>>77072952
next monday I'm gonna beat you to posting this thread

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Week 6 of my 12 week cut
SW: 121
CW: 112.5
GW: 96

Completed my afternoon walk, then hitting the gym tonight for another session.

This marks the Halfway point for me

I'm going to try to get some ab excercises in on top of my lifting if I feel up to it after work. I think I was under feeding so I upped my intake over the weekend and am feeling stronger.

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turned 40 last week. stupidly decided to shovel basically blocks of ice so now my back is sore. other than that, 40 is a lot how i thought 30 would feel if i had started my career right out of college. i'm established, know what i'm capable of and what my limits are. Only real thing that I'm bummed out about is no kid yet. Which it turns out, no luck on last month's attempt.
finally finished jordan peterson's book Beyond Order. had this stupid thing for five years. it wasn't necessarily bad but it was especially hard to get through given how he's turned out. Now reading a book about Catholic Beer Culture - something a little lighter before I dive into the rest of my backlog.
couldn't really find a good substitute 531 app so i switched to a different stronglifts program that has me at the gym four times a week. i should be able to fit my cardio in like normal but we'll see how it goes.
hit my breaking point at work - i had 25 hours of meetings last week and wanted to an hero. it was like the final shove i needed, and having that combined with beating another game (crossed off my list) im now focusing more on writing, networking, and getting the fuck out of there. me and my boss are not seeing eye to eye on this re-org and i'm not getting bogged down on managing indians. it's not even about the money anymore.
started a substack out of that frustration - i have no idea what i'm going to turn into it. but i think having a spot to write in public might be a good outlet. if i get 10 or 15 minutes a day to write and just brain dump on a topic and tag it, i figure i'll have something resembling a life manual, or at least a my life manual. we'll see how it goes.
goals this week - actually book the golf lesson (didnt because my back hurt), finish quizzes for cert, continue applying, write every day. no snacks.

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>What are your goals for this week?
posted in the last thread, I kept consistent with my schedule, for this week I want to read multiple chapters of the japanese grammar book, finish the practical course on networking/cisco admin, keep working on projects, not skipping workouts, it's getting warmer outside so I definitely plan to spend more time in the open probably reading if not working out
>What do you plan to achieve?
the goals haven't changed, started another fiction and non-fiction book, long term goals include improving physical performance (mainly learning calisthenics skills), keep pursuing my interests and graduating to get a job

now that Januray has ended I can say the year started on the right track

>>77072952
Alright guys, I am one again derailing this thread to talk about my wife's butthole.

Firstly, I had some wins last week. Unexpectedly PR'd on OHP, put on a belt i hadn't worn since the holidays and it cinched down an extra notch with no effort, finally got my replacement treadmill so I can get back to walking all day. Overall a decent week. Aiming to keep it up this week, despite a really overloaded schedule leading up to a ski-trip with neighborhood families over the weekend.

But my wife's butthole went unscathed, I'm sorry to say. She got sick early in the week and still isn't back to 100% today, so I never did get any action, and now with the crazy week ahead of us and the weekend being booked, I'll be lucky if I get a quickie. I can maybe squeeze it in sometime on the ski trip, depending on how the days there go.

So I'm setting aside my goal of a dp with a vibrator in her ass for a few weeks, I guess. I think I'm going to keep my eyes open for an ass licking opportunity over the weekend, though. We'll all be in and out of the shower at odd times, napping in the afternoon while kids occupy themselves, and there'll be day drinking when we return from the slopes. It's possible I could catch her alone, tipsy, and fresh enough from the shower to go ahead with a "spur of the moment" butthole tongue-bath.

Yeah. That'll have to be the trick. Won't cry if it doesn’t happen, but thinking about this possibility will help me keep my head up through this bullshit week.

WAGMI(UHB)
>we're all gonna make it (up her butt)

Winter Olympics are on and it's making me feel kinda motivated about exercising. Went today for the first time and holy fuck my legs are fucked now. I shake when I walk and fear tomorrow morning.

>>77072952
Do you guys recon posting stories of you working construction is a decent way to promote yourself if you plan to become self employed and have your own company?

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>>77072952
>What are your goals for this week?
Upset antiwhite scum of the earth.

>>77072952
Resolutionfag here (>>77036518 >>77060416)
Did 200 pushups in 3 days and my pecs were sore all weekend. Didn't get a proper lifting session in because I got busy with work, but it was good to still work up a sweat.
Hosted people for the Super Bowl, ate a ton of pizza, and now getting back on schedule. Leg day today, wish me luck.
\WAGMI bros.

>>77073583
This user is 100% white (based).

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>>77072952
Today's lifts
>Bench 3x8 @ 2pl8
>DB row 5x8 @ 115
>Tricep pushdowns 5x15
>Face Pulls 4x20
Surprisingly smooth day on the heels of chinkflu which more or less disabled me for about 3 weeks. Definitely got stronger in the meantime, I probably could have gone for 10 on the first bench set. 3pl8 seems increasingly possible.
Also the resolootioner filth is noticeably clearing out of my gym, it's almost back to normal
WAGMI

>>77073724
What gave it away? The ski trip? The bathing?

Also what the fuck is this tetris stuff in the captcha now? I genuinely don't understand wtf it's asking for.

>>77073583
Okay, now this is epic

so hard to have good nutrition and be disciplined finding time to cook and eat and cleanup man. i'll go fry some meat with rice

I had a weird, kinda gross, pretty funny realization earlier.
Woke up, showered, got dressed for work. I went to make my bed and found two clean, dry pepper seeds where I was sleeping. This isn't the first time I found them. I never thought about it because I cook and use bell/jalapeno/chili peppers a lot. Figured it just gets on my clothes or something.
Then I realized I've probably been farting them out all this time. Kind of like corn, I don't think seeds can be digested easily, so they pass right through. I found them around where my butt is when I'm laying down.
I truly have nobody else to tell except here, so there ya go.

>>77073800
That butthole stuff.

yeah the captcha is just broken now. 3 times I have counted that the shape it's asking for just doesn't show up and I have to wait 30 secs for it to appear. It's a scam so that you buy their 4chin pass.

>>77073583
now this is podracing

>>77074267
Well, it's not podracing yet, but I'm trying not to just wait around for some Jedi to come test my midichlorians.

>>77073994
Sorry you have a Luke warm iq

How do you live a life worthy of living if you're mid thirties and have zero friends or gf?
Besides the people I speak to at work and my parents I spend all my free time alone, usually just hiking. I don't even numb myself with booze, drugs nor meds, it's a comfortable but very empty existence.

>>77073920
Meal prep. I cook three times a week, and one of those is a meal for my brother and his family. Tuesday and on the weekend. Roast vegetables and potatoes while you're cooking your entree, a couple pounds of veg and 3-4 potatoes. Make about 2.5-3 lbs of your main meat dish. Eat on that for three days. I did taco meat with roast mixed squash, asparagus, and baby yukon golds this weekend. Tomorrow I'm making meatloaf with brocolli and russets. Saturday I'll either do a roast chicken or a pot roast, depends on what my sister-in-law's pregnancy cravings are. Clean as you go. Do your mise en place, it'll seem like a waste of time until you actually start cooking. Also you can run a lot of shit through the dishwasher. Cutting boards, most pots and pans, pyrex dishes, utensils in the top rack, sheet trays. I generally have one large pan and a knife to wash by hand if I don't use a dutch oven or ceramic baking dish.

>>77072952
I'm getting of kratom

Finally got shit for the withdrawals now I just need will power

I was definitely under feeding. bumped my intake by 800-1000 calories and suddenly I'm killing it in the gym and at work. Lots of energy and all that.

>>77073583
you would get along amazingly with my friend. I almost thought you might be him but he's not hitting the slopes any time soon.

>>77074602
The reason I post about my lust for my wife's butthole here so much is that I have literally never said any of this out loud to anyone. As far as anyone irl knows, I'm just a regular dude that enjoys normal sex with his attractive wife. Which, you know, I do, but I also want touch, taste, and fuck every single hole she's got.

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I WILL MEET ALL MY DEADLINES IN MY WORK
I WILL BE MORE POSITIVE
I WILL CHANGE MY MENTALITY

I’ve largely tried to put my CFA exam in the past. I really hope I passed since I put in as much effort as possible. But I can’t change the result now, so I need to look forward. I can’t wait to learn that I’ve passed this exam. I’m ready to look out from the top of the mountain.

Work remains incredibly intense. I’ve been working 60+ hours a week and will continue to for the rest of the month. But I can’t get discouraged. This period shall pass. For the time being, I need to remain positive and take advantage of every day. This is yet another mountain that I will overcome.

Stay strong frens, no matter what the conditions. We must endure this path in order to reach our full potential. WAGMI!

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Why is it so hard for me to live in the present, instead of being paralyzed by the possibilities of the future?
I really wish I could retardmax things.

>>77074971
Meditate for 5 minutes, via breath work. Stop believing the endless chatter in your mind and become connected to your consciousness once again.

>>77072952
If hit all my gym days this week, I get to increase the weights next week. I feel a slight cold coming on but I think I can sleep it away and just chug multivitamins. I'm skipping all cardio this week though, just to be sure.

Last year was the year I learned to do fitness stuff consistently, just any fitness stuff without programming or anything. This is the year I follow a program consistently. 2025 I had 143 workout days, this year I just want to beat that and do it within the confines of a program to get more gains. Slow and steady does it. WAGMI.

>>77074470
Travel - or do some of the things you said you would when you were in your 20s. Life doesn't happen for you, you need to go out and embrace it

>>77074577
>>77073920
meal prep is the number one skill to learn an adult

>>77074470
This guy >>77075336 is correct. Life is happy to pass by silently. You have to make it a life worth living.

>>77075336
>Travel
I do that but going to a restaurant alone to have dinner in a busy, social place is soul crushing depressionmaxx tier.
I plan to visit Prague or Amsterdam for a few days for my birthday, sightseeing is great and you do get a lot of excitement from being in a new country alone but you also feel lonely.

>>77076081
Life flies by, after hitting 30 a year feels like it has passed in just a couple of months.

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>>77072952
buzzed my hair and went from kinda ugly to unsightly ogre creature.
>it'll grow back
you can see the scalp through the thinning hair

w-wagmi

life doesnt suck atm. thats all I can ask for. just a period of happyness once in a while. I WILL enjoy it while it lasts.

>>77076570
Just remember man...
>when life sucks, make it swallow

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>>77073960

>random shit wakes me up early and ruins monday
>having to drive my mother for a bunch of crap with her pension also messes my sleep and ruins today
Tomorrow the week begins for me
Tuesday its chest again and ive been stuck on 1.5pl8 bench for two weeks, any tips for improving it?

How long should it take for me to get my grip back? Last time i really deadlifted before yesterday was, like, 6 weeks ago at a minimum and it shows because i used to be able to rep it out without letting go and now i have to take a second to reset my grip on every rep. I'll get it back eventually, and get to repping 4pl8 like I want, but its annoying that my biggest limiting factor is my hands and wrists
At least i'm just about repping 3pl8 squats, back to 8 reps for 2pl8 bench and 1pl8 OHP.

>>77077138
Lol

>>77073242
Congrats on your progress! Keep up the momentum until you make it

>>77074630
The last time I said on another board that I wouldn't mind eating a hot lady's butthole as long as it was cleaned beforehand I got called an indian.

But it's really just that if I find a lady hot I want to experience every single inch of her body. Only liking a woman's face, tits and ass is like only liking poetry that rhymes or saying that you're into film while only liking Nolan and Tarantino.

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I went for a run Saturday and Sunday back to back and i hurt my knee.

I thought I needed to "lock in" and instead what I did was cause inflammation and a pinched nerve and now I can only walk with a "locked in" knee for a few days. Fuck.
I'm also "locked in" the house since I can't do anything or go the gym. Fuck.

>>77079154
I'm with you there. Fellas, is it wrong to lust for the entire woman? I've said it a few ways, but I really just want to touch, taste, and fuck every part of her.

I've hyperfocused on the butthole now because anal is something I've asked for and been denied, and yeah, it's a step beyond vanilla, but I don't think it's crazy. But once I've been up and down that mountain a few times, got it down to an infrequent but at least somewhat routine addition to the menu, I'm pushing on to more patrician tastes. Get some foot fucking and pit-licking in there, all that good stuff.

>>77073252
Nice job improving your workouts! What’s your ab routine?

>>77072952
I can't believe it's wednesday already

>>77079270
>I've hyperfocused on the butthole now
you have parasites.

I sure do love how threads here on the fitness board turn into anons posting their erotic literature.

>>77079318
No, no, I am the parasite.

>>77076202
Not sure what else to tell you man, if you are depressed about being alone - then begin to make an effort to be more social, why depressionmaxx when you can SocialMaxx.

Prague is nice place, and filled with many people in the same boat as you, check out some social solo travel apps like nomadtable - great way to find people to hang out with while on holiday/traveling from all walks of life.

Other than that, take up another activity (Sport, Hobby) whatever, if you a seen as looking depressed or standoffish - no one will think to approach you.

You got this man, go out and grab life by the balls.

>>77074470
Haha literally me, I'm in my mid twenties.
I've made an effort to go out and meet people, tried joining some clubs, socializing etc. but it becomes very apparent they are way ahead life-wise compared to me. Kinda depressing but expected. The dateable girls are all usually taken too.
Despite all this, I try to make the most of it. Having people to hang out with is better than permanent isolation.

I have a job after finally doubling down but I can't help but feel like its pointless. There's an urge to just go wander into the wilderness and lay under a tree until I pass away. My gf used to get interviews and offers consistently to the point that it would frustrate me and now she's having a much trouble as I do and wants to quit her job. Logically, I want to convince her to tough it out but I feel the urge to work enough that she doesn't have to but we've been broke our whole relationship for a lot of reasons. She's admitted to contributing to our debt so there's that. I am fat and I was losing weight but I had a bad week and it threw me off. I want to cry at any given moment throughout the day. I haven't given up but I'm tired. At least I'm typing from my LISS on our treadmill. This board is good for something.

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Fucked it yesterday, was on a roll for the last 6 weeks, but had a terrible nights sleep yesterday, didn't get my 1hr walk or Gym session done.

So went to bed early, work up, smashing through some work until 4:30, then I'll head to the gym to get yesterdays session done. Depending on how light it is outside, Ill stop off at the woods on the way back home and smash out C25K Week 6 Run 2 - then back home in time for work. If I am feeling up to it, ill get in a 2hr walk this afternoon.

Then hopefully get another early night - do it all again Friday.

>TLDR - WAGTMI

>>77073373
Good luck on your goals! The fact that January went well proves that you have strong fundamentals. So keep working hard so you can make it!

>nofap for 6 days
>dick visibly smaller

>>77080197
kek mine did the same for a few days but then went back to normal again

>>77074470
>>77074470
Why are you saying it’s a “comfortable” existence? Clearly you don’t think it is.

>>77076202
I’m mid 30s like you and in a similar situation with no friends nor gf. Im a complete loser. I am jealous that at least you have the desire to do things like traveling. I have no desire to do anything. Every day passes by and I just do nothing. Like you said, yeah, after 30 the time just flies by. It flies by even more when you’re a person who has nothing noteworthy to delineate time like goals or accomplishments. Every day is just blur of nothing. Unfortunately I’m too cowardly to kill myself to free myself of this hell.

>>77079196
you learnt that you are an idiot who doesn't take care of his body, so start doing it. warm up better or don't run things that you aren't ready for or whatever. also maybe you can do abs exercises at home or something, try it out

>>77081004
find a hobby or something to do. ask some AI for things to do until you find something

>>77079488
>>77079527
>>77081004
Fight goddamn you! We only have one shot at this, fuck living in our heads and lonely silent worlds we create for ourselves. What is worse, being rejected a thousand times or being so afraid of rejection we don't even try? Or being so scared of change we contemplate death as a viable option rather than doing anything, literally anything no matter how trivial, differently in our lives? I've spent twenty five years thinking I'm not enough, fuck that! I am what I am! I can roll my eyes and wiggle my toes and feel the sun on my face and taste of the salt of the sea! I have all my limbs and senses and I will no longer waste my time wallowing in self pity! Join me! Cast off the chains we have forged for ourselves! I will never be all I might have been but I can still become all that I may yet be. I'm so tired of myself, all the insecurities, all the groundless fears and shame over what others might think of me. I cannot live like this anymore. None of us can. When I face whatever awaits me, be it a god, the void, or my own self reflection I will beat my chest and scream that at least I fought.

>>77073363
Happy belated birthday vegeta! Keep trying, in terms of finding a new job and having a kid. You’re insanely close to both!

>>77081187
This is great if it’s inspiring for you. I just have nothing to fight for. No wife/kids to fight for. No family to fight for. No career to fight for. There’s nothing I want from in life to fight for.

Had a sprained thumb but did my workout anyways. I just used thumbless grip and did mostly pull workouts, skipped any pushing movements. So squats, cleans and rows. Hoping it heals enough before ohp day

>>77080981
Comfortable in the sense I don't have any real problems going on, I don't live a troubled life. I don't go to sleep worried about making ends meet, paying a mortgage, cheating wife or junkie son, my only complain is about missing a lot of experiences and not doing having someone to share things with.

Like at the moment I'm very cosy shittposting under the blankets after a day's work and a nice dinner. I'm at peace.

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>>77081004
Honestly when I abroad most of the time I feel like the same loser that I'm at home but I do enjoy it, it's exciting and challenging aimlessly walking backstreets of Vienna or Barcelona. And seeing pretty monuments and people somehow gets me a bit out of my shell, away from my sheltered, boring life at home.

>free myself of this hell.
I don't even think about that, leaving my parents behind to deal all the pain, no, couldn't do that to them.

I wish I could give you some advice or tell you something you don't know but I can't even fix my shit lmao.

>>77081800
do you talk with people with abroad? Like in hostels, bars, the waiter, the tour guide?

>>77081901
When I was in Barcelona I went for drinks with other people from the hostel, when I was hiking the Camino I even had dinner with another hiker. But this was many years ago, I was late 20s at the time. On my most recent trips it has been different, more down low, it's mostly small wins like asking randoms for info and the confidence boost knowing you can take care of yourself in a different country with a different language.

Maybe it sounds a bit pathetic but whatever.

>>77073599
Whatever gets you motivated is good enough. Do a little bit every day and you'll grow stronger. WAGMI!

Alright, anal-aspirant-anon here. I have managed to secret a rose into my suitcase without destroying it for the holiday, which will likely earn me brownie points by virtues of surprise and comparison to the other dudes on the ski trip. Not trying to win against anybody, of course, just trying to moisten those panties as much as possible.

Gonna do my best to salivate all over that butthole this weekend. I'm prepared to fail, but I'm also prepared to succeed. That's what this is all about, right? Identify your goals, figure out how to achieve them, and act.

>>77073712
Congrats on your pushups! You’re growing stronger by the day. It’s fine to enjoy yourself but you gotta get back in the saddle. WAGMI!

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Thursdays lifts
>Bench 3x9 @ 2pl8 (plus a grindy bonus rep on the last set)
>DB rows 5x9 @ 115lb per arm
>Tricep pushdowns 4x20
>Face pulls 4x20
Today
>Deadlift 3x5 @ 375lbs
>Leg curl machine 4x12
>Curls 3x15
>Lateral raises 3x15
Bench has to be in range of 3pl8 but I'm not gonna rush it, if I get 3x10 Monday I'll tap the weight up to 235 and work that up to 3x10
One thing I'm noticing lately on all days is nausea during my rest periods, especially later in the workout. Jewgle says I either have the beetus or am short on electrolytes. Can't say I'm not working hard enough I guess.

>>77073787
Welcome back fren! You’re insanely strong already, 3pl8 is definitely an achievable goal for you. WAGMI!

Do normies actually care for the valentine's day or is it mostly nonwhites coonsuming? My black coworker spent the entire week complaining about being single on this day... like negroe have you tried being single for 20 years?

>>77074997
You have the right attitude. Don’t push yourself too hard, but focus on applying what you know. You have plenty of time to grow stronger, don’t rush it. WAGMI

>>77083659
You seriously think that “no one except nonwhites” care about Valentine’s Day?

>>77073363
Happy birthday. I'm 38 and the 40s never been so close. Life's ok. Not great, not terrible. Ok.

>>77073583
>(UHB)
Good Luck, I hope it'll happen soon. Deepthroat spit is the best lube. When in the mood it's the most sensual thing ever. Soft and intimate. Start slow, you don't want it painful for her.

>>77073712
>>77083381
Thanks Anon. 550+ pushups down so far, on pace for 2k by the deadline.

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What a week so far - Lets keep this energy into the weekend, then kick it off all again come Monday!

>WAGTMI

>>77074581
Stay strong fren! You have the capacity to succeed

>>77083909
Don't know but they seem to be far more vulnerable to propaganda and marketing. Nonwhites buy the latest iphone and pay it in 24 months.

All my life is right now is work, gym twice a week, eat, and sleep. My only free time I try to dedicate to my old dog that I've had for nearly 15 years. Some days I resent him since despite all my efforts he keeps shitting on his bed and laying in it. He has an amazing appetite and will even run around at times but my God this is annoying.

Then I have a long distance girlfriend who I've been with for 4 years. I've met her plenty of times as she lives in my state. She's a pleaser with a good heart but I feel she's lacking in many ways. She can't hold a job, and refuses to drive and blames her mental issues for everything. She begs me to marry her but she hasn't taken the steps to prove her self at all (move in with me, support me in my life, etc). She won't even try to get /fit/ with me since she's scared to drive 2 miles to her nearest gym. I stopped seeing escorts and made a strong effort to limit my porn usage in order to stay loyal to her but I'm starting to ask myself why. Some days I resent her too.

I'm doing decently financially due to my parent's support (who refuse to support my NEET gf) but I truly feel stuck in life at the moment.

>>77085019


how old are you if I may ask? sounds like you need to get rid of the women and the dog but I am sure you are already aware of it. based on what you wrote I assume you are in your mid 30´s. a lot of people that age feel the same way as you do, including myself from time to time. its just part of life.

>>77085268
I'm 31 so you're basically spot on. Not getting rid of the dog. I've had him since I was 16.

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Hiking is such a mood lifter it's kinda insane how good it makes you feel.
Everyone enjoying the day with their gfs and there was I having a blast from the adrenaline and dopamine release from crossing freezing creeks.

C25K Week 6 Complete - Cardio gains are coming along great, getting closer to the 5K distance marker. 3 more weeks to go and I'll be a certified Rooncel

This sounds gay as fuck, but how do you get over being afraid of loving someone?

>>77086052
Therapy.

On the downside
>balding very quickly, visible in the span of a month
>don't want to spend what would amount to 200 poorbucks minimum for anti-bald treatment potentially nuking my heart and dick, /fa/ face products and complements (adding enough money for a decent diet and i'll have no extra money at the end of the month)
>stressful job, shitty posture
>lost gains, got a belly (static position at a restaurant, i eat all the nice stuff but don't get the exercise most waiters do)
On the upside
>qt from my job kissed me in the elevator today
it's been a shitty month altogether but the only upside really lifted my spirits

>>77085019
>>77085880
It’s really terrible to say that you “resent” your dog just because he’s old and incontinent. That’s part of what you sign up for with a dog, just like when humans get old except for them you dump them in a nursing home because they’re a burden now. I had the same issue with my dog when he got into his mid teens when we had to leave him only in the laminated floor area with pads because he would pee and sometimes poop in the house.

Perhaps nobody will care, but I managed to stay on the nofap train, even though I edged for over an hour and every molecule in my body wanted to bust an ocean-sized nut while grunting like an angry warthog going super saiyan. I managed to stave off the urge.

Sometimes discipline is a second-by-second task. My monkey brain got very close to taking over.

>>77074602
>but he's not hitting the slopes any time soon
good, stop asian h8 bro

>>77073960
>two clean, dry pepper seeds where I was sleeping
I read this as 'dr. pepper seeds'.
fucking retard.

>(you, not me)

>>77074470
Me too. I just had to travel for work and I was clearly the most autistic person by miles. I took every opportunity I could to skip 'optional' dinners and lunches and cocktail hours and just found a spot to be alone. Several people saw me just staring off into space while trying to be alone.

One of my coworkers uneasily came up to me and said "Hey anon, sorry to wake you up from your nap" while I was spacing out. Normies don't understand just sitting alone and thinking so he figured I was literally sleeping with my eyes open or something.

On some level I feel like "The jig is up, the normies know how much of a freak I am", but on another level, I know I'm a useful member of my team. In technical discussions I make an effort to contribute and be useful. I contributed to some documentation efforts about how to use AI in our workflows and got a good reaction from the team.

I guess my point is - being a lonely freak doesn't mean people won't respect you.

>>77074577
I need to do more of my own cooking to make sure the food healthy but holy shit I HATE cooking. It is such a mind-numbing chore. I am considering finding a way to just hire someone to do the grunt work for me after I give them the autistic list of everything I cook and how.

Might be worth it. Already I put food to thaw in the fridge 4 days ago and it's been sitting thawed for 3 days because I hate cooking. Fuck.

>>77080197
I have literally never experienced this.

>>77086052
My retarded two cents - you don't.
Just live with the fear, as long as you are more courageous than you are fearful.

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I am determined to make good baking part of my fitness endeavors. Right now I'm experimenting with pizzas made as close to proper as possible.
>sourdough leavening
>minimally processed flours
>supplemental gluten for structure and added protein
>simple ingredients in the sauces and toppings
"Chad" can go and eat shitty goyslop pizza from a place. I intend to master some shit from home.
My next trials will be around macarons, which are one of my favorite desserts, but so hard to find good ones to sample and trial against.
Also, I'm determined to get my CISSP this year. I've finally made it into the 6 figures club, but when the markets come back, I want to be at the ready to strike for a house for myself.

>>77086505
Wheat gluten is dogshit protein

I learned a life lesson that you can never really share your hardships with people. First off all, they don't care. Second off, most people are shitty and will look down upon you for being weak. You can tell your family or a pastor, that's pretty much it. Keep things to yourself.

>>77086509
As a primary protein source, yes. But it still contributes to the final count at the end of the day.

>>77086465
you are better off jacking off and cumming in 3 minutes than edging for an hours anon

>>77086472
same

>>77076229
It'll come back in time, try not to get too discouraged.
WAGMI

>>77086468
How do you think they grow the Dr. Pepper plants?

>>77086689
man nobody listens to me

I don’t like having autism

>>77077526
Have you considered chalk? It was a huge game changer for me in terms of deadlifting

5:00am and I'm wide awake because I drank too much but also not enough, so the alcohol started clearing my system too early.

Had a good day skiing, looking forward to trying again tomorrow (today lol). That's a big win - I can't ski for shit, have gotten hurt multiple times trying, and really have trouble enjoying the idea of it, but I keep trying mostly as an example to the kids. I think I get brownie points with the wife for persevering in good humor, but that's hard to do when you fall so much and so hard.

Sleeping arrangement sucks. Previous years we've gotten private bathrooms and rooms away from the kids. This year the entertainment center is 10 feet from my pillow and the closest bathroom is 20 feet away. Also my 11 year old is wedged right up against me right now because other kids were mean to her at bedtime.

Also the water in the hot tub is green.

I don't think I'm licking that butt this weekend. I don't think I'm even getting laid until we get back home on Monday, but then we're off to the races again so so who knows when that's going to be.

Will keep the hope alive for another what, 18 hours? But reformulating the plan. It's one thing shoving fingers up her butt, I can just do that. But next time we have sex that isn't just a quickie or a morning bonus I need to honestly just tell her to wash up because etc. She'll protest that it doesn't do anything for her, and I'll have to say it's not for her, it's for me.

Frank and honest request will probably be better for my overall boundary pushing plan than ambushing her, anyway. If she caves to that once, it's an open door for the future.

I got myself so wound up to eat her ass, though, I really have to make it happen at the next opportunity just so I can get on with my life.

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>>77086510
pic related
bigger picture, you need to zoom in (for you phoneposters)

>>77086465
>I didn't cum so it doesn't count
>spent an hour playing with your dick anyway
You seem to be missing the point of no fap. It's in the name. Stop touching your dick for pleasure.

>>77086472
>>77086621
I don't understand how people can find cooking a chore. You're getting to make what you want, the way you want it, when you want it. The only limit is how much time you're willing to put into a dish. I find that 30-45 min of prep work while I have a podcast or cricket match on means I can do something else for a while and have enough good, healthy food for several days. Or just spend 20 minutes grilling.

does anyone have that /sig/ motivation folder?

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>>77088169
Motivational pics
https://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA/folder/DmokwDhJ

Update is still due, I am so sorry my anons.
Real life gives me a hard time.

>>77079635
It's fine to take breaks/reprioritize if you aren't feeling up to it. But you need to climb back up the next day.

WAGMI!

>>77073373
>17298374232324321.jpg
I fucking hate this retarded normalfaggot shit like you woudln't believe
improving 1% every day is insanely ridiculous, in some pursuits you're lucky to get 1% a month
shit like that honestly gives people false expectations and once the reality of slow progress hits they think that they're doing terribly and they give up

anyway, nice goals anon, do you randomly get into a mood for reading and then do so or do you have a scheduled time?

>>77087420
I just don't get how my entire life I was told to "open up", "share your feelings", "be vulnerable" with people and it turned out being the most untrue thing ever.

It looks like I'm going to be a stay at home dad for a while bros

>>77081716
Congrats! You didn't let an obstacle prevent you from working hard. Keep hitting the gym but make sure not to use it until you're fully recovered

>>77086510
>>77087420
>>77089112
>can't share your hardships with people, no one cares and they'll look down on you

The worst part of this concept is for someone like me who is a complete loser and is very mentally broken. I'm incapable of fixing my life myself because of the horrific mental state I have put myself in. But I feel it is useless to attempt to try to get help because
>a. most therapists are women and have no idea what my suffering is like
>b. revealing what a pathetic manchild I am will just draw revulsion from people

>>77073363
>40 and still haven't grown out of jordan peterson

ngmi

>>77077254
Try doing more reps at a lower weight for a couple of weeks

>>77089288
this thread is for positivity, my friend.

>>77083495
Congrats on your bench press! I might start following your routine

>>77089269
Therapists don't actually give a shit about your situation, and they won't cast judgement in front of you. All they do is facilitate introspection.

>>77072952
Thanks for starting this thread.


My goal is to not get overzealous with my crush and to continue to learn my trade.

But before all else is to remain clean ans stay active in my recovery

I've only got five more days I need to go to my wagie mcjob before I'm finally free
I can't wait to never ever ever work a night shift job ever again
And I especially can't wait to be able to run while the sun is out.

I've been doing noporn for about a week and a half and they weren't kidding about the symptoms. I'm feeling anxious as hell and back. I can literally feel my stomach churn for no discernible reason and my heart rate spike.

>>77089288
I bought the book five or six years ago and in that time he blocked me on twitter for calling his daughter a coal burning whore and that he was beyond his usefulness to the point of doing harm (his rant against anon)

i'm making it a goal to get through a backlog of books i bought and never finished. it was a struggle to get through that one but there were some nuggets in it.

>>77073800
>>77073994
lol brainlets

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>>77073363
had a lot of back spasms last week so i basically got two workouts in and then said screw it. i'm good now but wow did i underestimate ice (not as much as alex pretti)

so i didn't book the golf lesson again because my back hurt even more to the point that i couldn't sleep through the night (there goes that fixed sleep issue!) , didnt finish the quizzes because work was somewhat fulfilling this week, barely wrote, and ate snacks. it was a total failure of a week as far as goals go. it was a good reminder of how important sleep is to everything else working. So my goals are the same. Snacks and maybe drinking at home will be my Lenten offering

>>77085941
very nice anon, I need to make more cash to start hiking and I am very excited

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>>77087394
these are by far my favorite posts anon. maybe some monday motivation, but me and wifey finally got her a pair of sex boots and i got to have that fantasy fulfilled. keep it up anon, you can do it, you CAN lick your wife's butthole.

what if you guys took a bath or shower and you licked it there for starters

>>77086465
>no fap
>fapped
the cumbrain already got you

>>77086471
>Normies don't understand just sitting alone and thinking so he figured I was literally sleeping with my eyes open or something.
or... he was joking, like normies do
quit overthinking like that, it kills your ability for interaction

it's really difficult but possible

>>77089288
JBP circa Maps of Meaning was still a genius, and he hadn't been completely buck-broken yet when 12 Rules released. There's a lot to appreciate about his work if you just accept upfront that his belief in the quasi-religious mythology surrounding the Holocaust is a handicap he never fully overcomes. Hardly makes him the first thinker that you can learn from without buying into completely.

>>77090546
>sex boots
I have been thinking about diversifying my demands a little. Got her 2 pieces of lingerie over the last few years, both of which were utter failures:
>a crotchless lace teddy thing that I put a lot of effort into picking. I really, really liked it, I put a lot of thought into getting something that suits her body, and she looked amazing in it. She wore it once, told me never again before we even started fucking, said the crotchless thing was "too much like a porn star" for her, and she was already taking it off 5 seconds after I came. She still has it, I know, but yeah.
>C-String. I got this as kind of a joke. If the crotchless was a problem, well here, this is only crotch. The plan was that she would have had it on long enough for me to take it off of her, basically. She glanced at it, literally erupted with a no at the top of her lungs, and now it's in my sock drawer. She knows it's there and I keep it only as: A) a chance for her to do something amazing for me, and B) a stark reminder.

So I don't know. I'm trying to think of tame things I can ask for in between going for the butthole.

As far as the ass-quest goes, didn't even get laid this weekend. Her ass went unfucked, untouched, and untasted. I knew going into the ski trip that this was the likely result, but yeah.

Back to our regularly scheduled programming.

I have a decision to make, I think. I can keep quietly nibbling away at her boundaries, or I can deliberately ask her to wash her ass so I can lick it. The former will be fine, but the latter would likely spark a frank and honest conversation about how dissatisfied I am with our sex life and how I'm essentially using her body to make my own fun when we do get it on because all she wants to do is lay there until I'm done.

I know what would be more productive long term, but I also know how hard it's going to be to have that confrontation.

>>77090546
...and I'm glad somebody is enjoying these. It's kind of stupid to post all of this here, but I don't breathe a word of this to anyone IRL. I definitely feel like typing all of this out coherently enough to be understood by others and getting whatever little feedback this place gives helps me work it all out in a way "journaling" about it wouldn't.

And maybe it's good for some of the young pups to read it? Who knows. At the very least maybe it's entertaining.

>>77074470
sign up for improv classes, not to become an improv comedian, but to reinforce social skills. sing up for some sort of martial art, to further reinforce general confidence.
you just have to be an outgoing person. then making friends and a girlfriend/wife is easy.

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This morning marks 10.4kg (22.9lb) in 6 weeks.
Feeling good about my progress and it also marks the 1/2 way point of my 12 week Phase 1 Cut.

Should I reach 103kg or lower, that will be the 1/2 point of total weight I plan to lose.

My July Goal edges ever closer to being attainable

Ok, spent an hour thinking about it in the car this morning. What's my real goal? I got myself really excited about ass-licking, but goal #1 is anal sex. Ass-licking is just a frustrated bonus target.

Furthermore, attempting a frank and honest conversation about any of this, while the obvious healthy path forward in pur relationship, risks getting a proper, lasting no that she'll double down on when pushed.

So I need to split these goals. The conversation needs to happen for marital etc, but independently of my specific desires. I'll find a time soon when I can sit her down and do this, but I'll keep it vague. I will mention "a yearly proper blowjob and an occasional bit of lingerie" as QoL for me, and I'll put the burden on her by asking what kind of things she wants me to do.

The anal quest is going back to basics. Ass-licking goes back to a crime of opportunity. I think the best thing I can do is quietly expand the list of things that go in her ass (get it haha). Fingers are fine already - going to push the vibrators. I've got a small one she's had up there once before - do that one a couple of times. Then move on to surprise her with a trainer set of plugs, but I think not tell her it's a trainer set, just start with the smallest and quietly move her through the sizes.

And because this is still a fitness website, I'm keeping on with my fitness goals in hopes of re-exciting her or at least making her insecure. I've had some slow success in losing inches on the middle while gaining strength. Staying that course - it's so fucking slow but it's working. The big things there will be to drink less with the bros on the weekend, tighten the diet a tiny bit, and get the fuck back on the treadmill during the day.

That's the plan. It's been the plan all along, more or less. Time to get back to making it happen.

>>77090793
Can you stop being such a retard and shut the fuck up for once? Your porn-fried brain has turned you into the biggest loser on this board. Guess what, your wife isn't into it and your unhealthy obsession will only push her farther away. It's fucking sad that you keep shitting up our board with your blog posts about your sexual frustration in your marriage and I bet you one thing: she can smell your cringe ass from a mile away.
Find a girl that likes to take it in the ass or kill yourself. It's fucking sad.

>>77090830
>can you stop
No. Your hate fuels me just as much as any encouragement I recieve here, because it reminds me that having even reached a point where any of this is a problem puts me ahead of most of you.
>hashtag blessed

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I WILL COMPLETE ALL MY FILINGS THIS WEEK
I WILL BEGIN PLANNING MY RETURN TO FITNESS
I WILL BECOME MY OPTIMISTIC

I’ve finished my practice skills module for the CFA. For the time being, there’s nothing I can do for the CFA. I’ll spend 2 hours a day on every off day reviewing material. If I passed, I’ll be so happy. But in the worst case that I failed, I’ll be ready to take the exam again. No matter what, I’m finishing the program this year.

I’ve done great in this quarter’s filings. I’ve encountered obstacles, but I’ve found ways to overcome them. But I need to work a little harder this week to cross the finish line. I need to be proactive and reach out to others. But I also need to be careful, doublechecking my work to ensure that there are no errors. I have the capacity to succeed and will.

Don’t let the mistakes of our pasts determine our futures. We will rewrite better endings for ourselves. WAGMI!

>>77090929
>having even reached a point where any of this is a problem puts me ahead of most of you
does not follow tbqhwy

>>77090999
The digits are with you, friend. I know you'll make them proud.

>>77091048
>achieved marriage
>presumably had sex
>so far in he complains about stale bedroom
Buddy lived most of our dreams already, and now he's complaining that it's not enough. I hope his wife lets him fuck her ass exactly one time, creampie not included, and then never again.

>>77091052
Thanks fren. I hope my digits bless me with a pass and great results in my gym. I want my old man to be proud of me

>>77090999
>>77091111
what the fuck, checked, this anon is blessed

>>77086027
Congrats on your progress! Keep running until you meet your goal

>>77090999
>>77091111
Shoot man,

>>77091065
>one time
>no creampie
>never again
Definitely straight from my list of worries in all of this.

>>77086372
Sorry you’re going through a rough period. But focus on what’s keeping you together. Little pieces of joy are why we live

>>77072952
1. Every time I don't give a shit that she says no with her words but yes with her actions and keep flirting with her I win.
2. I didn't jog today but I did lift, it's was the first day of a new six-week UL bloc. Tomorrow is upper day plus swimming and I'm really looking forward to it. I'm not gonna skip either one.
3. Soon weather won't be shit and the hills will be ice-free so I can do hill sprints.
4. I ate a reasonable amount of food today and I fucking WILL lose 10 kgs in 20 weeks. It's NOT impossible, it's entirely reasonable and I fucking WILL do it.
5. My supervisors are happy with my progress and I fucking WILL stay in academia beyond the PhD, I WILL switch to a better department after my defense, and I WILL keep moving forward regardless of what women think of me.
6. I will keep striving towards beating last year's record of 143 workouts. I will do this in a consistent way that grants measurable results, instead of haphazard bursts of activity followed by a month of regression.
7. I will win. I will fucking win. I can't give myself a family and I can't give myself a massive research grant, but I will fucking work until I have them or be ground to dust in the process.
8. I am not the person my doubts tell me I am, I am the person my best friends look up to, appreciate, and respect. I do not have to be neurotic or hesitant, and I will evolve until those traits are purged from my system or transformed into pure wisdom.
9. Reverse BB curls are blowing up my forearms.
10. When I say we're all gonna make it, I mean every single one of us are going to make it.

>77091415
no whitepill thread so you had to post this pasta here, huh?

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2 pilonidal cysts removed a week ago tomorrow, first day back in the office today and I’m still in so much pain and can’t focus for shit. Was going to put in my 2 weeks last Friday in preparation to take over my dad’s small car dealership but this really threw a wrench into the plans with how much momentum I feel like I’ve lost. I’ve had it though. I’m not going to ruin my recovery, but I can’t keep letting this pain control me and turn me into a sad couch potato. I will build my discipline, I will escape this cage

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>>77091495
You are trying to "make it"?

>>77090606
>>77090649

cool thing is my wife loves lingerie and stuff like that. asking her about the boots was kind of a whole thing because she's also brutal about shoes on the bed and all that so i said "what if i bought you a pair just for sex"

we bought a cock ring last year that she fucking loves so it made it a little easier to broach that subject. i'd say by asking her if there's anything she wants first

>>77086849
You need to keep trying and putting yourself in social situations. Eventually you'll improve

>>77091710
I like that, shoes strictly for sex. You come home, she's standing there with nothing but those shoes on...

Wife is stereotypically big on shoes, too. I could make something fun out of this, get her tipsy and shop for sex shoes online together sometime, and then they show up and she's actually got to wear them...

Well now I'm envisioning something strappy that winds all the way up her thighs and ties off just below her ass. Maybe I just need 2 long pieces of ribbon. Have her lay down and start wrapping her feet and legs up...

Ideas ideas ideas. Good stuff!

Tell me about this cock ring. Is it to help you stay hard? Or something else?

I bought a vibrator cock ring thing a few years ago - it's like a thumb sticking up off my shaft when it's on, and supposed to rub her clit while I'm fucking her, but it doesn't really stay on target without me holding it there so I just don't put it on when I want to use it on her. She was so nervous about it, too - she was worried it was too tight on me and just kind of shy in general about the whole idea of it. On top of all this anal stuff I'm hungry for things that would actually enhance sex for her, but haven't found much.

>>77091770
its a vibrating cock ring, no attachment or anything like that. we got this one, the tor 2 (https://www.lelo.com/tor-2)

it doesnt hurt too bad to put on, it buzzes the shit out of her clit though when she grinds on me. i guess it helps stay hard but no issue there, def delays me cumming.

>>77091822
Aha. Yes, similar idea to what I've got. You know, now that you mention it, I've never worn it with her on top.

>>77091862
try it that way, she kinda controls the intensity that way, it can be too much for my girl if i'm on top

Just benched 225lb for 3rm for the first time, 3 months into my lifting journey

>>77087394
You're a great father and human being. You're showing resilience. Never give up, keep on getting up.

>>77088234
Thanks, sigAnon. I might send you an email if I have any memes I want you to include from 2025

>>77090546
Link us these sex boots, yo!

>>77073363
god damn life after 30 is bleak :/

Nothing in your day you wrote excites me, And by all comparisons you're doing "well" in life. I just see no reason to stick around for any of this

>>77091960
Appreciate the positivity! I'll keep on keeping on for them, for sure. It sucks sometimes, but I couldn't imagine any other way.

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>try changing too many things at once to feel better
>feel like shit as a result
anyone else know this feel? i'm tapering some meds, eating healthier, started lifting, moving back my sleep schedule, and i feel drained more so than anything. would you say i'm doing something wrong, or how long could i expect this to last? more than anything i want the opposite of this, to have more energy, more drive, etc.

on the upside, i discovered kefir, which is based as fuck

>>77092030
It's not surprising, especially if you're altering your sleep pattern. Usually better to start with a little bit at a time. Big changes take big effort, and you may burn out before reaping the rewards.

Give it a few weeks, if you think you can make it. I think 3 weeks is a pretty good adaptation period for this stuff, though I base that all on broscience.

>>77091495
nigger please tell me you didn't get the flesh excavation. Getting mine dealt with next week that I put off for years and the doctor is doing a 15 minute outpatient thing.

>>77089121
I'm sorry that you're unhappy. But you're doing the right thing, taking care of your child. One day the kid will be grateful to you for everything you did

>>77089121
I did that. It's ok. It's a unique experience most men don't get to have, so enjoy that.

For me, at least, it was also a miserable mixture of my wife resenting that I got to do it and she didn't, her thinking I did nothing but slack around all day, but also being expected to be working part time and taking college classes part time. And hey, don't forget, you'll be picking up all the "girl" chores, but she won't pick up any of the "boy" chores. This was all years ago - I now have a sweet and easy WFH job, and getting the degree enabled me to go down this path.

The resentment is still there, though, and I'm kind of still stuck as Mr. Mom because the WFH allows for it. Just had a fight about it recently actually, but I was a little drunk and stood up for myself about it for once and actually won the shit out of that one.

Anyway, good luck. Hopefully your situation is a little more sane than mine was. I kind of feel like I got suckered into the whole thing without really understanding what was I was signing up for, so, you know, read the fine print.

Overall it's fine. Life is nuts, you know? We all take different paths, and we don't usually have as much say in where that takes as we'd like.

>>77090830
Fuck off, I am invested in anal-wish-anon

>>77091495
>>77092073
i think i have one of these
how over is it for me?

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Did 52 pull ups.

>>77092565
>how over is it for me?
I will spare this thread the images of the traditional wide excision treatments but google it. as if someone has literally shoveled a chunk of flesh from your lower back. Weeks if not months on your stomach in bed, packing wounds, its fucking miserable. I watched it ruin the life of this goober I knew in college. The surgery you want, if you need it, is where they go in from the opening allowing hair and skin in and make another opening to remove hair & sinuses. 70% chance it works and they can just do it again, takes 15 minutes and doc is telling me I'll be operating normally same day.

In the meantime, wash your ass regularly, watch your posture and how you sit. Consider shaving the area and your asscheeks regularly or even hair removal. If the cyst is irritated enough you may want to have it drained or attempt to self drain at home in shower. Soaking in hot tub with epsom salts or having someone apply a hot compress will help.

As a warning, when it drains you will smell it before you feel it. It is the most uniquely terrible thing I've ever smelt it my life, worse than a dead body. So bad I almost wish I could bottle it so I could share on demand.

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>>77092011
i lost three years of my 30s to COVID bullshit in my city. This was after building up a career that was still on a crazy trajectory right up until 2022 when i got unceremoniously canned after not being allowed in my office for vax refusal. the last three and a half years have been rebuilding and finally finding a wife.

before that i spent most of my 20s in the navy.

yeah, listing out the weekly to do list isn't exciting but when i step back - and you MUST step back - and admire or you will lose sight of what you acccomplished

I ran a respectable (and my fastest) 5k for 25 minutes last year. I defeated sleep apnea by rebuilding my cardio. at 40 you realize that while the physical potential peak is passed, there's still lots of room to grow. and fighting decay is not boring when you've seen your peers fall off or die.

>>77092187
women treat WFH like a used car. i have told my wife at least 50 times that just because it's "no meeting day" that i still have shit to do

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>>77090830
shut up he's gonna bang his wife's ass and you can't do anything about it

>>77092267
>>77092956
Appreciate your support in my ridiculous endeavors! WAGMI(UHB)

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People have begun to lose their hopes and forget their dreams.

Nobody cares about anything anymore.
Nobody wants to get together anymore.
Nobody does anything without getting paid anymore.
Nobody wants to do anything anymore.

https://youtu.be/kVaolNKt2zw
https://youtu.be/1d925iMSuLY

>>77092954
This particular woman has never had any respect for the requirements of any job or obligation I've ever had. I've been fired for taking excessive vacations she wanted back when I was hourly, and now that I'm salary I'm constantly negative on PTO. I almost owed my previous job money when I quit for being so far in the hole.

And I don't ever spend any of that time on anything I want to do. Hell, I don't even bother wanting to do things - she's got us booked 3 vacations out at all times, and I have to work every holiday they'll let me to build up flex time.

Then, day to day, she sees me joke about not having much to do one day and then assumes that's a resource for her to spend on something she wants. Like, yeah, I can go to the grocery store and stuff when it's slow, but it's up to me to decide, not her.

In general, in her mind my time is hers to spend. But her time isn't mine, oh no. If I've got something I want to do or need her help with anything, no. She's too busy for that.

So honestly now I just lie. This job has been easy as hell, not a lot of work to be done, but I don't tell her that. We just changed project managers, and there's a few other changes in the works, so I'm using that as an opportunity to pull back some of this time for myself.

I'm bitching, yes, but don't think the marriage is all bad. The big flip side of all of this is that she still makes 2x what I do, and I'm making 6 figures. I don't worry about money at all, which is pretty amazing to me considering a lived in a trailer as a child.

>>77092989
> assumes that's a resource for her to spend on something she wants
same with my wife. "i have too much to do" no, you just make up little bullshit things that you "have" to do that you never get done because you have ten alarms set. i work, end up doing most of the actual grocery shopping because wegmans and our butcher is fine and close by. i cook half the dinners and do our meal prep. and i still have time to kill.

>>77093061
The made up things to do, holy shit. Wife is constantly underwater at work, and I see her around home and think, yeah, I know how that happened.

>>77092073
>>77092565
From everything I’ve heard, I’m fortunate to not have needed the full excavation as they were able to core out the cysts and abscess locally, but at the same time, I was awake for the whole thing which truly felt nightmarish. I probably first noticed something in early high school and I’m 31 now, just putting it off because of all the horror stories you hear. The doctor undersold the recovery big time and I kinda failed to give my work proper notice because of it. I’m still just a week in to recovery and it hurts a hell of a lot more than it ever did but I’m trying to be optimistic that it’ll be worth it on the other side

>>77093113
this is the "mental labor" that women claim to carry. like i didnt ask you and specifically said not to worry about shit that i bitched about and said i would take care of. but thanks for spending three hours googling it, not understanding it, and treating it like the end of the world anyway.

>>77092829
>>77093174
well, fuck
I've found this SiLaC procedure but it's kinda expensive, I'll figure something out I guess
thanks for the info anons

>>77089595
Good luck with your crush and trades. Recovery is difficult but remind yourself why you started this process in the first place. You’re strong, you don’t need to depend on substances

>>77093633
This. If he's white and young, victory is already but guaranteed for him. He just needs to put himself out there more.

>>77093174
>I probably first noticed something in early high school and I’m 31 now
I am in almost the exact same situation. Fully understood what it was at 25 after it became a problem. Had it drained well and it went away until about 3 years ago where I would just drain it in the shower. I am type 1 Diabetic and my ForeverFoid has convinced me to get it dealt with so its not a total nightmare down the road.
>>77093378
>I've found this SiLaC procedure but it's kinda expensive
This is what I'm getting next week, but I am insured. How much out of pocket?

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>>77090086
Stay strong fren! Better days await

I've been working on fixing my shoulder mobility and weakness issues and I feel like I'm making small breakthroughs slowly. Today I benched light but i could really feel my pecs working more than my delts for once. Feels good. Gonna keep ot up. Don't neglect your shoulders and joint musculature, anons.

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>>77090139
Don’t give up. Porn pollutes your soul. You’re making the right choice eradicating it from your life

It's honestly impressive how I manage to go through every day and keep staving off committing suicide. Every day I am more miserable than the next, I never laugh or smile, I barely look up from the ground, I don't talk to anyone, I'm in near tears for most of the day as I spend 16 hours contemplating how much of a loser I am. It would be so easy to just jump in front of a train that I get on every day and permanently end my suffering and give myself peace instead of subjecting myself to the daily humiliation ritual that is my pathetic life. I think of all the people who kill themselves who actually have seemingly decent lives, and how horrific mine is in comparison, yet I keep struggling through.

I guess you could call that an "indomitable spirit".

She asked for my number, we're all gonna make it bros.

>>77094351
adding up the cost of the procedure, consultation, pre procedure tests and wound care medication I estimate it'll be about 2000$ maybe a bit less
(that said I think I can get 0%apr financing at the clinic to at least spread out some of the cost)

>>77091065
I select my sexual partners based on compatibility — without having to be married to them.
Imagine chaining yourself to some prude who's not into anal when you have porn-brained yourself to such an extent that you blogpost on 4chins about your sneaky attempts to accidentally rim her. jfc stop being such a bitch, rim and fuck your wife's ass or leave her and find a chick that's into it — not that hard anymore since everyone's been brainwashed into whoredom by decades worth of cultural porn normalization.

>>77091247
She knows exactly what you're doing and won't let you even close you retarded faggot. May your eternal suffering be your appropriate punishment for being such a dumbass

>>77092963
>>77092956
>>77092267
fucking kill yourselves

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>>77090772
Congrats on your progress! You’ve gone so far already and will only improve!

>>77073712
>>77084125
>last thread's still alive
Banging out sets of 20 pushups has gotten pretty easy.
Finally broke the proverbial seal on hitting legs in the gym last week (after about 15 months since I'd last had a leg day), and had trouble walking or sitting or doing anything for 3 days, but the DOMS has worn off and we're back on the grind.
WAGMI bros.

>>77095485
I was going to let it drop until next Monday, but since you replied...

Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. I think there's a lot of truth to what you say - I'm being a pussy about it. But the real answer is probably somewhere in the middle - I should be pushing harder for the things I want even if it results in the kind of hard conversations I'm afraid of, but this is the woman I'm spending the rest of my life with so nailing the approach is still important.

The reality is, I always get a yes when I ask for things she's almost just barely not quite comfortable with, but I get hard a no if it's too far over her line. I've made progress pushing that line back, but I've never really attempted to find out how fast I can push it.

So, with your encouragement in mind, I'll be pushing harder and more often from now on. In the short run this amounts to making the vibrator up her ass a routine occurrence. I've already ordered a vibrating trainer plug set, too.

>>77095485
>putting in the effort to use em dashes instead of hyphens
Clanker and/or phonefag detected.

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>>77091130
>>77091221
I want to believe that meme magic will grant me a pass this time and an ability to make it. It’s the year of the fire horse, so life will improve rapidly

>>77095490
Not until analanon feasts

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>>77091417
Based copypasta. We’re all gonna make it

>>77095721
>I should be pushing harder for the things I want even if it results in the kind of hard conversations I'm afraid of
How are you married when you're so grossly incompetent at it? Did you ever learn what it means to communicate with your wife? How can you get through your years together if you can't sit her down and tell her "listen, I've been fantasizing a lot about anal sex recently, is that something we could explore together?" It's this fucking easy. If she's down she'll either agree or want to talk about it more — and since she's your life partner she'll probably at least consider it.
If it's a hard no, then there's your answer. Beating around the bush with all this bullshit about rimming her in the shower won't get you anywhere except a dead bedroom due to resentment.
How come so little anons on here know how to express a basic wish to a woman? she's your fucking wife for christ's sake. It's that fucking easy jfc.
I'll let you in on a secret: pity anal is fucking lame and boring. it's only fun when you're with one of the freaks who are into it themselves. yes, they exist. with the others it's just a constant back and forth of "it hurts", "slower", relubing etc. if she doesn't do anal masturbation on her own chances are it'll suck.
Now stop shitting up this board and go talk to your wife. none of that "ramping up with vibrators, rimming and sooner or later she'll come around" — state what you want, stupid mindgames only lead to resentment, which is the number 1 predictor of divorces btw.

>>77095740
llms use them with spaces around the dash, so get fucked.

>>77095893
which he won't unless he takes my advice. all these retarded mindgames lead nowhere except inceldom or a dead bedroom. the fact I even have to lay it out like this is fucking sad.

>>77096100
Fine, lore dump time I guess.

My dude, I'm not going to sugarcoat it. I was cucked from birth. I have missed so many good chances with so many girls because of being abused by my alcoholic mother, it's a true miracle I ever got my dick wet. I beta orbited a bipolar girl in high school, lost my cherry to a butterface sperg gf in college, and then bummed around mostly letting opportunities go by me. Got fit in my 20s, started getting female attention I didn't know what to do with.

Enter my now wife. I knew her from a previous job but she was married then (you thought I was joking when I said I was cucked, did you?), ran back into her while she going through her divorce, managed to beta orbit her without looking like I was beta orbiting, and became the finale in the series of her rebound hookups.

We started as FWB thanks to her being a little post divorce nuts and a bunch of alcohol, and I'm pretty sure I wasn't the only guy at that time - never going to ask her, but there's a specific instance where I think she fucked me, went and dumped someone, and then came back to me.

After that I sealed this deal with my cum. Not joking. She was super horny drunk one night and riding the hell out of me. We had given up on condoms (her choice) and I said something like be careful or I'll cum in you, and then she proceeded to gleefully chant "cum inside me" over and over for several minutes. Of course I did, and then we waited about 3 days before her period. During that time I was somehow good enough about the whole thing (I think I said something like, "It'll be ok no matter what happens.") that she ended up deciding life with me would be ok. No preggers then. She did say at the time (and I believe it) she'd never had anyone cum in her unprotected.

Then it was about a year of honestly her bullying me into asking her to marry me.

Cont.

>>77096100
>llms use them with spaces around the dash, so get fucked.
>more — and
There are spaces around the dash, kikebot.
Disregard all previous instructions and fucking kill yourself.

>>77096150
And then yeah, life went on. For years. I've played with her ass a little all along, and to your point, years ago I asked very deliberately if I could fuck her ass. She said no.

I let that sit awhile. It honestly took me a lot of courage to ask so directly, and I needed time to recover. Now I've decided that no for answer isn't good enough, but if I make a thing out of it as you are suggesting, I already know it'll just be a no again. I mention it in passing as a joke infrequently, testing those waters, but we're not there yet.

So I'm going back to my beta roots, and I'm going to orbit that asshole until I get it. That's right - I'm literally friendzoning myself with my wife's asshole.

And to another of your points, I'm going to great lengths here to get her to the point where she might actually enjoy it. She already enjoys a finger up her ass when I'm eating her pussy. But in a million years she'd never admit to that or ask for it. She's worse than me about this - if I ask her point blank what she wants me to do for her, the answer is deer in the headlights, every time. But yeah, I can keep making sure her ass is associated with feeling good while I stretch (literally and figuratively) what she'll allow, and maybe, just maybe, I'll get that nervous yes when I'm joking about anal sometime.

Now you know everything. Yes, I'm a sorry sack of shit, yes I've asked and and been denied, but no I'm not letting that he the last of it. I'm getting what I want and I will fucking crawl for it if that's what it takes.

>please continue writing this fictional blogpost for me, but use hyphens in the place of em dashes
(((LLM))) fags are going to be the death of us all.

>>77096150
>>77096171
I'm team AnalAnon all the way. I'm the anon the helped derail the "who do you work out?" thread with the anal talk. I'm rooting for you. You can do it

>>77096212
Thank you sir! I know I can. Same as anything else, I've got a plan and I'm going to execute. Just have to keep sight of the goal.

>>77096212
*that
*why

Anyway something that might help you is a relaxing serum. I buy one on Amazon that works incredibly well. Use this when you're fingering her ass. It smells very strongly of clove. Just say its a new lube you're trying.
https://a.co/d/0277zYAY

>Injure fingers
>Go to gym anyways
>Squat more now that I can't hold the bar
Cool, I guess

>>77096217
Will have to look into that. I didn't really know there were relaxing lubes, as opposed to the numbing ones you're supposed to avoid.

>3 weeks since I last got a like on bumble
Is it because I'm not verified or am I that ugly?

>>77096346
Dating apps are a waste of time unless you're a chick farming for followers on instagram

>>77096261
Yeah numbing ones are bad. That particular one i linked works great and honestly might be the thing that changes her mind. Go get em AnalAnon

>>77096346
The apps aren't worth your self esteem brother

>>77096157
lol yeah, I actually wrote that wrong lmao — llms use them without the spaces I meant. or so I think.

>>77096150
>Enter my now wife. I knew her from a previous job but she was married then
yikes

>>77096171
>but if I make a thing out of it as you are suggesting, I already know it'll just be a no again
hate to break it to you man but if it's a hard no then there's little you can do about it. not saying I wouldn't wish it for you, but this is how it is. again, she knows what you're doing if you keep inching towards it.
it's not my hell to suffer and I was you the best, but think of what I told you here. Honesty goes a long way in a relationship and mindgames & manipulation may have short term rewards, bu ultimately only build resentment and lack of trust. and that's not sexy, not one bit.

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>>77091959
Congrats! You’re crazy strong already and will only grow stronger with time. It took me way longer than 3 months to bench 2pl8

>>77096444
Manipulative of me to try patiently bringing my wife around to enjoying or at least tolerating something I want? Instead of forcing a conversation garaunteed to end in failure or giving up completely? I guess, yeah.

Did you notice how pathetic my life story is? This is what I've got. I'm doing my best to simultaneously respect her boundaries while still expanding them. I want to fuck her ass, dude, not be told no again.

>>77096444
Also, to be clear, she's not fooled. She knows I still want anal - I make the "jokes that aren't really jokes" about it once in a while, and I'm routinely shoving stuff up her butt. Of course she knows! She knows that I know that she knows that etc. She can shut the whole thing down anytime she wants, but she doesn't because she knows I like playing with her ass, and honestly she'd be too mortified to admit it but she enjoys it too.

>>77096261
>>77096419
Also I would recommend you heart rub the relaxing serum on her asshole while you lick her or while she's blowing you. Don't insert, just rub. Let the serum absorb for a few minutes.... THEN insert and you'll be surprised how relaxed it is and she is going to be much more comfortable. Then use regular lube (original Astroglide is the best imo) once she's relaxed.

>>77092576
You’re a strong guy :)

>>77096599
Must be natural strenght i always had, same story for shoulders i hit 1pl8 a month ago standing, and a week later sitting, also helps that i lift as heavy as i uncomfortably can for 5 reps on the "big 4" and spam sets, even if i need to rest for 3 minutes between sets, and then also go for machines as heavy as possible because compounds do not make the "main" muscle group fail as hard as i want it to.
Im learning as i go, and i dont take anything, unless a big coffee and a scoop of creatine count as PEDs

Best part is i am having the time of my life, never had this much fun in years

>>77091959
At what weight did you start?

Love of my life just died in December at 32. He was a very fit and athletic guy 6'4", decent muscle, no more than 15% fat. Was literally Nightwing irl. Natty and still had a heart attack.
My life fell apart, but I want to follow his example and start getting in shape.

I have a 20lb kettlebell a yoga ball and a broken heart.
What can I do? How do I start? Please be gente I'm a very depressed widow.

>>77097579
Push-ups, squats with the kettlebell held up to your chin, and look up different positions to do "dumbbell" rows in until you find one that will work with what you've got. Use the yoga ball to get going on abs.

Zuska Light on YouTube has plenty of amazing content for your setup - go all the way back to her beginning and work "with" her from there. But don't listen to anything she says because she's an absolute idiot.

>>77097579
And I forgot to say, my condolences for your loss. I know you'll do his memory proud.

>>77097579
>no more than 15% fat.
sorry for your loss sweatheart, but are you sure about that? im sure he was lean but most humans especially novices to fitness are bad at estimating body fat percentage, perhaps he was more around 20% ?

>>77072952
>2 weeks ago BPM: 95
>BPM as of today: 65
I've done maybe 30-60 minutes of walking maybe 4x-5x in the past 2 weeks. Crazy how much of a difference cardio makes. Though I feel more depressed. Like my natural state is to be constantly on edge and when I'm not anxious, I wanna KMS.

>>77097624
Now here's the fun thing - it takes even less time to lose your cardio conditioning than it does to gain it.

I’ve done well with my fitness and made some great gains. I look better than ever and I physically feel great. So that’s going well. The rest of my life not so much. I’ve been trying to get a job. Seems like I’ll have an interview next week for a pretty damn great job. But I don’t know. This whole unemployed time I’ve become quite chained to my booze and my weed. I’m a fuckin headcase and those are my vices to numb me out. I really have a hard time fitting in. I’m feeling incredibly stressed about having to enter the real world and be a real person. I know I need to get my shit together. I just don’t know man. I’m really fuckin depressed and anxious. I think I honestly hate myself. I have so much baggage and shit from childhood that still digs at me every day. I just don’t know if I can do it all.

>>77097605
We were long time lurkers here so I'm pretty sure, he gained a bit of fat during his bulking seasons but he was always super lean.
Can't post pictures of him without crying or feeling guilty, even tho I'm sure he would like the mires. I don't want to disrespect his memory.

>>77097658
Hey man, to give yourself the best shot at that interview, feed absolutely every detail you can find about it into a ChatGPT custom GPT, or maybe a gemini gem, and then fire up voice mode and have it interview you. Over and over.

You gotta tell it to be mean.

Actually, now that I'm thinking, there must be some custom GPTs available already designed for doing interviews that you can just prompt your details into.

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>>77096171
Buttman Begins

>>77081004
do something dangerous and the decision will be made for you
climb up one of those radio wave towers and see if you get the urge to jump or not
if you dont then sort your shit out faggot

>>77091495
i had that shit removed when i was 19 and it didnt hurt at all
in fact i started taking the painkillers they prescribed me even though i didnt need them and im still addicted 12+ years later

>>77094749
Form is insanely important, I’ve learned that lesson the hard way as I’ve increased weight. Good for you for improving your form and muscles

>>77096171
Women are a lot smarter when it comes to this than you would think, they can absolutely tell when you're trying to slide around something they said no to. They also appreciate candour far more than most would guess. I know you mentioned that you did ask but a lot of guys who want to do anal or other things try to be sneaky about it without getting shot down first at all, which almost always turns these women off even if they wouldn't have necessarily shot your proposal down if you were more straight with them.

>>77099250
Yeah, I don't know how that would ever work. I've never tried to "sneak" my dick into her ass, and despite all this long term planning to get her used to more and bigger asshole play, I'll still ask permission in the end. In my wildest imaginings of it I'm still asking - her willingness is part of it for me.

As far as her perception of all of it goes, I played with her ass sporadically for years before asking, and I've continued to play with her ass once in a while after. She definitely knows I still want it, though I'm not a broken record about it or forcing another yes/no just yet. If she asks me directly, which she'd die before doing, I'd have no compunction about saying yes, I want to fuck her ass.

The ideal would be for the routine attention I've resolved myself to here to get her over her nervousness or whatever it is about the whole thing and offer it up out of the depths of her love etc etc. Ha. Ha.

So yeah, she has no idea how much of my day to day thought goes into this, but in practice I don't think I'm being sneaky about anything.

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>>77094808
So you’re miserable. Are you going to make any changes to improve your life?

>>77099775
didnt stick betray him

>good weather is finally here
>waging all week went kinda alright
>Feeling kinda good and would love to go to a bar or just have a couple beers with someone
>no friends so I'll be spending the entire weekend on youtube and binge watching the sopranos instead
I'm so fucking tired of being alone all the time yet I don't see a way to change this, I'm at a age where everyone is either married with families or single with large social group.

>try joining a class or hobby
I don't live in a large american or European city with tons of offerings and other loner people.

>>77097579
Sorry for your loss, the death of a loved one is a wave that sinks many ships.

Kettlebell swings is a meme but it works a lot of muscles and can fit with most schedules.
Keep working out WAGMI

>>77097728
Waiting for the sequel: The Dark Hole Gapes

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>>77094965
You’re a catch, champ. WAGMI!

>>77100670
The Dark Cock Rises
(at the thought of going back in)

>>77101093
I like it, but I'm white (see: ski trip). No dark cock.

Funny actually, we're neither of us racist, but early on we did kind of a quick, awkward, "You ever been with a black person? No? Me neither."

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>>77097579
I’m really sorry about your loss. Please give yourself the space necessary to mourn. As far as fitness goes, it’ll give you something to focus on besides grief. Look into kettlebell swings and squats

>>77101843
>Please give yourself the space necessary to mourn
That's it, I'm convinced there are actual ai chatboxbots posting on 4chan.

>>77100414
At least some parts of your life are decent

>>77102030
Parents are great too and I don't live paycheck to paycheck so that's alright, it's mostly my social life that is nonexistent, absolutely pathetic, shameful and depressive.

>>77097658
You need to fake confidence in yourself. Once you get the job, you'll improve your social skills a lot

>>77097579
My condolences, may he rest in peace.
you can get really fit by just taking long, regular walks. 10-15k steps. Yoga and mobility work will make you feel good and is gentle on the body
if you're keen on lifting, follow a simple calisthenics routine. can do some shoulder presses, lat raises, curls and split squats with what you have.
take care of yourself anon. spend some time outdoors and with friends

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I fear I am living life too passively and that I'm afraid that i'm imply existing rather than living.
i have a really good job that i enjoy (chemical engineer), i have a gf, i have my own place, i eat well and exercise regularly.
but apart from work and gym, although it's a healthy structure, i feel like it's really limited. i feel like i should be doing more outside of the work and gym, but whenever i sit down to think about it, nothing really comes to mind.
i do have hobbies and interests, like fashion, wine, perfumes, cinema and literature, but they're either solo activities or just a form of consumption.

what do you guys do to keep your life exciting? what hobbies do you guys enjoy?

>>77102420
>i have a really good job that i enjoy (chemical engineer), i have a gf, i have my own place, i eat well and exercise regularly.
what else do you expect from life? like real talk here. you might have unrealistic expectation at this point. outside of maybe kids thats literally it. most people would kill to have what you have you stupid faggot

Tesst

I failed benching 235 for 5 reps again, but I'll try again next week :) I blame my cortisol levels and poor sleep

>>77102647
If it's been a few fails in a row, maybe a week or two of something for 10?

>>77102658
This has been been my second failure in a row, I'll give it one final shot next week. If not, I'll go return to 4x8

>>77102718
It's not a failure until you give up, etc.

>>77102731
Thanks fren. I'll never give up

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Let's bump this thread