thats the point, you gotta fully commit

I have a huge fight or flight response to the round table setting so it felt like walking into a fistfight on top of "these people are overbearing"
nut up

>>34305040
Yeah, I'm still going, but it drives me insane that my brain makes me resent things that are helpful to me.

>>34304963
>dread them
Your sober personality has to stand social interaction to become a functional not drinking person.
You are in fact, training to be sober.
No pain, no gain.

Hey OP, I got into recovery about a year ago from alcohol and benzos with the help of AA and CA.
I get that it's annoying to feel like you 'have' to go but the reality is you do 'have' to stay committed if you want to stay sober and clean. I'm not sure why people keep bothering you - that was not my experience. Sure, I had a couple of people text me if I went to a meeting but then didn't go for a couple of weeks, because I found a different one that I preferred. But at the end of the day, they're just trying to be helpful and look out for you.
Keep going - find meetings you enjoy and where the people are not overbearing. Good luck OP, the first few weeks of recovery can be shit but it gets easier over time.

>>34305106
It's funny you say that because I've compared it to the gym before. Like how when you are basically forcing yourself to go to the gym and dreading it, but then when you go and finish your workout you feel really good about yourself.

>>34305127
Hey thank you, It's my sponsor's sponsor mainly. He is overbearing to not only me apparently, but he of course means well. Also, he is so deeply entrenched in it that it gives him purpose in his life as well. My sponsor can be a little pushy, but I know he's just encouraging me to go. I've known them for a few years, and I've been off and on and not receptive in the past. I'm assuming that could be part of it.

>>34304963
You sound like a retard. the point of these groups is to help people, clearly they're concerned if you go once and then turn into an introverted dumbass that avoids them.

i dread going to aa too. i actually have to go later tonight. what encourages me to go and be consistent is having a crush on one of the people that attends. seeing them every week makes me look forward to it. its really stupid, i hate being sober

>>34305262
Hey man, anything that helps. I had a girl that went that I was really crushing on too. She had come up to me, and said she was really happy to see me back and gave me a hug. Then I just disappeared for months and went off on an awful bender and came back looking like a caveman and she completely ignored me kek.

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>>34305211
Checked and thanks man that's really great advice.

>>34305362
would it be a bad idea to try and talk to him? he usually sits very close to me. im very shy though

>>34305385
No, not a bad idea. It's really normal to talk to other people at meetings, and if he sits close to you all the time that's pretty much a dead give away that he's interested in you.