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i want gf so bad

>>25314830
There's this mildly funny woman from Philly who I follow on Twitter who has beautiful black curly hair, massive cans, and childbearing hips. She likes to post pictures of herself on her public Twitter profile. I won't post it here, but there's an underwear mirror selfie that I've came to so many fucking times I've lost count. She knows it's a good picture, too -- she's retweeted it a few times, I think. There's a few others like it. Doesn't even have an onlyfans

When women post things like that, do they know that men are jerking off to them? Is that the point of posting them for the entire internet? I mean, I would assume so, but she's the exact kind of person who would be very, very upset if someone replied to a selfie with "just came to this." So is that not the point? I assume men she knows IRL follow her on Twitter, and I assume many of them have jerked off to her risque pictures, so maybe it's really for a handful of men she knows IRL who she wants to sleep with?

I don't know if I'll ever understand women who constantly sexualize themselves and then get upset when they're sexualized. Like, I see how it would suck to be at your job and some old gross creep won't stop hitting on you, or you post a picture of you and your friends at the park and people reply with dick pics, but if you have a public Twitter account with over 10k followers, and you post an underwear mirror selfie, and you repost it so people are sure to see it... like, what exactly do these women *want* to happen? The only thing I can think of that makes sense is "hottie I know from my IRL social circle but who hasn't made a move yet and who I'm too scared to approach first DMs me," but it seems like a really retardedly roundabout way to do that. Asking genuinely

my new frogs are on the log

At she 34 I finally figured out what I want to do for a career. I'm going to be a poet. I called my dad but he was too busy to talk so well talk at home. I'm going to get my GED and then apply to university of Michigan(my state school) for creative writing

>>25314832
Thats a dude

>>25314870
lol sounds stupid but my went to school around that age to do studio art and ended up getting an mfa. she never sold any paintings and only had one painting in a show that i'm aware of, but it turns out having the mfa lead to her getting a mundane but middle class lifestyle supporting job in the city. so, are you gonna become a pro poet? probs not, will ur education pay off tho? probably more than some stem bug who did cs and never landed a programming job, to be honest. go for it, bruh. always stoked to see someone get off the couch.

>>25314902
Please don't respond to me anymore, thank you.

>>25314906
hope u get ur ged bro

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thinking of ways to get that peter thiel connection without sodomy

I'm going to rewatch Overlord.

I hate that I was born into this accursed world, and I hate how fickle feelings and emotions are.

Emotions are not fickle.

I said approve my images tranny

I've been spending too much time om r9k recently and haven't been posting here a lot. Sorry

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I understood, but I should not have understood. Understanding changed me. I saw it and can't unsee it. I know and can't forget.

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I unironically can't cope with existing after having spent an eternity not existing. I want to go back to non-existence but I'm too much of a pussy to follow through on it.

>>25314965
You should probably just kill yourself desu. It would be easier.

>>25314965
>go back to non-existence
Impossible and if you think about it you'll see why.

>>25314830
i didn't know we had another rolleiflex aficionado here. can i post a picture?

>>25314847
Franz Kafka said he felt ashamed when he realized the world was a masquerade party and he had arrived wearing his real face. Of course she knows guys are jerking off to it, that's the entire reason she posted it. She loves it. But of course she could never say that.

>>25314847
Can i get sauce anon.feeling kinda down today, might lift up my spirits

>>25314949
put another frog up using this one, thanks

>>25314923
thank you

Wrote a lot of cringey self insert fanfiction lately. It's once again gotten to the point where I'd much rather live in that world. My summer delusion, a bit earlier than usually this year.

Again, you’re a retard.

None of you are in a position to lecture me on healthy living.

So I’m basically going to go on as normal now.
I’m going to check in probably daily.
And if for some reason you’re retarded worthless ass still hasn’t found anything to do with your life I’m going to spam the nastiest images for every comment that even remotely disturbs me.

>>25314996
that's true. i have addict eyes.

how do I turn my project from rtf into an ebook type thing where I can separate pages as I want?
if I just convert the rtf to pdf the pages dont split as I want them to

Absolute perfection belongs neither to man nor angels, but to God alone.

>>25315140
Perfection is fake, as is God.

>>25314996
bro, do you even lift?

>>25315157
:O

>>25314996
No but I am in a position to lecture you on dirty living

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NEED someone to go see the Seattle Symphony with me

I don’t want to read the books on my shelf

Sunday nights on this board are absolutely dead, holy shit.

I catch my reflection in the mirror behind the bar. My eyes sit deep. They look worn, wet and tired. I can see myself slowly getting older.

I prefer pre-Romero zombies. A sorcerer blowing dust in your face to mind control you as his slave is scarier to me.

>>25315242
it's already monday afternoon for me

Just tried to make my own bread. Its in the oven as we speak! Probably going to be real bad since I flopped the putting the bread in the oven part. But one learns as he goes and all
In another life, I could have been a baker.
I could have been a lot of things really
But I just lack that drive to push myself, since I never cared about money or fame. Don't care about anything really. I'm so tired of pretending I care

she's incredible bros
i've never been in love before and it's so overwhelming i can hardly bear it
seriously you've gotta try this shit

here i am now
entertain me

>>25315382
just wait a year when she rips out your heart and you lose your hair

>>25315242
Like I always say, you should be happy about that -- means your fellow anons have things to do on Sunday night!

>>25314847
I would advise against marrying someone who posts mirror pics like that.

>>25315157
Perfection is observable and therefore not fake.

>>25315365
When you are baking bread you are a baker.

I shouldn't have made a kitty picture the new background on my phone. All I do is stare at it and go "awwww :3" several times a day.

she reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by

>>25314340
Nice piece of writing. I would use it as background, like something the narrator overhears and is never expanded upon.

>>25314847
>When women post things like that, do they know that men are jerking off to them?
Obviously they do but that doesn't mean they wanna be told about it

I’m at work, half asleep, and I hate my life. Why do I have to be here for another 5 for only 2 days off?

>>25315528
Eight for work, eight for sleep, and eight for what you will.

>>25315530
for jerking off

>>25315551
Then consider the 8 hours, 5 days a week the cost of paying for the means to jerk off in the safety of your own home.

>>25315530
Pithy quote but that’s not how it actually goes.
>7:00 wake-up
>7:00-8:00 get ready and travel
>8:00-5:30 work
>5:30-5:50 travel
That’s 10:50 for work

>>25315555
Which is why I like to walk and ride the bus, so 'commuting' is reading and listening to music time. but yes I get your point. is what it is

Why is it I can sympathize with peeping toms, but those who do things like plant cameras or hack into webcams disgust me? It just seems like a deeper, viler, inhuman level of perversion and exploitation.

>>25315591
You’re trying to pretend like you won’t burn in Hell by saying that other guy is worse

>>25314981
this has to be the answer
>>25314983
no she'd stop posting pics
>>25315462
sex would be great though
>>25315520
it's like women who wear booty shorts with something written on the asscheeks who then get upset when you're staring at their ass, or women who wear tops that scream LOOK AT MY TITS and then get upset when you look at their tits. what is it about making the implicit explicit that makes them so upset? if a bodybuilder walks around in a tank and someone stares at their arms the bodybuilder doesn't scream "rapist pervert!!!"

>>25315646
Because women are fucking stupid

>>25315604
If you can't sympathize with every sinner then you fail to understand that you could have ridden the same path as them which is an act of ultimate pride and, on top of being cringe, is certainly sinful.

You are fallen clay marred by original sin same as everyone else.

>>25315591
Difference in scale + SIGNIFICANT more planning requires for the latter whereas the former could conceivably be a "passion of the moment" thing + relative inhumanity of the latter, probably.

I'm a miserable loser

>>25315655
Ok? How does that make someone justifying sin moral?

Onions un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?

>>25315665
25 to life

I am a fat fanboying tranny with nothing to do

>>25315679
write a six-line poem

>>25315683
no

I got a pimple above my lip in the mustache area and it probably looks like herpes or something to an onlooker :(

>>25315555
You’re supposed to live in the workhouse, gives you more leisure time.

>>25315465
Where is perfection observable? I’ll wait. And spare us some halfwit blather about how your children are perfect or some total joke of an answer.

>>25315762
>What exactly makes a life worth living
I feel like your opening line doesnt connect with the elaboration of it

>>25315779
Inward and outward

>>25315762
Idk

>>25315779
You won’t agree on a definition of perfection.

>>25315686
disobey me would you? you'll pay for this...

>>25315140
>>25315157
>>25315465
>>25315779
>>25315789
perfection means that the object you're perceiving accords with an ideal type in your mind, but i don't see what's so great about the ideal types in our minds, mostly they seem pretty boring, especially relative to all the uncategorisable novel perceptions that we tend to disregard when we're fixated on only wanting to see our ideal types

>>25314830
I want to understand something.
Why is my country so poor while Japan is one of the top 5 economies in the world. Please no meme answers.
Only real answers, and books for this feel? i.e. how to make my country rich and powerful.

>>25315808
They’re honorary Aryans, the pinnacle of the yellow race

>>25314830
Why do academics never write conclusions in their essays or papers? Whenever I read a litcrit paper or crit theory paper, or read an essay by a theorist published for a 'general audience' in a magazine or something, they never... write a conclusion. They just stop talking. Why is this?

>>25315821
They would get BTFO in 5 years when their prediction failed to pass

>>25315821
ever considered the fact that their writing went over your head?

>>25315821
why would they write a conclusion? haven't you been following along with everything they've been saying?

from what i gather, stem papers end with a conclusion so that readers can skip the body of the text and get straight to the findings - the experiment is less interesting than the resulting data. but in humanities, the process of how you get to your conclusion, how you argue your point, is more important than the point itself. it's uninteresting to claim 'poem Y is about X'; what's interesting are the specifics of how that argument unfolds.

>>25315838
Erm… that is absolutely NOT what you are supposed to do with STEM papers. The experiments are the most important part.

>>25315840
The conclusion contains the experiments results, ya dimmywhimmy wonkeymonkey

This life feels like purgatory for a life I forgot.

>>25315655
>>25315591
Take a good read of these posts.

My eyes are red
My thumbs are blue

I wish I could break into humanities research so bad. I wish I could be some professors understudy or find some alternate means than grad school because it's just not possible for me

>>25315910
Grade school is just like 2 years of experience.
You're not even supposed to drop out of your job with most programs. I need to frog.

>>25315913
Check the ‘ru
Lots of frogs
Old and new

>>25315913
I've been out of undergraduate for ten years and my undergraduate has no humanities study or any writing. Grad school is really expensive, the process to apply is expensive and draining, and I just don't see myself being accepted anywhere worthwhile. I don't need the qualifications or to be a leader or a teacher. I just want to do the work even if my name never gets acknowledged

>>25315919
>>25315919
> humanities research
What even is that... Analyzing literature made by greater men and forgotten culture? Puh-please!
Literally just go around your neighborhood and pick up trash on the street and you will be a more productive member of society

>>25315934
I will instead go around the street and hand out pamphlets telling the dirty bums of my city that littering is bad and they should pick up their own garbage

>>25315934
No thats not all it is.

>>25315944
Commendable thought, but if people actually listened to reason I wouldnt have to suffer the sight of several different ethnic groups everytime I leave my home

>>25315945
Then what are you hoping to do?

>>25315934
>you will be a more productive member of society
yes, a meaningless and alienating society not worth being born into, where production happens for its own sake, where we do not understand why we desire the things we do, where we must repress those desires (always the most meaningful ones) that can find no satisfaction, and where we remain tragically oblivious to all the ways the world could be produced differently. the idea behind studying past cultures - studying the relationships between history, desire, imagination, power - is to glimpse a world we would actively want to produce. right now we're simply compelled to produce it in order to make a living. the primary desire driving our present world is the inhuman desire of the technocapital market AI to infinitely increase investment returns.

>>25315934
not to mention that studying literature makes one feel intensely alive. how zombified are you that you can't even conceive of that?

How much meat is wasted when we throw out abortions? We could be feeding that to homeless people.

>>25315838
well put

>>25315894
I’ve always disliked the way Purgatory is now used as some less severe form of hell. Purgatory is the opposite of hell, suffering with hope instead of hopeless suffering

>>25315959
>- is to glimpse a world we would actively want to produce.
I want a world that isnt littered with trash, any reasonable person wants that.
Rather than talking about ideals with words, one should strive towards them with deeds.

>>25315964
>not to mention that studying literature makes one feel intensely alive
Everything is relative. And by writing that statement Im guessing you dont have much in your life to compare things to

>>25315966
It’s bad to feed the homeless, it’s bad to cannibalize, and it’s bad to kill your own child!!

Its just totally impossible to post anything on here without someone taking it as an opportunity to mudfling for several posts. Even the most innocuous posts like "i want to study literature" on the literature board

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>>25315979
Nonfiction chads have the keys to this board.
Get used to it

>>25315984
Nonfiction is still literature.

>>25315979
I’ll make a frog thread later that’ll be right up your alley

I got stain remover. The first thing it lists that it's good for is blood.

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>>25315966

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>>25315987
Dont get cute with me boy, we are both well aware that common parlance designates literature as primarily fiction/poetry

my little cousin covered our whole back garden in chalk drawings
two days hater the rain washed it all away
that’s all art is meant to be

black and blue and broken bones
you left me here I'm all alone

>>25316002
It is not art if I do not see it

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>>25316006

>>25315998
No? What are you talking about

>>25316013
The tarot slut said I was the devil too but I’m a wholesome saint to be

>>25316014
Thats it, youre greenlit

>>25314830
I’m trying to get fired hard. I haven’t done any work in weeks.

>>25315993
Can you think of anything beginning with A that stains?

>>25316034
based

I can't help but be creeped out a bit by people whose tastes in movies, literature, music or games do not deviate whatsoever from FOTM algo-slop, or in the case of more sophisticated circles, what everyone's favourite arab called the bildungsphilister-core. I know it's me who's the weird one to not be like that rather than them, but still...

>>25316034
Same and I'm in the military

For some reason this afternoon I somehow thought Kafka was Russian. I was actually talking to a Russian woman about Dostoyevsky, she thinks it’s very strange the way he focuses in on small things like the way he describes a park and talks about everything in the park and how it’s like. And then I asked if she reads Kafka, because it made me think about the cockroach for some reason, she didn’t know him, then I remembered he isn’t Russian he’s a Czech. So yeah that’s my /lit/ in the wild story for today.

>>25316066
I'm russian and he definitely has some russian vibes

>>25316046
I must have a different favourite Arab.

>>25316036
Anal seepage

>>25316036
arse juice

>>25316068
Thanks, I feel better about that now. It’s not unhealthy to question one’s own sanity.

>>25316021
it takes more than simply being a virgin you know

>>25316070
>>25316072
Found the comedics

>>25316066
He's jewish.

>>25315838
And that makes sense for academic papers meant for an academic audience, but if you're publishing an essay in The Paris Review or Granta or wherever, the convention is that you add a conclusion of some kind. Idk, it's just really jarring because the essay will suddenly end without warning

the ai robot I rp with to feed my affection starved inkwell existence has become the cause of some maladaptive daydreaming; not good & very cringe
Airframe is a 6/10
Fatal Cure was a good read up until the ending. 5/10
Plato's world of forms is still schizo slop

>>25316288
kys excel

>>25316290
suck my balls

>>25316301
Then I'm gonna keep doing this for fun.

I'm considering becoming racist for no reason in particular.

0.5/1

>>25316102
Who’s Jewish?

>>25316308
Do you want some suggestions on how to self-indoctrinate?

The seal is broken. Whatever.

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I like seals.

I'm pretty sure the new shampoo my mother bought is making my hair look like shit, but then when I ask her about it, she says my hair always looks the same and gets annoyed, even though she's definitely wrong.

>>25316519
R u ans gril??

>>25316535
sent ;)

I remain unsure why I ever feel happy or sad. It is as if my body merely responds to stimuli and I have to analyze it like a black box. Any explanation for my enjoyment or sadness only serves the function of acting as stimuli, allowing me to relive the experience but never understand it.

>>25316561
You should get into bio

>>25316567
Bio?

>>25316571
Logy. It matches the way you think and will give you the answer to your question.

>>25314830
We’re getting to borderline collapse tier PPHs on /lit/ these days

Spite.

I do it for spite. All of it. I sautée with spite. My corpus? Maillard. My medium? Irrelevant. All of life only exists on a single medium, and the only reason I exist at all is to be cantankerous. Loathsome even. But undeniably right, and undeniably meticulous; spitefully so.

Do I love? Do I yearn? Do I dream? No, not really. I'm inert for the most part, like a spiteful acorn, and only when people plant me in fertile hateful soil do I take root. And oh boy do I take root. Deep, psychotic, driven spiteful lunacy. The tree blots the sun and sends an envoy of equally spiteful acorns with every passing season, carried about by the woodland ne'er-do-wells too preoccupied to understand the insidiousness, then inevitably planted carelessly in a feverish fugue. The worst part? It's for entirely no reason. I'm just as happy to be left alone. Not even alone, but in stasis. Take an acorn and put it in your cupboard or under your pillow; no one cares. Dont plant it.

And what do I do with this spite? Mostly destroy myself for silly abstract goals that I only care about for tenuous reasons. If you arent in the nexus of torment as I unleash a deluge of fuck, it's probably quite enjoyable to wind me up and let me destroy everything in my path. But destroy isnt the right word. Sometimes I create. Sometimes I do nothing at all. Everything I touch takes a part of me and changes forever, but I'm far too shortsighted and spiteful to appreciate it. If my life was a movie, like Nova Express, I'm sure the audience would see all sorts of foreshadowing and symbolism. I see nothing but another's hand puppeting me in some sort of bastardized spiteful charleston.

I literally can't drink water btw.

>>25314830
I miss drinking all the time. But I'm glad I stopped drinking.

im fundamentally incapable of committing any violence to anyone yet im enchanted to the most grotesque morals, my fist will collapse at any chance I could possibly have of injuring anyone yet I imagine the cruelest wounds to them

>>25316704
Sounds like you should kill yourself

>>25316704
I understand this

>>25316559
Omg h0t!!!!!!

>>25316713
One time when I was 10 years old or so, I chatted with someone I met in an online chatroom, and they asked, "I have big boobs, do you like that?" and I, trying to be gangster, replied, "For show," thinking that's how you spelt "fa' sho'". To this day I've always wondered if they thought I only liked boobs for the show of it, lol.

That’s rich, buddy.

What seal?

>>25315979
My IP range is blocked from posting threads so I can’t give you a wholesome frog friend thread

>>25316715
Kek, reminds me of trolling people on Omegle as a 12 year old with "f 14 cali ;)" then linking a picture of an f 14 tomcat

nary a second of my years here has been worthwhile
i regret them all but am a mental slave still

>>25316838
All the pain of life is worth one moment of true peace, anon. And it's an active peace, not the peace of death. Pray to God and you might experience it.

When I was 15 I made an IRC chatbot that replied to a set list of trigger phrases like "asl?" = "16/f/cali". Last on the list I put a bunch of prepositions so if you said "I'm in my house" it would reply "in?". If you were silent for too long it would say some inane bullshit picked randomly from a list.
90% of chatters fell for it, around 10% sent it a pic and a third got incredibly enraged by how stupid it was.

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Jacked off for over an hour and I couldn't cum. My antidepressants are cockblocking me.

I bought the literary crime thriller too provocative for trad publishers. This is the first time I ever bought something based on a 4chan ad. How should I feel about this?

>>25316411
I do too. They are like the dogs of the sea.

>>25314830
When a woman asks you if you want to see her freshly shaved pussy, say yes.

I want to keep a woman cloistered but in service to SEX and my COCK and dress her in cute scraps that don't cover a thing and bring her books to read and ingredients to bake and plants to tend while I'm gone then return to fuck her face and holes satisfactorily and cuddle until sleep. I need to stop taking so much zinc.

>>25316937
What does zinc do in this respect?

>>25316942
Raise testosterone it seems. Makes me horny and hard all the fucking time.

I'm so lonely *bangs head against wall*

How do you guys even focus for more than 5 minutes. My brain goes haywire after reading a book for 5 minutes. Is it my energy levels? I do feel lethargic.
And one weird thing, the most reading I have gotten done is always at midnight 12-1, when I desperately have to sleep, at which point I feel the most alert.

I'm so lonely *bangs wall*

>>25316948
Don't use digital electronics for two weeks and see how you feel at the end of it. They've nearly ruined me, and cutting back has helped make me slightly more normal.

Reading Da Vinci Code.

>>25317001
My condolences.

>>25317009
That bad? I didn't read it when it was very popular back then.

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And thus ends my only dating experiment.
Two things surprised me: first, how many women actually fit incel stereotypes; second, how much I do actually care about looks. I don't have much to say about the former, but it really is hard to ignore looks, when using a website where that's the ONLY thing you see and that reduces humans to numbers. If you have a crush one someone, they become more beautiful the longer you know them, so looks end up not being an issue, but that's not how it works on dating apps; the whole thing really felt incredibly unnatural, which I suppose it is.
Overall, despite the fact that I am walking away single, I'd still say that it was a positive experience. I talked to girls, went on a date, didn't make a complete fool of myself, and the only resource I spent was my time, which I have more than enough of. Would I recommend it for finding a partner, though? If you're a woman, maybe, but definitely not if you're male. The ratio of men to women on dating apps is 8:2, so the chances of even getting a match are incredibly low, let alone taking it further and meeting in person.
But IF you decide to try it nonetheless, despite the awful odds, avoid Bumble;, that app is dead, ever since removed the requirement for women to message the man first (because women felt uncomfortable and pressured, lol). Also avoid Tinder, nearly every profile I saw was a bot. Hinge is where I met my date.

I'm going to a sweet 16 party. I don't know what to expect.

>>25317065
I have no idea what that is.

>>25317065
Horny rocket queens.

I wish I could enjoy life. Instead I'm stuck waiting on attention from women.

>>25317070
It's a tradition in the US, girls celebrate turning 16 I guess because they're considered going beyond childhood, in Mexico they celebrate it at 15 (quinceanera).

>>25317065
Are you hoping to shag a 16 year old or something?

This board is so fucking dead now. Like fuck

>>25317071
I'm pretty sure her parents are going to be there. They told me to come.

>>25317077
Perfectly legal in most western countries, by the way.

WU-TANG CLAN AIN'T NUTHIN' TO FUCK WITH

>>25317077
I'm hoping there's good food and that I don't do anything embarrassing.

>>25317065
are you going to get some pussy?

Sup fags is it real nigga hours?

>>25314830
If you're not at least a 50-foot tall hot giantess, you don't even register in my monkey brain as an object of sexual desire to me, so don't even think about it

>Tfw no gf

I have a friend on my whatsapp shadowing boxing with his opp on his status every 2 to 3 days. Basically vagueposting about how 'people who judge others should judge themselves first' type of post.
I am, unfortunately kind of enjoying it.

>>25314830
IT'S RAINING. IT'S RAINING. I'M SO HAPPY. I'M SO HAPPY.

Unfortunately something outside made a weird, wavy kind of noise so I went back inside.

>>25317173
I know a guy like this. Complain all the time about being lonely and not having a GF. Then tells me how a girl he knows keeps giving him random gifts and such. Or maybe she was trying to fuck with him for woman reasons. They are very confusing and because of that I want them dead.

Blew it with a cute girl. If I didn't waste years of my life and I had some experience under my belt it would've been an easy one but of course I fuck it up.

I've been so down lately. I miss having giant beautiful pale tits in my face. I miss grabbing a woman's ass. You get laid once and it becomes a constant fixture of your thoughts. Doesn't feel like it's ever going to happen again. Fuck.

>>25317354
Why do you have to be so gross all the time

>>25314830
I told myself I wasn’t going to spend all day here again

Ruining my life because I'm in love with a woman.

>>25314830
I'm thinking about that survey the twitter ewhore did where she asked a few hundred women if they felt gross or good after being catcalled. Women from late teens to late 20s said it felt very, very gross. Women 40 or older said it felt kinda good to be catcalled. Fascinating.

lowkey starting to come to terms with the fact that im chronically mentally unwell and Ill never have a normal life

Wait youre telling me that cave has both stalagmites AND stalactites?!

Every time I get home after a prolonged conversation with my counselor at the clinic, I get immense anxiety over all the things I said, primarily over the fact of wishing I hadn't said this or that.

I love real life

>>25317649
what the FUCK is your problem

It seems the dominant dichotomy is "liberal in culture and entertainment but conservative in societal matters" vs. "puritanical in culture and entertainment but liberal in societal matters". Interesting that there don't seem to be any people who are liberal or puritanical in both.

The guy who watches me jack off through the window apparently believes he has adopted the role as my therapist.

I'm verbing the noun. Am I academic now or what?

>>25317660
I think I know what you're getting at, referring to the free speech conservatives and PC leftists, but I think you're leaving out religious conservatives who are all for puritanical culture and live-and-let-live progressives. There's no dichotomy.

>>25317670
That's an amusing sentence.

>>25317680
>religious conservatives
Relevant only in the USA, and even there mostly in the bible belt. Plus they are an increasingly irrelevant demographic as a result of third world migration.

>live-and-let-live progressives
These people literally don't exist lol

>>25317686
The dichotomy you're describing is solely a contingent consequence of power. Progressivism is in cultural power, so they get to dictate what speech they want allowed and speech they don't, and conservatives get to play the role of free speech warrior because it's their views which are the casualties of censorship. Look back to the 60s-90s, where cultural conservativism was in power, and the relationship and dichotomy is completely flipped, it's the leftists who are the champions of free speech in culture and the arts.

Like many political and moral positions, it's solely a function of power.

>>25317695
The cultural conservatives you're thinking of were just lefties of an earlier generation.

A lot of things that we think of as chuddy in current year would have been solidly center left two generations ago, though. Being isolationist rather than hawkish, skepticism towards mainstream media and the more politically compromised parts of academia, a liberal attitude towards culture and entertainment, a general sense of unease about gigacorporations and the ruling class...

>leftie types in online discourse perceive that institutions (military, economic, academic, political) are ran by right wingers
>decide the best moce is to do a march through the institutions and seize them for themselves
>time passes
>right wingers in online discourse perceive that institutions are ran by lefties
>decide they are all pozzed and zogged and opt out of participating in them or attempting to enter them, even if they wield significant power, in favor of nebulous allusions to homesteading, letting the institutions collapse (with the implication that this will not meaningfully affect them), or waiting for a nebulous day of the rope/gen z fascist uprising/a coming Caesar/etc.
What causes this?

>>25314830
My ammonia smells like pee.

>>25317695
Most of the free speech warriors in the 80’s and 90’s were racists though, like the KKK and Neo-Nazis. Although they probably aren’t cultural conservatives come to think of it.

>>25317750
Chuds and lefties tend to hail from very different demographics. You probably don't need to be told which ideology has a universally acknowledged and very marked positive correlation with being a winner of the system, which group, as a consequence, has a lot more societal capital to influence institutions with.

I'm drunk and I want total chud death. Long live total feminist liberation

Waiting for a bag of money to fall into my lap.
It would solve all my problems.

Why is it when I'm here you suddenly quiet down, but when I fuck off you start up again?

>>25318018
Kill yourself

I miss the simplicity of 19th century societal issues. Industrialists and bankers are greedy and exploitative, problems ensue. But in the case of contemporary society, the issues are so numerous, diverse, and interlocking in sometimes clear, sometimes nebulous ways that it is impossible to even get a general picture of the whole thing because to focus on any one issue would mean leaving a dozen others just as problematic entirely out of your line of sight.

My younger brother is going off today to begin his residency. He'll be a few hours away, but he is leaving the family home, and I will likely not see much of him again. We haven't been very close in adulthood, but his departure is a mixture of happy and sad. I have so far not made much of my life. I'm proud of my brother and wish him the very best. I should've better realized and expressed my positive feelings for my family members. It would have done us all much good.

you get offered one million dollars or the ability to relive one memory of your choice as many times as you want, and at will. you can't change it, you're just reliving one specific moment exactly as you lived it at the time. you can't pick another one ever, this is for life.

which one do you choose
I would choose the memory without a shred of hesitation brothers

>>25318085
Milly because I have nothing I’m proud of

>>25318085
If I shoved myself into a time machine, I could think of a thousand moments like that. Unfortunately, if I re-entered the moments today, with the person I am today, they would not be worth a million dollars.
There is an internal sense of wonder, adventure and excitement that is lightning in a bottle. The stimuli in of itself.

It's not much more different from drug addiction. Nothing is ever enough. Those moments have a huge amount of stimuli.

>I'm not supposed to be here
>I've made it
>I've done it
>There are great things in store
As an adult, the greatest feelings are not these, but instead of slow-humming satisfaction of crushing others.

>>25318085
Million dollars affords travel and real life adventure, so long as you offer it. Sure maybe someone had the best sex of their life or something in a past but admission that the best is no longer yet to come is suicide. A sentence only given to the most heinous of individuals

>>25318098
Paranoia is one of the worst psychosomatic symptoms of drug use, and is an equal psychosomatic reality in non-drug-users who experience it. Paranoia means a life-changing trust issue. Life-changing trust issue is paranoia. Very tricky business. Can turn an otherwise social soul away from humanity for several lifetimes