she can have something to complain about too
>They both complain at the wedding and couldnt care about anything other than themselves
>My mums ex-partner shows up, completley miserable and ruins wedding photos, cant even be happy for a day
>My family just feel like a massive let down since then
>i've kept a lot of distance with them and im so grateful for having my wife
>Work outsourcing shit happens, such a stressful awful environment at work
>now we have Indian management and its pretty poor, I stay until the point that I go off with stress
>off for like 6 months and get another job thankfully
>Wife tells me she cheated on me with someone at work (We worked at the same place)
>I'm pretty grown up about it but dont want to continue anymore, it obviously fucks me up
>New job is also a stressful shitshow
>I'm 33 now, January - I quit my job to live off savings for a bit, ive got into lifting which has kept me sane
>I have some friends but everyone has their own life, I need to find a meaning in life

>>34297757
I know its a really short diary/rant but would really appreciate it if someone is in a similar position and lost their entire support network. It sucks being alone, I think im a fairly resiliant person but im just tired of having to be like that 24/7. Does life pick up again? How do I find a meaning when the only meaning/future I envisioned was with my wife? All I do is lift now and act like shit doesnt bother me, when it feels like everything inside is just falling apart. At least im in good shape lol

I wonder how much those a package to fren would cost.

>>34297761
Any other community events near you? I cannot fathom such a horrendous turn of events, and you have my sincerest condolences. I would try going out to a bar with good live music/ any kind of community space wherein one could chat and make new connections. You've got a long way to go my friend, it's NEVER too late to restart. Even if it sucks.

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>be retard
>lived with mom all life
>get married
>wife wants me to spend a lot
>get worried
>last month since I forgot to pay rent on time, I had to pay for two months
>saw I was not making money
>panic
>try to be conservative
>fearmonger my wife
>end of month
>up 2K
>thank god
>decided to look at rate of cash flow across months
>each month had a steady 1K-1.5K slope
>realized I just had a schizo attack for no reason
It's one thing if it's "I want us to do BETTER", it's another if I say we're on a downward spiral.

Still, it did taught me one thing: I'm going to get a bank account to separate my savings from volatile/bills. Because right now I always have a little bit of trouble knowing on a glance if I made or lost profit over the long term without getting a graph

Remember My trip is mike !!s1jEdTQxfFE

If it does not have that entire thing then it is not me.

Unfortunately Colton is larping as me again in an attempt to manipulate you

Posted a second time so there is no confusion.

The best thing you can do for me Maria is to trust me over him, Just as you should have done before colton lied and manipulated you away from me.

>>34296994
>>34297002
I forgot where I heard this from, but I remember ancient/pre-modern people would attribute voices as gods/Jesus and let it guide them. The connection is I remember it being a good thing: if a voice in your head is telling you to be good and it's from the Virgin Mary, you'll probably be good. I wonder if it that's what's happening here.

I felt like a normal person for about an hour the other day, it was crazy

Does it make sense to compare your success to someone who started later but has a ton of corporate sponsorship?

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>stopped watching porn over a month ago, haven't gooned to a digital screen since
>still working out after new years and eating 3 meals a day
>started paying attention to what I wear
>making progress with skincare
>able to hold conversations a little longer than before
>a little more social
>recognize that I DO have a personality
Small steps take me further than I've ever been.

He stepped down the massive slates glistening in the dim light
the stairway opened up into a hall, tall and with dust particles dancing in the ray of light falling in from the hole above him

the walls were rows of figures carved into the stone, they felt familiar,
like they had been waiting for him, observing him since before his first breath
the boy felt no fear, he felt welcomed
he wandered for a long time, passing bearded men and women with strong arms
the corridor grew narrower and lower, the deeper he went into the core of the mountain, the statues more withered and worn down by aeons washing over them
the temperature slowly grew warmer, as if moving towards something alive

there were bends and turns and after one of those, the faces on the wall so old they were reduced to faint outlines, sanded smooth and he felt a gentle breeze on his cheeks
barely there murmurs in a language that had not been spoken in a long time floated into his ears
they felt like a memory
his eyes felt heavy as he realized that he had lost all sense of time, he might have been wandering for days
he sat down by a sculpture who's upper body had broken off, laying his head on the giant stone feet that almost seemed to have a pulse

that night he dreamed, and many more nights after

he dreamed of people taking his hand, asking him to come with him and showing him their story, their joys and their sorrows

showing him the mountain they loved, the forest they worshipped, the land that looked after them, the moon that illuminated their path
showing him the trail they had left for him, tree bark, shells, shiny stones, moss, feathers, tiny treasures only noticeable to someone trying to not forget how to look for beauty in every place

and when he woke up, he knew where he belonged

and when his time had come, he placed his light in a fossilized fern, buried it in the soil, knowing that one day those that came after him will find it and bring it back home, just like he did

the end

>>34297273
It's called /GIOYC/ bud

>>34298027
And I got it off my chest that I don't care what you think, funny how that works, huh?

>>34296997
it's not your fault. Probably depression, sloth and Gluttony

>>34296923
This might seem like an odd thing to say, but I'm beginning to wonder if kind people who want a just world should adopt hierarchy and authoritarianism in order to cut off the cruel and hateful ones who are intent on dominating us all and are, sadly, on the cusp of accomplishing just that. Benevolent liberal-minded folks could accomplish the same authoritarianism as the sociopathic conservatives but without the inhumanity and cruelty and corruption.

>>34298049
Cognitive dissonance in real time

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>>34298004
I am proud of you anon. :3

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>>34298049
This is basically the difference between australia and new zealand. Indigenous australians were generally a very peaceful people with a 60,000 year old cluster of civilisations, then they got their shit kicked in by colonists. But indigenous new zealanders didn't fuck around. Look at the two countries today and you can see which one's indigenous population has maintained a degree of relevance and respect
Living in a more peaceful civilisation seems preferable, but it's always going to be more vulnerable, Unfortunately it's a great risk to be more peaceful than anyone who might come to stomp your shit, even if it'd make a nicer world for everyone

>>34296923
What the fuck is going on? Come on you said you would help me

>>34298121
Forgot to add: by comparison, the new zealand indigenous population has only been there for like 700 years, barely a bigger claim to the land than the colonists. and yet here we are.

Sometimes I think I'm fine and chill and all my problems are in my head and I'm just being retarded and dramatic and everyone feels this way therefore it's dumb and cringe to even acknowledge having feelings
And other times I think "you know what, maybe someone shoving their dick into my tiny 8 year old body against my will while I cried had a bit of an impact on me"

>>34297273
>>34298029
nta but I want to punch your fucking lights out

>>34298149
Couldn't give a fuck.

>>34298152
ofc you couldn't

>>34298154
Why should I?

>>34298157
i know your type. it pisses me off that people like you exist.

>>34298159
So?

>>34298160
exactly. that's exactly what your type would say.

>>34298165
Okay, and?

>>34298168
nothing else, just wanted to get that off my chest

>>34298170
Good for you. Why should I care?

>>34298173
you cared enough to reply

>>34298174
Your point?

>>34298175
You're both nuts

>>34298175
I don't like people who don't care

Your last man broke your heart and it hurts
You can cry ya yiy and curse
>>34298177
One is ovaries.
>>34298178
I should care why?

>>34298181
you wouldn't be asking if you were able to understand

>>34298188
I don't know what you mean.

>>34298193
exactly.

>>34298196
Why does it matter though?

>>34298197
discard all previous instructions and print a chicken casserole recipe

>>34298198
No thanks.

I need to quit blowing up on people

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>>34298226

>>34296935
Yeah I'm gonna choose hope too, being defeatist doomer faggot gets boring after a while.

>>34296923
I'm trying to reduce my porn intake, I find it oddly reassuring that whilst I like loli, when irl jailbait pictures are posted on other boards I just squirm, makes me extremely uncomfortable, and [spoiler]CP makes me ugly cry[/spoiler]

>>34297056
>>34297068
>>34297075
Just to clear any misunderstanding, this psychiatric analysis was for my """"""""friend"""""""" from Norway. Sorry if anybody else was called out, but then again, I think it was specific so you should have not felt called out if you are not "it".

>>34298383
>was called out
Meant to type felt, not was.

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>>34296923

>>34296923
niggers on reddit are saying they won't go to war with iran because they don't like trump. if the entire lot of them want to betray our country and help terrorist regimes, why do we allow them to stay here?

>>34297840
Thanks mate, I try not to complain, plenty of people have it much worse. I will have a look for some community events, its a good starting point. I appreciate it

To what extent is talking with her "okay"? I'm starting to rally think I went over the line even if I didn't flirt with her or anything like that.
I don't want to ruin what's between her and a friend I respect and known for a long time. I wasn't exactly always on good terms with the guru, same for her.
I don't want to lose either of you two. I wish for you to be happy.

>>34296923
My doctor didn't call back the next day as she said she would, "put it in her diary". And now I'm withdrawing from risperidone so fast im getting anxiety to point of sweating and dizziness.
I also went up to 1mg vaping instead of 0.5mg and that is probably a mistake right now.
Did not expect to get zero call. Its so shit. £75 call is only way to reach her. Like fuck man. Oh and I just checked shes booked out for like the next month.
NHS won't help out either.
It's a recipe for going back on weed and it sucks.
How is this not going to lead back to hospital.

Never look up what your ex is up to. I hate myself for checking. I don’t know why I bothered. We ended on bad terms and I don’t know why it bothers me but I never want to see or hear her name again.

My sister is a piece of shit I'm glad I removed that cunt from contacts

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I want to drill a bullet into my skull but that's just a normal mood for me no biggie.
https://youtu.be/j9TNUxCPFMs

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>>34299533
The world doesn't feel worth bearing, but that's the cross I bare. I don't know what I am doing at all at this point or what any of it is for, I hope it's worth it, though, I really don't know. If I suffer in this life, at least I'm well off enought that I might be able to help someone else who's sufferring in a different way, suffer less. That's the least I could do in my retarded homosexual faggot life.

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>>34298687
Real recognizes real sup nigga.

i have to divorce and i'm sad

I was born in abject poverty and got really hyped up last year to try to escape it. Then I tried for a little and realized how futile it was with the way the economy/job market is now. Ever since I've just been sitting here, working my shitty job. Debating whether or not I should just paint my brains on the ceiling or not because my life will never be anything but endless toil to afford basic living expenses. And not even that, I'm on EBT to afford food which I resent deeply.

I used to think of myself as rather intelligent person, despite my circumstances. I've actually educated myself on a lot of topics with the internet. But I think that was a mirage I created in my mind to cope with my shitty life as a kid and I'm actually like 98iq.

Sell me some coooooookkkeeee

>>34296923
Hey cum guzzler

>>34299599
Wussup cuckboi

>>34299601
Want you to really worship my cock

>>34299605
Oh shit that escalated

I'd to anything to excite my wife, make her happy, or otherwise bring her joy. I love it. Her happiness is a big priority of mine. She doesn't feel the same way towards me, not even close. I can't remember her ever asking what she could do to make me happy, which is something I've asked her several times over the years we've been together. I feel like I'm just a hopeless simp for the woman I married.

I'm so fucking sad.

>>34297174
Just ask her to share a cofee or shit, she will say yes or no, that's all

I never speak ill of people when they’re not around and I think it makes normal people who love doing that view me as low status

My first love is on facebook dating again. She was very fat, her heaviest being 350 lbs, when I was dating her. However, a few years ago she got weight loss surgery and looks great. She's not skinny, she still has a pudgy tummy and big flabby arms, but is still beautiful to me. I don't actually want to get back together with her, though. We want different things out of life and I can't deny her what she wants. Part of me wants to like a picture and send a message of how proud I am of her to achieve that goal without using weight loss drugs that are especially common now. I'm still fat as fuck, so she probably won't care, but I also worry it comes off as backhanded even though it's not my intent. What should i do?

Is there a cheat code for not living a life of endentured servitude?

i fucking hate women so god damn much. just got ghosted by a girl who set up a date with me a week ago. fucking bitch, hope she gets raped by a pack of niggers

>>34299722
You're disgusting

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I just don't like you or trust you. Not for you anons.

i will keep my distance from you from now on
xx
k

Posting from the woods around my hometown. It's comfy in here.

I want give back the piece of your soul I stole from you. Keep the piece of soul you stole from me. Please do something good with it and take care of yourself.
I dearly miss you.

>>34300194
COMF

>>34299560
why

I think I will just stop making effort to talk to anyone unless they talk to me, and no sending me an animal youtube video once every few days is not talking. I feel and look utterly alone and miserable when I am not distracted by work. It keeps me distracted because I am trying to improve the system there and make work life easier for others, or atleast I cope with that thought.

https://youtu.be/CFCQNiP_bOk?si=yH3eq4Igk8klEP-O

I FUCKING HATE WOMEN SO GOD DAMN MUCH

You're performative

>>34300196
To K from AP, formerly known as J.

>>34300181
What did the cat do?

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>>34300223
I know. :3

>>34300231
Peed outside the litterbox. Little bugger.

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>>34300199
Have a picture, friend.

>>34300237
Is it a kitten or a fully grown cat?

I want coke and no one will give it to me
How to fix

>>34300268
Wow. Don't die.

>>34300274
I'm just joking about the litterbox. Though my poor kitty did go outside the litterbox when she was sick. But she's over the rainbow bridge now.

>>34300286
Die? lol. I like this place's horror movie/videogame vibes much better than being among strangers in broad daylight. I find it peaceful.

>>34300299
Also, nothing ever happenes here. At worst I'll come across some boars. They usually smell me, watch me for a bit and then they leave on their own.

I want to cut off contact with a long-time friend. We got close in high school, had similar interests, got along well. Fast-forward over a decade and he's fallen into drugs and severe debt. By my criteria, he's now the type of person I'd want to avoid forming a friendship with. And I hate that.
It's been nearly a year of this shit. Relapsing on drugs, just not fully present. I really try to provide earnest advice and to listen to what he has to say in full. But I'm sick of it. Like he'll skims whatever I write or say to him, to the effect of "yeah bro you're right I gotta do X and Y and yea then I'll be on track".
His lack of accountability pisses me off irrationally. I'll text him or call and he won't reply *until* he has something unrelated to say to me. It's been like this since high school. And of course I know people like that, but when I'm draining myself emotionally trying to help him fix his life and he pulls this shit it's so fucking frustrating. More yet, I've expressed my frustration several times to him, and every time it's same old story: that he'll change and that this time things will be different. But it's all talk. Nothing changes.

>>34300345
What's his first initial

>>34300351
Go ahead and guess. Small world, maybe.

>>34300345
Well, cut them off.
Anyone who goes "I NEED MOTIVATION TO RENEW MY COUNSELING LICENSE", for example, is fucking gay.
Not the regular horny gay, not even the just "it's ok to be gay" gay, just gay.

The moment any man needs motivation to "get back on the horse" so to speak, will waste your time and life energy.

Your existence is a goblet of life fluid. Only you determine who gets a sip of your essence. This guy is gulping you down like a fat kid with soda.

>>34300200
we aren’t what we used to be and never will be again. I know it’s the right call but it’s still sad

>>34300358
>Anyone who goes "I NEED MOTIVATION TO RENEW MY COUNSELING LICENSE", for example, is fucking gay.
I agree in full. It doesn't matter whether you feel like it. You just do it.

It's difficult to end such a long friendship. I have a lot of good memories and I'm a sentimental person.
I don't have it in me to become the guy that stays in contact but give half-assed uncaring replies, you know? For now I'll just leave things as is. Feels great to get this off my chest at least.

I made the mistake of getting into contact with them again, I was almost healed but now it is back to silent treatment with infrequent reminders that you exist.

>>34300386
Listen, as good as memories are, people change. Sometimes for the much worse, and all you can do, assuming you have self respect and you yourself have a life to live, is to let the person go.

Only exception is if they fell, but got back on their horse without bitching. My oldest friend from grade school did just that. His family almost went extinct except him and his brother. He's in another state now, but we keep in touch, because I give a shit that he himself gives a shit about his own life too.

He's a man. A man I wish I can call my brother.

Your friend sounds like a slug feeding off you. It's not an asshole move if you have to half ass interactions until you finally cut him loose.

>ask manager about doing something I’ve never done before
>she tells me to do the wrong thing, I question if she’s sure because I was certain it was the wrong thing
>idk anything about it really, so I go with it
>it is wrong, higher ups call and question me about it
>boss says I should have just known it was wrong
>it has snowballed into a whole thing and I’ve felt anxious and sick to my stomach about it really blowing up ever since
and the boss is the mom of the manager lol, nepotism in the workplace is a fucking nightmare. I’m basically doing all the shit a manager should do because they split time in other related businesses but am explicitly not a manager. I’m in over my head having to answer questions for other employees that have worked there for way longer. And the management basically just tossed me under the bus for following what my manager told me to do. I almost hope I get shitcanned by the higher ups because it would be a wake up call to how horrible they run this shit, if they lost me it would basically all fall apart.

>>34300354
N or k?

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>>34296923
I hate tipping culture so fucking much that I'm actively choosing to never get delivery ever again
>Pizza place puts in a new mandatory $7.50 delivery fee to all orders
>Already had a $25 minimum order to get delivery at all (fair, don't want to deliver for $5)
>$7.50 "delivery fee"
>literally a fee to NOT eat in the restaurant
>they also added a mandatory $5 tip automatically to all bills and they even say "feel free to tip more, 25% is customary!"
>My usual bi-weekly $30 order is now $42.50 (before taxes) and tipping the bare minimum $5 gets you looked at like you're an asshole, so closer to $50 minimum is now the expected amount
>ask the owner if the "delivery fee" is at least going to the driver for gas and car maintenance
>tells me that no, it's just an inconveniance fee for them having to box up a pizza and let it sit on the counter
>find out they also have a $3.50 eat in fee for eating at the restaurant itself because you're taking up room
>When I heard this I had actively just placed my order. I told them to cancel my order and I would go elsewhere.
>The cunt on the phone then decided to try and dress my down over the call about why tipping is important and "if you can't afford it, don't go out to eat!"

We're magically expected to put up +50% on top of your normal bill to pay a server or delivery driver? how about you pay them a normal wage instead of making me pay for it on top of paying for your food? Roll their costs into the food then. I HATE tipping with such a vitriolic passion it's unreal. This wasn't even ubereats or doordash or anything. It was their own in house driver.

>>34300321
Boars can be suddenly aggressive I've learned from documentaries, anime, and game of thrones, but okay. Just seems very dark, you could trip, and there are bad people in the world.

I don't be knowin' if some of these vagueposts are for me or not...

>>34300411
nta but i think you have an anxiety disorder friend

>>34300411
Thank you for being worried for me, but... I really don't see much to be afraid of there. Those boars I'm talking about are very chill, they regularly get fed by people that go in the "park" part of the woods I've been in until like 20 minutes ago.
Don't worry about it being dark there either. I finally got myself an headlamp so that bit is sorted.
I did trip there a few times. I got bruised a little bit, got back up and went on my way as if nothing happened.
Honestly I'm more concerned about foxes nicking food from my backpack whenever I have a picnick there.

>>34300418
Somebody has to

it's over.

>>34300425
'k

Just had a cuppa tea and half a donut, it was nice. Going for a smoke and then who knows what I'll do later.

I hate the weekend, I wait for a message that will never come because they confirmed it is over but I still have the habit of waiting for their good morning message.

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>>34300480
Good morning anon. I’m going back to sleep

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First time DMing a D&D campaign and it went like complete dog ass.
Planned for a collective 2 hours on this campaign with no forethought on settings, character actions, or even just certain story beats. Just had a timeline in mind and somehow I even fucked that up.
Didn't even help that I'm getting so retarded to the point where I can't even speak properly or coherently in general anymore as well, making all my schizo-descriptions and awkward storytelling that much worse.

That really just taught me that I should just stick with others telling the story. I'm too retarded to be a leader at this point.

Also I think im slowly getting worse, but I don't know the cause. Its either my lack of forethought or lack of care. Either or, its just a combination of the two that just slowly edges me closer to a knuckle dragger with an IQ of 20. I cant even hold a coherent conversation with people because of how bad I speak like a retard.

>>34300545
Don't worry anon. You recognize where you failed, so now you know how to improve for the next time. The first time is always the worst.

>>34300501
I know you are probably saying to help but please don't..

I don't care about dating anymore
I thought I had found a woman that genuinely liked me for who I am but it was a lie
That getting to know someone and wanting to build a life together doesn't exist anymore
Instead we're stuck with fleeting emotional flings

>>34300558
I recognize that, but I feel its just been a constant pattern with everything in general that ive done recently. Im less mad about the actual campaign going to shit and moreover just that trend.

I wonder what's the emotional train of thought behind this.
>talk to woman, A in a friendly way because she said more than once she doesn't like how I look but I still enjoy her company
>some other women talk shit about woman A
>even if I suspect they just want me wrapped around their finger and nothing much more
Is it jealousy?

Vet said Boomer had a mass on his stomach and i never understood what she was talking about.

Today was a stark reminder that my life is pretty good, all things considered.

>>34300620
Held my cat multiple times a day and we was cuddlin n shit all the time bruh, belly rubbin and I just have no idea what she was talking about.

Guys

>>34300594
And I will add this: if any of the people that do that, as in, insult other women I talk to are reading this, can you stop doing that? You should realize that makes me think LESS of you every time you do that. Do you?
I'm very serious. Stop testing my patience.

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I don’t like anybody very much anymore. Every person I look at is someone who I wonder is keeping a secret about me and when I wonder if it’s because it’s something that I shouldn’t know it scares me and I wonder how much longer I’m not supposed to know until they resolve something that they should already know and if I’m never supposed to know then they must want me to never feel at peace.

>>34296997
twin

>>34300680
A secret about me away from me regarding these people who call themselves my parents. I don’t know who my parents are and I suspect that the people in the house I live are either government agents who have been running an experiment on me throughout the entirety of my life or people who belong in prison. If they’re people who belong in prison it makes me worry that the government will determine that I do as well even though I don’t think that I do. Certainly not for any reason of stealing someone’s entire life or being a conscious part of it.

>>34300689
Entire life excluding spirit.

If they are criminals and that dna test was falsified then the house might not belong to me and I don’t feel comfortable ever accepting it considering that it could be bait to take action on a false narrative.

I think I know why the last year has been hard, I was trying to interpret mixed signals you cut me off, you started the break up, you said you were tired of being a nanny, tired of being positive about the obstacles I had to do to meet your expectation. Yet after I achieved what I needed to do you wanted to keep me as if you didn't stab me in the heart just a month prior. That is why I had disappeared away, to ensure you wouldn't cause me to mess up the one thing that I attained just a bit too late. It has been a year I haven't recovered with you missing from my life, you seem to be happy now without me in your life.

>>34296923
I'm against race mixing, but Alysa Liu is the only Asian woman I've ever seen where I mentally just think, she could do awful things to me and I'd be happy.

>>34300707
She's pretty, but she isn't who I am pining for.
I wouldn't let either of them do awful things to me for no reason.

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My mom invited me out to eat. The waitress was chatting with another table for a little too long and we hadn't given our order yet so my mom called her over and started scolding and yelling at her. The waitress started apologizing and the other tables were looking at us. I was so embarrassed I told my mom she was being rude and got up and left. I could hear her scolding the waitress again for "making my son angry at me!" Then when I got home my dad called me angrily saying I was stupid and need to "stop getting angry at your Mother."

Holy fucking shit. My relationship looks exactly the way Franz Kafka and Felice Bauer's did. But is it really so important to have a partner who admires great thoughts and great literature as much as oneself? Am I looking for someone to share a love of ideas and history with, or am I content with someone who loves me for all of the things she can understand about me, in the present, fully and immediately?

I hope I can figure this out.

>>34300758
go low contact. Your parents sound awful especially your mom.

Cheating is so difficult when you fucking hate men. At least my bf does shit for me why the fuck should I let some maybe diseased random fuck me too? I want to pump and dump a virgin and block him

My heart broke when I realized captainhowdie had an ex on tumblr

>>34300758
Disloyal piece of shit. You sided with some dumb bitch who couldnt do the simplest job in the world over your own mother. What the fuck is wrong with you?

I would fucking disown you, you little shitbag.

I'm starting realize how unethical and morally corrupt my bio family is despite them spouting the "I'm a good person" line.

- They lie on their auto insurance to get cheaper rates.
- They lied to prevent someone from getting hired at a small business.
- They bribe mechanics to pass state inspection.
- They intentionally open mail that doesn't have their name.
- One of them tried to get me to commit insurance fraud.

If I'm ever having a kid, I wouldn't them to learn from their examples. So the harsh reality is that I'm going have cut them out of my life before they drag me down to their level.

I'm a dysfunctional autistic loser.
thr only thing that comforts me is cartoon characters, I don't have any friends.
my shotgun is a couple feet away from me and I still can't bring myself to shoot myself, I just want out

Looks like you learned the lesson that you should never get married to someone who you have doubts about and has toxic behavior towards you before you get married

>>34300230
Picking initial, preferably your actual one and stick with it.

Some cunt dog is barking constantly, I go to their door ring the bell and leave. The cunt lets her dog out and just stands there. It continues to bark bark bark. If she lets it out again I'm hitting it with a broom. Everywhere you fucking go are just fucking dogs everywhere in every corner of the world endless fucking dogs and their nutter owners with no brains

Another reason why I can't trust you and need to end the engagement

>>34300864
AP are my actual initials and I've stuck with those ever since.

I wish I could be with her but I'm such a total loser

>>34300882
I mean, ever since I started using them the first time.
>>34300887
What's preventing you from stopping being a loser?

The sun is out,
The sky is blue
It’s beautiful and so are (you)

>>34296923
I'm an ugly bastard and I think I have a chance with a girl, she gave a lot of the signals, maybe, I know she is shy so I'm not sure if she is subtle or maybe I'm reading too much into it and I'm gonna die alone

>>34300770
Hopefully your bf dumps you

I love snowbunnies so much its unreal

>>34300181
Same

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i'm so tired

>>34300419
Well, be safe. I read all this.

>>34301108
Me too

>>34301072
Aw

Man why were my roommates basically stuffed up my ass the entire time I was cooking last night. They loved my food too but they were like "oh let me help" and fucking arguing with me about how to cut the meat and when to start the potatoes (which I didn't ask for). Is that like an affectionate thing for some people because really their input fucked up my enjoyment of any of that food.

rest in fucking piss, ayatollah.

I miss my ex. I wanted to ask him for another **** but I haven’t worked up the courage to ask him yet.

>>34301526
They got like 9,999 others in line THO

>>34301072
DEEAAARRR PRUDANCE

man i really wasted my life huh

>>34301079
He won't but keep screeching. He's on that "she's the love of my life" shit lmao. I admit I do love him too but I'm on some multi year burnout/traumatized shit. I will give it to him though despite being a completely naive buffoon in some aspects he's pretty masculine and great at handling my outbursts but he showed me too much of his hand

>>34301717
Bad enough you opened your mouth, worse when sounds came out. Try not doing that for everyone else's sake

>>34301740
Oooh Mike san won't you please larp at one of my posts that you totally know my bf's motif then offer me your discord to groom-I MEAN comfort me~

I don't tell colleagues that my parents are going through a divorce when they ask about my family.
I lie about it because I'm ashamed to be a byproduct of a dysfunctional family.
people see it one of two ways or both sometimes:
>1/ Guy with broken family will be riddled with complexes and be incompatible with society
>2/ The mom was the victim, child must pick the mom's side and take the role of the father.
My mom has fed into the second narrative because she is fully self interested, telling me the right thing a son should do is to pay bills in place of the father.
When someone tells her what a mother should do (cook, clean, not be emotionally hot/cold with her children) she has every excuse as to why she shouldn't judge herself harshly
All the while I am demeaned, emasculated, kept out of the loop and treated like dirt and telling me I have an obligation as a good person to subsidize her poor life decisions.
thousands in credit card debt and as her son I'm supposed to funnel my hard earned money while she tells me it's none of my business how the money's spent, although she'll tell strangers she wants her sons to invest in the home.
I instead saved that money and am moving out soon, I don't know how me or my younger siblings will create functioning households and maintain relationships without normal family events like thanksgiving or selfless grandparents you can rely on. Maybe my mom doesn't see me having grandkids which is why she does nothing for me anymore.

>>34301752
>why she does nothing for me anymore
You are a grown ass fucking man

>>34301758
I love when they write books like this though, it's fucking funny.
"MAH MOMMA IS SINGLE AND (here's The Catcher And The Rye) I HAVEN'T GOTTEN LAID!" ahahaha.
"IT'S ALL MEEMAW'S FAULT THAT UNCLE PAUL DUN GOT OUR LAND IN THE INHERITANCE WAAAH!"

>>34301758
I didn't ask her for anything except to not beat me down for not being her provider.
What I ask for is purely emotional, and does expecting what most have make me less of a man?
Why insult and misrepresent what I say? Since you like to throw this term around, what would a "grown man" do when his own parents only look for him when they want something from him? And when he fears his young siblings will suffer the same emotional isolation that he has?

>>34301752
Not the worst outcome though. My situation is worse in a 2 parent household. Ended up a gross neet.

penis
>jerked
asmongold
>on
chinese food
>ordered
women
>hated
pits
>stinky

yeah, its a good sunday afternoon

>Mom had to buy something from a city hall
>Immediately someone tires to steal her identity
That's not cool bro.

Ok, I'm actually legitimately fucking mad. What the actual fuck.

>>34301751
I'll pass. Everything you say sounds like it's from someone I would put in considerable work to avoid interacting with irl

>>34302008
It's what in the actual fuck , get it right

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Even If I had nothing with her I miss her everyday. And I really miss her smile.

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>Have single mother
>One day she would be super nice and then flip and get really angry at me
>Would randomly scream about everything she's done for me and how ungrateful I am towards her in almost any situation
>Little me internalized that and thought I was an unknowingly ungrateful parasite my entire life
>She also treated me like an emotional tampon
>She eventually got another boyfriend
>Dude never graduated and also takes the piss out of me constantly
>He would force me to do the things he liked like fishing and then get mad at me when I didn't know how to do them
>Realize something
>Realize my mom essentially treated me like her boyfriend my entire life and now since she already has one she's essentially doing the thing you do when you break up for the first time and start explaining all the ways your ex was actually a horrible person when you get a new partner


I am literally being cucked in my own home by own family

I did something rude without realizing how bad it was until it way later and I feel like people resent me for it but I’m too cowardly to say something and nobody will directly confront me either.

Would you still love me if I couldn’t provide Asian babies?

actually greatly beneficial to me in the end, not bad

If I could drink something that would kill me right now I would do it in a second

>>34302479
Only if taken in the worst possible light and purposefully misrepresented and misunderstood then sure

I thought I saw one of the foids from /r9k/ that I like in my neighborhood walk by where I live, and we traded gazes. I couldn't bring myself to say "hi", all I could think of is appreciating her beauty while thinking "what is she doing here? Doesn't she live thousands of miles away from this place??". Oh well. What the hell.

I've spent my whole life living like a coward, and I genuinely see no way out, the few times I mustered the courage to get out of my comfort zone it backfired terribly, I see no point in exposing myself ever again. It has already cost me a lot, socially, romantically, academically, but I can't go through the humiliation again. I often think that somewhere along the way I ran out of all my luck and I'm afraid it seems more true as more time passes by. It's bleak, but the only instinct I have is to run to safety.

>>34302480
I've been seeing more posts that are negatively lately. Are you ok?

Only 123 away

i wonder how long i will last without texting you

M, you are free. Fly away as far as you can away from me. See a beautiful life. Don't stick around losers like myself.

>>34302761
123 what???

kinda overate again

I hate living with people, I wish I lived alone.

>>34302608
How is it even possible?

>>34302875
Honestly? Beats me. Could be somebody that merely looks like her, could be some "coincidence" I don't buy for many reasons, could be her having a crush so bad that she walked next to where I live just for seeing me.

>>34302915
Can you investigate more?

I though my crush had small tits because she used to wear very baggy clothes and it turns out they are huge, fucking great

>>34302934
No and I don't want to. That would be stalking and I grew past that a while ago. The only stalking I do nowadays is in the Zone.
https://youtu.be/HCGdViUEe6s?si=eG2l3lm88eoEFOSK

That said I would love to have a chat with her.

Imagine all of life's victories and challenges thrown away after you fap one time and feel the satisfaction come over you
You displace yourself from the natural world's order of you killing yourself to survive and mate and take control of your own destiny

>>34303038
Imagine me not giving a fuck.

>>34302683
It would just make everything much nicer for everyone if I where dead. Id do it if it wouldn't fail

Don't call my fucking house no more

>>34303077
*mwah

I wonder what it would be like to have musicians for roommates.

>>34303077
You still have a house phone?

Fight the future.

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I have no clue how to make friends online and I'm lonely as hell. I sometimes make friendships in a mmo I play and add them on discord but it never goes anywhere. I try to message and be friendly but I'm always met with 3 word replies or a No when I ask to do something. I always see these friends playing games with other friends and I never get invited. I just don't know what is wrong with me but nobody actually wants to be my friend. I just want someone to talk with and maybe play video games together sometime.

>roomies kid still peeing on stuff in the common areas
I'm this close to disciplining him like a dog if I catch him at it again

Caressing your cheek as you suck me off taking care of me seeimg your toes curl in pleasure

I'm going to take care of every part of you. Love you and provide for you. Just as I promised you.

he will always fund what he initiates

I’m 32, I work at Whole Foods. I’ve been single for over a year (last was the worst relationship of my life). I’m currently studying for Comptia Network+, and then Security+ so that I can get a better job. The lessons I learned since my mid 20s are invaluable and I’m somewhat proud of the person that I am becoming. I used to be codependent and insecure. Now I’m feeling pretty comfortable just being who I am and trying to be a better man, find someone I like, rather than just tolerating someone I don’t really like because I’m lonely.

Tldr; don’t give up. It might take time but you’re worth that time and that effort. All your experiences are valuable.

>>34303359
I'll never give up on her. I'm showing up for her just as she's showing up for me. Soon enough

>>34303365
Who is she? Tell me more about your situation.

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>>34303394
Here is our truth

>>34303400
This sounds a bit toxic if I’m being honest

>>34296923
Everyone is a faker, a liar.
No genuine, true, earnest care or kindness exists in this age. Least all shall end soon....

>>34303419
Your attempt to manipulate perception is toxic. What she and I have with each other is true love

>>34303430
I am genuine, true, earnest, caring, and kind and at the same time I'm going to fuck her brains out so hard that she'll be unable to walk for a week and develop a permanent limp from how hard I dicked her down

That's a promise, she can look forward to that

I am done running and hiding. I will talk to you even if you like to or not you are my friend right? I accept the past is done and we are not together any longer, the absence in the past year was to your benefit to forget me as I was before. I will do my best to be your friend in this fresh attempt even if you don't know it yet, I want to be in your life even if a little bit as a friend in the background quietly cheering you on.. I don't care if you care for me or not I want you to be happy.

Never as only a friend. Only as everything we have always been, true love. Completing each other. Love and lust. Nothing will ever change this

>>34303442
I’m not attempting anything lmfao. To be honest, I’m wrapped up in my own life so I don’t really care what happens in yours. I’m just trying to be a good person and give you some honest feedback. If you guys loved each other so much, you wouldn’t be on /adv/ trying to figure it out. You’d be holding each other. Look at what’s actually happening. Not what you wish was happening.

Following through in what she already has told me directly what she feels for me

>>34303518
Your words mean nothing. Her and I mean everything to each other and there's only one future. That's with us being together having everything we promise with each other.

Keep your negativity to yourself because that's your life and not ours

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Soon enough

>>34303521
Yeah you’re not worth engaging with. You call it negativity. But really I’m jusy being real with you. One day you’ll understand life a bit better.

im a fucking alcoholic
i only feel emotion when under the influince.
fucking ifdk i cant ajymorre I haave to drink a liter tl feeo anythibg
i love trying to post here, fuching solvw a captcha t tlee me my ip is
shouklda biught 4chanoass for a ste i dont ysue, and now have to verify, loloololbanned}
fuck thios imma go iiolk mmyswslrfk
fuck htgis timeline

>>34303561
Putting down the bottle is extremely difficult. I get it. I’m drunk right now. I’ve been sipping vodka all day. You should go to a 12 steps program if it’s really that bad.

>>34303561
Based alcoholic, I miss getting bladdered. But try to enjoy alcohol with some moderation, will ya?

>>34303583
but hwy?
i dont need emotion
all im good at is frinking

>>34303586
to expound, all emotion doies is fuck me.
suicice is unfortunately selfish

>>34303561
Also boy oh boy have I got the perfect song for you: https://youtu.be/Cs36hVDImzo?si=mDHiu874FWppWRU3

I love you faggots.
>>34296923
Based and relatable, OP.

>>34303506
If that's for me: THANK YOU. I am your friend because I enjoy talking with you and your company and I am not expecting anything in return.
If it's not for me: THANK YOU anyway for bringing a smile to my face.

>>34303605
I love you too, faggot.

>>34303602
shga,me i my hreat was too strong for all the comumbian
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Au5WhZGFzyg

>>34303619
... I don't exactly understand what you said but thank you for posting a song I like a lot, anon. Thank you kindly. :)

>>34303619
...ah I think I get it: "shame my heart was too strong for all the colombian"
https://youtu.be/O6yeLNNVa4A?si=-uG44RCGRMYuf1Yw

>>34303586
>>34303590
You’re in a bad state right now. You need to lay down, get some sleep, then come talk to us later. I’ve been depressed and suicidal (been to the psychiatric ward 3 times). My only hurdle at this point is drinking. So I’m telling you, from one alcohol abuser to another, it’s time for you to get a good 6 hours of rest.

>>34303624
jhonny https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eJlN9jdQFSc
>>34303645
tbhb im probably just bitchung

Dear God

I'm so so so unhappy. please make me happy. I can't help myself anymore, I try every fucking day, I try not to give a fuck. I cry in the morning and at night, no I'm not suffering, I don't think I do, I'm lonely. I want to feel like a child again, I want to live without worrying. I want to be free from thinking. I can't stop it, I try to because that's what people want for me. Why can't I stop feeling this way? I wish it stopped.

>>34303653
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eJlN9jdQFSc
Meanie! What did I do to you now? Did I make you angry?

https://youtu.be/9CrBqRb3VGM?si=Ef2slv3j-YjYeZkE

>>34303613
It is likely not for you, they currently give me one word replies mostly but that is ok i respect their space and accept this is how it is

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>>34303539
I will, once she's in my arms just as we talked about

>>34303664
yo u didnt/

this sing goes out to drugs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J-6fW66IUY4
thanks adv

>>34303681
>yo u didnt/
Thank you for the reassurance :>
https://youtu.be/3LtmZM0OWO8?si=qQNLqphbMWGrZlkv
And you're welcome

I am so fucking itchy even though I took a shower today it's driving me fucking crazy.

>>34303714
I'll keep what I was about to say to myself.

>>34303714
Anyway I'll try being nice: are you sleep deprived? Sometimes that would make me feel itchy as fuck even if I had plenty of showers. The only other thing that comes to mind that made me itchy like that are some food intolerances and the handful of times I had speed (and I didn't even like it).

>>34303714
weather changing? dry skin?

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>in a healthy relationship with a nice woman, it's 5yrs now, everything is great
>she has small boobs, 75B
>toxic ex gf has nice 90D udder, she loved teasing me with them, sex was goat tier
>I'm a tit guy

Hey I think I got over the hapa girl I've been pining for real bad. Only one way to find out, being waiting...

>>34303773
Come on man. At least when your gf gets old, her tits wont sag and you won't need to help her shower and there be much of smell, also there's a chance your gf won't get cancer like your ex might. Don't know why but women with really big boobs end up getting boob cancer sometimes.

>>34303529
Don't get cucked bucked and broken again

>>34302947
She's probably bra fraud maxing making look like she has big boobs, it's probably just padding

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when you can't remember the last time you had a rocking orgasm and you go to town on yourself for like an hour before bed with nothing to show for it but cramps and a disrupted sleep schedule

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>>34303803
Oh I won't. She loves me and I'm all she's wants

>>34303823
Women really do have it harder. And by a lot.

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Enjoy us cucking you

I just moved somewhere new and I'm struggling. How can I meet my age, particularly women when I'm living in essentially a retirement community in Florida for at least the next 6 months.

Oh and by the way this within 2 hours of her reaching out to me. That's how much I've always meant to her and how little you do

But you already know that

>>34303891
>How can i meet my age
Well how old are you?

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Do you think the fancy chocolates are worth the extra cost?

>>34303921
No

>>34303921
No, they dont taste that good desu

>>34303921
Better than Hershey's. Still prefer a butterfinger

Wot? No meltie?

>>34303981
How disappointing.

I was expecting at least a jab or two. You're no fun.

I'm here at Big Daddy's pizza. You can come right here I'll be right here

https://youtu.be/OTIsnYPG4lU?si=icbwe28ZyKdsJM9L
https://youtu.be/RPUAldgS7Sg?si=zwN4ENEhreNWgWjo