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Two years ago I broke up with my girlfriend because I had coom brain and wanted to be single. Honestly was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and I haven’t felt truly happy since. I’ve tried many things to come to terms with what I did including journaling, talking with my parents and even going to confession. Every time I’m ill or lonely or frustrated I think back to how I abandoned her and threw away what we had. I don’t regret, but I realize I didn’t appreciate how real what we had was.

Part of the problem is that three weeks after I broke up with her I hooked up with a different girl and pretty much immediately fell into dating her. Even though she’s a catch with a great job, good looks and disciplined attitude I feel like I did what I did out of loneliness and lust, and that I double betrayed my ex by saying I wanted to be alone and then immediately moving on to someone else. I want to appreciate what I have now and not repeat my mistakes but a part of me feels incredibly dissatisfied with my current relationship. I even tried ending this one about ten months ago but she begged me to stay so I did. Now we are supposed to be moving in with each other in the next two months, but I still feel a deal of indifference or even apathy over it.

My gut reaction is to try ending things again, but another part of me feels like I need to follow through on moving in together to see if it would work. Kind of like a do-or-die situation. The advice that I’m looking for is how do I even begin to talk to my current girlfriend about all these things I’m feeling?
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>>34304567
You did the right thing. I know break ups hurt I know dumping someone out of the blue hurts. But it's not a sin, it's not morally wrong, it's not a crime. No one has ever went to confession to confess the sin of "Fathers forgive me for my sins. Last week, I dumped my GF". That never happens because it's not a sin.

You feel overly responsible for other people's feelings. You cannot control how other people feel, dude. You can control actions yeah. And some times your actions will hurt others, but you don't know if it would or not. You also don't know how much can it hurt someone. You can break up with someone and it doesn't bother them. Or it mildly frustrated them. Or it hurts them, or it destroys their poor little ego and they meltdown and become wrecks. Who knows. You cannot know 100%

That's why feeling responsible for other people's feelings is absolutely absurd. You are only asked to consider other people's feelings, never feel responsible for them.

Yeah you hurt the girls feelings with your actions most likely. But you did the mature thing, you broke up before acting on lust. You were responsible and gave her the chance to find someone else while you went off to find what you were looking for. A lot of retards don't even do that, they just cheat.

You were not married to your ex. This was not an immortal thing like a spontaneous divorce where a home got wrecked. It was a young relationship.

Also your urge to break up with current GF is just you trying to punish yourself. Dont fall for that, it's bullshit that'll result in more guilt. Which begets more hunger for punishment which begets more guilt. Etc, it's a trick from Satan. Ignore the fallen angel benchod bastard.
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>>34304757
>>34304567
Also brother, one last thing. You felt dissatisfied with your last ex. You feel dissatisfied with your current GF. If you break up with her, you'll move on to another girl eventually because that's just the natural order of things for anyone. Maybe you will take more time before doing it maybe not.
But one thing is certain: You'll feel dissatisfied again. And again, and again, and again. Oh no oh shit what does it mean??? Are you unlovable and broken?

Hell no. The dumb answer is to blame yourself for the chronic dissatisfaction. The dumb route to take is to think this is even about relationships, or sex, or love. If you think it's to do with this, you'd be fooling yourself. It's about (you), yeah, but it's not gotta be about some self persecuting self hating problem.

The truth is simple, it always is simple: The truth is, you simply over-estimate the importance of relationships. That's it, that's all. Yes they are important, but they are not the center of the dam Universe. Life is about more than that, life includes it but also has more to it. Life is a building with many stories. Relationships are just one floor.

If you got tricked into thinking that one floor is the entire building, then no wonder why you feel chronic dissatisfaction. Do you know what this means, bro?

It means you don't have to break up. You don't have to chase a cycle of dissatisfaction. What it means is you simply need to expand your life in areas that are NOT about women, love, relationships, sex. Look instead to things like: Hobbies, skills, adventures, exploration, friendships, fellowship, hardship, maybe expand on journalling and turn into a writer. Do something, experience something, expand on something that doesn't involve women.

You will find that is where the dissatisfaction really comes from where the void really lives, and that it was like an open window at night, the breeze just swept into your love life and you mistook the love life as the issue
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>>34304856
Gaslighting post is cringe and comes off as desperate to keep trapped in a dead relationship
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>>34305051
Respectfully Mike, fuck off. Go post about imaginary girls again or something.
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>>34305080
Is he an actual schizo? What's his deal?
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>>34305084
No clue but he only appears in relationship threads to tell people to break up no matter what's said, then when called out he has this weird rant about possessing true love and loving angels and something about some chick in his head.
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>>34305087
He is a schizo retard then. I have a special reason to hate him but i won't get into that.
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>>34305084
Here's more gaslighting. Asshat ready to jump in and throw a tantrum and make allegation on all my posts.

Fuck off
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>>34305080
Just cuz I called you out for your bullshit. It's very clear.
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I call it as I see it and it's very clear you're being a manipulative narc POS.
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>>34305096
Kek and there it is. Self-admitted narc gaslighting based on their own personal bullshit (that they are in the wrong for)
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>>34305117
"Gaslighting" what a funny word, too bad you misuse it. For every person I've ever heard whine and bitch about "Gaslighting", it's always the same culprit: A mentally ill autistic schizoid of some variety who doesn't know what cognitive dissonance is, doesn't understand that when someone else points out and error in their thinking and they feel all foggy and confused for it, it's called cognitive fucking dissonance. Cognitive dissonance is what happens when you hold a false belief or thought that doesn't match reality, and when someone reminds you of this, you feel mental discomfort.

Normal people work through it, chew on the thoughts, and come to some kind of mature and reasonable resolution. Retards victimise themselves over it, call it "gaslighting" and bitch and whine that someone dared question their thinking and how everyone is bad and dumb and out to get them. Fucking lame
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>>34305121
>Manipulative Narc POS
Oh yeah fuck my ass, I am such a manipulative narcissist, how dare I encourage and reassure someone that they're not a bad person for making a mistake in their past and that they shouldn't dwell on sabotaging their own life and to give themselves a break. What an evil person I am. You fucking screwball, you don't even know what narcissism is.
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>>34305051
Get the fuck outta here. Not a single person likes you.

You irrelevant fuck.
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>>34305122
I know what you did
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>>34305122
Total tripfag death
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>>34304856
Thanks anon, you’re right when you say I over emphasize the importance of relationships. I thought that was something I only did when I was a teenager and hopelessly romantic. I guess in a lot of ways I’m still the same even though I think I’ve changed. I appreciate the advice
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>>34304567
Discover your true will and act according to it.

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